Charlie had rushed me to the hospital where I have been playing the waiting game ever since. Six hours and every hour the pain seems to become more intense then the last. I wanted nothing more right now to be holding the hand of my son or daughter's father as he whispered encouraging words into my ear. Instead I had my father pacing around the room in a sheer panic of what to do. It the circumstances had been normal I may have been able to laugh about the site in front of me but it didn't really matter anymore.
"Dad you really need to sit down or go for a walk or something because frankly you are driving me insane." I said as another contraction hit. I grabbed my stomach to try and bunch together and stop the pain but nothing helped. I was still waiting for the nurse to give me the pain meds but she said I still wasn't far enough along. "Why don't you go and call Alice and Jake for me. Be productive grandpa." He chuckled at my words before taking my cell phone and making his way into the hallway.
CHARLIE POV
I didn't know what to do. My baby girl was having her baby and I was at a loss of what I could to be of help. When she mentioned me calling everyone I took the opportunity to get out of the room because I hated to see her in so much pain. I flipped through her contacts and found Alice's number and pressed the little green send button. I hadn't talked to Alice in what seemed like years and as much as I wanted to hate the entire Cullen family for what he did I knew I couldn't.
"Bella, I am so glad you called back! I really wanted to clear the air about the whole Edward dating thing and…" Edward dating? I could feel the heat rise to my face and the anger start to form in the pit of my stomach.
"You mean to tell me that that Son of a Bitch is out on a date as my daughter is in intense pain as she gives birth to his child!" I snarled into the phone. I had remained level headed during this whole divorce affair but now he was just pushing his luck.
"Charlie? You mean Bella's gone into labor? Oh my God, I will be there as soon as I can!" Alice was always good at taking the focus off something at hand but not this time. No this time I was beyond furious. If that boy had been within a 100 miles of me right now I would have probably found him and killed him.
"What do you mean that your low life of a brother is on a date? Alice I have to know was he cheating on Bella and that's the reason for the divorce?" The other end of the phone was silent.
"Charlie, I swear to you that Edward is not seeing anyone. Rose tried to set him up on a date today but it didn't work, I promise. And as for the divorce as soon as I figure it all out then I will let you know. Now back to more pressing matters, I just booked my flight and I should be there within a few hours."
"Fine but Alice make sure he doesn't find out where you are going. I don't think Bella wants him to know quite yet." She promised not to say anything before she hung up to go and pack her bags. I dialed Jake next and he promised to come as soon as he could and that Nessie would be on her way too. Renee and Phil were on the next flight from Florida but it would be awhile before they could get here. After I had hung up, I stared at the phone for a few minutes contemplating what I should do next. Finally my instincts kicked in and I flipped open the phone to call one last person. The number hadn't been erased like I thought it would have been which worked out well. After five rings I heard a flat tone hello.
"Look you son of a bitch, if I could get my hands on you right now I would strangle every last breath from your pathetic body! I should have listened to my head all those years ago and kept you far away from my precious daughter but no, I gave you the benefit of the doubt and look where we have ended up. I swear to go if I ever see you again then I will be sure to kick the ever living daylights out of you." I was breathing hard as I finished my tirade and I could feel my blood pressure sky rocket. Thank God I am in a hospital I thought.
"I would be more then willing for you to kill me." What was that suppose to mean? It was all his decision and if he wasn't happy with it then why wouldn't he try to fix it? I couldn't dwell on this, I had to get back in there and be with my daughter so she wasn't alone. Without any kind of good bye I hung up the phone and made my way back into the hospital room.
EDWARD POV
I sat in the small attic that was connected to me closet for what seemed like hours, holding tightly to the bottle of Jack Daniels in my hand. I was trying to hide from Alice and the rest of the family who had thought it was a good idea to get me back out into the dating field. But I didn't want to date some blonde floozy who looked like they spent all their time in the tanning bed and nail salon. There was only ever one person for me and I let her go. Willing. It was the best choice that I had at the time. The truth would have hurt everyone way too much and frankly I didn't know if I had enough balls to say it anyway. So I did the only other reasonable thing, I let her go. She was still young now and she could easily find a better guy for her out there. But God I missed her. The way she walked, the way she blushed, the way she would curl her toes after a huge orgasm. I took another swig of the brown whiskey that no longer burned as it made its way down. I looked at my watch and noticed it was getting late and I figure that everyone had probably given up their search for me by now. So I stumbled from my hiding spot, it was so hard to find my balance now a days, when I noticed my cell phone lighting up on my desk. Without thinking I flipped it opened and mumbled hello before taking and another sip.
