Never Let Me Fall

A day had passed and I already had, partied hard, got drunk at least 15 times and had feed off nearly EVERYONE in the small town and compelled them to forget. Yeah, that's right! Katherine taught me to compel people...go ahead and hate bitches! Katherine and I had grown very close and fond of each other. I made her laugh she made me smirk or smile. We had fun. I couldn't feel happiness, but I knew I had it in my head somewhere...I just didn't know where.

AMERICAN GOTHIC

Katherine and I were walking down the street. We said hello to our mailman deliver.

Katherine had compelled the whole town. It was as if she owned the place, and since I lived with her...it was as if I owned the place too. And I liked the feel of power over a city. It felt good...at least in my head it did. I still felt nothing.

I heard Elena a walk away. She was with Rebekah. I see Elena had dyed a strain of her hair pink. Now that was pretty rad!

"Katherine...look." I told her, referring to Elena. Katherine nodded at me and whispered her plan to me. I nodded and proceeded with it. Somebody was gonna get their ass kicked! When Elena was vulnerable and alone, Katherine attacked her. With the elements of surprise. She was starting to choke her.

"I'm impressed. I never thought you'd find me here. Oh, well. It's a beautiful place to die." Kathrine told her. From behind someone grabbed Katherine by the neck and threw her on the ground. I went into fighting position and was about to attack the person, but stopped once I saw who it was.

Rebekah.

I may not care, but I knew better then to go up against an original.

We were at a dining table at a diner. Rebekah and Katherine sat next to each other. I was in the middle of them, while Elena was at the other side of the booth. Alone.

Isn't that ironically cruel?!

"Where's the cure?" Elena asked Katherine. "What? No 'I'm here to avenge my annoying little brother' speech?" Katherine wondered. "People die. We move on." Elena told her, before she drank her mug, emotionlessly. Katherine soon realized it.

"After turning off our humanity switch. So sad for the boys, though. Their special snowflake of human frailty... gone. Well, we're gonna be here for a while, I'm gonna grab some menus." Katherine said, before getting up. As she was about to get up from the booth, Rebekah stabbed her hand with a fork, preventing her from leaving. Katherine winced in pain and groaned a bit. "You're not going anywhere." Rebekah told her. "I forgot how charming you were." Katherine said, while gritting her teeth. "I'm surprised you even remember me at all, seeing as though you were so busy wedging yourself between my brothers." Rebekah stated.

I smiled slightly. A waitress came by and obviously saw the fork in Katherine's hand and asked, "Oh, my God, what happened?" I looked up at her and smiled fakly. "She's fine. You didn't see anything." I compelled her. She nodded and walked away from our table. "You've learned compulsion...I'm impressed." Elena told me. "How'd you even know I was a vampire?" I asked. "Word go's around. What I don't know is who turned you? And your humanity switch...and why?" Elena asked. "Katherine,...Katherine...and because my sister died yesterday. She was turned and she refused to feed...so...yeah." I told them, as if it wasn't really a big deal.

Rebekah was slightly surprised, but didn't say anything. Neither did Elena, then again she didn't care anyway so...

"By the way Rebekah, not that I care or anything, but I want the truth, why you compelled Stefan to sleep with me at the ball?" I asked her. That question has been bugging me in the past and it just came back out of no where. "Ooh, you and Stefan did the naughty? I always knew he liked to play rough, I just didn't know he flavored brunettes now." Katherine teased. I ignored her. "For starters Ana, I didn't compel him to sleep with you. I only compelled him to kiss you. I figure a small friendly kiss like peck on the lips, but he made it passionately instead. And the whole sex thing, well...he did that all on his own. I did it because I was tired of seeing him with no humanity and you practically pulling your hair out because of it. I did it to help you stop being shy. And it worked, didn't it?" Rebekah claimed.

"Whatever can we skip the teen drama already?" Elena asked. Nobody replied. Oh well, at least I knew the truth.

The Gazebo

I literally laughed my ass off on the inside, when Elena had made up a plan to pretend to be Katherine, so she could meet up with Katherine's mystery so called 'friend'.

