"Nnn..." Izaya mumbled as he woke up to see he was sleeping on the blonde's stomach.
"Slept alright?" Shizuo smiled at the other.
"Mm? Yeah.. You're already awake? Did you wait long for me to wake up?"
"Just woke up"
"Okay" he chuckled. "Did you have a good nights sleep?" he asked, lifting his head to look at the other.
"I've slept better.." he sighed. "I seriously need a new bed.."
"Hm? Does it hurt anywhere?"
"It's because we can't lie two in this bed"
"It won't be a problem once we get my bed in here instead" he smiled.
"Oh, yeah.. that reminds me" he paused. "My mom may have said yes about you moving in.. but she'll probably have a talk with you about that at some point. I don't know if she'll do it today.." he shrugged.
"Yeah... I know..."
"You're gonna tell her about... your mom?"
"I don't know.. But it's not fair for your mom not to know why I'm moving either, ne? I don't know what I'll do" he smiled weakly.
"It's probably best to tell her.."
"I know... I'm just not sure if I can..."
"I'll help you if you want"
"Please do.."
"I will then"
"Thank you" he smiled. "Let's not talk about that until it's time, ne?"
"Alright" Shizuo smiled and caressed Izaya's skin at his waist. He let his fingers be dragged across the soft skin, as he closed his eyes again.
Izaya snuggled his face into Shizuo's shoulder and enjoyed the gently sensation. "Mmm"
Shizuo continued to draw circles on Izaya's skin.
"We'll have to figure out how to get my bed in here" Izaya said lazily, closing his eyes.
"Don't worry about that now.." Shizuo replied, continuing his motions.
"Mmm.. I just thought we... should talk a bit... Ne? Mm"
Shizuo moved his hands up to Izaya's upper back and started nuzzling his skin there. "Yeah, but not about that" he whispered lazily, as if he didn't bother using his voice to speak. Shizuo started feeling more relaxed too.
"Nnmmm.. Then what?"
"Dunno" he mumbled.
"Mhmm.."
They were both interrupted by a knock on the door, which made Shizuo stop his motions. "Yeah?" he asked lazily. Miyase stepped into the room and closed the door behind her.
"Sorry, if I intrude on you two.."
Izaya felt a little embarrassed, but decided to just get over it and turned his head to look at Miyase. He smiled lazily at her.
"What's wrong?" Shizuo didn't seem to care about his mother standing there, but he decided to move his hands behind his head.
"Well, umm. If you both could get dressed and come downstairs then that'd be lovely" she tried to smile.
"Sure... Did something.. Go wrong after we left yesterday?"
"We'll talk about it when you come downstairs, okay?" with that she left the room. Shizuo sighed as he gently rolled Izaya down beside him and sat up in the bed.
"That.. Didn't sound too good.."
Shizuo shrugged. "Probably not" he rose from the bed and took the pyjama trousers from the chair, which they were lying on. He pulled them on and stretched his body. Izaya also left the bed and put on his knee length shorts and a white T-shirt.
Shizuo opened the door to his room and sighed as he went down the stairs. In the kitchen Miyase was sitting at the table with a cup of tea. "Would you like anything to drink?" she smiled.
"No thanks" the blond mumbled as he sat down on one of the chairs. Izaya came down soon after and sat down on the chair beside Shizuo.
"How about you, Izaya? Anything to drink?" her smile never disappearing.
"No thanks, I'm good" he smiled.
"Alright" she nodded and took a sip from her tea. Shizuo leaned back in the chair and observed his mother; arms crossed and a foot tapping on the floor. "Ah" she smiled and stroke the fine porcelain with her thumb, only focusing on that. There was a long silence before she looked back up at Shizuo. "Umm, I don't know how to say this. But.." she paused. "Your grandmother.." she gulped. "She's.. furious" Miyase looked deeply into Shizuo's eyes, trying to read his expression. He simply shrugged.
"And?"
"Shizuo, please don't be so carefree.." the weak smile which was there before was completely gone by now.
"It can't be true that she can control my life.." Shizuo sighed.
"I know, honey.. I know. I'm trying to tell her that. But she won't listen to me" Miyase stayed calm.
"What did she say?" Shizuo asked a bit annoyed.
"She told me.. that" Miyase looked away for awhile, trying to hold back those beginning tears. "Damn it" she cursed under her breath and exhaled. "Alright. She told me that.. I didn't know how to raise a child properly" she buried her face in her hands, trying to wipe away the frustration.
"So Kasuka's suddenly involved in this too?" Shizuo frowned.
