ChocoMintandRock, Jadiee, What do u need me 4, LittleMissVictorious, NeonLovesYou, Sshaw101, Xxxx4evaSummerxxxx, ImNotThomas: Thanks for the reviews guys :) Keep reviewing :) Let's see how long we can make this whole story, huh? Anybody have any suggestions? Songs wise. All BeckXCat though and I make up the storyline. But anybody wants to shout out a song? Depressing, happiness, angst, sad, whatever. Just make sure I can find the lyrics on AZLyrics, since that's the only place I get my lyrics, lol. ANYWHOO, I'll be updating Forever & Always in a bit…I have to give Nathaniel a bath before I put him to bed :)

QUICK QUESTION: Three or four…or something of my stories has been nominated for this Topaz Awards…my question is: What the bloody heck are the Topaz Awards and how do they work? I'm lost.


Lonely Girl

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Beck, Cat, Tori, Jade, Andre, and Robbie were sitting at their usual table during their lunch hour, laughing about something said in Sikowitz's class the day before. "And then-" Andre was interrupted by the bell's annoying sound.

Cat squealed. "The bell sang!"

"Do you always have to yell that out?" Robbie asked as he put his bag over his shoulder. He noticed Beck's glare and gulped. "Nevermind."

Tori laughed. "Come on, guys, let's head to class." She began walking away, Andre and Robbie behind her.

Beck and Cat joined hands and were leaving before Jade cleared her throat. "Um, Beck, I need to talk to you real quick." She said in a nervous tone. "And alone."

Cat bit her lip and she looked up to Beck, and forced a smile. "I'll see you in class."

Beck was shocked that his girlfriend of 10 months understood about him talking to his ex-girlfriend alone, but nodded. "Alright, see you." They gave each other a peck on the lips and Cat walked away. Beck turned to Jade, who had her arms crossed and looked irritated. "What do you want?"

As Cat walked away, she turned into the hallway that led to her next classroom. Suddenly, a hand grabbed her mouth to prevent her to scream. "It's just us, Cat!" Robbie whispered as he tightened his hold on her mouth.

Cat nodded, indicating she wouldn't freak. Robbie let go and she exhaled. "You scared me."

Tori and Andre looked to her. "Sshh, we're trying to hear!" Tori whispered loudly.

"But- but that's invasion of-"

"Cat, you aren't the least bit concerned of why Jade wanted to talk to Beck alone?" Robbie asked her, his arms crossed like Jade's was.

"It's none of my business." Cat shrugged.

Tori looked very interested as she strained her neck to peek to the Ex-couple. "They're arguing."

Cat sighed. "Can I go now? Beck wouldn't be very happy-"

"Oh, snap!" Andre whispered with wide eyes, staring at Beck and Jade. Tori suddenly had the same expression.

Robbie and Cat looked to one another and moved closer to see what happened. Cat gasped.

Jade had her hands gripped in Beck's hair as she pulled him closer to her, their lips harshly connected. Beck's hands were open, like he didn't want it.

Cat was shaking. "Push her away, Beck…push her away…push her away…please." She begged quietly. And Beck did the one thing she thought and prayed he wouldn't do…he put his hands on her hips to steady them. Cat shook her head and rubbed her lips together in frustration, and walked back down the hallway.

Tori was concerned. "Cat, wait!" But Cat opened a classroom door and walked in. They knew that was her next class. "Oh man!"

Andre groaned. "Now Cat saw that, what-"

"Cat saw what?" The three jumped two feet in the air and turned to their brown wild haired friend, who looked angry. When they didn't answer him, Beck grabbed Robbie's shirt collar and pulled him closer with a threatening look. "What's wrong with Cat?"

Robbie glared and pushed Beck away. "She saw you making out with Jade, that's what!"

Jade gasped from behind Beck. "Cat did?" She paled. "What have I done?"

Tori stared at her in disbelief. "Why did you kiss Beck in the first place, Jade? You're the one that dumped him almost a year ago!"

"How could you guys betray Cat like this?" Andre asked with disappointment.

Beck suddenly growled and punched the nearest locker, making a dent. "No!" He slid down the locker and groaned. "I hurt her…I hurt her…"

"Yeah, you did, but when class ends and she comes out, you need to make up for this." Andre said in a serious tone. "I know you love the girl, so you can't let her walk away."

Beck had his fists clenched. "Yeah, I know."

Tori smacked Andre's arm. "Are you insane?" She glared to Beck. "He kissed another girl after his girlfriend of 10 months was giving him enough trust to stay behind with his EX-girlfriend, who just so happened to be her best friend!" She motioned to Jade, who was alone with her thoughts. "He shouldn't be allowed to date Cat anymore!"

