Chapter 52

Adrianna POV

I woke up and rolled over to turn my alarm off, today was the first day of classes which also meant the start of my sessions with Nikolaus. I didn't know if I had one this morning since I had pretty much stayed to my dorm or with my friends trying not to make eye contact with him whenever he walked past us, I also didn't know if I was ready for these sessions to begin again. I still hadn't worked out what everyone kept asking me, did I have feelings towards him?

I reluctantly got up, got dressed and headed towards the gym, I took the long way hoping the later I got there the shorter our session would be. I know I told him that everything would be fine once the new school term started and it most likely would have been true if I didn't get James to bring up the memories for me to remember.

I entered the gym and found Nikolaus over by one of the punching bags, punching it causing it to swing like crazy. I took a deep breath and walked over to him dropping my stuff along the way.

"I'm surprised you showed up" Nikolaus turned around and faced me mid punch. Seeing him now, standing in front of me brought back all the memories I was trying to push aside

"Why wouldn't I? I want to graduate with my friends and the first step is to train so I can be at the same level as them and be allowed to participate in field experience"

"Are we going to talk about what happened?"

"Nope, we both agreed we would go back to how things were and act like it never happened. That includes talking about it"

"No Dri, you said that we would. I didn't get a say in any of this"

"Why does it matter? We have to make it through the year and with you trying to talk about it every session is just going to make it worse than what it is"

"Dri you wouldn't even acknowledge me on the flight here"

"I had a headache, now are we going to train or are you going to try and keep talking?"

"Fine, on the mats then, I want to see what you remember" I knew this would be him trying to punish me for not wanting to talk about it but I was hoping that my training with Rose and Dimitri would shock and surprise him.

I was making this session hard for him, I could tell he was really focusing on trying to test me. He obviously thought I had spent the rest of my summer goofing off with my friends and not training, apart from training with Rose and Dimitri I had even asked Shane a couple of times as well as sparring with both Emily and Stefan.

There were a small number of moments I was able to get the upper hand on Nikolaus but I was only able to pin him once and it was only because at the exact moment I dodged a punch I was able to kick his legs out at the same time. I instantly thanked both Rose and Dimitri for teaching me how to do that because the look on his face when I had him pinned was incredible.

The session was almost finished and we were both slightly out of breath but neither of us moved and the longer we stayed like that the more awkward it got.

"Sorry..." I spoke quickly as I got up off him and walked over to where my drink bottle was sitting and grabbed it.

"You trained over the break didn't you?"

"I did, I asked Rose to help me but of course Dimitri was there most mornings as well"

"You did well and I defiantly underestimated you. That trick you did to drop to the floor and kick my legs out when you dodged my punch was amazing and actually hurt, you actually pinned me Dri. I honestly didn't think you would have picked anything up over break"

"I told you, I want to graduate with my friends and I'm determined to do it. I knew I would have gotten there eventually, you aren't perfect" I smirked at him and he shook his head at me.

"You will, you will get there. You just have to keep learning and listening"

"Funny how you didn't say a single thing about my comment about you being not perfect"

"I never once said I was, me being here is proof of that Dri. Now back on the mats, we still have time for one more"

I didn't say anything but walked over to the mats and waited for him to join me. This spar was different, he had obviously been watching me and now had learnt what my new tricks were making it harder for to get the upper hand.

I don't why this happened, it wasn't something he had ever done before but he made a grab for me and pulled me close to him allowing him to then drop me to the ground.

I hit the mat with a thud and a groan and he landed on top pinning me, the position was very similar to the moments in my bed. He had my hands pinned above my head, he was straddling my lap and he his face was closely positioned to mine. I was so tempted to just lean up and close the gap so I could kiss him, I knew it was wrong but that feeling wouldn't go away and it didn't help that neither one of us was moving, we were just staring at each other.

"Please get off me" I spoke softly that he didn't even hear me at first, I had to repeat myself a bit louder the next time.

"Right, sorry" he shook his head as he stood up, he held his hand out for me to grab and help me up and normally I grabbed it no problems but today I didn't, not after that awkward moment.

"I'm assuming were finished now, I should shower and head to breakfast"

"Yes we are, Dri can we please talk about it?"

"I really should go" I went to turn and leave but he grabbed my arm and spun me around to face him, he had placed his hands on my waist to prevent me from leaving.

"Dri, about what just happened, I'm sorry if I freaked you out"

"It's fine honestly, it just felt oddly familiar"

"Are you sure you don't remember what happened that night?"

I couldn't speak, we both said we didn't remember what happened and I did want to tell him I remembered the night. I didn't know what would happen, I knew I couldn't lie to him though so I looked down and shook my head.

There was a small part of me that wished I had still been looking at him when I shook my head so I could see how he reacted to it.

What shocked me was when one of his hands moved from my hip and he placed it under my chin and forced me to look at him. He wasn't angry or annoyed, he was worried and upset.

"When did you remember?" his hand moved from my chin and he cupped my cheek softly stroking it with his thumb

"James brought them forward during the summer..."

"So he's seen them as well" I could only nod at him, I waited for the anger outburst or even the speech about how we were reckless and stupid and that we shouldn't have had sex but it didn't

"Why are we still standing like this?" he must have released what I meant and his hand drop from my cheek and he let go of my waist.

"Sorry, why did you ask him to bring the memories out?"

"Because it was eating me up not knowing what happened, all I could remember was us dancing and then when we woke up the next morning. You were so convinced that you took advantage of me but yet I was the one that kissed you first, I was the one that pulled you into my bedroom. It was all me!" I snapped at him and I stepped back from him and took a seat on the bench

"I know, I've always known" I barely heard him, I looked over at him. Something was bothering him but what was bothering me was that he knew all along what happened that night.

