I'd like to thank, winterschild11, energy16, germanfanfictioner, annabellex2, DeniseDEMD, Charlie-Rose94, Franshes, CrazyLovingYuu3, The Senate, Chey21, Sir RCCS, and Beckyyy for taking the extra time to review. I am sorry for the delay. I've had so much going on in my life and I am trying to get back to writing.
Chapter 48: A Day to Forget
Adam moved about the living room making sure everything was set up for Miri's birthday party. He wanted everything to be perfect for her, not that she would remember any of this. Adam had gone with little mermaid decorations, since Miri loved that movie.
"Addie, you've got to relax, everything is going to be fine," Cooper said as he walked up to the brunette.
"I know, I just...can't help it," Adam sighed as he sunk into the couch. Cooper laughed and sat down next to Adam. He placed his around him and kissed him on the cheek. Adam turned his head and smiled at Cooper.
"Our baby girl is a year old," Cooper said softly.
Adam pouted at the thought. It was still hard to believe that Miri was a year old already. It seemed like just yesterday she was being born and everyone was scared for her life. Miri had not only survived, but wowed her doctors with her progress and how advanced she was. Miri was already walking which surprised everyone, and her babbling sounded like words sometimes. It was amazing how much their little girl had grown in just a year.
"Speaking of Miri, where is she?" Adam asked.
"With your dads, I wanted to talk to you alone," Cooper said.
"What?" Adam asked.
"Look what I got today," Cooper said reaching into his pocket and pulling out a key. Adam gasped and threw his arms around Cooper.
"It's ours then?" Adam asked.
"The apartment is ours, we can move in anytime we want to," Cooper said.
"I love you," Adam said pulling Cooper into a kiss.
"Not in the living room," Kendall said as he walked into the room with Miri resting on his hip. She was bouncing and babbling happily.
"There she is," Cooper said smiling at Miri. He held his hands out to her. Miri leaned over and Kendall handed her over. "Hey there birthday girl," he cooed. Miri smiled and babbled at Cooper. Cooper turned her towards Adam. Adam smiled and took her from Cooper.
"Relax Adam everything will be fine," Kendall said, "I remember how panicked I was about Jake and your first birthdays, everything will work out," he said.
"I know, I just...I'm your son and this has to be perfect," Adam said smiling at Kendall.
"Just relax, everything will b fine," Kendall said. Adam took a quick breath and nodded his head.
-Aftermath-
Kyle sighed as he looked up at the ceiling of his bedroom. Things had not been going his way lately and it sucked. He had gotten grounded after prom for breaking curfew and refusing to tell his dads where he had gone. Leora had stopped talking to him. His friends hardly talked to him scared to set him off or they sided with Lilly. Adam had tried talking to him, but Kyle didn't want to talk. If he talked that might make everything more real.
Everything would be real, and Kyle would have to deal with the fact that he was bisexual. Kyle had always thought he was straight and liked girls. He had never even need interested in looking at guys. There was nothing wrong with it, he knew many people who were gay or bi and and didn't care. It was just Kyle didn't like how confused he was over all this.
On one hand there was simple. There was Lilly and that had been easy. She was pretty and liked Kyle. It had been expected of them to fall for one another. Kyle had been told he'd probably marry Lilly one day. Kyle hadn't thought that was too bad of an idea. Until recently he pictured himself and Lilly raising a family together. Then things got complicated.
Then Kyle met Jared Munroe. They had quickly become friends. Kyle quickly found himself attracted the the bleached blonde. He had fought it and tried to keep his attraction hidden. Kyle even found himself looking at other guys. He had become so confused and conflicted.
Sighed and got up from his bed. He needed to do something to keep himself busy. Maybe he could help with set up for Miri's party. He made his way down to the kitchen here James and Leora were cooking. Kyle tried to turn around and leave but James caught him.
"Kyle wait, come help me," James said motioning him over. Kyle slumped his shoulders with a sigh and walked over to James. He tried to ignore the glare Leora was giving him.
"What do you need pops?" Kyle asked.
"I have to go check on Jenny, just make sure the hamburger doesn't burn," James said. Kyle nodded his head and James left the kitchen leaving the twins alone.
The two remained silent. Kyle was too scared to say anything in fear of causing a fight. He was sure Leora was trying to pick an insult to throw at him. She was still pissed at him for breaking up with Lilly. It was none of her business though. She needed to get over it.
