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*AlphaWolf19: Yay, a cure! I'm glad you like it! Wow, you really do understand, that's so cool! You will find out the bloodwork result soon enough! As in, in this chapter :D I think the idea of the Winchesters, because Dean absolutely flirt with Ash, hehe! Oh, well, I hope you get better very soon :) And thanks!
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*jayesh dms (ch9): Hello, again :) Remember, no one knows what he's really like aside from Ash, not even the Sheriff. But, yes, you will see as you read on what happens!
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*jayesh dms (ch12): I love writing derek x Jade moments so you will definitely get some!
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"Okay, I can't do this anymore." Ash shakes her head, pushing the fresh cup of cattle blood away from her. "I can't drink this anymore."
"You have too." Derek tells her, pushing it back in front of her.
"No, screw that." She shakes her head.
"Are we having a problem?" Deaton asks, coming into the room with Scott not far behind him.
"Yes." Ash nods. "I'm not drinkng this shit anymore. Just change me back!" She exclaims. "I've done enough healing, I'll be fine!" She says.
Deaton shares a look with Scott, because they've talked about this.
"Then all that has to be done is the gathering of the last ingrediant." Deaton says.
"Oh, thank God." Ash sighs in relief. She's been sitting in this bed for a further 2 days and she's going crazy. She's had either Scott or Derek at her side. The others have only this evening returned to their own homes. And by own homes, I mean, Stiles went back to the Hale loft with Jessie and Isaac to spend the night considering it's getting dangerously close to midnight by now.
"What's the last ingrediant?" Derek asks, looking up at the Vet.
Deaton doesn't give him an answer, instead nods to the door.
Derek looks at Ash and then back to Deaton before standing up.
"Scott, you talk him through it, I'll check over Ash." Deaton says.
Ash watches with a light frown as Derek and Scott disappear out the door.
Deaton sits down beside Ash, looking at the girl.
"You're not hungry?" He asks her.
Ash looks away from the door her two boys just walked out of before looking at Deaton.
"I don't know. I mean, I am, but that stuff is so gross, I can't drink it." Ash says.
"I was worried this would happen." Deaton says, rubbing his chin with his index finger and thumb. "You're right, we need to change you back. Because if you're hungry but won't drink this-"
"Then it won't be long before I feed." Ash finishes for him, looking into her lap shamefully.
"Yeah." Deaton nods.
Derek and Scott come back into the room. But there's something wrong, Ash can tell by the look on Derek's face.
"Clear out a minute." Derek says to the other two.
Then Ash watches them leave the room, her frown deepening.
"Something's wrong, right?" She asks him.
Derek sits down in the chair closest to her, the chair he's been occupying more times than not.
"Derek.." Ash says, sitting up a little. Her pain is bearable now, she's had a couple days to heal by now, and that's with the super healing as well.
"What do you remember from the night we came and got you?" Derek asks her.
"What? Derek, what's going on-"
"Just tell me." He says.
"Fine. Um..I went to the nest, found Jacob there. He was..he was trying to force me to drink blood, finish the shift or something. I don't know, it all happened really fast. We were fighting then..I don't know, you all came and I blacked out." She tells him.
"So, you don't know what happened to them all then?" Derek asks, but he's stalling, because he doesn't know how she's going to take this news.
"No, I don't." She says. She sits up a little more. "What happened to them, Derek?"
"They're dead." Derek says, meeting her eyes with his green ones. "All of them. Including Jacob." He says.
Something does twist in Ash's gut as her eyes fall to her lap, but it's nowhere near as bad as when she found out her Mom died, or when Scott told them Derek had died either. It's small, because he did mean something to Ash, but that Vampire wasn't really Jacob anyway.
"We had to kill him, we didn't have a choice." Derek says.
Ash just nods.
"I'm sorry." Derek apologises even though he knows he shouldn't, he just fears what Jacob said will come true.
You can't kill me. Ash would hate you.
"Ash?" Derek says, ducking his head a little so he can look her in the eye because she's not responding to him.