"It's my fault though." Jade told Tori in a deep voice. "I'm the one who jumped on him and forced him to kiss me."

Tori ignored her and continued to stare at Beck. "But when Jade did that, Cat seemed to have some hope left. You know what she was saying while that was happening? Hmm?"

Andre put his hand on Tori's shoulder. "Tori, don't-"

Tori shoved his hand off. "She kept repeating "Push her away, Beck…push her away…" over and over…but then she saw you put your hands on her and that was it!" Tori dramatically threw her arms up in the air. "You're screwed!"

Beck held his head in his hands and whimpered. "She'll never forgive me."

"Nope." Tori simply said. She fixed the hold she had on her backpack and walked away.

Andre leaned down to Beck's level. "Maybe she will though."

Beck gave out a dry laugh and looked up to Andre. "I doubt that will happen." Beck shook his head, looking away. "If you saw your girlfriend, who you loved deeply, making out with her Ex, you would forgive her?"

Andre frowned and stood back up.

"That's what I thought." Beck commented as he stood up and grabbed his backpack from the ground. "I have to get to class." Before Andre could answer, Beck walked away to the classroom opposite of the room Cat entered.

Around 8pm, Beck was studying for an exam in his RV, with his stereo going. He would've had his iPod on, but he wanted to make sure he still heard a knock on the door if Cat suddenly showed up. He doubted it. Beck went over to Cat's home after school, but her mother said that she went straight to bed when they arrived home, and she didn't want to disturb her. So Beck decided to leave her alone for a few hours. He called and texted around 6pm to now and has gotten no answer.

Frustrated and unable to concentrate, Beck grabbed his book from his lap and violently threw it against the wall and watched it fall to the floor.

The door suddenly opened and Beck stood up and straightened himself out in case it was Cat. Unfortunately it was Jade, Tori, Andre, and Robbie. "Look, guys, I don't-"

Tori shook her head, tears threatening to fall. "Cat's not here?"

Beck motioned to his RV. "Does it look like she is?"

Andre groaned and sat on Beck's bed, holding his head in his hands. "Cat's missing, man."

Beck's eyes went wide and he put a hand to his heart that stopped beating for a millisecond. He gripped his fish-tank to keep balance. "That's not funny." He growled out, glaring at them. "You guys know you can't say things like that to me."

"Well, get over it!" Jade snapped, worried sick about her friend. "I went over to Cat's house, and ironically, Tori and the boys were there too already talking to her mom." Jade shook her head, putting her arms around herself. "Cat left the house after her dad yelled at her, and now she's not answering ANYBODY's calls."

"How long ago did she leave?" Beck asked, trying to grasp the situation.

"Her mom said that she heard Cat leave around 5." Tori pulled out her phone and groaned. "And it's almost 8:30."

Beck collapsed on his couch, trying to steady his breathing. "I…I…this can't be happening."

Robbie sighed, walking to him a bit. "Cat's mother said that if Cat isn't found by tomorrow night, they're going to call the police."

Beck looked to him. "Tomorrow night? They're going to wait that long?"

"Yup." Tori looked annoyed suddenly. "Her dad was in the living room, drinking a half-empty bottle of Vodka, yelling that Cat could "rot in hell" for all he cared."

Beck rolled his eyes. "That's not really a shock there." He stood up, grabbing his jacket and keys. "I'm going to look for her."

Andre, Tori, and Jade held up their own car keys. "Let's split up to different parts of town." Andre suggested.

"I've agreed to check all the bus stations and train stations." Beck glared at Robbie, who cowered. "You never know…"

Beck shook his head. "Cat wouldn't run away."

"It's for just in case purposes-" Robbie tried to defend himself.

"She wouldn't run away!" Beck snapped. "Why don't you take the public bus and looked around each bus stop?"

Robbie nodded. "Yeah, that sounds like a better plan."

"Okay, does everyone have Cat's school picture in their wallet still?" Andre asked everyone, taking his wallet out and showing them Cat's recent school picture. After they had their senior pictures taken last summer, Cat gave everyone a wallet size of hers so "just in case they ever hit their head and attained amnesia" they wouldn't forget her. But really, who can forget Cat Valentine? Everybody took out their wallets as well and brought out the same exact picture. "Cool, so if we run into people, let's just ask them if they've seen her by showing her picture."

Tori nodded, holding Cat's picture close to her. "Good idea."

"Alright, let's move." Beck said in an exhausted tone and was the first one out. Once they all were out, he locked the RV and went to his car, but Jade grabbed his arm. Before she could say anything, he gently made her let go. "No, Jade." He shook his head. "Don't touch me. Never again. I'm sorry, but…it's Cat." He looked at the picture in his hand. "It's Cat from now on. No one else, and that includes you. Cat's my number one girl and always will be."

