Dear Diary,
I've been informed that my inability to let trivial matters go is going to get me killed one day. I disagree.
For the first time in our legendary history of fights, arguments and misunderstandings, I initiated the cold shoulder. Never has that ever happened before but I'm actually not going to take it anymore. Love doesn't necessarily mean I won't put my foot down when I have to. She really needs to learn that there's only so much I can take.
We were walking to my house after a stilted, forced carefree shared meal for some tea. Someone came up to me in passing and told me she was 'ashamed of my behaviour'. When questioned further, Furisawa-san had apparently heard that I'd been neglecting my four year old son and cheating on my wife of eight years, whom I apparently married after I got her pregnant and she had a miscarriage.
As I heard about this remarkably unfulfilling life history of drug abuse and domestic violence, Kushina-san became redder and redder by the minute, looking anywhere but at me (her preferred view being of her orange sandals). I quickly disabused her of these blasphemous rumours and, after she apologised embarrassedly and promised that 'all my friends will hear about this! I knew it was all lies, knew your mother, couldn't have raised…' and etc., she went on her way and I politely asked Kushina-san if this was another one of her inventive conspiracy theories.
She nodded sheepishly and, after she didn't apologise but simply assumed she was forgiven, I snapped.
It's bad enough that she still hasn't told me why we even had the nine-month argument, but she's also completely and utterly taking me for granted.
Maybe I would have if I wasn't so angry at life. I know for a fact that I would've forgiven without being apologised to, wouldn't even have registered that it was something to apologise for. I would've taken it as another one of the many trials of being friends with Kushina-san.
But Shikaku's gotten married and I barely see him anymore (so no offloading any and all nerves and worries on him anymore), the love of Inoichi's life just died (and I didn't even know her! She was under my command on the Iwa front, and I didn't even know they knew each other. What kind of friend am I anyway? Sorayama Ino died two days ago of Lesch-Nyhan syndrome, and no one but Inoichi apparently even cared enough to notice), Chouza's in intensive care for the sixth time this month (severe chakra depletion and Type 5 diabetes*) and Tsume-senpai just gave birth.
The last one ought to be a happy occurrence, except that I'm invariably roped into being a babysitter and, coupled with everything else, it can get a bit stressful.
Don't get me wrong, I love Inuzuka Hana and I love being her godfather. But taking Kushina-san on top of that?
I may be 'insanely awesome' and 'seriously cool!' according to my students, but there's only so much one man can take.
I can't take this.
So now we're in a fight, I made her cry in front of a total of twenty three witnesses, she's had everyone turn against her** (for the first time ever I might add, everyone actually believes I'm not the one at fault. This fact doesn't please me, but it does make me feel like I'm justified in what I'm doing) and I don't feel sorry about it.
…
Okay, maybe a little, but not enough to take it back.
So we're in a metaphorical (and very deadly) war, Mikoto-chan is slowly becoming an Uchiha drone, Fugaku and I actually get along and Itachi-chan calls me 'unca'.
It makes me want to squeal like a fangirl.
I got my head tested.
Apparently, I'm also within the standard deviation for 'normal behaviour' for insane geniuses.
Who knew?
I thought I was well adjusted, but apparently not.
Namikaze Minato
PS Obito, Rin-chan and Kakashi have become semi-stable enough to take out in public. We're beginning D-rank missions tomorrow.
Oh Kami-sama, lend me strength to go on with life.
Also, Kakashi's new jutsu looks like a spazzy ball of lightning. Obito's words not mine. Obito gets chills everytime he sees it. Says that he gets a really bad vibe from it every time Rin-chan stands too close to it.
Rin-chan says he's being overdramatic and that she can handle herself. Obito says he's just looking out for her safety.
It's a bit sad that neither one of them even remotely believes Kakashi wouldn't use it on Rin-chan. But then again, if the mission called for it…
They don't know Kakashi like I do, so they actually think, because he keeps going on about rules and regulations and 'teammates are only beneficial if they are useful to the completion of the mission', that he'd not hesitate to fight against them.
I guess I'm the only one that knows, with a bone deep certainty, that Kakashi would never.
He cares too much. No matter what he says or seems to think he thinks.
*Type 5 diabetes: Well, Akimichi eat a lot and they don't die, so Ninja Diseases That Defy All Logic needed to be created. I helpfully obliged.
**if you'll recall, everyone was against him when Kushina started this fight. Never has it ever happened that Minato wasn't blamed for a fight that Kushina started (basically, all of them). This is the first time.
This was originally going to be about Minato and Hizashi catching up and…that's next chapter now. Not a very funny chapter this one, I'll admit, but Minato's growing up (tail-end of puberty and all that) and has a lot of expectations on his shoulders. At this point in time, Minato's going through the wringer with his Hokage training, the war is not over and he's being called to countless meetings and Kushina seriously isn't helping, what with not telling him that the Kyuubi was the reason she was in a fight with him (she's completely justified too by the way.), going through puberty herself and hating herself for loving him because she knows that she "can't be with him".
Kishimoto said that Minato wouldn't have made it to Hokage without Kushina. This is why: he can't handle everything without someone to talk to. Not vent or rant, that isn't Minato's style, but just talk to.
It takes very little for Minato to become friends with someone, but infinitely more for him to be able to trust them unconditionally. Jiraiya has only just gained that status (with the whole pummelling into the dust after the friendly three o'clock rendezvous) and he's been Minato's sensei since he was seven. Inoichi was Minato's first ever shinobi friend, and Chouza a close second, and he doesn't trust them unconditionally. Trust them yes, unconditionally no.
Shikaku is the only one at this point in time (barring Jiraiya) and he's recently gotten married so Minato doesn't see him too often, and it's affected him almost instantaneously. He's become less tolerant (but given Minato's legendary levels of tolerance, it seriously doesn't seem like it at all to anyone but himself).
Kushina becomes his confidant, he regains his equilibrium, and then becomes Hokage. Without Kushina, he just wouldn't be up to it. If they continue fighting, he'll burn out. He has too much on him at a very young age. Some people calculated the age he became Hokage, and apparently he could have been as young as eighteen. Wow. Go Minato-sama! But still, way too much pressure on him. He's lost his parents and his teammates, and he's set to lose both Obito and Rin as well. It's a miracle that he's one of the most well-adjusted shinobi in Masashi's Naruto.
