Gokudera opens he eyes and stretches, keeping his eyes closed as he feels the space next to him. His eyes shoot open wide when he realizes that Phoenix is no longer in bed with him, panic filling him as the thought of Reaper taking her hits him.
Where is she? Where did she go? Reaper couldn't have taken her. Could he? Did he? Fuck."
The silver-haired teen jumps off the bed, not realizing that he was still naked and half runs to the door. Gokudera hits the railing of the stairs and see's Phoenix sitting on the couch, her guitar across her lap. He sighs out a breath of relief as he slowly walks down the stairs, watching her as she plays. Phoenix stops and writes something down on a notebook that is resting next to her.
"Yeah...that'll work."
Gokudera reaches the bottom of the stairs, not thinking anything.
"I didn't know you wrote music."
Gokudera smiles slightly when Phoenix jumps at his voice.
"Yeah, it's just someth-" Phoenix had just turned to look at Gokudera but she blushes and turns away. "Uh, Hayato...you don't have any clothes on..."
Gokudera blushes profusely as the sudden realization hits him.
"Last night we..." The tips of Gokudera's ears become and unhealthy shade of red. He quickly runs back into their room and pulls on a pair of pants before coming back. "S-Sorry..."
The blush doesn't fade away and Gokudera can't seem to meet Phoenix's eyes.
"Damn, this is awkward. Especially because of last night..."
Phoenix's pale cheeks are still tinged deep red.
"It's okay; I shouldn't have left the room. I had an idea and...I didn't want to wake you up..." Phoenix trials off as she remembers what it was like to wake up completely naked next to Gokudera. She risks looking at him and smiles ever so slightly at his blush. "You know, red is not your color."
"Oh, s-shut up." Gokudera looks away from Phoenix, trying to take the images for the previous night out of his mind. "S-So...you were playing guitar?"
He stands awkwardly at the foot of the stairs and Phoenix feels worry spark to life in her chest.
"Not really...I was just working on a song..." A sudden memory from the night before comes to the front of Phoenix's mind and she has to fight back a blush. She rubs the back of her neck and takes a deep breath. "About last night...we uh...did we...um..."
Gokudera avoids Phoenix's eyes.
"Y-Yeah I guess so. I mean, I woke up naked and I'm assuming you did too so...I guess." Gokudera fumbles with his silver chain, remembering the look on Phoenix's face as he entered her last night. "I...I hope you're not hurting too much. I mean, I tried being gentle last night so, uh...yeah..."
Gokudera bites his lip nervously and Phoenix strums a few chords absentmindedly.
"I'm fine..." A second memory from the night before makes its way into Phoenix's mind. "This is awkward...really...awkward..."
Gokudera freezes, her words striking him to the core.
"I-I'm really sorry! If you regret it, I understand. I mean, I can't really comprehend it myself. I feel like it was all just a dream, so if that's what you wanna think it was, then it's fine. If it'll help you cope with the awkwardness."
There's a slightly tremble in Gokudera's hands as he just blurts stuff out. Phoenix pauses.
"What? No...I..."
"I don't regret it. I will never regret it." Phoenix looks up at Gokudera suddenly. "Do you regret it?"
Gokudera stops blabbering.
"Of course not! Why would you think I'd regret it?
"Well you keep blushing and blabbering about nothing and normally you'd sit next to me and hold me and you haven't done that yet...and I just thought...maybe..."
Phoenix looks down and Gokudera's eyes widen.
"No, no, no, no. This wasn't supposed to happen like this!" Gokudera runs a hand through his hair in frustration. "I imagined the morning after being peaceful and calm and happy. Like I'd wake up and see you next to me and I'd kiss you awake or something. Not like this." He sighs. "I don't regret it. I'm just...I feel awkward. I mean, I can't get those images out of my head. About you...and when...I...yeah..." Gokudera blushes again. "I feel like if I touch you again I might not stop since all I want is for last night to happen again. I...I liked it, Aydan. I'd never regret it."