"You knew, you actually remember what happened that night and lied to me about not remembering?"

Nikolaus didn't say anything; he walked over and took a seat beside me. I sat there hoping he would speak but when he didn't say anything, I stood up grabbed my things and left the gym to head to my dorm.

I made it through the day barely speaking to any of my friends, Emily and Stefan tried to get out of me what happened during my session with Nikolaus and it wasn't till our lunch break that James practically grabbed my arm and dragged me away from our friends and asked what was going on in my head. I snapped at him, I was sick of everyone wanting to know what was bothering me. I ended up grabbing lunch and sitting outside away from my friends.

My afternoon classes were a bit quieter, they must have given up bugging me because no one said anything to me about what was brothering me.

In fact it was when my Advanced Calculus class was over that I was debating about whether or not I should go to my afternoon session with Nikolaus, I had no idea what I wanted to say to him after what happened this morning but I knew I couldn't avoid him and I couldn't skip out on sessions, I was determined to graduate with my friends.

When I entered the gym I found it empty, maybe I did the wrong thing by leaving this morning, maybe I should have stayed and heard him out but he wasn't saying anything. I didn't know if Nikolaus was going to turn up or not.

With a sigh I walked over to the mats and sprawled out on the floor with my books, they didn't exactly give us homework on the first day but I figured why not get ahead while I'm waiting for Nikolaus to turn up.

I was reading over my bodyguard theory when I heard the door open, I didn't even bother looking up expecting it to be Nikolaus. I continued reading over the information they covered today while I heard the footsteps getting closer and closer, I decided to play stupid and continued looking at my book until he spoke but he didn't speak. As Nikolaus sat down next to me, he waited a couple of minutes expecting me to speak first.

Nikolaus gave up waiting for me to speak and grabbed my text book that I was reading. I snapped my head up and narrowed my eyes at him but all he did was close the book before placing it back on the ground.

"I'm sorry alright, I'm sorry that I lied to you but that morning you looked so hurt and angry about what happened I didn't know what would happen if you knew the truth"

"You didn't get to decide that, I deserved to know what happened. I deserved to know that I was the one that kissed you and I pulled you into my bedroom"

"I know and I'm sorry I kept it from you, I was more concerned about you worrying as to if I took advantage of you especially after everything that happened with Michael..."

"And I told you I didn't think that, even when I couldn't remember what happened, I didn't think that you did and now knowing what happened I defiantly don't think you did. You pulled away and asked if I was okay with it, you said if I wasn't you would stop"

"I know and I meant that Dri, I didn't want to do something you weren't comfortable with"

"Why did you get drunk that night? Why did you let me kiss you and why the hell did you let me pull you into my bedroom?"

"I don't know why I decided to get drunk but it was because I was drunk that I let those other things happen"

"Do you regret what happened that night?" he stared at me, I couldn't tell what he was thinking at this point in time. There was no emotion visible on his face, he was hiding it from me and I couldn't work out why. Aside from us having sex, him telling me what happened to his brother and why he was sent here it made me feel like we were closer but now I wasn't sure.

"Dri I can't answer that, if I wasn't your teacher than this whole situation would be different"

"Then that's a yes, you regret having sex with me" I leaned over and picked up my book again and opened to the page I was reading before but he pulled it from my grasp again. "Seriously, stop doing that"

"Dri, fine everything aside, I don't regret having sex with you but it can't happen again. I'm your teacher Dri, it shouldn't have happened in the first place. Come on let's work on your conditioning, I doubt you actually homework already" he stood up and headed towards the doors indicating we were running laps outside.

"I don't regret it either, if you're wondering" I spoke answering his unspoken question, I knew him well enough to want to know what I thought about what happened.

Nikolaus made no movement or comment to make me think he had heard me but I stood up and followed him outside anyway. I was still annoyed that he kept this from me but I didn't know what to do, I couldn't ignore him and skip out on sessions. It would make everyone realise something is off about the two of us, if I want to act like nothing happened like I kept telling everyone I could do then I had to forget it he hid this from me.

A/N: Thank you to everyone who keeps reading and setting alerts for my story!

GwennyDee thank you for always reviewing, it means a lot to me. Yes they are now back at St Vladimir's for their senior year and I have a bit planned for it. Yes unfortunate for Dri she won't be able to escape from Nikolaus, that would be partly my fault since Dri and her friends just refer to him as Nikolaus. It was nice except I don't know if it's Lissa being a cool queen or Adrian annoying Lissa into doing it since he was worried about Dri. I can assure you that the next chapter is when Dimitri finally finds out what happens and you just read the first training session with Nikolaus, I hoped you enjoyed it.

Moulinness thank you for reviewing, it means a lot to me. Yes the chapter is coming closer and closer, in fact it's here so I hope you enjoyed it and it was what you had pictured in your head, if not well I hope you still liked it. As in regards to what I'm going to say about Rose and Dimitri being parents, well I can't because I don't know if you have read the Ruby Circle so I will stay quiet on my thoughts about that. I also planned on having Rose and Dri close I just wasn't sure how the relationship between the two of them would come out.

Gabergirl thank you for always reviewing, it means a lot to me. I'm glad you enjoyed that chapter a lot, I have planned out who gets paired with who for the field experience so it will be interesting. I'm trying to update when I have the time, the more free time I have the more I can write and therefore the more I post, meaning the less I write the less I post but don't stress I promise to post at least once a week. The chapter where she finally admits to if she does or doesn't have feeling towards Nikolaus is coming up.