Second chances
9/1/13
Third point of view
Bella bolted upright in bed; her eyes darted to the green LED no on the clock on her nightstand which said 4:07 am, what had awoken her?
She was shocked, she had even fallen asleep. They had come home at 10:00 p.m and she had spent another hour fighting with Jake to make him talk to her .
Ryan had made some off handed remarks about himself and his charm which led to a quarrel between Jake and Ryan at the station with the police officers frowning at them, as they told them to be quiet.
Ryan's sister cried for mercy to Jake not to press strong charges on him and begged forgiveness on his behalf .Jake appeared to be cooling down but Ryan roused the fire again by taunting Jake's inability of providing bells a cushy life and he didn't need his pity in getting free from jail.
Bells on fearing another quarrel brewing between Jake and Ryan intervened; she didn't want the matter to reach to the ears of her father. To save face from the embarrassment from the interference of the officers again she agreed to sign the mercy petition that his sister was asking and then told Ryan to shut his stinking mouth before she went out of the station with a fuming, silent Jacob in tow. She could see her decision had irked Jacob as they reached near their car.
Jacob shouted at her "I don't need you .Ryan is right after all" when they reached the door his Camaro car and he ranted out" if you want to break my heart, Bella, be quick "said Jacob, his voice low, filled with ocean of misery .seeing this Bells stopped touching him as his word cause to rise a storm of pain in her heart.
He had been silent throughout the journey like bells when they were coming back home. Inspite of the hurt and pain she felt, when they reached their room, she tried to make Jake understand about Ryan's sister feelings and pressing charges would only distract from their fight that was looming over their heads. When Bells sighed that time and normalcy was a luxury that they couldn't afford at the moment, which caused Jacob to shake and remark "yeah, I don't even have fucking time to spend with my wife. I am going out to phase" and took off from the house inspite of his patrol which was about to start after two hours.
In these wee hours, the last night seemed nothing more than a nightmare to Bells. She knew that she had unwilling hurt Jacob in the past .she knew the hurt is never going to heal soon.
Bpov
I don't know, how I could explain my point to him. I can't even blame him completely, he has become like this after years of hurt. This has made him to doubt his happiness and himself .
Jacob had given all of himself to me and all I did was to hurt to him unintentionally, as I agreed what my sis decided to mess up her life when she was alive .
Jpov
I felt robbed; something that I wanted for years was taken away from me not because I screwed up but because of my role based on my birth in the tribe. I sobbed lying on the wet ground .why was I always fighting against the leeches? Why were they always after love of my life? It wasn't fair that I was going to lose her; to a foolish guy like Ryan who tries to make me feel inadequate. Top of it I fought with her and told those hurtful words to her which were not even true.
Bpov
Jacob was so patient and understanding he never used to push me earlier. But now, his patience snaps when he feels he's being cornered. Always trying to do what his imprint Nessie wanted and facing Bella the vamp for so many years had taken toll on him. I cried as the past of Jacob started coming intermittently to my eyes when I was with the Silvaka people.
The blow up with Ryan was finally the last straw to his still healing heart, oh god! I hope it's not as I waited for his return. It was 4:15 am now. This is the time I had to sleep by myself after we married .
I got up from the bed and went near the window .putting aside the curtains I saw it had started to rain "Jake please, come back "I whispered in the stillness of the room feeling a cold tear slide down my cheek.
Jpov
The rain had started falling in full force, but I didn't care getting wet. Don't know why was I seeing weird images of me and bells in 60's dress in my mind ,but the scene which caught my attention was Bells and I being separated against our will.
I can't give up so easily after so close to my happiness. I decided to apologize for my behavior and started getting up from the mud of the forest.
I need to tell her that I love her one last time before she leaves me for good, I can wallow in the rain after wards. It was nice that my patrol time had ended an hour ago as I tailed back to my house in full speed in the rain.
Bpov
I watched the raindrops sliding down the window with intent and enjoyed seeing the drops getting bigger as they merged together. It was 4; 30 now and still Jake was not back. I went to my bed and closed my eyes waiting for Jacob to return as sleep eluded me again.
Third point of view
But Bella and she had too suffered with him she thought about the past .
she tossed in bed remembering again those freaking traitorous words "I don't need you…"it was a boldfaced lie she knew it but still hearing him say such a thing ,it still hurt her.
She sniffled as her eyes panned on the still lone pillow next to her side, suddenly her gaze snagged on a looming shadow in the corner of her room. Her hand shot out the lamp on her side table, but before she light the lamp she heard a deep croon "shh, it's me". The voice washed over the room along with the yellow moonlight colour of the lamp which she finally switched on.
She saw Jake's dripping wet form leaning against the wall of their open bedroom window "j-Jake?"She croaked as she saw Jacob closing the window, the rain had stopped by now. Jacob nodded loosely and bowed his head towards the floor, darkness of his mood swallowing his always cheerful features .his head was hanging down with his shoulders bowed down.
He was looking broken and hopeless in his current stance. Bells started sitting up and in concern pulled her legs under as she sat on the bed and whispered" hey, you okay?"
Jacob's swallow was audible as he spoke "we gotta talk"
"Yeah, we do" she murmured while watching him carefully she crawled down the foot of the bed and climbed down. She went to the dresser to take out a dry towel for him. Taking it she went near him, she could see that all parts of his body were tense . from his own accord, for the second time while awake, Jacob was hurting and wasn't even trying it to hide from her as usual. Bells needed to set her pain aside because this was the fragile moment in their relationship.
"So talk, Jacob. I will listen" she urged softly .finally she heard his slow rallying intake of breath before he spoke in a rushed whisper "I need you"
As he rubbed his hair dry to the towel passed by her, bells heart strings which were restrained broke free on hearing his soft admission of his feelings for her and it caused it to race in giddy skipping beats.
He murmured "I do need you, so fucking much. But will I be enough ?"as he moved and shifted uncomfortably as he continued.
"All this shit is so fucked up…I didn't want you to think time is a luxury for us. It's not fair" he hissed while exhaling deeply. She thought of saying something but decided against it.
Jacob barked as he looked up and passed her the now wet towel to her, which she threw in the dryer as he changed in fresh clothes in the bathroom, a faded blue cotton t shirt and boxers.
They settled in bed facing and gazing at each other silently,after a few moments Jacob talked still not touching bells"it wasn't supposed to be like this, I mean finally you are home. We could have gone out for dates, watch a stupid movie and held…your hand. Edward crushed the moment we had gone out for our date. I love you so much that I can't even stand that I want you so much so soon..."his head hitting against the wall near the bed which caused a little gasp to come out from bells.
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