Gokudera inches closer to Phoenix.
"I knew I shouldn't have gotten up...but I had an idea...and I didn't want to wake you up since you looked so peaceful..." Phoenix pulls the guitar strap over her head and places it against the couch. "I trust you Hayato, more than I've ever trusted anyone. I trust you to keep your cool and stop..." Phoenix gets up and walks over to him. "I...I liked it to..."
Gokudera's breathing hitches.
"R-Really? I mean...I didn't...suck?"
"You didn't...Did I?"
"No! You were...you were amazing." Gokudera blushes again. "Fuck!"
He slaps his face and Phoenix laughs slightly before pulling him over to the couch. As they sit down, Phoenix feels the scar on her stomach pull and places a hand over it.
"Oh, so now this thing hurts."
"W-What? I mean we just...oh. OH! You meant your scar. Damn."
Gokudera mentally chastises himself.
I'm so fucking retarded."
He smiles like an idiot before hugging and kissing her stomach.
"I'm sorry Aydan."
Phoenix laughs.
"You're such an idiot!" She wraps her arms around Gokudera's body. "But I love you anyway."
Gokudera grins and pushes Phoenix down, resting his head against her stomach, smiling as she places her arms around him.
"How'd you feel if you got pregnant?"
"I'm not sure...If you were the father...happy...perfectly happy."
Gokudera laughs.
"I'd freak the fuck out. I mean, I'm only fifteen...but you're right. If it was mine, I'd be happy too. I swear if it turned out to be Reapers kid..."
"Well so would I! I'm only sixteen! But...I would be happy none the less...I mean I would finally have a real family again. And I will never have Reapers kid...That's just wrong on so many levels."
"Just making sure. And...are you sure? You wouldn't feel like I ruined your life like those girls on that stupid TV show?"
"Of course I'm sure. Why would it ruin my life? I would have a child with the man I love; it would be perfect to me."
Gokudera chuckles for a second but then becomes serious and hugs Phoenix's midsection a bit tighter.
"I'm actually kinda scared. I mean...we didn't use any protection, ya know? I wouldn't mind having a kid but just not now. Not while Reaper's still alive and while we're in the torture house."
"I know what you mean...but if it does happen, if I do get pregnant, we'll just have to get out and hope for the best right? Besides, I think the kid would be very cute."
Phoenix smiles softly as Gokudera moves up and kisses her on the forehead.
"I don't want to put you and the baby in that kind of danger. And of course the kid would be cute! Have you seen who the father it?" The silver-haired teen laughs. "I'm just kidding, you're beautiful."
Gokudera kisses Phoenix lips and rests his head over her heart.
"Well to keep us safe you would just have to get us out shouldn't be too hard right?" Phoenix laughs and kisses the top of Gokudera's head, playing with his hair. She spends a few seconds winding her fingers in the silver locks before smiling as Gokudera seemingly unconsciously strokes her stomach. "You're going to make a great dad someday Hayato."
"That's kinda hard to believe. I mean, I'm not exactly the greatest at dealing with kids"
"No one really it. But you would love them, and that's all you really need. To give a damn and want them to be happy." Phoenix smiles sadly. "At least that's what my mom said." Gokudera frowns and slips off Phoenix so that he's lying on his side next to her. He wraps his arms around her and brings her closer to him. Phoenix wraps her arms around Gokudera and holds on to him tightly. "Do you miss your mom Hayato?"
Gokudera closes his eyes and takes a deep breath, Phoenix had moves herself so that her head was level with his chest and he buries his face in her hair.
"I miss her so much. I just regret not knowing she was my mother when she was still alive. There's so many things I could've said or done...and now I'll never get the chance to do them at all..."
"It's hard knowing...I knew and I still didn't do all the things I wanted...I didn't say all the things I wanted. I miss her Hayato. She always knew just what to do and what to say and I miss her...so much."
Phoenix hugs Hayato tighter, fighting back tears. Gokudera can feel Phoenix's hands form fists against his bare back and he holds her tightly. A single tear falls into the red locks.