"Look you son of a bitch, if I could get my hands on you right now I would strangle every last breath from your pathetic body! I should have listened to my head all those years ago and kept you far away from my precious daughter but no, I gave you the benefit of the doubt and look where we have ended up. I swear to go if I ever see you again then I will be sure to kick the ever living daylights out of you." I dropped the bottle in my hands and I heard it crash to the floor soaking my shoes in whiskey. The words Charlie spoke were so refreshing and how I wished for nothing more than for him to kill me. And even though it wasn't Bella on the phone a sense of relief washed over me knowing that someone was looking out for her.
"I would be more than willing for you to kill me." It was silent then on the phone except for a brief mumble of voices in the background. I stayed on the line hoping for some other mention of her name but none came. Instead I heard a loud voice stand out above all the rest in the background. "Paging Dr. Callahagn you are needed in the ER." The hospital? What would Charlie be doing in the hospital…but then it all clicked. Why the sudden lashing out at me after all this time and the page in the background, Bella was hurt and from Charlie's treat and strained voice my guess was bad. But before I could ask anything the line went dead. My body seemed to sober up quickly as I pieced everything together. Without thinking I grabbed my wallet and car keys and made my way out of the house.
"Hey Edward, where do you think you are going?" I heard Alice behind me. I tried to ignore and keep heading towards my car but I was stumbling a bit. She caught up and grabbed my arm spinning me around to face her. The sudden movement caused me to stumble and fall to the ground.
"Alice, I don't have time for this right now. I need to get to the airport." I stood up after a little bit of effort.
"One you can't drive anywhere in the condition you are in and two where do you need to get to so quickly Edward." I knew she knew that I knew about Bella so I had to make a choice, keep Bella out of my life forever or try to get her back and welcome into a world of darkness that had become my life.
"She is hurt. Charlie called and he was so upset and he was at the hospital. Alice she is hurt and I need to get to her." I was pleading with my little sister now in the driveway of our parent's house.
"She has been hurt for months Edward and you haven't cared one bit, why now?" At first I didn't understand what she was talking about then I realized what Alice meant, I had hurt her. In all my efforts to keep her from my darkness I had still managed to pull her in. I fell to my knees and buried my hands into my hair pulling it at the roots.
"I never meant for it to turn out like this. I wanted to spare her. I didn't want her to become what I am. But I need to see her, she is hurt and I need to see her." I was crying like a little boy at this point and I felt Alice wrap her arms around me and pull me into a tight embrace.
"Is that why you never pushed her to sign the papers because deep down you didn't want to end it either." I nodded against her chest.
"I am selfish and even though I knew it was right to let her go part of me just couldn't." Alice was silent as she rocked me back and forth on the hard pavement of the driveway as I cried the tears that I had been holding in for nearly nine months now.
"I was always hopeful that you would see the error in your ways, that's why I booked two tickets for Forks tomorrow. If anything I could have always taken Jazz but I was hoping you would come around." I looked up to see her smiling down at me and for the first time in nearly a year I felt a brief glance of hope. Alice walked me back inside and helped me into my bed before cleaning up the bottle of Jack that had spilled all over my floor before. Tomorrow we were going to see her. Tomorrow I was going to beg for the forgiveness that I didn't deserve. Tomorrow I was going to tell her the truth that was if she was still alive tomorrow. Alice wouldn't tell me why she was there, all she would say was that it was a life altering type of thing and I was preparing myself for the worse. Because if Bella died then I would follow soon after and even though she would be in heaven and I would be in hell I know it would be better then walking this planet alone for all eternity.
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