The next morning Lauren woke up and rolled over to see Dean was not next to her in the bed. She sat up and also noticed Bailey wasn't in the crib. Dean never let her sleep in. Lauren got out of bed and opened the bedroom door and could hear laughing coming from down stairs. She felt a stinging in her chest at the sound of Dean and Lo laughing together. This was all so confusing to her.
She headed downstairs and when she reached the last step she looked in the den to see both Dean and Lo sitting in the floor playing with Bailey and for some reason she didn't like it. She knew that Lo was her but then again Lo has her own family and Lauren wanted Lo to leave hers alone. This wasn't making sense but Lauren knew what she was feeling and she didn't like it at all. Dean was hers.
She took a breath and walked into the living room and Dean looked up at her, "What's going on?" Lauren asked.
"Hey. What are you doing up?" Dean asked.
"Its morning. Normal people wake up at this time." She said. "I'm always up and I give Bailey her bottle."
"I know but I was going to let you sleep in while me and Lo took Bailey out to the park or something." He said.
Lauren rolled her eyes and picked Bailey up off the floor, "No thanks. I am her mother not her. If anyone is taking her anywhere it's going to be me." She said and walked out of the room.
"What was all of that about?" Lo asked, "Did I so something to uh…me I guess?"
"No. I'll be right back. I'm going to go and talk to her." Dean said and got up out of the floor.
He walked into the kitchen and leaned on the door frame as he watched Lauren slam the fridge shut, "Everything ok with you?" he asked.
"Perfect." Lauren said and began to make a bottle for Bailey.
"You don't have to do that. Lo fed her about an hour ago." Dean said.
Lauren threw the bottle in the sink and turned to Dean, "Thanks for telling me. What else did Lo do for you and Bailey?" she asked and glared over at him.
"What the hell are you talking about?" Dean asked and walked farther into the room, "Something wrong?"
"For the last time I am fine. Why should I care if you spend the day with her or was two steps away from screwing her on the couch or that you and her and pretending to be this perfect family or….."
"Whoa just hang on. What are you talking about?" Dean asked.
"I saw you with her last night Dean! You practically had your tongue down her throat and don't tell me I was imagining it because I wasn't." Lauren said with a tear in her eye.
Dean sighed. He didn't want Lauren to see that, "It's not what you think I swear."
"Then what was it?"
"We just got to talking and I was making her feel better." Dean said and stopped and realized how weird this was, "She's you!"
"No she is not me! I am right here. Not once have you ever talked to me that way or even kissed me like that!" Lauren yelled back. "I'm right here!"
"What the hell are you talking about? I kiss you all the time. Plus you have me and she….you…her whatever doesn't!" Dean yelled.
"You know what just forget about it. It doesn't matter." Lauren said, "You two seem to have this connection and I would hate to get in the way of that."
"You are psychotic you know that?"
"All the more reason for you just to pack up and go back with her." Lauren cried as she walked out of the room with her daughter on her hip.
Dean stood there lost and confused. Who knew that out of everyone that Lauren would be jealous of herself. Dean would admit he liked Lo a lot but just because she was Lauren just a little stronger but still he liked what he had.
Lo saw Lauren pass and she walked into the kitchen and saw Dean leaning on the counter, "Everything ok?"
"You're crazy you know that?" he asked.
Lo smiled and walked over to him, "But you always said that's what made you love me. I'm different."
"It's true but you are a hard person to figure out." Dean said.
"You'll learn. So what's wrong with the other me now?"
"She saw the kiss last night and is freaking out about it. I don't get it. It was like kissing her and technically I was kissing her."
"Not in her eyes. In hers you were kissing another woman and she's hurt."
"You couldn't have warned me about this." Dean said, "Now she's pissed."
"I didn't want to warn you. I wanted one last day with Dean and I got it thanks to you. If she's pissed then I'm sorry but she'll understand or well actually I hope she doesn't. I don't want her to feel what I feel every day when I wake up without you. Just let me talk to her. Everything is going to be ok."
"I hope so or what the hell am I going to do with this." Dean said and pulled a small box from his pocket.
Lo's eyes widened and took it from his hands, "Is this what I think it is?"
"I was going to ask you…or her to marry me. Call me crazy but I love her and I know this is what she wants and I want it too." He said, "But I can't ask her when she's pissed at me."
