Ch. 48 The painful memories

Germany was confused. He heard a sad pitiful voice in the darkness.

"I'm sorry," it chanted its words echoing around him.

"Sorry for what," he asked.

"I'm so so sorry," it sobbed.

"What are you sorry about?! Who are you?!"

Suddenly he was in a room. He saw himself dead and Prussia propped against the wall with him clutching him close wailing.

"I'M SORRY!"

"Prussia it isn't your fault! Prussia," Germany cried.

Then suddenly he was the one cradling Prussia's dead body sobbing hysterically. He screamed and cried.

"You didn't save me." Prussia's dead body spoke. "I'M DEAD BECAUSE YOU WEREN'T STRONG ENOUGH!"

"I'M SORRY! I'M SO SO SO SORRY!"

"I'M DEAD!"

"FORGIVE ME!"

"I'M DEAD!"

"I'M SORRY BIG BRUDER! I'M SORRY!"

He was suddenly in the black again with nothing near him. He was on his knees sobbing into his hands.

"I'm sorry." He sobbed repeatedly and his voice echoed around him.

Saxony frowned as Prussia dragged his feet that morning. He looked dazed. He had a haunted look on his face. The other two were eyeing him concerned as well. They wanted him to smile and laugh. Then Hesse got an idea.

"Want to wake up baby Germ-Germ," Hesse asked suddenly and Prussia perked up immediately.

"BABY GERM-GERM," he cried evilly while cackling knowing it embarrassed the hell out of Germany when he called him that. They raced him to Germany's room grinning. "Baby….."

He trailed off seeing Germany's blankets of the bed. He was pale and sweaty. Tears were spilling out of the corners of his eyes as he slept.

"I'm sorry," his voice came out in a hushed tone repeatedly. They could hear the pain, sadness, self-loathing, and desperation in his tone as he chanted this words.

"Germany," Prussia said softly shaking him hard.

"I'M SORRY," his cried bolting up. Prussia snatched him over into his arms instantly and held him tightly.

"It's ok. You're ok. I'm ok. We're all ok," he whispered urgently into his ear.

"I'm sorry," Germany chanted into his shoulder pitifully. Then pained sobs started coming out of him. Prussia held him tighter.

"It's alright. I'm here. I'm right here. I'm alright. Germany. I'm right here and I'll never leave you again. Shhhh. Hush," Prussia soothed and Germany sobbed harder. "Nein nein nein little one. It's alright now. So nein. Don't you cry anymore," he soothed like he was talking to a child.

"Big bruder," Germany whimpered.

"Hush now. There is no reason to cry anymore. It's all ok now," Prussia soothed pulling his face up to look at him. Then wiped his tears away gently.

"The nightmares won't go away Prussia," he sobbed body trembling and his breathing was quick and uneven. "I remember everything and it won't go away," he panted as his chest exploded with pain.

"Bring me aspirin and Benadryl bitte," Prussia said to Bavaria. He ran off to do so. "Germany I need you to listen to me ok?" Prussia soothed then tugged Germany's head to press to his chest as he laid down with him. "Do you hear my heart?"

"Ja," Germany whispered hoarsely.

"See how calm I am? I need you to do that for me. Will you try for me?"

"Ja."

"Now breathe with me," Prussia said stroking his hair gently and breathed in slowly.

Germany tried to copy him. He released his breath slowly. Germany let his out. Prussia held the trembling nation getting him to breathe with him and offering soothing words letting him listen to his heart. After a few minutes Germany's breathing was normal but his heart was still a little too quick and he was still trembling. Prussia gave him the Aspirin and Benadryl. Prussia cuddled him closer and hummed in his ear. Germany drifted off into a dreamless sleep after that.

"What's going on? Why did he have a panic attack?"

"Years ago we went into a house," Prussia started then told the story. "I died before him several times and he died before me the others. I can get the images of everyone dying out of my mind and neither can he. Today is the day we went in and usually we don't think about it but on this day we do. We do a lot. Because it traumatized us. He doesn't really talk about it. He mostly just cries and wants to be held and assured that I'm here."

"Under the circumstances that's sad. But it sounds very cute. Like he's a little kid wanting comfort from the one who takes care of him."

"Because he's my baby Germ-Germ," Prussia said sounding proud of himself and affectionate towards Germany. He smiled at the sleeping blonde on his chest.

Everyone burst into laughter when a big hand smacked Prussia's face. Germany sat up sleepily and crossed his arms glaring at Prussia. Apparently he had woken up by the time Prussia had said that.

"BABY GERM-GERM," they all teased at once diving on him making him yell in protest with pink cheeks. He kept hitting at them and screaming for them to stop calling him that. They continued to laugh and tease him for several minutes. Then the three oldest got serious.

"If you two have anything bothering you today or all the other days you need to tell us. Tell us so we can help you. Tell us so we can take care of you two," Saxony said sternly.

"We want to take care of you and keep your mind off it. So, don't go hiding when you are thinking about it. Do not deal with this alone."

"You both do that. You both try to deal with everything alone. Well it's time to stop. Let us take care of you," Bavaria put in.

"I will danke," Prussia said smiling at him.

"I only like Prussia taking care of me," Germany said with a toss of his head.

"YOU BRAT QUIT PICKING FAVORITES," they roared at the same time.

Germany stuck his tongue out at them then grinned mischievously so they could tell he was teasing and scampered off to go eat breakfast. They were on his heels starting the Baby Germ-Germ thing up again to piss him off. Prussia laughed at his crazy family as Germany started yelling and throwing punches at the three brothers and they kept taunting and teasing him. Prussia sighed with relief. They would be ok. With the other three looking out for them. He and Germany would be ok.

YES! Prussia even teases him with the Baby Germ-Germ nickname in the regular one shots as well. XD He just started calling him that one day when I had a dream about them and I woke up and thought it was the cutest thing. Anyways. As I said in the other. I don't really know much about Hetaoni so I can't really describe what happened but I get the gist of it I think. So, this is all I got. I hope you liked it! This chapter was inspired by this review.

can you do one where saxony, hesse, and bavaria learn about hetaoni. i know you did one for the uk brothers but what about one involving germany and prussia's brothers

Thanks for the review!