First of all, I have to say thank you to all the reviewers. You´re great. So, thank you to
Jazz248, Angelomi, strawberry-sunset194 and Islanda.
If you haven´t given up yet, here comes one of the last chapters I just tried to write, even if I haven´t written anything in english for what seems like forever – and my mind sucks about this story.
This whole wedding thing in it made me crazy, so, I´m gonna skip it in a way.
I´m sorry for those who wished to read about it. I have never been on a wedding. I can´t do it.
So, if you don´t have given up on this story you might be able to believe me when I say that I´m sorry.
I´ll try my best to finish it.
Chapter 51: The End of Doubts (Sarah)
The moment before I got out for school, Lorraine held me back, smiling at me and said.
"If you want to, you can invite someone to the wedding."
"Just one?" I asked and she laughed.
"You´re an asked person, huh?"
"I meant it – you know -" I did not know why. But then, suddenly it all broke out of me and I told her everything about Bobby Urban and Joe Jefferson and my inner conflict because I liked them both.
"And do you love one?", she asked.
I did not answer, because I did not know. And suddenly I realised that I liked them both even more then I had liked Elliott but that I did not like them that way.
Suddenly, it was all so clear to me.
"Perhaps", I told her. "Perhaps I love one. Perhaps none. And perhaps I love both. But it doesn´t matter. Not that way."
She really looked confused, but to me, it was clear as the summers sky.
"Thanks Lorraine", I told her and ran off to school.
~cbtd~
I did well to went out of their ways until lunch.
I needed to talk to both of them, at the same time, because I needed them to understand.
The only problem would be, to made them sit at one table – I thought – because when I came into the cafeteria and searched out for Joe or Bobby, I suddenly got a shock.
There they sat, both at one table, eyeing each other as two lions in a cage.
Taking my lunch, I placed myself at the head of the table, they both gave me a look and I smiled at them.
"We need to talk", I told them.
"Yes, we do", Bobby said and I flinched at his voice. It was full of anger.
He had crossed his arms and leant back in his chair while Joe was looking at his shoes.
"I like you, both", I started, knowing really well that they know both eyed me.
"But – I – I thought a lot and I don´t wanna miss one of you as a friend, but I also know, that if I choose one of you for more, it would be unfair and also I – I like you both but not more. I don´t wanna have to choose, I can´t and if that means I loose you both, I have to live with that.
Actually I – hope that you both come to my sisters wedding this weekend, it would be great."
For about what seemed like an eternity none of them said anything, but then Joe started smiling.
"It would be great to go to the wedding, right Bobby?"
"Chrm – sure."
My heart lifted up and I nodded.
"Great. Then see you tomorrow."
~cbtd~
Saturday started early – and I really hated to get up early.
But it was Lorraines wedding and she deserved this to be the greatest moment in her live.
I really remember those days, Lore and I did not get along very well, but – after all this weeks our family itself grew apart she was one of the persons you really could talk to, who really cared – I suddenly realized this.
And I had not even a present for her.
Maybe it wasn´t that bad, and I tried to make the guild go away.
They sure would not realize if one present was missing.
I went downstairs, finding my Mum cooking in the kitchen, and hell their was food everywhere – did she know that we had a catering service?
"Mum?"
She turned on her heels, wide eyes focusing me, then she suddenly got her speech back and greeted me.
"What are you doing Mum?"
"You know, I – I have to prepare the wedding -"
"We´ve got a wedding planner and a catering service – all you need to do is dress up well and be there for Lorraine."
She held in for a moment, then she put down the towel she held in her hands and nodded.
"You´re right."
She did not look into my eyes, but she went upstairs to prepare for the wedding and I can tell you – I´ve never seen her looking so beautiful.
~y~
It was half an hour before the wedding, when I entered Lorraine´s old room where she dressed up with Nora.
It was strange to see her in the wedding dress, but she looked like a elf princess.
Her hair looked beautiful and her dress was not recognized as an old one that our mother wore when she got married.
I smiled at her and suddenly I realized that all that had been between us was no longer important.
That, all that had been, that happened all those month could be forgotten, just for once.
Today it was Lorraine`s wedding, her special day, and I would be there for her, like all the other family members would be, and as they would be when my big day had come.
Because – no matter – we could still be a big, happy and strong family.