Elena and I were at the Gazebo. That was somewhere in town. "So...you and Rebekah huh?" I started. "We only teamed up so she can take the cure, and I'm out in the clear. In other news...you and Katherine huh?" She started out. I see where this is going.

"Yeah. She turned off my humanity, showed me how to have a good time, taught me how to compel and other shit like that. We grew close and became friends. Also in other news, it's true that her sister was Amelia and you and I are cousins. Turns out my Dad was your biological mother Isobel's brother. Isobel changed her last name to Flemming once she got into college. That makes you and me cousins, and Tyler is also your cousin too. Hey did you know that my mother had a mantra and witch gene and my dad had the mantra and witch gene too, but mainly the werewolf and vampire gene?" I asked her, not really interested in what I just said.

"Nope. And besides, if your Dad had the werewolf gene...wouldn't that mean when Isobel was turned she'd become a hybrid instead of a vampire?" Elena asked slightly. "Not entirely... you see you have to BE a werewolf then die with vampire blood in your system to become a hybrid. Isobel and my Dad HAD the werewolf gene, but they weren't werewolves. You on the under hand, also had werewolf gene in you. And due to your doppelganger blood and the inability to kill someone for good as a human, you easily became a vampire, without the threat of becoming a hybrid." I told Elena.

"What about you? I mean you killed the hunter as a human and you had both the werewolf and vampire gene in you. So why didn't you become a werewolf or something?" Elena asked me. "I don't know. I think it's due to some curse I have that has been passed down thanks to my 1920's- 1930's ancestor Gracy." I told her, before taking a sip of my hot cocoa in my mug. Correction...the diner's mug that I stole and compelled them to let me borrow.

I soon heard a voice that was old englished. Somehow, I don't know why, but it made my heart flutter slightly. I turned my head to see who it was.

"Elijah." Elena and I both said to him. I smiled a bit slightly at him, while Elena was trying her best to hide her surprised face. "

You're a little late, aren't you?" Elena said in a mimicking Katherine voice, that I found a bit mockingly annoying. "You colored your hair." Elijah said as he stroked her hair, real slow like. "I like it." He said. "Thank you. It's actually gonna..." Elena started, she didn't finish once it happened.

Elijah had kissed Elena.

Elijah would NEVER kiss Elena! So why now? Unless...no...unless he thought she was Katherine! It soon hit me.

The texting, distance calls and secret meetings behind my back...

OMG! Katherine was Elijah's girlfriend!

I watched awkwardly as Elijah and Elena were kissing. I found it funny, how completely off guard Elena was about that kiss, yet tried to make it work!

"I've missed you." Elijah told her, once the kiss was broken. "And I've missed you." Elena told him.

Okay, it's official...Elena's acting on Katherine sucked! I literally found this plan a bit annoying. I was surprised Elijah couldn't see right through her. I know Elena and Katherine look the same or so. But if you hang around with them, you notice that they are TOTALLY different fucking people!

Eventually, what appeared like 10 seconds to me...Elijah soon found out it was really Elena and not Katherine. I tried so hard to hold back a smile. I don't know why, but lately I've been acting a bit like Katherine ever since my humanity was shut off. Maybe it's due to the fact that I LIVE with the fucking bitch! Oh, well...like I care?

"So...Where've you been 'Lijah?" I asked him, playfully. "None of your concern...and why are you a vampire?" He asked me. "Hmm...let me see if I remember correctly? Oh yes Katherine kidnapped me then she killed me. After that, my sister, Melissa was turned into a vampire. She refused to complete the transition... so she ended up dead. I went to Katherine, and since I was sired to her, she told me to turn off my humanity. I did it because she told me too. And for some reason, even though my humanity is off, I'm still sired to her. I guess it's due to my curse or something." I told him. I said the last part to myself.

Elijah looked a bit surprised and shocked at this. "And also I found out that Amelia...my ancestor was Katherine's sister...making Elena and I cousins? Such a coincidence isn't it?" I told him. He nodded slightly. "That's too bad. You had a good heart and spirit. It's a crying shame that the universe has lost the only person on earth, that kept it her entire life no matter how bad things got in Mystic Falls for her and her family and friends." Elijah said.

