Too many things unsaid

Chapter 52 – talk to me

A few months later!

Penelope was at home with Krystal, Shakia and DJ. They were sleeping soundly in their cribs.

Derek walked in through the door quietly with loads of shopping bags in his hand. He went straight to the kitchen to put the bags down and then took the things out of the bag. Penelope came in a few moments later after hearing Derek come in. She smiled and went over to give him a kiss.

'Hey hot stuff how was the shopping?' Penelope asked, whilst starting to put the shopping away in the right places.

Derek put a few bags away and answered her question 'yea I guess it was okay, not too exciting but I did miss all of you like crazy' Derek told her with a cheeky grin and a wink.

Penelope grinned back and said 'oh we missed you to baby'

Penelope and Derek went to sit on the couch, coffee in hand. Derek turned on the TV and Penelope turned it off again. Derek turned to look at her with a frown; seeing she looked serious he started to worry. Derek leaned over and kissed her on the head 'baby girl what's up? You look serious' he said wanting to know what happened.

Penelope stared at him for a few moments, sadness and worry starting to creep through her body. 'We need to talk…' Penelope started.

Derek frowned and started thinking of all the things he could have done wrong, or anything to upset her.

Penelope cursed herself for using those words, knowing he would probably try to think of something he might have done wrong. Penelope leaned over and kissed him, getting his full attention once again. 'Baby you haven't done anything wrong or anything to upset me don't worry… I just want to have that conversation you said we could have earlier…' taking a deep breath Penelope continued 'I'm worried about you' Penelope told Derek, worry in her voice and sadness in her beautiful eyes.

Derek frowned, 'me? Why are you worried about me, you have nothing to worry about baby girl, I'm perfectly fine' Derek said, not really knowing how to get rid of her worry but wanting to more than anything in the world.

Penelope looked down and sighed. Derek bought up her head so she could look at him and rubbed her back giving her comfort. Penelope closed her eyes and rested her head on Derek's shoulder. 'I feel that you don't tell me everything that's going on in your head about the case we are working on. I just want to know how you feel about it…' Penelope told him.

Derek sighed and kissed her head. 'I know baby girl, I'm sorry…' Derek started. 'It's just… I don't know how I feel; I would tell you if I knew. I don't mean to shut you out or anything baby girl. I mean I'm starting to think you and Hotch are right, the dream in the hospital could have just been a dream that felt real. I need to know who he is though, if it is real. Maybe he took a plane from Chicago a few days before. Got into the room we…' Derek got interrupted by Penelope who put her hand on his chest.

'Please don't. I got what you're trying to say, please just don't finish off. That scares me' Penelope told him.

Penelope looked up at Derek and he smiled slightly at her. She leaned up and gave him a kiss and then asked 'have you spoken to Hotch about it? What does he think?'

Derek sighed and said 'I don't know, maybe he wants to believe it but I don't think he does. I mean it does sound crazy after all'

Penelope looked at him and asked 'so are you just going to give up?'

Derek looked at her shocked 'no baby girl I'm not I have to do something though' he told her.

She smiled and said 'good because I wouldn't want my hero to give up on something like this especially because it's so important to you'

Derek smiled at her then gave her a kiss 'thank you baby girl, you are just what I need, your right'

Penelope giggled and said 'I know, I know everything and I'm miss amazing'

Penelope and Derek's moment was ruined when they heard the triplets cry.

Derek smiled and got up straight away, pulling Penelope up with him.

Derek saw Krystal moving around a bit, seeming uncomfortable so he picked her up carefully and gave her a kiss on the head. He walked over to the changing table they had and lay her down carefully.

Penelope picked up Shakia and sat down on the rocking chair to feed her. Penelope stroked Shakia's hair softly whilst feeding her. Shakia looked up at her mum with big brown eyes and then blinked. Penelope smiled down at her daughter and adjusted her place, making both of them more comfortable.

Derek had finished changing Krystal and went over to Penelope who was burping Shakia. Derek took Shakia and gave Krystal to her mummy, so she could be fed. He looked at Shakia and said 'let's go see how your brother is then huh?' in return Shakia frowned at her dad and Derek chuckled, walking to the cribs to see Daniel Jay lying there with his eyes wide open.

Derek put Shakia down in the crib as she was falling asleep again and picked up DJ, then going over to Penelope so she could take him and he could take Krystal again. 'Hey Kryssie, let's get you changed' in response Krystal blinked.

Derek walked over to check on Shakia quickly and gave her, her teddy bear she got from Hotch and Emily. Derek and Krystal walked over to the wardrobe and got a beautiful dress out which JJ and Penelope had gotten when she was pregnant.

Derek had entertained his daughter whilst getting her dressed when she cried. 'You're stubborn, like your mum' Derek said with a cheeky grin to Krystal.

'Hey I heard that' Penelope teased wanting to throw a toy at Derek's head.

'Good, you were supposed to' Derek looked at her and winked.

'I'm going to get you back you know' Penelope threatened in a teasing voice.

'Looking forward to that baby girl' Derek teased back.

Penelope laughed and shook her head whilst burping DJ.

About 45 minutes later Derek and Penelope were out with their three babies, taking a walk around the neighbor hood, talking, laughing and flirting as usual.