"Don't be sorry." Ash finally answers him. She looks up, meeting his eyes too now. "It wasn't really him anyway." She says, because she's right. But it still does hurt. No matter who they are, if you lose someone, it hurts.
"Uh..did you do it?" She asks him. "Were you the one to kill him?"
Derek shakes his head, even though a huge part of him wishes he was the one to kill Jacob. But he knew someone else had to do it, that's why he let Peter. Because it wasn't about killing a creature that would hurt innocents or try to change them anymore, it became solely about getting revenge for Ash, for what he did to her in college, for how he's helped Eric in changing her, and how he would have tried to take her away from their pack. As much as that fuels his fire, makes him angry, and strong, he never wants to lose control like he did with the Skinwalkers where Peter had to intervene because he wouldn't stop. He couldn't stop.
"No, Peter did." He tells her. "He did it fast too. Jacob was dead before he felt it, I promise." He assures her.
"Okay." Ash nods.
They fall into quiet again.
"I needed you to know because..this last ingrediant?" Derek breaks the silence. "It's blood from the Vampire that turned you. We have to go back and get it." He tells her. "I just thought you should know the whole truth."
"Yeah. Thanks." She mumbles.
"Scott and I will be back soon." He promises her, because he hasnt left the animal clinic since they brough her in here, neither has Scott, and they sent the others home as not to overwhelm or tempt her. "Deaton will stay here with you."
"Okay." Ash nods.
There's this stretch of silence that neither of them know how to fill. Because Derek wants to kiss her goodbye, and Ash is uncertain whether she wants that, and Derek's uncertain whether he should do that.
Ash kissed him days ago, because she was saying goodbye for good.
Neither of them really know where they stand right now.
"If I kiss you..are you gonna hit me?" Derek asks her, because she's a Vampire now, maybe a weakened one, but she could still hurt him if she really wanted too.
"Now that's a chance you gonna decide whether you'll take or not." Ash says, because she's unsure.
Derek doesn't hear the word 'yes', so he goes for it.
Just like the first time they ever kissed, when his lips touch her's, her hands come up like she's going to push him away. But she doesn't. Her hands rest of his chest gently and she lets him kiss her.
Derek pulls back, looking at the girl.
"You're braver than I thought." Ash says, looking back at him.
"It was worth it." He says back before standing back up. He comes forward again, kissing her cheek this time. "If you need me, call out and I'll be here, I promise." He says quietly.
Ash nods and Derek pulls back again. He walks out the door, going to Scott's side.
Ash exhales and lays back againist her resting bed again. She doesn't want this odd seperation between her and Derek, but things have definitely been different since he said those things about her still loving Jacob. Of course she doesn't love Jacob, he broke her heart the bastard. Ash only has time for one man, and that's Derek. But she needs Derek to be able to see that, otherwie them being together could never work, it could never be real.
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Jessie can't sleep. She's held onto this secet, this life changing secret for 2 whole days. She feels like she might explode.
Stiles wakes up, because there's nothing warm hugged into him. He opens his eyes slowly blinking away sleepiness and notices Jessie's not even in bed with him.
The male pushes the blankets off of him and finds the floor, walking towards her room door.
He goes downstairs, stopping at the bottom when he sees her.
She sits on the sofa, hugging around one of her knees, a folded up sheet of white paper in her hand.
"Jess?" Stiles says sleepily.
She turns to him, quickly tucking the paper under her other leg.
"I'm fine, Stiles, get back in bed." She says.
But Stiles knows that's a lie.
He walks over to her, sitting down beside her on the sofa.
"I know when something's up with you, Jess, and something's up with you right now." Stiles says, looking at her. "You've been distant the last couple days, and I know it's not just about this thing with Ash."
Jessie bites her bottom lip, unsure whether she should reveal the news or not. She knows she should, she just doesn't really know how. She's terrified of how he'll react as well. I mean, what if he doesn't want this? She can't do it alone, she needs him, she loves him.
"Babe, c'mon, what's wrong?" Stiles asks her.
Jessie turns to him, locking eyes with him.
"Do you love me, Stiles?" She asks him seriously.
