Now we're broken on the floor

She just wants me to share her

It hasn't been this way before

She just wants me to dare her

The phone rings

And she screams

"Stab my back" by The All-American Rejects


Tanya's POV

I came here with one purpose. And it was a simple objective. Easy to follow. Easy to succeed. My mentality hadn't changed through out the years. Once you're a teenage girl, especially one with as much….experience, you come to one logical conclusion about guys. They are all the same.

And it's true. There is no denying it. They will all surrender to the temptation of the flesh. It doesn't matter how much they say they love you. The words, the affections, the promises, don't mean a thing in the end. If a guy wants a girl…He'll have her. And when they submit to temptation, the girl they are supposedly in love with doesn't even cross their mind. They cant even remember the poor girls name. They only know the heat and the lust.

So if my theory is so precise, why is Edward Cullen calling pushing away from me? Why cant he stop repeating his stupid girlfriends name?

"Edward." I growled, pushing him against his back. "What did you just call me?"

Edward blinked. His emerald eyes were surrounded by red sockets. Caused by the amount of alcohol burning in his system. "B-Bella…" He slurred. His eyes closing.

I slapped my hand against his chest roughly. "Im Tanya." I made sure to pronounce my name carefully. Separating it into two syllables. "Tanya!"

He breathed. He was starting to reek of Vodka. But it didn't matter. I knew why I drove for two hours to this fucken rainy town. I knew why I came to the Cullen Mansion. Why I convinced Carmen, my mother, to take Esme out for the day. I knew well what I was doing. And I knew perfectly well Edward Anthony Cullen didn't belong to me. But didn't that make it all that sweeter? The prize was going to be so rewarding. He was finally going to be mine. "No. " He shook his head. His bronze hair splattering on his carpet. "Bella." He mumbled again.

I felt my anger rise. "Im not fucken Bella!" I yelled, digging my nails into his chest. "Im Tanya! Tanya!" Damn him! I will get what I want! "Im yours!"

Edward grabbed onto my hand, pulling it out of his chest. "I want Bella." He said stubbornly.

Stab my back

It's better when I bleed for you

Walk on me

It never was enough to do

Ever since we were in Middle School, it was no surprise to anyone that I liked Edward Cullen. Everyone knew that I had this obsession over him. And that being his best friend was never going to cut it.

In reality, I was never his best friend. People just figured we were. We were as close as you can get. And Maybe to him I was his best friend, but when you are friends with someone you open up to them, you tell them all your secrets and insecurities, and if I was to have done that with Edward, he would have known the real me.

And the real me, is the person that is straddling him. Forcing him into something that in his right mind he would never do.

Im selfish. Self-centered. Im greedy, I spoiled, Im arrogant, Im everything that he has always hated in a girl. And I know it. But he could have never possibly imagined that I would do this to him. And of course he wouldn't. I was always Saint Tanya to him. The girl who was as sweet as there could be. And it was a wonderful act. No one bought it more than Him.

But that was it. I was just his friend. And He was just something I've wanted for so long. But Edward Cullen never had eyes for any girl. No one was good enough for him. No girl possessed the qualities he was looking for. There was no girls that interested him. No one that caught his eye. And he couldn't see that I was in front of him. That I was all he needed. All he was ever going to need. And yet, he never gave me the time of day. I was just like his sister.

When I had to move, Summer after Sophomore year, I was still like the sister he never had. And I was left with this want of him. My obsession was still there. But I left knowing that he was never going to find anyone. Not at least in this dumpy town. It was Forks! People never came in. There was a limited amount of people, and Edward had rejected most of the teenage girl population. It was safe for me to go.

How was I supposed to know, that hiding in the shadows, was Isabella Swan? The girl who ended up taking what was mine!

And for that, she is going to regret. She is going to wish she had never laid eyes on Edward Cullen. Im going to make her hurt.

Poor Edward, I guess he could never imagine little Tanya was capable of destroying what he held most dear.

I can't get past her

Falling fast

It's true

It hasn't done a lot for you

"Edward?" I called him softly. It was time for Plan B. Apparently my previous one wasn't working. My theory of Men didn't apply to Edward. But lucky for me, He didn't know how to handle his Vodka.

"Yeah?" He placed his palms on both side of my waist. Holding on to it. His eyes were somewhere else. He looked like he was going to pass out at any minute.

"You love Bella right?"

He turned his gaze to me. This act before would had made my heart start pounding like crazy, but now his dazzling eyes didn't effect me at all. It just showed me that he was never going to be truly mine. That his loving stare, the one that he used to give me whenever a guy would break up with me, was for someone else. That his eyes were never going to shine for me. Instead they would be polluted with poison, because he will never, in a conscience state, me mine. "She means the world to me…"

I glared. "Want me to take you to Bella?" I asked.

He smiled. That grin that could make any girl melt. "Yeah…would you do that for me?"

I smirked. My hatred was boiling in my veins. He was never going to remember any of this. He was never going to know the truth. "Of course." I pushed myself of him, pulling his arm in the process. I needed him to sit up. "You know I would do anything for you, Edward. What are friends for? "

"I feel sick….Esme's going to kill me." He muttered as I helped him off the floor. Throwing his arm around my shoulder. He wobbled once his feet touched the floor.