I felt slightly touched by the words, but it went away quickly. "Yeah...I guess it is a crying shame." I told him before walking off slightly. In the end, Elena got her necked snapped, Katherine and Elijah bickered about having trust issues or something like that...either way I ended up back to Katherine's house, cleaning up the mess the Salvatore brother's had made from their earlier fight.

The Diner (Happy Hour!)

I was walking down the street for fresh air. I was near a diner. I looked through the window from outside and saw Elena, Stefan and Damon. And the waitress body...was on the floor dead and lifeless. I assumed Elena had dealt with her. Elena soon left the diner heading in the opposite direction of me. I turned to face the window after watching her leave, and I accidentally bunked into the window. I quickly walked off as fast as I could before Stefan could see me.

God knows why, but I was using my human pace! I could hear footsteps behind me. Oh crap! I turned around saw I was a great distance way from him.

Stefan.

"Ana..." He started. He just stood there and looked at me. I looked at him. I took a deep breath and sighed. I soon closed my eyes and sped off.

Stefan

I sighed softly as Ana vanished. I could tell from the way she looked at me she was lost. The lights that I use to see in her eyes were gone.

She had turn off her humanity.

This doesn't surprise me. I knew the moment she left town that she was going to turn it off. I couldn't blame her. She just turned into a vampire AND lost her sister all in one or two days. It was too much for her to handle. I'll give her that, but I knew she'd be alright. Ana was a strong, yet vunerable girl. One way or another...she's not going to be emotionless forever. I'll give her all the time and space she needs in order to do it, if she wants.

I soon heard footsteps behind me. Knowing who it was, I hesitatly turned around to face my older brother.

"You okay?" He asked me a bit concerned. "Yeah...I just saw Ana." I told him. He froze on his place slightly but looked at me concerned and confused.

"She's gone, Damon...she flipped her switch." I told him. His face dropped slightly in disappointment, but he tried to hold it well. I knew it was hard for him. Lately, even though he didn't know it...Ana had grown on him. She was practically like a sister to him. He was shocked once I told him about her being a vampire while he was in New York, but I wasn't sure how he'd handle this sudden news. So far he was handling it well.

"She'll be fine. I mean come on...It's Ana we're talking about. She'll break through eventually." He told me. I nodded slightly hopping he was right.

I knew deep inside he was hopping he, himself, was right too.

Ana

After what seemed like 5 minutes to me had passed, I was at Katherine's house. I had locked and closed the door to make sure Stefan didn't follow me. I leaned down against the door and slid down until I reached the floor. I cuddled my knees together.

I was, for once in my life, felt stuck. I was stuck between feeling my emotions and not. It was as if every single emotion I had felt in my entire lifetime, was being blocked. It was as if there was this large brick wall that separated me and my emotions. I couldn't access my emotions. I felt numb, but deep, deep, deep, DEEP! Down inside I feel alone, scared, angry, sad, and above all horrified by what I've become.

My family and I were never really religious, yet I believed in God and I believed in heaven and hell. I knew Stefan didn't believe it, but I did. I started to wonder if God even lets supernatural creatures go to heaven?, because not all of them are bad...some of them are really nice and kind and have a good heart. I knew it was a long shot to think that way, but I just assumed and wondered.

At first, I thought God would help me and be there for me in life. But, my whole family is gone. My friends are gone. I've lost everyone...I've even lost myself. It made me question, why he was doing this to me? I've done nothing wrong to him, yet he still doesn't help me in life. My whole life starting from age 15 to now I was questioning if God even hears my prayers. After millions and millions of praying as a kid, I soon realized something.

God had turned his back on me, and right now I turned my back on him. I closed my eyes and laid there on the cold ground. By the time I heard Katherine walk up the steps outside ready to open and enter the house, I got up and sped to my room locking it up and speeding towards my bed. Where I dosed off, thinking that for the first time in my life...I had lost my faith in God.

(Ana's bitchy...ish just like Katherine. Is it me or does Anyone else Like Katherine more than Elena in this episode...or better yet this SEASON!? Any way the ending was pretty sad...let's hope Ana for the best. Also I'd like to thank you all SOOO much for reviewing my story. It means so much to me knowing how much people love this story...anyway thanks! You guys rock!)