Jade nodded quickly. "I know, but I just want to say that I'm sorry and I hope she takes you back. You both belong together." With that, she gripped her own picture of Cat and walked to her car.

Beck walked to his car and kissed Cat's face on the picture before starting it.

...

Midnight finally came, and Beck wasn't having any luck. He was continuously calling one of the others, asking if they've found her, but nothing. Finally, after receiving nothing from Robbie, Beck threw his phone onto the passenger seat in frustration. "Come on, Cat, where are you?" Something dawned in Beck's mind and he swerved to the side of the road and did a dangerous U-turn, before speeding off once again.

He finally made it to the place he just KNEW Cat would be. She brought him to this place once and said that this is where she went to think about things or to get away from her dad. He skidded to a stop and jumped out. Before he could continue down the grassy path, he heard her voice under the quiet bridge above their heads. He peeked from behind a panel and watched Cat strum on her guitar that her uncle bought her a few months ago. Cat had been teaching herself and getting lessons ever sense. The song she was singing broke his heart.

"I can remember the very first time I cried
How I wiped my eyes and buried the pain inside
All of my memories - good and bad - that's past
Didn't even take the time to realize…"
Cat paused and sobbed, but kept strumming."Starin' at the cracks in the walls
Cuz I'm waiting for it all to come to an end
Still I curl up right under the bed
Cuz its takin' over my head all over again…"
She began strumming a bit more rough than a normal guitar should take."Do you even know who you are?
I guess I'm tryin' to find
A borrowed dream or a superstar?
I want to be a star
Is life good to you or is it bad?
I can't tell anymore
Do you even know what you have?"
She softened her touch on the strings as she sighed, but kept singing. Beck could've cried at how much she sounded so sad. "Lyin' awake watchin' the sunlight
How the birds will sing as I count the rings
around my eyes
Constantly pushing the world I know aside
I don't even feel the pain, I don't even want to
try…I'm lookin' for a way to become
The person that I dreamt of when I was sixteen
Oh, nothin' is ever enough
Ooh, baby, it ain't enough for what it may seem…"
Cat harshly speeded up her strumming once again."Do you even know who you are?
I'm still tryin' to find
A borrowed dream or a superstar?
Everybody wants to be
Is life good to you or is it bad?
I can't tell anymore
Do you even know what you have?
No…"
And again, she softened the speed and sound. Her voice went high pitched and sounded fragile. "Sorry girl, tell a tale for me
Cuz I'm wondering how you really feel…"
Cat let a few tears out as she breathed deeply, trying to keep going. She kept her strumming up."I'm a lonely girl, I'll tell a tale for you
Cuz I'm just tryin' to make all my dreams come
true…"
Another time of speeding up the tempo."Do you even know who you are?
Oh, yeah, yeah
A borrowed dream or a superstar?
Oh, I wanted to be a star
Is life good to you or is it bad?
I can't tell, I can't tell anymore
Do you even know what you have?
I guess not, oh I guess not…"
Beck slowly and quietly continued his way down to her, as she was leaning against the stone wall that helped keep the bridge up in place. His own tears were threatening to fall."Do you even know who you are?
Oh, I'm tryin' to find
A rising dream or a superstar?
Oh, I have all these dreams
Is life good to you or is it bad?
I can't tell anymore
Do you even know what you have?
No, no
Do you even know what you are?
A rising dream or a fallen star?
Is life good to you or is it bad?"

And she soon calmed the music down and stopped. She closed her notebook that she had the song written in and steadied her guitar against the wall. She placed that on her left side, and patted the dirty ground next to her on the right. "Come and sit, Beck." She called out in a dull voice.

Beck didn't seem too surprised that she knew he was there. They had a bond when they were close enough.

That was love.

Beck quickly made his way to her without stepping in mud or trip over something. Once he was there, he cautiously sat down to where she originally was motioning to. He made sure they were pretty close, and touching. It did shock him, though, when she reached her hand out for his. He immediately took her hand into his and kissed it.

"I was wondering what was taking you so long." She said in a small, timid voice. "But I kept reminding myself you weren't psychic."

"I didn't even know you were missing until around 9." Beck said in a raspy voice. "Tori, Andre, Robbie, and- um, well, they came over to talk to you, but your mom-"

"I get it, don't worry." Cat giggled a little.

Beck sighed deeply, keeping her hand close to his face. "You had me so worried…I thought I was having a heart attack when I heard."

Cat looked over to him and leaned her head on his arm. "I didn't want to worry you, or anyone else. I couldn't be there anymore. At least, not tonight. I was going to go home once I knew my parents were asleep."

"Does this happen often?" Beck asked her, staring at her pained face.