"Of course I do. Why would you ask me that?" Stiles says with a frown.
Jessie sighs, looking back down into her lap.
"Jessie, please, what's going on?" Stiles asks, getting worried. "You're scaring me." He says.
Jessie looks back up at him, because that's exactly what she didn't want to do.
"Something's happened, something that's going to change a lot of things." Jessie says.
"Whatever it is, I'll always be here for you, I'll always love you." Stiles assures her, seeing she's having trouble coming out with it. "Hey." He says, putting her hand over her's. "You can tell me."
Jessie nods, still chewing on the words.
"Derek couldn't detect my sickness by scent. I listened to you both and went to the doctors, in case it was something serious, you know?" She briefs him.
Stiles nods, remembering that day.
"Baby, whatever it is, we'll work something out." Stiles says when she doesn't continue on.
"I know." Jessie nods. "But um..my results came back. I found the letter when we came here for clothes." Jessie says.
"That was two days ago, Jess, you should had told me something was wrong sooner." Stiles lectures. But then he sees the look on her face. "I..I'm sorry." He apologises.
Jessie nods as she brings the folded up letter out from under her leg. She doesn't do anything with it, just looks down at it.
"Can I?" Stiles asks with a deepened frown of worry, seeing her just stare at it. She nods and Stiles takes it into his own hands, unfolding it. He looks down at it and reads it, freezing up in shock just like she did when she read it.
Miss Jessie Anna-Lee Hale
Result:
Serum Pregnancy Test-POSITIVE
It's quiet for a long time.
"You're.." Stiles says, stunned.
"Yeah." Jessie nods. "I am. Um..surprise.." She says awkwardly, not sure how he feels about this news. She gets nervous when Stiles doesn't say anything. It gets to her, it really does, until she's crying and she can't stop. She's had some up and down emotions in the last few weeks especially, everyone's noticed at one time or another..now she knows why.
Stiles turns to her when he hears her start to cry.
"Hey, it's okay." He says, pulling her into his embrace, hugging her.
Jessie grips his shirt tightly, crying into it because she has no idea what to do, she has no idea what happenes now. She's scared.
"Jess, we're gonna figure all of this out, I promise." He assures her, trying to soothe the crying girl best he can in his own shocked state.
Jessie nods and stays clinging to him, her hormones spiking so much she can't stop the overflow of tears.
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It's closer to 2 in the morning when Scott and Derek come back into the animal clinic.
Ash hears them, and smells them, sitting up in her bed.
Deaton, from across the room, sees her and looks over at the door too.
Scott comes in first, holding something in his hand, Derek behind him.
"Is that it?" Deaton asks Scott.
"Yeah, it's full too." Scott says, handing it over to him.
Ash sees a syringe full of a very dark liquid.
Vampire blood.
"That's good. This will work." Deaton nods. He goes over to his other counter and begins pulling down jars from the shelf.
"How are you feeling, Ash?" Scott asks, sitting down beside her.
"Nervous." She answers honestly, glancing over at where Deaton's working with his back to them.
Jars and jar lids pop and clink. Something splashes into a cup, followed by another untempting sound.
And the smell..argh, it's worse than the cattle blood.
"You'll be fine." Scott says.
"You said it'd be worse than the pain." Ash reminds him.
"I know that, but you'll be you again, so it's worth it, right?" Scott asks.
"Yeah." Ash nods.
"Okay." Deaton turns around, holding a clear glass full with a disgusting coloured liquid that smells worse and worse the closer he gets to her. "Drink this, all of it." Deaton says, putting it in her hand.
Ash sniffs it and almost throws up.
"What the hell is in this? It's worse than the cattle blood." She objects, screwing her face up.
"Trust me, it's better you don't know." Deaton says, making all three of them look at him with frowns.
"That was very comforting, thanks." Ash says sarcastically. "Okay." She hypes herself up, trying to ignore the smell of it.
She puts it to her lips, drinking the horrific liquid as fast as she can. The taste is..there's no words to describe that horror.
"Here, she's gonna need it." Deaton says, grabbing a bucket.
But he isn't fast enough.
