A/N: Bella tonight :). Thanks for reading!

I tried to call Paul back after the shock of his hanging up had subsided. He didn't answer and after a few more tries, I received a text from him.

Don't call back, I need to calm down. I'll text you when I'm ready. P

I understood that. If he had announced that kind of thing to me, I'd have crossed the Atlantic and ripped his balls out. The way I had blurted everything also ashamed me but it was the only way to do it. You can't beat around the bush, some things just need to be said.

I was torn by my feelings. Shame and sadness fought their way into my heart but there was another one, snidely creeping and overwhelming me. I missed Edward and wanted to see him again. Even after everything, I wanted more.

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