Kinda of a short chapter, sorry for that xxx
"Dixie. Do you love Dad?" Dixie looked down at Sophia, she had no clue that she was about to ask that question. Amy had decided to take them all clothes shopping, Sophia needed some new things, and Dixie was looking forward to the Mcdonalds after. They were in the middle of Primark changing rooms, Dixie was helping Sophia choose what top to buy. Sophia looked at Dixie, waiting for an answer to her question.
"Mine and your Dad's marriage. Well... It was never conventional"
"Conventional?"
"Yeah, it's well. Let's just say its complicated between me and your dad"
"Are you divorcing?"
"No. No love we're not" Dixie assured her quickly, Sophia looked at her with her big brown eyes. Dixie looked back into them, and memories of Jeff's conversation flooded back to her.
Dixie POV flashback
I awkwardly flinched as Jeff hugged me, it wasn't that I was scared of him or anything. It's just where, ever since he said he loved me, I wasnt sure how to feel if he showed me any physical affection. "You've got grey roots"
"No, its blonde Jeff!" I responded quickly, Jeff smirked and went up the stairs. I watched nervously as he did, it felt different, I always have known he loved me. I sort of guessed, but him saying it showed things in a new light. I didn't want to hurt his feelings, saying I didn't love him. But I didn't, not in a romantic way anyway. I am a lesbian, that is who I am, Dixie is a lesbian.
"Dixie are you ok?" I didn't notice that Jeff was now stood directly in front of me. I cringed while looking into his eyes. God I never noticed how much they shone, my glance moved down to his lips, and then further down to his chest. No. I can't the thinking this, he is man, he is Jeff. Ewwww, god no Dixie!
"Jeff we need to talk"
"Ok dix..."
"Jeff I don't love you!" I blurted out instantly, I was expecting to break Jeff's heart by saying this, but he just looked at me and laughed.
"I knew that already daft cow" Jeff chuckled to himself, looking at Me "Oh come here babe, look, I know your a lesbian" Jeff pulled me into his arms, stroking my hair softly as he held me. I loved being in his arms, he was so warm, so snuggly.
"Dixie I love you, I would lay my life down to protect you. I can't help myself falling in love with you, and if being your best friend is all I can be, then I will take it" Jeff looked into my eyes, I felt so protected, so loved, and I was.
"Thank you Jeff" was all I could muster at that point. He nodded, breaking the hug. We looked at each other after a long few moments. "Best friends forever aye?" I gave him a weak smile by saying these words, he smiled back at me. "Forever Dix, now get your butt in that kitchen and start making dinner" Jeff mocked at me, I giggled and slapped his arm playfully, I was glad we settled that.
End of flashback
Looking at Sophia, Dixie felt her eyes watering, feeling that she had let down her stepdaughter in some way yay not loving her dad.
"Dixie?"
"Well... I love your dad, but not in the way you think I do" Dixie admitted, she wasn't going to lie to Sophia, she deserved the truth.
"How do you love him then?" Sophia fiddled with the hem of her skirt.
"He's my best friend. I care about him and would do anything for him, I love him in that sense"
"Oh, ok" Dixie smiled, Sophia seemed happy enough with that answer, Dixie breathed a sigh of relief, and put the clothes Sophia had tried on back on the hanger. They both made their way out of the changing rooms, finding Amy trying on a peach pair of wedges.
"So you've grown then!" Dixie commented sarcastically.
"Oh shut up Dix" Amy snorted, pulling a funny face at Dixie.
"You two are funny, I wonder what Lenny and John are up to?" Sophia questioned softly.
Meanwhile Lenny and John were sat on the living room sofa, playing Xbox while eating their take away pizza.
"So, you and Amy together then?" John asked, looking at Lenny while holding the controller.
"Yeah we are" Lenny turned his head away from the screen.
"How long?"
"Five months, what about you and your girlfriend?" Lenny picked up a piece of pizza, taking a large bite.
"Be three months on Saturday" John smiled. Showing Lenny a picture of his girlfriend that he had on his phone.
"I remember when I was your age, I couldn't keep a girl longer than a week" Lenny chuckled looking at the phone.
"Yeah well I hope you're looking after Amy, she's like a second sister to me" Lenny noticed the way John was talking, he could sense the softness in his voice.
"You really think of her like that?" Lenny grinned, he knew Amy loved Jeff's kids and thought the world of them, so knowing John liked her back was lovely.
"Yeah, she's been keeping in touch with me since we came here, you know she loves you more than life itself"
"Seriously?" Lenny felt all warm and fussy inside, it felt nice to be loved for once in his life.
"Yes. You know she's been hurt before?"
"How'd you know?" Lenny stopped, how did John know? Was Amy opening up to him? Part of him was hoping that she was, talking was good for her, she needed to let her feelings out.
"You can see it in her eyes, you would need to be a fool to miss it" John said sadly, pressing the play button to start another game on the xbox.
"I know what you mean, she woke up last night having a panic attack" Lenny sighed. He had thought Amy was making progress. But from the events of last night, it seemed they were back on page 1.
"What happened?" John was instantly worried,
"I dunno. She woke up, couldn't breathe, her asthma made things worse"
"Just look after her"
"I do, I promise you John as long as she is with me she is safe" Lenny looked into John's eyes, promising him that he would care for Amy.
"Good, or I will get my friends from London to come round and pay you a visit" John lightly hit Lenny on his arm, Lenny wasn't even going to reply to what John said, he just liked the fact Amy had people who cared about her.
"Lenny! What an earth is going on? Why are the curtains drawn?" Amy entered the house, gasping at the mess Lenny had made with John. The curtains were drawn, and there was pizza and sweets scattered across the coffee table.
"It's affect. And it is my house"
"Whatever. Just clean this mess up!" Amy look Sophia up the stairs, showing her where she could put her things for the night.
"Woman aye?" Lenny turned around at John grunting.
"Just look after her, she needs you." John spoke gently before getting up of the sofa to get a drink, Lenny stood there thinking, realising how lucky he was. He was lucky to have Amy, she had made him want to settle down and think about having a family. Something he never had. So he was looking forward to being able to start one with her.