"You know," Leora started.
"Not now Le, just don't," Kyle sighed as he started chopping at the hamburger James had been frying up for sloppy joes.
"But-" Leora started.
"No I don't want to hear it. What happened between me and Lilly is between us not you," Kyle snapped.
"She's my best friend and you broke her heart," Leora said.
"You're my sister! Did you ever stop and think maybe I did this for a reason? Maybe I didn't want to hurt Lilly worse by telling the truth?" Kyle asked.
"Truth?" Leora asked confused.
Kyle hung his head and sighed. "There is someone else, I didn't mean for it to happen. I just...I'm just so confused, conflicted, and instead of leading her on and doing something I'd regret I ended it," Kyle said.
"Conflicted? Confused?" Leora asked slowly before her eyes went wide. Kyle looked down at the floor. The two fell silent.
James walked back into the kitchen. He looked at his two kids confused. He looked from Kyle to Leora. He opened his mouth to speak when Leora spoke.
"Kyle I am so sorry," Leora said walking over to her brother and giving him a hug as he started crying.
"What's wrong?" James asked worriedly. Kyle took a step back from Leora and looked at James before he ran from the room. James looked at Leora.
"He'll talk when he's ready," Leora said frowning.
-Aftermath-
"Jared Thomas Munroe! If you don't get your ass out here now we are leaving without you!" Roldy hollered down the hallway.
Jared sighed and heaved himself off his bed. He walked out to the living room where Roldy and Noah were waiting for him.
"No Matty?" Jared asked.
"We're picking him up," Noah said waving his hand, "now come on," he said jumping up from the couch. Roldy walked over to him.
"You ok? You've been mopey all week," Roldy asked.
"I'm fine, why do we have to go to this party?" Jared asked.
"Adam asked us to, and Miri is adorable," Noah said.
"Why don't you wanna go?" Roldy asked confused.
"It's not that I don't wanna go, it's just...never mind let's just go," Jared sighed. He started for the door. Roldy and Noah shared a confused look but followed their leader. They knew better than to question Jared when he was in a mood.
Jared left the apartment. He wanted to go to this party, but not completely to see Miri. There was someone else he was hoping to see.
-Aftermath-
Adam smiled as he looked around the living room. People were showing up for the party, and Miri was having fun with all the kids. Mike and Luke were here with Annie and Kara, who had her birthday yesterday. Mina and Hank were sitting in the corner playing with a few other kids at the party. His grandparents were all here and taking turns holding Miri and playing with her. Miri was loving the attention. Adam was happy things were turning out.
"See Addie, you had nothing to worry about," Cooper said.
"I know I just, thanks Coop," Adam said smiling.
"Ooh where's my little birthday girl?"
Adam looked up as Logan and Carlos walked into the room with Lilly, Miles, Lucas, and Layla with them. Adam arched a brow at seeing Lilly. He wasn't sure if she'd be here. Leora walked over to her and the two started talking. Adam looked over at Kyle who was talking to Grandma Jen and Katie. He didn't seem to notice Lilly yet. He hoped it stayed this way. He didn't need them causing a scene here.
Carlos picked up Miri who smiled and leaned into his face and placed a big sloppy kiss on his face.
"Ka, ka," Miri chirped happily.
Adam jumped up and walked over to them greeting them. He started talking and Miri babbled happily.
"Adam."
Adam turned around and smiled as he greeted Jared, Roldy, Matt, and Noah. They all walked over to Miri. Carlos handed her over to Noah. He started making faces and had Miri laughing.
"She's adorable," Matt said.
"So cute," Roldy cooed. Jared looked at Miri and then to Cooper.
"You must be Cooper, I have to say Miri looks a lot like you," Jared said.
"Thanks, you guys must be Kendall's new band," Cooper said.
"I'm Jared, this here is Roldy, Noah, and Matty," Jared said introducing the four.
"Guys! What are you doing here?" Kyle asked walking up to the guys.
"Oh hey Kyle, Adam invited us," Noah said.
"Oh," Kyle said nodding his head.
"Dude where've you been lately, haven't seen you in forever," Matt said.
"Grounded, my dad is lame," Kyle said making a face. The guys laughed and shook their heads. Kyle seemed to be not looking at Jared and he seemed to be avoiding Kyle as well. Adam looked between the two and caught on.
