Sam and Mikhail where standing with the rest of the letters, frantically trying to find Spike whilst Maria stayed back in case he returned, she was also checking the GPS as he was still wearing his anklet. She gasped in horror as she tracked him; she felt tears well up the sick rise in her stomach.
She knew this would destroy Sam.
Sam was getting frustrated as he screwed the letters up and shoved them in his pocket.
"I knew this was a bad idea, why did you let him have them!" He shouted at Mikhail.
"Sam, we need to find him and in order to find him we need clear heads here, now, are you going calm down or am I going to have to send you back to the house" Sam stood there and tensed he'd never seen Mikhail loose his rag, but Sam saw something in his eyes and if he didn't know any better, he'd think he saw fear.
Mikhail phone started ringing, he broke his gaze with Sam and pulled it out.
"Maria, have you found him?" He didn't waste time with hellos.
Mikhail felt his heart drop, his stomach twist, his eyes began watering as Sam watched on in horror, he watched a Mikhail shook his head indicating it was bad news to Sam, Sam bit down on his lip, the anticipation of waiting to hear what had happened to his brother was killing him.
Mikhail put the phone down, and looked over to the waterfall, then back at Sam, sighing as he dropped his head.
"Sam she traced the anklet, he's in the water, she thinks he.." He paused at Sam's cry, denying it before he had finished. "Sam, it's indicating he's in the water, and with the force with water and his body strength, it's more than likely that he ha-"
"No Mikhail, he said he'd fight" Sam face was bright red with anger, his tears filled his eyes. "He wouldn't do it to me" Sam hunched over, feeling like he was going to be sick.
Mikhail run to him for support, he held Sam's elbow as he threw up. As Mikhail looked up he clocked Maria running towards then, he could see the red puffiness around her eyes, he looked at her for a split second concerned, and then concentrated back on Sam.
"Maria, get him back to the house, I – I'm going to…" He couldn't finish, just gave the waterfall a quick glance before looking back at her, letting her know where he was going. She just nodded and then began to direct Sam back.
"No…" Sam pulled back.
"I'm going over there Mikhail, don't even bother trying to stop me!" He stood up angrily. The adrenaline hit him like a bolt of lightning.
"Sam I don-" He was cut short at Sam scoffing and barging past him.
"Sam please, don't do it to yourself."
Sam didn't stop walking, knowing Mikhail couldn't stop him, Sam wasn't officially a patient which meant his decisions were his own. Mikhail looked at Maria and they shared a knowing look of pain and panic.
"If he resists then you can hit the manual patch override of the anklet, I have some faith but it's not much!" Maria whispered. Mikhail then took off running after Sam, if he was going to go, he wasn't going alone.
Sam got to the stairs, he closed his eyes as he let the tears leak out of them, he turned when he felt a squeeze on his shoulder, Mikhail looked pained and just as scared as he did, he gave him a sympathetic smile, as Sam looked into his eyes he could see he was trying to find a way of stopping Sam but the just spurred him on even more.
Sam walked down the stairs slowly followed quickly by Mikhail, as he saw him, his heart dropped, he cried out as his knees buckled, and he fell to the floor, he saw Spike lying on his back, eyes closed. He screamed once more and Mikhail squeezed his shoulder again as Sam looked up.
He stared into Spike's eyes.
Spike jumped up from the rock and run over to Sam, wrapping his arms around him as he stood.
"Sam, what the hell happened?" Spike looked shocked and concerned.
"WHAT HAPPENED? WE THOUGHT YOU WERE DEAD, WHAT ARE YOU PLAYING AT!" Sam pushed Spike back a little.
"What dead? Sam I wouldn't do that, I told you, I'm trying" Spike said getting tempered.
"Why didn't you tell me you were here?" Sam screamed, he knew he shouldn't be angry, but Spike had just scared the living crap out of him.
"Because you've taken my phone, because I wanted some time alone, because I'm not a child and I can do what I want?" Spike said raising his voice.
"Guys, calm it, this isn't the right time to do this, emotions and running high!" Mikhail intervened. He could feel how tensed up Sam was as his hand was still firmly placed on his shoulder.
"Why would you assume I was dead Sam, have you not been here for the last month or so?" Spike spat out. "I said I was going to try, and you said you trust me." Spike was fuming, as he glared at Sam.
Mikhail sighed and tugged Sam's shoulder, letting Sam know he was going to explain.
"Spike it was our fault not his, we couldn't find you so we tracked you through the GPS, it never even occurred to us you'd come here, and the GPS is only accurate within so many miles, so the monitor was displaying you was in the water." Mikhail ducked his head.
Spike bit back the anger, he wasn't sure what to feel, he was confused, upset and felt like the people he trust the most, had just lost trust in him. Spike just shook his head angrily as he barged past both men, until Mikhail grabbed him arm.
"Where are you going?" Mikhail's voice became stern.
"I'm not going to kill myself, if that's what you mean." Spike spat out, as he continued to the stairs.
Spike didn't really no where he was going, he was becoming stir crazy, seeing the same people, the same building and the same scenery, he just wanted to get out, he ended up sitting in the long grass, facing the gates, hoping they'd open but knowing they won't.
"Spike?" Sam almost whispered as he sat down.
"Go away Sam." Spike wasn't trying to be nasty, he was hurt.
"Spike, I trust you, you know that right, I didn't want to believe you were dead, I didn't believe it and that's why I come to find you but when I saw you the position you was laying…" Sam took a deep breath before continuing. "it really did look like you was de-" Sam chocked on the last bit, the image still stuck firmly in his head
"I wouldn't Sam, not now" Spike whispered, shooting Sam a quick glance, in a way he felt sorry for Sam, he didn't really think about it, he just reacted on what he saw, he felt the trust was gone, but he can see the misunderstanding now, he knew it wasn't Sam's fault.
"I know that, Spike, I really do know that, I trust you!" Sam gave Spike's shoulder a squeeze.
Spike looked at the gates again and then Sam's head snapped up, he looked at Spike's leg and then tackled it, sending Spike onto the ground and Sam holding his anklet up for inspection.
"Eh Sam, Jules is only a few hours away and I am not that way inclined!" Spike said slightly confused.
Sam stared at him mockingly and then clicked on the anklet, Spike looked away and felt his foot drop back to the ground.
"This anklet has a transdermal injector, why didn't it go off?" Sam thinks aloud.
"Because I disabled it, no more drugs Sam, for the love of God , no more drugs!" Spike whispered.