"Careful." I said as He grabbed me tightly. "Let's go upstairs, okay? Once you go to sleep you feel perfectly fine." I turned his body towards the staircase at the end of the Living Room. I had known this house like if it was mine. I knew where everything was. In countless occasions I stayed in the Guest Bedroom. Where I dreamt of the day Edward and I would be curled up in his bedroom, as he whispered that he loved me. Well that for sure went to fucken hell.

He was going to regret ever crushing my fantasies.


Stab my back

It's better when I bleed for you

Walk on me

It never was enough to do

I can't get past her

Falling fast

It's true

It's better when I bleed for you

I managed to get Edward up into his bedroom. That fucker only fell twice on the way up here. I was sure I was going to have bruises after this. Black and purple spots on my beautiful white skin. Humph, it was just a little price to pay. Because my bruises would eventually fade away, but what was going to happened to Bella was going to last her a lifetime. Scars that will remain apart of her until she is able to mend her pathetic self. And even then, she'll have a reminder. She will never forget the name Tanya Denali.

"Edward…" I elbowed him gently. I was laying next to him. Feeling his Royal Blue silk sheets wrapped around my naked body, along with his. "Edward…" I repeated again. He stirred in his pillow, his eyes were beginning to open. I rapidly place my head in his chest. And pretended to be in a profound sleep.

"Ah fuck…" He groaned. I felt his left arm, the one away from me, move. He was probably rubbing his temples. No doubt there was probably a banging pain inside of his head. It happened all the time to people who didn't know how to drink. Bless Cullen's soul. He just made this a whole lot easier.

I yawned. Making sure he felt me pressed into his chest.

"Tanya….?" There was a tone of shock in his velvety voice. I opened my eyes…slowly. Savoring this moment. It was all coming together. "Tanya what the hell….what…."My eyes met his. His gaze roamed my entire body. Grasping the I was laying on his bed. With nothing on. With his sheets tousled around us. And He was pretty much wearing the same thing as me. Nothing.

"Oh Edward…" I bit my lip theatrically, making sure my eyes watered. I pulled the sheets closer to me. "What did we do?" I sob escaped my mouth.

"No…" He shook his head. "This cant be happening…" Tsk Tsk. Denial is such a terrible thing. "Tanya… please tell me nothing…..nothing happened."

A tear slipped down my cheek. "You don't remember?"

"Remember what Tanya?" He hissed. "How the….." He paused. Looking concentrated. "I cant even remember how the fuck I got here! " He yelled. "What happened?!"

I gasped. "What happened?" I repeated to him, in an aghast tone. I threw the sheets at him. Hurriedly standing up from his King Sized bed. "You told me you loved me!" I shouted at him.

"What?!" He raised an eyebrow at me.

I grabbed my jeans that were on the floor. "How could you not remember Edward? You told me….you told me you loved me! You kissed me!" I slipped them on, bending down to grab my shirt. "How can you not remember that?"

His jaw dropped. "I…I would never…Tanya… I-I don't love you…" His green-eyes watered. "I love Bella. I love Bella!"

More fake tears rolled down my cheeks. "Clearly…" I scoffed. "Is this the way you show her that you love her? By pushing me to have sex with you! By leading me on?! What the hell did you want to do Edward?!" I gave him an accusing look. "Did you think you could just play with me? What the fuck is it huh? Bella doesn't want to give it up to you so you use me! Im supposed to be your friend! You said you loved me!" I shouted at him. Angrily, I put my socks on.

He shook his head furiously. "I don't love you Tanya! I love Bella!"

"Then why did you tell me you loved me!"

"This was a mistake…I…How am I ever going to face Bella like this?" Tears dropped from his eyes. God was he pathetic or what?

"Thanks for worrying about me, Edward! Because I don't feel like a fucken slut!"

"T-Tanya…Im S-Sorry….but you know…Im sorry." He cried again. "This is all my fault…I didn't know what I was doing…I should have never drank…Im sorry…"

I let out a humorless laugh. "This is your fault, Edward! You brought yourself into this situation! You brought me into this! You…you knew I was starting to form a great friendship with Bella!" He winced once I mentioned her name. "Now I cant possibly look her in the eye! Or you!….You knew I have always loved you…and you used me," Wow, Im a natural. These tears just keep falling down. "You used me for your needs, not thinking what it was going to do to me!"

"I love Bella, Tanya. She is everything to me!"

I grabbed my boots that were by his door. "Then you should have never slept with me…." I opened the door of his room. "Your going to destroy her Edward. What you did is unforgivable. You don't deserve her…" I spat. Closing the door behind me.

"No!" He growled from the inside.

I leaned against the door, hearing him sob like a mad man. "I loved you Edward…" I whispered to myself. "But you never wanted me. For that….Bella is going to wish she was dead. She is going to cry her fucken heart out." I pushed myself forward. Heading down the stairs. One single tear rolled down my cheek.

No. He would have never imagined that I would be the one to stab him in the back.

I hope that love he gave you

Was just enough to save you

You nearly broke my heart

Just look at what you're tearing apart


Hey Guys! So this is the first chapter in the Missing Moments!

Yay!

Took me a while to do it, wasnt quite into it but Hey! Hope you guys like it! :D.