"At lease we have each other. We have the chance to make our mothers proud and start up a family of our own someday. And we'll be complete again. Hopefully."
"I know my mom would be disappointed in me. She would hate my life choices..."
"My mom would probably...I don't know how she'd react to my life choices, actually. She'd probably just be sad and upset. And I don't really give a fuck what my father thinks."
Phoenix manages a smile and looks up at Gokudera.
"But you're right, at least I have you." Gokudera smiles widely and kisses Phoenix. "You know, I think my mom would have liked you...my dad would hate you on principle but my mom would defiantly like you."
"I would've liked to meet your family. Especially Nicky..."
"Oh Nicky would be on the fence about you." Phoenix laughs. "He'd go back and forth between liking you and hating you. He was very protective for a little brother."
"Then I'd just have to make him like me." He laughs a little until he remembers that Nicky's dead. "I'm sorry."
"It's okay, I forget their gone sometimes to..." Phoenix takes a deep breath and smiles slightly. "I think he would like you, but only show it when you weren't around. My dad...my dad would like you but never show it...ever."
"That'd be fine with me." Gokudera smiles a bit and runs his hands through Phoenix's hair. "As long as I was sure they didn't completely hate me."
Phoenix smiles and then orders Gokudera to lie on his back, which he does after a small amount of questions as to why. Aydan looks down at her half naked lover and smiles before resting her head over his heart. Gokudera feels his heart rate speed up slightly as Phoenix lays on top of him but he still wraps his arms tightly around her and goes back to running his thin fingers through her hair. They lay like that for a while, not talking just enjoying each other's presence before Phoenix asks Gokudera something that had been bothering her.
"Do...do you think your parents would like me?"
Gokudera's hands pause and he looks down at Phoenix. She was looking straight ahead and her jaw was set but Gokudera could still tell that she was worried.
"My mother would love you, I'm sure. I don't know about my father. He loves women in general."
"Well he seems like a charming person." She goes silent for a bit. "What about your sister?"
"My sister would fucking love you. As she does all other cute girls. She views them all as potential future sister-in-laws."
"Did he just call me cute?"
Phoenix finds that she is very pleased by this and laughs at Gokudera's slight discomfort.
"So I'm guessing she'll be happy we're together?"
"Are you kidding me! She'll be ecstatic!"
Phoenix laughs again.
"Well that's good...to...he-"
She trails off as she gets a strange look on her face. Gokudera looks down at Phoenix in worry.
"Aydan, what's wrong."
"Shut up for a second."
Aydan closes her eyes and tilts her head as she drums out a beat against Gokudera's chest... Gokudera quirks an eyebrow while he waits for Phoenix to tell him what happened.
"Oh...Oh!" Phoenix quickly untangles herself from Gokudera and garbs her guitar again, playing a quick melody and then writing it down in the notebook. Phoenix takes up the tune again and begins to sing. "Grow me a garden of roses. Paint me the colors of sky and rain; teach me to speak with their voices. Show me the way and I'll try again."
Phoenix stops playing and quickly looks over her notes with an excited look on her face. Gokudera props himself up on his elbows and look at Phoenix in wonder.
"Wow. That was...amazing."
Phoenix shrugs.
"It was nothing."
"Say's you. It was really nice."
"But it wasn't...the tune was off...and the timing..." Phoenix looks down at her hands which are still resting against the guitar. "I haven't written anything in a while so this was kinda bad."
Gokudera ruffles Phoenix's hair and smiles.
"Oh shut up, it was fine."
"Did you just ruffle my hair?" Phoenix looks up as there is a knock on the door. "Why don't you go put a shirt on and I'll get that." Aydan kisses Hayato. "I don't want anyone else seeing what's mine."
She kisses him again and Gokudera laughs.
"Sure, whatever you say."
He gets up and goes into the bedroom to grab a shirt. Phoenix calls to him as she walks to the door.
"Hey, you are mine, and I am yours! Just accept it!"