Ash jumps out of bed, because she needs a toilet or a-
Sink!
She rushes over to the sink, burying her face in it as litres of burning black liquid is forced up her throat.
"What the hell?" Scott asks, frowning angrily at Deaton as he and Derek rush over to her.
"It's part of the process, I told you it wouldn't be a joyride." Deaton reminds them.
Derek pulls her hair back, because she's got long hair and it's getting right in her way.
Scott rubs her back gently, hating how black snakes creep up his arm and he feels the intensity of this painful transition.
When she's done, she all but collapses, Derek catching her before she hits the ground.
"Wait, it's okay." Derek says, catching her in his arms, slowly lowering her towards the floor. "I got you." He tells her, sitting down on the floor, cradling the girl in his arms as flashes of images fly behind her eyes.
She sees the pink roses Derek brought up.
Jacob coming to her door.
They bump into each other at the coffee shop.
Jacob's in hospital.
Ash investigating the resturant.
She sees Eric for the first time.
She feels the burning in her hand as the mark's burnt into her palm.
Then she's in the hospital, and Jacob is about to attack her but doesn't.
She's dragged into the woods and bitten.
The rest is vague, her coming into the nest, the fight breaking out.
And that's it.
Then it's just black.
"Ash?" Scott says, kneeling down beside her and Derek.
Derek looks up at him with a worried look, because she's stopped moving.
"No..it should have worked." Deaton says, confused.
Then Ash starts coughing.
Relief fills all three of them, only to be replaced with worry again when she squirms in pain.
Her eyes burn, so much different, so much worse, compared to crying.
All they can do is watch as the red ring around her irises burns a deep red then fades away until it's gone.
She falls back against Derek again, feeling like she's out of breath.
Then it's her hand.
She grits her teeth, unable to stop the cry that leaves her lips as the ring in her palm burns a bright pink then fades away too.
She completely collapses in Derek's arms, feeling like she's just run a marathon, completely exhausted.
"Is that it? Did it work?" Scott asks, looking up at Deaton. "Ash?" He says, looking down at her.
She can't really make words, so she just nods. Because she feels like that horrible feeling has passed, and she can't smell every little thing anymore, and she's no longer hungry. Well, not for blood, but she could go for a burger and a beer right now, maybe a cigarette too.
"Oh, god." Scott sighs in relief, leaning his head on her shoulder.
"You should take her home and get her comfy, the next two days are going to be rough too." Deaton tells them.
Ash looks at him with a defeated look. She can't go through that again.
"Nothing that bad, it's just going to be.. You're not completely human just yet, but you're well on your way." Deaton tells her.
"Thank you." Ash manages to say weakly, because she can't express her gratitude to the man that just gave her her life back. There's no words for it.
Both Scott and Derek look at him, giving him thankful nods too. Because he's just saved their girl.
"Take her home, boys." Deaton says.
Scott gets to his feet as Derek hooks his arms under Ash's legs so he can stand up and carry her, because, as you can imagine, walking is the last thing she wants to do right now.
Scott can't help but pull the Vet into an embrace, because that's his sister and there's no way he could have let her be one of those things, and he couldn't lose her either. Deaton gave them a third choice, he saved Ash.
"Your place." Ash says quietly, making Derek look down at her.
"My place?" He repeats.
Ash nods, cringing a little in pain.
"Your bed's comfier."
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Jessie's not long stopped crying when her and Stiles both hear the front door being pulled open.
They both shoot up from the sofa when they see the weak girl in Derek's arms.
"Oh, my God." Jessie says.
"Is she okay?" Stiles asks.
"She's gonna be fine, the cure just needs a couple more days." Derek says, making his way over to his room as Scott stops beside Jessie and Stiles.
"Um..why's he taking her into his room?" Stiles asks Scott quietly. "I thought they were..you know, broken up or something?"
"I don't think they could ever 'break up', no matter what happens." Scott says as he watches Derek practically tuck her into his bed, making sure she's warm and comfortable.
"I've never seen him this way before, never, only with her." Jessie says.
Scott looks at her, then notices her eyes are red and she smells of salt.