"Kyle a word please," Adam said grabbing his little brother's arm. He started to pull him from the room despite his protests. Once they were away from the party Adam stopped.
"You and Jared?" Adam hissed as he looked at his brother. Kyle went wide eyed confirming his question. "Dad is going to kill you," Adam said.
"Don't worry, he rejected me there's nothing to worry about," Kyle said hanging his head.
"Is that why you..." Adam said slowly.
"I couldn't give her what she deserved and she can do so much better than me," Kyle said miserably.
"Kyle it's ok to be confused," Adam said.
"I know, I just don't know how to feel," Kyle said. Adam chuckled and placed a hand on Kyle's shoulder.
"There is no wrong way to feel," Adam said.
"I know, but this is all just so different, I've never even looked at guys before," Kyle said.
"It's ok Kyle, everyone gets curious," Adam said.
"Easy for you to say, you know what you want even though..."Kyle started but trailed off. "Never mind," he said shaking his head. He turned and walked away from Adam heading up stairs. Adam sighed as he stood there. He had only wanted to help Kyle.
"Addie Miri's about to open presents," Cooper called walking into the hallway. "Where's Kyle?" He asked.
"Dealing with his teenage drama," Adam said waving a hand. He wasn't about to put his brother when he wasn't ready.
"Ok," Cooper said slowly.
"Never mind, let's go," Adam said walking towards the living room as Noah and Jared exited it.
"Bathroom?" Noah asked.
"Down the hall to the left and there's one up stairs," Adam said pointing to the stairs. Noah took off down the hallway. Adam shook his head and headed into the living room. James was holding Miri in his lap waiting for Adam and Cooper.
Adam walked over to James and sat down beside him. Miri then squirmed into his lap, which caused people to aw, at the action. Soon presents were brought over and Adam helped Miri open them. She was so excited and just loved ripping the paper.
This day could not have gone better. It had been a year since Miri had been born and was told she might not live past forty eight hours. Here she was a year later. She was healthy and very active.
"Addie," Cooper said once all the presents were opened and Miri was wondering around to people.
"Can you believe it's been a year already? I mean this time last year we weren't even sure if she was gonna make it this long," Adam said softly.
"I know she's still our little miracle," Cooper said.
-Aftermath-
Jared exited the bathroom and he heard a voice. He looked around and saw a closed door and realized where it was coming from. He moved closer and could hear Kyle talking to himself.
"God I'm so stupid, if Adam can figure it out everyone will know!"
Jared bit his lip, and against his better judgement he knocked on the door. He heard Kyle stop talking. The door opened several seconds later.
"What are you doing here?" Kyle snapped.
"We need to talk," Jared said.
"Your the last person I want to talk to," Kyle said moving to shut his door. Jared stopped him and Kyle stormed into his room. Jared followed him, shutting the door behind himself.
"Kyle look," Jared started.
"No," Kyle cut him off, "I get it, I messed up and you're not interested. I know what a rejection is. I'm a big boy I'll get over it," he said turning away from Jared.
"I didn't stop you because I didn't like you," Jared said slowly. He had to be careful here. He had to still let Kyle down but he had to be gentle about it.
"Then why?" Kyle asked knowing there was more to this. Jared had to give the kid credit, he was wiser than he thought.
"You're only sixteen and I'm nineteen," Jared said, "plus let's not forget that your dad is my boss and he will kill me," he added hastily. Kyle walked over to Jared.
"So I was right in assuming you had a thing for me?" Kyle asked smirking.
"Don't even think about it," Jared warned the teen. "You're straight, you told me and the guys."
"Maybe I'm not as straight as I thought," Kyle shrugged. He took a step closer to Jared. Jared took a step back shaking his head.
"You're confused, you don't know what you want," Jared said swallowing thickly.
Jared wanted nothing more than to lean in and kiss Kyle, but he couldn't. Kyle was still just a kid and didn't know what he want. If Kendall found out about this he'd kill him or drop the band from the label. He could risk the band.
"I'm not confused," Kyle said, "a month ago I was confused. I would never have kissed you if I wasn't sure how I felt," he stated.
"Don't," Jared said shaking his head again. His resolve was falling apart. "You're girlfriend is down stairs," he tried.
"Told you that didn't work out. It wasn't fair to lead her on like that," Kyle said. He had Jared backed into a wall.
"Your dad is going to kill me," Jared sighed.
