Sorry for the long wait. I have been super busy with work and giving extra classes for more xmas cash. Hope you like chapter 49. Happy reading and thanks to all my lovely readers and reviewers.

In the end Kim ended up going back to her parents house with Danny. It should have felt wonderful being with her family, and playing with her little brothers, but the enormity of the situation wouldn`t leave her. Kim hadn`t thought much of Whitney`s treat to her life back in Peru, she was just terrified of Jared believing her about the baby being another mans. Danny explained to her that any threat to an imprints life meant death. If somebody killed or even hurt the imprint, it was breaking the tribes most sacred law. Jared would kill Whitney if she ever showed her beautiful face again. Kim didn`t want that. She didn`t want her boyfriend to murder someone, no matter how horrible that person was. She then thought about her baby. She would kill to protect him or her if anyone was foolish enough to try to harm it.

"Kimi you should stop pacing around, try to relax, you are giving me motion sickness." Danny said jokingly. He was demolishing his fifth grilled cheese sandwich and was eyeing her own untouched one with envy. Kim sighed and stood by the window, watching for any sign of Jared.

"Do you think he has gone to find her?"

"When I phased in that`s what he wanted to do. He was so angry that he couldn`t think straight, all he could see was red...literally. Sam is trying to make him stay under Alpha orders, but it is difficult. The imprint comes first, always, the pack second."

"If I could talk to him, I would make him calm down...I don`t want him risking his life because of this."

"You don`t understand. Jared loves you more than anything, more than his own life. Now that you are having his child the protectiveness and love is more intense. If it means him sacrificing his own life so you and the baby are safe, then he would do it, no questions asked, not a second thought. He almost lost you twice before, do you really think he would let it happen for a third time, even if it was just some stupid empty threat from some bimbo witch?"

"I suppose so...Christ this is such a mess. There is always something. If I lose Jared, I could never be the same. Never. I just want to talk to him."

"Do you want me to phase in and try and get him to talk with you?" Danny offered.

"It didn`t work the last time."

"True, he was too angry and unstable. He was afraid of hurting you."

"The howling has finally stopped." Kim spun around and saw her dad standing in the doorway with a cup of coffee. He gave her a half smile and stood beside her.

"Yeah...I don`t know whether to take that as a good sign or a bad one."

"Don`t take it as a sign then. You will drive yourself crazy."

"I can`t escape the crazy anymore dad. Everything just gets worse when I think it is getting better."

"It`s beyond your control. Beyond anyones control. You just need to ride it out. Live your life, don`t think that tomorrow it`s going to be snatched away from you, you can never be happy that way."

"I`ll try."

"Get some rest Kim. You look like hell. All this stress isn`t good for the baby."

"I`ll go lay down for a while. If there is any word of Jared come get me or wake me up okay."

"I`ll go check in with the pack. See what they are going to do. If it`s anything important then I`ll come tell you." Danny said, hopping up from the couch and snatching her cold grilled cheese.

"Promise you`ll come back and tell me Danny."

"God! I said I would didn`t I? I`m glad to see you`ve come back to your annoying self."

"Some things never change Danny boy." Brother and sister smiled at each other as Danny left to phase.

Kim must have fallen asleep on the couch watching Wall-E with Ben and Henry. When she awoke Jared was sitting on an arm chair just watching her. His expression was pained and hardened. It was scary. The twins were curled up either side of her sleeping soundly.

"I didn`t want to wake you." Jared said simply. His hands were balled into fists, his knuckles had turned white.

"You`re scaring me Jared." She whispered at him. His face froze when she said that and his eyes glinted in a strange way.

"You were never supposed to be afraid of me Kimi. It was never meant to be that way. But..it seems like it is...and I`m sorry."

"Do you want to go home?" Kim asked, trying to get up without waking either of the boys.

"I think it`s best if you stay here..with your family." Jared said while he came over and helped her up. Kim looked up at him shocked.

"I want to stay with you!" She whined like a little child. She tried to take his hand but he pulled away from her. What the fuck now?

"No. You can`t..." He didn`t look her in the eye.

"What...What did I do? Please..I`m sorry...just tell me what`s the matter...we are supposed to be together." Kim felt her heart speed up. She felt like she having a panic attack. It was getting hard for her to breathe. Jared took her in his arms and sat her down in the arm chair he had vacated minutes ago.

"Just breathe Kimi baby, breathe...I`m so sorry...I keep on hurting you.." Kim concentrated on her breathing and on Jared`s face in front of hers.

"What`s going on in here?" Kim`s mom appeared from the kitchen, followed by her father.

"She`s having a panic attack or something..." Jared`s voice sounded frightened as his two warm hands covered her own.

"Kim, calm down and breathe, don`t worry about anything just breathing.." Her mothers soothing voice instructed.

"She doesn`t want to stay here then." Kim`s dad said from behind her mom. So they had discussed it without even telling her. Like she was some child.