A smile spread on Lo's face, "I never thought I would see the day."
"Things aren't different now."
"Yes they are." Lo said, "Ok let me talk to her and you just relax. Everything is going to be ok."
"I hope so." Dean said and took the box from Lo, "I don't want her to think there is someone else. Damn this is so freakin weird."
"I know but I'll be gone soon and things will calm down." Lo said and touched his face with her hand, "I saw what I needed to see and Lauren heard what she needed to hear."
"What does that mean? What did she hear?"
"Nothing you need to worry about. All you need to do is trust me…or her I should say. Everything is going to be fine and you and Lauren and going to live long and happy lives together with Sam by your side I promise. You need to trust that."
"All I can do is try but I won't make any promised." Dean said.
"Spoken just like the man I love and will always love." Lo said, "Just go out and give me time with her."
"Fine but good luck. You know you can be a bitch." He smiled.
"Yeah I know. I fell in love with a dick and he rubbed off on me."
"That's kind of dirty." Dean smiled.
"Still perverted." Lo said as she walked out of the room and headed up the stairs to have a heart to heart with herself.
Lauren was sitting on her bed smiling down at Bailey when Lo knocked and walked into the room, "Can we talk?" Lo asked and closed the door.
"You mean you don't want to talk to Dean?" Lauren asked.
"Listen I know what you saw and trust me I wasn't trying take your Dean away from you….or me." Lo said and sat down next to Lauren, "I hope you never understand the way I feel."
"You kissed him." Lauren said, "You of all people should know how I'm feeling right now."
"Yeah I do but think about this. Let's say something happened to your Dean. Everyone morning you woke up and he want there but one day you see him again and you only have a few hours with him. What would you do? Just say hey I hope you're doing well or would you say everything you needed to say and have one last kiss with him. That kiss last night was it for me. I won't ever be able to do that again as long as I love. My kids will grow up without their father and I have to go one without the love of my life. While I am dealing with that you are here bitching about one little kiss that didn't mean half as much to him as it did to me. He has you and you have him. That's all that matters and you should hang onto that because you never know what tomorrow is going to bring you. I fought with Dean for years. There were days I didn't tell him I love him and I'm afraid that he never knew how I really felt. Hell I didn't know how he felt half the time. You have a chance to make things right. It's up to you what you do now. You know all you need to know. I'm not sorry for kissing him. It's what I needed to live the rest of my life alone."
Lauren sat there and listened to every word Lo said and she understood a little. She never wanted to lose Dean and Lo made a lot of good point. Just the thought of losing Dean scared her.
"I'm sorry." Lauren said.
"I know and it's ok. You're going to have a better life than me."
"You think?"
"I know. Just stick with what your heart tells you and you'll be just fine I promise. Things will get bad but it will be worth it. Trust me I know." Lo smiled.
"Thank you." Lauren said, "I still don't understand but I'll try to do things right."
"You'll understand soon enough and just remember to never be afraid. Everything will work out." Lo smiled.
"I'll try."
Lo dried her eyes and got off the bed, "With that said I think it's time for me to go."
"Go? Why?" Lauren asked.
"I did what I came to do and now I need to get back to my babies. They need their mommy and their mommy needs them."
"I understand. Thank you for everything."
"You're welcome." Lo said and gave Lauren a hug, "Take care and stay strong."
"I will."
The girls broke and part and Lo looked up, "Ok Cas I'm ready." She said.
"Cas brought you here?" Lauren asked.
"Yeah. Your Cas anyways."
"Ready?" Cas asked as he appeared in the room.
"Take me home." Lo said and looked at him with his non expression face, "You know you are a lot more fun in the future. A real lady killer."
"I don't know what that means." Cas said.
"Let's hope you never do." Lo said and walked over to him and turned back to Lauren, "Take care."
"You too." Lauren said and just like that she was gone.
Lauren picked Bailey up off the bed and smiled down at her, "Mommy is going to make sure you are safe no matter what. I won't let you lose your daddy." She said. She knew that she was going to have to do the unthinkable but she was ready when ever the time came. She wasn't going to lose Dean.
Dean stood down stairs looking at the ring. He had put this off long enough and tonight he was going to do the one thing he never thought he would. He was going to ask Lauren to marry him.
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