Jared snapped. He took a step forward and crashed his lips into Kyle's lips. He could fight it anymore. Kyle was all he thought of and this was what he wanted. He needed to feel the blondes lips on his.
Kyle let out a surprise squeak but kissed back. He moved his lips perfectly with Jared's. The two stood there battling for dominance. The kiss was more tongue and teeth than anything. It was hot and heavy.
-Aftermath-
Kendall knocked on Kyle's bedroom door. Kyle had been acting strange ever since prom. James had told him about what he had seen in the kitchen between Leora and Kyle and he was worried making Kendall worry. Miri's party was winding down and Kendall hadn't seen Kyle in quite a while. He was worried for his youngest son.
"Kyle?" Kendall said opening the door slowly.
Kendall stopped when he saw Kyle and Jared standing in the middle of the room practically eating one another's faces. Kendall stood there in shock before he got mad. Of all the things Jared had done, this took the cake. This was the worst thing he had done.
"Kyle!" Kendall said snapping to his senses.
Kyle sprang away from Jared and looked at Kendall shocked. He looked like a deer caught in the headlights. He taped at Kendall. Jared looked scared.
"Dad it's not what you think," Kyle said quickly.
"You," Kendall said pointing at Jared, "Out of my house!"
"Dad wait!" Kyle said quickly. Jared bolted from the room barely missing Kendall. Kyle took off after him. Kendall followed the two yelling.
-Aftermath-
Adam and Cooper waved bye to Annie and Kara as they left with their dads. Adam had liked seeing them and was amazed how much they were growing, like Miri was.
"See I told you everything would be ok," Cooper said shutting the door and turning to Adam.
"Hey Adam, have you seen Jared?"
Adam turned and saw Noah, Matt, and Roldy heading down the hallway.
"Not for awhile," Adam said.
"He always does this, he better not have taken off," Roldy said annoyed.
Yelling was heard as Jared bolted down he stairs followed by Kyle. Kendall wasn't far behind and he looked mad.
"Guys we gotta go now," Jared said grabbing Roldy's arm and pulling him along. Noah and Matt looked confused but quickly said good bye and followed their friends.
"Adam help!" Kyle pleaded, running up to his brother. "Dad caught us," he hissed as he hid behind him.
"Kyle Knight," Kendall said finally calming down a bit.
"Look dad it's not what you think," Kyle said slowly.
"What's going on," James asked as he walked into the hallway.
"Kyle I need to talk to you," Kendall said in a forced calm voice.
"You don't want to talk, you want to yell," Kyle said defensively.
"Kyle now!" Kendall snapped.
"What's going on?" Jen asked her son walking out of the living room with Miri on her hip.
"It's nothing mom," Kendall said, "I just need to talk to Kyle," he said in a forced calm voice. More people had stepped out of the living room. Lilly and Leora were standing behind Jen.
"Kendall what's going on?" James asked confused. Kendall walked over to James and leaned in to whisper in his ear. James' eyes shot wide open as he looked at Kyle.
"Kyle, office now," James said pointing towards Kendall's office.
"If I don't come out in five minutes, come save me," Kyle whispered to Adam.
"What's going on?" Leora asked looking from her dads to Kyle. Kyle sighed and hung his head.
"Dad it's not what you think," Kyle said his voice small.
"Kyle," Adam and Leora said quickly. They both knew what he was about to do. Kyle looked up at Kendall.
"I came on to him, I've been so confused lately and I'm trying to sort things out. He was there and things just happened," Kyle said.
"Kyle," James said slowly.
"I'm not gay, but I'm not straight," Kyle said, "I know I have nothing to be scared of, I just wanted to be sure before I said anything," he added. He then looked to Lilly. Her eyes were wide as she stared at him.
Kyle couldn't take all the staring. It was better than being told he was going through a phase, but someone could say something. No one did, so Kyle ran last everyone and up to his bedroom. This was a day Kyle wanted to forget.
Again I am so sorry for the delay. I've been so busy with moving and my job. I am trying to get back to writing again. I hope you are all still interested. I am still here. Also one more chapter after this. Then the sequel We Are will be posted.
Miri is a year old and happy! Adam and Cooper are Happy. Kyle has come to terms with his sexuality and feelings towards Jared. Will Jared return his feelings? Or will he let the age thing get in the way? How will Matt, Noah, and Roldy react? How will Lilly? How will the rest of the Knights react?
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