"No! I don`t want to stay here! I wanted to stay with Jared but it looks like he doesn`t want me to anymore! I guess I can find myself some nice shack and live there on my own." Kim said bitterly, her breathing going back to normal.

"You don`t understand Kimi!" Jared said pained. He stood erect and ran his hands through his hair.

"Don`t Kimi me! You can`t just ship me around like some kid! Try explaining things to me first and then ask if I understand or not!" Kim snapped at him, also standing up to face him.

"You can`t be around me right now! I`m too dangerous, unstable, at the moment. Anything could set me off now! I don`t want you or the baby to get hurt."

"I know you won`t hurt me like that Jared. We can`t be apart, not now, not ever! Please baby..." She wrapped her arms around his waist and hugged him tightly. Would he melt? Would he give in to her? Could he refuse his imprint? He wrapped his long corded arms around her and sighed deeply.

"I could never forgive myself if I hurt you again. You need to understand that. I won`t be sane again until I have gotten rid of the problem. Until you are safe."

"I am safest when I`m with you. You are my protector aren`t you? Who could hurt me when I`m with you?" She tried coaxing him. She looked up into his eyes. They were saddened.

"Nobody would hurt you..but I could..I can`t take that risk."

"I need to be with you...anymore separation would kill me." Jared`s hold on her tightened momentarily. Was she finally getting through to him?

"You are not making this easy...I will see you everyday, we will just be sleeping apart..."

"So..I stay here until you have murdered Whitney? What happens next? A war with those other shape shifters? More problems?"

"She threatened you! She wants you dead! I`m supposed to sit by...back down..from that? No no no...she`ll pay. She fucked us up enough already...I won`t have her anywhere near you or our baby...I won`t have her even thinking about it...I`ll kill her first..." Jared backed away from Kim with that strange glint in his eyes again. He looked almost maniacal. He was constantly flexing his fists and jerking his head about. "This is all my fault. I`m so selfish...I wanted you so badly from the moment I imprinted on you...I had to stop myself so many times...I pushed you into all this supernatural shit before you were ready. I couldn`t stay away from you...I couldn`t be your friend first...I wanted everything from you...I wanted to possess you, hide you away from the world and have you only for me. I`ve never loved anyone before...not the way I love you. The feeling that I could lose you is the scariest in the universe...and it`s all because I couldn`t keep my dick in my pants. You deserve much more than I could ever give you...all I give you is heartache. I try to do good by you and it blows up in my face."

Kim was speechless. She had never seen Jared this way before. So torn. She spotted Sam, Danny and Paul in the yard outside. Watching or waiting. Jared seemed to be losing control of himself. It was obvious that his need to protect her was fighting with his need to be with her.

"Shh Jared honey...just calm down. I`ll stay here. I`ll be safe okay. We`ll take things slowly. You just need to trust yourself that you won`t hurt me...cause I know that you will never. I trust you and I love you more than anything. I always have and I always will. You are not selfish...not at all. Please..just listen to me..trust that I`m telling you the truth."

Jared stopped his frantic pacing and looked down at Kim. His features were contorted into self loathing and sadness. He looked as if he wanted badly to believe the words she was saying but couldn`t. He dropped to his knees in front of her and placed his forehead on her bump.

"We are going to be a family, I want us to be a proper family. I`ve dreamed of this since the moment I imprinted. I had to stop myself from asking you to marry me right there in the classroom. When I saw Mrs. Kimimela Cameron written in your journal I was overjoyed, even though I knew you didn`t write it, but still, it seemed right to me. It is right for us. You are my spirit wife. To be honest some more...I have always known your name, La Push High is a small school. I called you Karen to be a jerk. I was trying to pick a fight that day," Jared gave a humorless bark of laughter. " little did I know that shy little Kim Carrillo with the big tits was always the girl for me, I just never saw it. I racked my memory for any interaction between us before. I remembered seeing you at some bonfires, at parties, at tribal events and I cursed myself for never talking to you."

"I never talked to you either." Kim countered, a bit embarrassed by his honesty.

"But you smiled at me. I remember that. A shy smile. Quick. I ignored them. I knew you were a good girl. I dated girls for sex in the past, I won`t deny that, you know already though. I didn`t want to start any relationship in La Push. I wanted out as soon as I could have gone off to College. Little did I know I had the biggest reason to stay. It was you all along."

"We can be happy Jared, me and you, and our baby. We need to work out some issues for sure but we need to move forward, not backwards. We need to be partners in this, you have to trust me too." Kim implored.

"So what do we do now?" Jared asked quietly, still kneeling down in front of her.

"I am staying with you, you can`t say no. I won`t let you."

"Okay...but if you see any chance of me phasing get away as soon as possible!"

"I will."

"And don`t clean up after me or Paul."

"I definitely will not be doing that!"

"And one more thing."

"Tell me."

"Kimimela Calfuray Carrillo...will you make me undoubtedly the happiest man in the universe and be my wife?"

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