They Never Knew

Chapter 48

Everything Hurts

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Amy stayed the entire night feeling a sickening odd amount of comfort from being close to her sister even adding in the reason she was there. It made her feel so guilty knowing even when her sister had tried to end her life she still wanted to sleep next to her rather than sleep on her own and know Emma was okay. One of those guilty pleasures she supposed? She never had really known how those worked. She furrowed her brow no longer feeling the need to sleep as she looked up to see her tired and broken sister's face. She hoped she was dreaming in her medical induced state. Amy didn't understand how she could do this! She was so mad! So mad at her sister for thinking that this world would be fine without her- that she would be fine without her!

She knew she would have to sit and listen and understand when Emma woke up. She knew it would be a while before she could actually voice her disappointment and hurt, but it didn't change that it was there. After all they had been through! Amy had assumed after all this time that Emma was indestructible. Well…she had been wrong before.

Her phone beeped causing her to take her eyes off of her sister. Looking down she saw it was a message from Hell (also known as work). She rolled her eyes quickly sending a text saying she couldn't come and to move all of her appointments. She took a breath running her fingers along Emma's arm as they had done when they were kids. Emma always used to fall asleep to the sensation. Seeing her sister was safe for the time being she laid her head down deciding sleep was for the best.

Amy frowned when she felt something running along her hair. As much as the sensation could lure her to sleep she was too freaked out by the fact someone was touching her to allow it. She frowned as she opened her eyes, the sun was shining into the room apparently trying to blind her. It took a moment for her vision to clear before the face became clearer…"Emma!"

Her sister smiled sadly at her. Never stopping the movement of her hand as she played with her hair. This had always calmed her sister down. Something she most definitely needed right now. "Hey Ams." Her voice was a soft whisper after such a long time without use. It had officially been two weeks since Emma was conscious. This left a very loud silence between the two. Neither wanting to start a fight. They just stared…finally it was Emma who spoke. She sighed trying to be as gentle as possible. "I'm sorry." She looked down not wanting to see the look of despair in Amy's eyes.

She looked up through her lashes. Amy wasn't looking at her either. Instead she was glaring at the sheets sadly. Her eyes were watering and her brows were furrowed, jaw clenched as she decided what she wanted to say. "How?" Emma frowned watching her sister. She knew Amy didn't mean how did she do it. The doctors would have already told her all of that. But Emma was still on a lot of medication and wasn't really that focused, not nearly enough to be able to decipher her sisters confusing words. Her sister looked up anger burning in her eyes. "How could you do this to me? Leave me here?" Emma stared into her eyes not knowing what to say.

Her throat swelled in pain as she tried to swallow the knot that was forming. "I-it wasn't intentional. I had originally just been trying to get rid of the pain and then I cut too deep and I felt so weak and powerless and I..I just thought…I thought you were better off." She said it in a hushed whisper now seeing how stupid that was going to sound to Amy. She stared at the comforter watching it become wet as her tears sprinkled across it.

"Better off! You-you have got to be kidding me! You're my sister! You can't just…" Her sentence faded as she watched Emma's shoulders shake with sobs. She inwardly scolded herself for making her hurt sister cry. She crawled into the bed hugging her tight. "Never mind…it doesn't matter. Just…please don't leave me again. Or next time I'll be right behind you." She could hear Emma laugh slightly before completely clutching to her. They stayed like that for a very long time.