"No.. She loves Kasuka. And it hurts when she favours one more than the other" Miyase slowly started crying silently. Shizuo somehow knew it from the start but he didn't want to hear it. He wanted it to be a lie; something he had made himself believe. The blond couldn't do anything about it, he had made a choice and he would stick to that choice. Besides, his grandmother never gave a damn about him anyway.
Izaya didn't really know what to do. He was slightly shocked by the whole situation. "Shizu-chan" he said in a low voice.
Shizuo shrugged. "Fine, if that's what she thinks.. then that's how it's going to be" he didn't want to face the fact that he felt a little hurt.
"Shizu-" Miyase was interrupted by her son.
"No, I don't give a shit. If she wants to be like that then there's nothing I can do about it. If she comes here again, I won't be here" Shizuo growled and left the kitchen in a hurry; completely forgetting about his mother and Izaya. He really didn't intend to hurt his mother's feelings, but he just didn't want to deal with his grandmother. She was being a downright idiot. He took heavy steps up the stairs, went into his room and slammed the door behind him. He sat down on his bed and buried his face in his hands, not because he was sad but because he was mad. He felt how all the blood rushed to his head as he became more and more angry.
Izaya flinched slightly as he heard the door slam shut. "Miyase... Are you gonna be alright?"
She wiped her eyes. "Don't worry about me. I knew it would end like this" she faked a perfectly happy smile.
Izaya saw right through the fake smile. "You don't have to hide it" he told her carefully. He rose from his chair. "Listen... You are a great mother. I've never seen a good mother such as yourself, don't ever question that, ne?"
"You don't have to be a psychologist, Izaya. But thank you" she smiled. "But I don't think you should go up to him right now" she tried.
"I'm not. I just want you to know that. And I know that was what Shizu-chan was gonna say too. I'll take care of Shizu-chan now. Don't worry, ne?"
"Be careful.. his temper is awful at some times"
"Trust me... I know. I know all about his temper" he said and left the room. He knocked on the door to Shizuo's room. "Shizu-chan?"
Shizuo didn't answer; his breathing became heavier although he tried to relax.
Izaya carefully opened the door and closed it behind him. Shizuo seemed very angry. And somehow sad too. He went over to the blonde and sat down on his knees before him, looking up at his buried face. "Shizu-chan?"
"Not. Now" he growled through gritted teeth.
"It's alright. You don't have to talk." he paused. "I'm sorry, Shizu-chan. If you want to cry, just cry, ne? If you want to scream, just scream"
Shizuo's body was tense from pure anger. He knew that if he couldn't calm down soon he would hurt Izaya; the last thing he wanted to do. "Just. Don't talk" he managed without freaking out completely.
Most people would probably be scared by now. Izaya knew that. And if Shizuo snapped, he would hurt him. He knew that too. But he wasn't the least scared. He just wanted to help Shizuo calm down. Relax. But he did take what Shizuo said to heart and decided to keep silent. Instead, he stood on his knees and hugged Shizuo's head.
Shizuo placed two shaking hands on Izaya's shoulders and tried as gently as he could to push Izaya away. "Don't" he breathed out, still tense.
"It's okay, Shizu-chan" he said calmly, truly wanting to calm the blonde down. Instead he crawled on the bed, up behind Shizuo and hugged him, placing both hands on his stomach, rubbing gently.
Shizuo clenched his fists and without thinking he twisted his back and pushed Izaya aside, using his left arm. "I said don't" he hissed as he looked at Izaya, who was lying on the bed; a bit away from him.
Izaya slowly sat up and rubbed the back of his head which had hit the backboard of the bed.
Shizuo sat still on the edge of the bed, cursing under his breath.
It hurt but Izaya decided to try again, calming Shizuo down. He sat up beside him and wrapped an arm around his shoulder, gently stroking his upper arm.
Shizuo pushed Izaya away again. Giving him another chance to leave him alone before he'd go berserk. "Don't you get what I'm fucking telling you?" he hissed, not looking at Izaya. Shizuo focused on the same spot in the wall, trying to calm down, but that annoying spot wasn't helping at all. And neither was Izaya.
"I'm trying to help you" he said carefully and moved closer to Shizuo. "I want to help you"
"Leave me alone" Shizuo hissed again.
"Shizu-chan... Try and calm down. I just wanna help you"
"That's fucking it" he snarled and grabbed the back of Izaya's t-shirt's collar and tossed him to the floor. "Don't!"
"Hn!" he exclaimed as he landed on the floor on his stomach.
Shizuo hid his face in his hands. He didn't need to see that, it wasn't even on purpose. His body had simply moved on its own.
Izaya pushed himself up, sitting on his knees. He looked over his shoulder, seeing Shizuo. "I'm trying to help you" he said again.
"Shut up!"