"Hey, what's wrong?" Scott asks her.
"It's okay, we're figuring it out." Stiles says to him, because they're not ready for people to know just yet.
"Okay." Scott nods, knowing Stiles was being vague on purpose. But he also knows Stiles will come to him if he needs help, so he doesn't push either of them for anymore answers.
Derek brushes her hair out of her face and notices she's starting to go through some more of the stages Deaton talked about already.
She's sweating, already becoming too hot.
"You wanna have a cold shower?" Derek asks her.
"Too sore." Ash shakes her head.
"I could.." He doesn't finish his sentence. He could get in with her, help with the pain. "Get some sleep, I'm gonna take the sofa-"
"No." Ash says, catching his arm. "Stay in here with me, please." She says, looking up at him.
"Are you sure?" Derek asks her.
Ash nods, letting him go. She definitely needs some security right now, she needs to feel safe and looked after. Derek and Scott can do that before than anyone. But Derek can do it in ways Scott can't.
"Okay. Just hold on." Derek says. He leaves the room, going over to the three teenagers.
Straight away he notices his sister's been upset.
"Jess, what's wrong?" He asks her.
Jessie shakes her head.
"Nothing, I'm okay now." She says, and it isn't really a lie.
Stiles held her for almost 3 hours, cuddling her and tellng her it'd be okay, promising to be there for her, it made her feel a lot better.
"How's Ash doing?" Stiles asks him, not wanting the alpha to dwell on the subject for too long because him and Jessie have both decided to keep it to themselves until at least Ash is better. The last thing anyone else needs is stress.
"Not that good, but she'll be okay." Derek says. He turns to Scott next. "She's gonna stay here with me tonight." He says.
Jessie and Stiles stay quiet, because Scott's about as protective of Ash as Derek is of Jessie. And in Ash's injuired state, it's even worse.
Scott looks at the alpha, his mind jumping between agreeing and refusing.
"I'm gonna stay too then." Scott says, because that's the only inbetween he can think of.
"Okay." Derek nods, because he knows that too. "Take the sofa."
"Then where will you sleep?" Scott asks him.
Once again, Jessie and Stiles keep quiet, their eyes darting between the two wolves.
Derek smiles, just a little.
"Goodnight, Scott." Is all he gives for an answer before going back into his room, shutting the door behind him.
Jessie and Stiles look at each other before looking at Scott.
"Hmm." Scott says, sitting down on the sofa.
"Okay..well.." Stiles says, scratching the back of his neck awkwardly. He takes Jessie's paper, because leaving it around for someone else to find and read would be a very bad move. "We're gonna head to bed as well then." He says.
"Night, Scott." Jessie says.
"Night, guys." Scott says.
Stiles claps his best friend over the shoulder before taking his girlfriend's hand and leading her up the stairs to her room.
Scott takes the blanket off the back of the sofa and drapes it over himself, laying back againist the cushions.
Derek slips into bed beside Ash, unsure of how this works now. Are they on good terms or bad? Neutral, maybe? Who knows? The Vampire thing has sort of..complicated the already very complicated.
"Still hot?" Derek asks her.
"No." Ash shakes her head. "Freezing now." She shivers.
She'll go from very hot, to very cold, quickly.
"Come here." Derek says, moving closer to her.
Ash doesn't even think twice about it, she cuddles close to him, stealing any warmth she can, even Derek can feel how icy her skin is.
"Sleep now, Ash." He says, pressing a kiss to her temple.
Ash is too tired to answer, she just shuts her eyes, slipping to sleep.
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Well, she's almost human again! Yay! And yes, Jessie's pregnant! So, this fic won't be finishing just yet! I have an idea..it's a little crazy, but I wrote it to see where it'd take me and I actually really like it, it's a Dashlyn/Dash scene. It's a big step, huge, but it's not 'I love you', I've decided they will never say those words to each other and I have no problems with that decision either! But that doesn't mean it's not true, they're just never going to say it out-loud. So, I'm going to mull it over so more and maybe insert it somewhere towards the end :) Favourite, follow and review!