"Which part? The part of my dad yelling at me, or the running away for a few hours part?"

Beck gave her hand a squeeze. "The "running away" one."

Cat shrugged. "I haven't runaway like this in 10 months." Beck's eyes widened. "When we became a couple, I suddenly stopped running out of the house when my dad insulted me to the point he yelled at me to leave. I have been running to my room…or…to you." She whispered the last part, and a tear left her eye and ran down her already tearstained cheeks. "And tonight…"

"You didn't feel you could come to me." Beck finished for her when she didn't. Cat nodded, staring out to the river in front of them. "Cat, I am so damn sorry."

Cat slithered her hand from his grasp and he didn't stop her. Here it comes… "Beck, I am not the jealous type, and you know that." He nodded. "But there's a line to cross. There's jealousy to dishonesty/disrespecting to cheating." She looked back to him and his eyes were closed, as if he was waiting for her to scream his head off. "And you were in between. You were dishonest to me, and you were disrespecting my heart."

Beck stayed silent for a minute before answering in a low voice. "She jumped on me."

"You didn't stop her." Cat clenched her hands into fists. "And even worse, you held her there." She winced at the memory of Beck putting his hands on Jade's hips. "You wanted it. Admit it to me."

Beck shook his head and stood from his spot. "I'm not admitting anything."

Cat snorted. "Shocker."

"I'm not admitting I wanted it, because I didn't!" Beck snapped. "I didn't want it! She jumped on me!"

Cat shook her head and wiped her eyes. "If you're going to stand before me here and deny everything and try to hide from it…I will be done with this conversation and WE will be done." She looked up at his hurt face. "Tell me the truth."

Not wanting the relationship to end, Beck kneeled down to her level, onto his knees. "I…I…" He cleared his throat. "I didn't want it, but…Jade was my girlfriend for over 2 years, you know? I had flashbacks of memories with her and for some reason, it made me stay. The memories caused me to not to push her away and to hold on a bit longer."

Cat looked paler than she had a minute ago.

"But the kiss meant nothing. I felt nothing." He shook his head. "It wasn't anything like the kisses I always experience with you." Cat looked up at him. "It made me realize what I have…and I have you. I will always have you and be with you. I want no one, but you. That's what I told Jade before we all split up to find you. I told her, it's you and only you." He took her hands in his own and kissed them. "I don't care how long it takes. I won't give up until you forgive me and love me again."

Cat leaned forward and touched his face with her hands. "Love isn't something a girl can easily fall out of, Beck. I still love you. And I always will." She sighed, putting her hands back in his hold. "I'm scared to trust you again."

Beck nodded. "I understand. I understand completely, Cat. But I'm not giving up on that. I'll try my hardest each day to gain that trust back."

Cat gave him a small smile and kissed his lips gently. Once they released to breathe, Cat hugged him tightly. "I love you, Beck."

Beck wrapped his arms around her and sighed in relief. He was so relieved that she forgave him and didn't dump his sorry-butt. "I love you, Cat. I'll give you the world from now on. Like I said: you're it for me."

Cat sighed and let go of him. She saw her notebook. "So did you like the song?"

Beck bit his lip. "It's depressing and vile." He shrugged. "Kind of reminds me of "Missing", you know?"

Cat nodded. "Yeah, I guess it does." She looked to him. "Jade loved that song, so maybe she'll like this song."

"Look, Cat, about Jade-"

"I'll talk it out with her." Cat stopped him. "Jade and I have been through worse than this together. We'll make it through somehow."

"She really does feel horrible about it." Beck told her.

"Why did she kiss you in the first place?" Cat asked in wonder.

Beck frowned. "Um…well…"

Cat blinked. "Beck?"

Beck sighed. "She was testing something." Cat had wide eyes. "She was wondering if…she…still…you know…liked guys."

"Oh." Cat had wide eyes. "And?"

"She doesn't."

"Yikes." Cat shrugged after a few seconds. "She's my best friend. I'll support her no matter what happens."

Beck smiled. "How did I get so lucky to deserve you?"

"Who knows?" Cat laughed. After they made it to his car, Beck texted everyone to let them know he found Cat and to go home and rest. Cat hugged his arm, snuggling up to him. "I love you, Beck." And she slowly fell asleep, exhausted from the extra-long day.

Beck kept her hand in his own as his left hand was the on the steering wheel still. "I love you, Cat."


Okay guys, review and give me a song suggestion, but remember that I have to find the lyrics on AZLyrics. AND only ONE SONG! For now…I have time to write stuff right now because I hurt my ankle because I fell off a ladder at work…and Thomas told me I had to take a few days off because he was worried about me and my unborn baby. :) He's such a sweet man :)