Dawn-
Dr. Ash showed up sometime during the night while Heaven was still in the hospital. It was total chaos at the house. Half of us were in the common room waiting to hear about Heaven while the other half were MIA.
Phillip sat by my side the entire time. It was weird. I wasn't sure how I felt about it. I mean, I liked it, but we couldn't let our secret out. We would be the talk of the house and Cutlers Cove! If Clara Sue found out what we have done then she would most likely black mail us until she was satisfied, which she never would be.
When we all began to head up Phillip followed right behind me. I turned and stopped him, my hand gentle on his chest. I looked around to make sure no one else was around before I spoke.
"Phillip we have to be careful. We can't get caught." I whispered and he looked at me with a face of pain before nodding.
He walked me up the stairs and to his floor before we paused. No one was in the halls, so he grabbed me and pulled me into an embrace. He inhaled deeply into my hair before speaking.
"I want to see you tonight." He moaned. I wanted him to spend the night, but I was afraid of the brat pack finding out. I pulled away and looked into his eyes, so much like my own. Our Mothers eyes.
"Okay, be careful to make sure no one sees you, but come later." He raised an eyebrow and grinned salaciously.
I hurried to the third floor where the only one in the hall was poor Arden. I felt so sorry for him. He must have really screwed up for her to be so hateful. He looked up at me then back at the floor. Poor poor Arden.
Before I closed my door at the end of the hall I heard Vera come out and say something to him. I thought about peering that way to see what was happening, but considering I had secrets to hide I thought it best not to look.
Moving into my room I quickly shut the door and hurried to undress and hop in the shower. Hearing about Heaven's long lost boyfriend taking her made me feel awful and stressed. A nice hot shower would wash the worry away.
While in the bathroom I heard someone in my room. After some rustling Phillip entered the bathroom and swiftly joined me under the water. He wrapped his arms around me and began planting slow, soft kisses on my neck and back, making me groan with pleasure.
"Mmmm Phillip. You are wonderful." I murmered, feeling his growing erection against my back.
"And you, my dear. Beautiful. Dawn. Are a goddess." He paused at each word to kiss and fondle me. With a gently coaxing he spread my legs and took me against the shower.
Everything was so new and wonderful with him. I couldn't get enough.
We spent time together afterwards before finally I couldn't keep my eyes open. Phillip said something about wanting to stay but I shook my head.
"No, it's one thing to visit. But you can't get caught in the morning. As much as I want you here." He looked upset but nodded and with a gentle kiss he left me alone.
I wished I had a friend to talk to about this. A girlfriend to confide in about how amazing he made me feel. For an instant I thought back to Jimmy. Pain shot through my heart.
Oh dear Jimmy how I miss you. I don't care that you cheated on me. Not anymore. We could still be friends. He was my brother, blood or not. You can't erase the first 15, well 16 years.
That night I dreamed of Mamma, and one of our ratty old shacks we called home. Jimmy and I were older, and in love. Fern was a little girl. Daddy was sitting on the bed with Momma, looking so happy.
They told us they were so happy we were married and couldn't wait to be grandparents. They were worried when I got taken away to the hotel that I would never want to see them again. That was wrong! I still loved all of them! Especially Jimmy! Jimmy.
In my dream I looked into Jimmy's handsome eyes and felt love.
I woke up with a start. Guilt filling my chest. What have I done! I jumped out of bed and went to my personal telephone. I dialed the number Jimmy had left for me. A young man answered and when I asked for James Longchamp he sighed.
"Ma'am Jimmy went back to the states. He requested a transfer. He won't be back here anymore." I thanked the man and hung up. He came back? Is he in New York, or did they send him somewhere across the country? I guess I would just have to wait to find out. I set the phone down and returned to my bed where not tring to, I started crying. Not just little tears, but full blown sobs.
I don't know what to do! I thought. I ruined everything! What was I going to say when I talked to him anyways? Hey Jimmy I know you cheated on me but that's okay because I started sleeping with Phillip, my biological brother! If he did take me back how would that affect Phillip?
Oh God, I am so stupid. I cried myself to sleep trying to think of what was the right thing to do.
