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Nyota and I have now been intimate with each other in (nearly) every sense of the word.

Mostly I have found two facts that have gotten me into trouble with her.

Number One being that I do not like the taste of female genitalia. The first time I tried to please her that way, and the only time too for that matter, I quickly gave up, even though she was basically begging for me to continue what I had been doing. As juvenile as it may sound, that type of intimacy is, in one word, yuck.

Number Two is pleasure. Hers fuels mine. While we have not yet accomplished sexual intercourse in the way I know it, there is a chance I will soon be ready for that. She thought the first time that I realised this that I had been lying about Vulcans and sex.

I am sure she is over one of these things by now. I have quite good fingers, or so I have been told.

I also have sensitive fingers and, being Vulcan, I am a touch telepath. Her emotions, her feelings and sometimes, if it is very good for her, little glimpses of her thoughts, are felt and heard by me. She understands this, understood it from the start.

It doesn't make sense that I would know that it would affect me too. I had never been in this situation until now. But it does. Her passion fuels my own, and I am finding it harder every time I am with her to withhold myself from trying to take her as my mate.

We have decided to wait a few weeks before trying that. I think she wants to try to stimulate me without my having done so to her. I have tried this in private. It doesn't work that way.

This is the only bad area in my life right now. And it isn't bad as much as frustrating.

I am sure it will work itself out, given a little more time.

I still may not be able to fully engage her the way she truly wants until I reach my time but at least we have a way to help ease her frustrations now, until then.