He turned around and crawled to Shizuo, sitting down before him.
Shizuo slid his hands down to his thighs and glared at Izaya. He felt how his body became hotter and hotter of anger. His body was tense, his fingers curling and uncurling. Veins at his temples were slowly starting to show, and his eyes were sending daggers towards Izaya.
"Shizu-chan..." he said, not at all scared at the obviously furious blonde. He put a calming hand on the blonde's cheek and gently stroke it with his thumb.
Shizuo quickly pushed it aside, grabbing Izaya's arm and pulled him closer. As he did so he placed his other clenched fist in Izaya's stomach, emptying his lungs for air. Shizuo let go of Izaya's arm and pushed him away.
Izaya fell down on his side and rolled into a ball, holding his arms around his stomach, gasping for air.
Shizuo looked away again. He was trying so hard not to freak out. He was fighting a mental war with himself; and the calm side was far from winning.
When Izaya had caught his breath he sat back up again. [I'm not giving up.. Ah, ouch.. I have to help him] he thought. His stomach and the back of his head hurt. But he had to try and calm Shizuo down. He got on his knees, holding an arm across his stomach; he crawled to the blonde and kissed his lips gently. "I love you"
Shizuo was so close to placing a punch right in Izaya's face at that moment, but he couldn't. Instead he slammed his forehead onto Izaya's shoulder and wrapped his arms around Izaya. He placed both his hands on the other's back, gently pulling the shirt a bit up. His breathing didn't become calmer, and his hands were so rough. As the shirt was pulled up, he calmly placed both hands on the bare skin. He snuggled his face into Izaya's neck and slowly pierced his nails into Izaya's skin. He dragged his tense fingers up to Izaya's upper back, leaving eight blood red stripes on the other's back.
"Hnn! Shizu-chan!" Izaya exclaimed, arching his back in pain.
Shizuo tried to seek calmness in Izaya, as he dug his nails even deeper. He breathed into Izaya's neck, trying to calm himself down by Izaya's scent.
"Shiiii... Nnn.." he hissed quietly in pain. But instead of pushing him away, he placed a hand on the back of Shizuo's head, rubbing calmly. His eyes were shut tightly and he still held onto his aching stomach. He knew Shizuo had blacked out and didn't know what he was doing.
Shizuo repeated the same movements; starting at the lower back and dragging his fingers all the way up to Izaya's upper back. He inhaled Izaya's scent from his neck, each time calming him a bit more down although his body was still tense.
"I.. Love you, Shizu-chan" he tried. "Please, calm down and sto-Nnn, stop, ne?" he gently ran his fingers through the others hair.
Shizuo exhaled into Izaya's neck, after holding his breath for awhile. He calmed down and stopped what he was doing, placing both hands softly on Izaya's back.
"That's good. It's okay, Shizu-chan. Everything will be alright"
"Don't talk to me like that" he hissed.
Izaya stopped his motions at the words but began soon again. "It's gonna be okay, Shizu-chan. I love you"
"Shut up"
Izaya kept silent. He kept nuzzling the other's hair, hoping he would calm down soon. His stomach and the back of his head were sore, while the skin on his back stung in sharp pain.
Shizuo closed his eyes, and hopefully he would calm down before something else would annoy him.
Minutes passed where they just sat there in silence, both waiting for Shizuo to calm down.
Shizuo pulled away from Izaya and gently pushed the raven aside.
Izaya pulled his shirt back down. "Are you... Alright?"
Shizuo didn't answer but rose from the bed and went over to the door. He opened it, stepped out of the room and closed the door behind him.
As Shizuo left Izaya hissed at the pain he felt. "What did he do to my back? Nn.." he hissed.
Shizuo was on his way downstairs only to meet his mother standing at the end of the staircase. "Shizuo?" she asked a bit confused. "Are you alright, dear?" Miyase could see from the look on Shizuo's face that he definitely wasn't okay. "Whe-" she was interrupted by Shizuo.
"Upstairs" he hissed, annoyed. He went into the bathroom and slammed the door shut. Miyase nervously went up the stairs. She hadn't heard any kind of violent fighting or yelling or anything, so she was dead-nervous about Izaya. She opened the door to Shizuo's room and found Izaya kneeling before the bed.
"Izaya.. Are you alright?" she asked, concerned and went over to the raven.
Signe: Oh noes! Izaya is hurt! What might happen next? *gulp*
Izaya: Signe.. you're being overdramatic and you're exaggerating.
Christine: I actually hated myself for writing this chapter.. poor Izaya!
Shizuo: *sits in the corner and draws circles in the ground*
Christine: Anyways… REVIEWS are much, much appreciated! :D
