Five months later…

Derek rolled over in his sleep, the nightmare only beginning. Meredith lay, watching as his breathing became erratic and his pulse started racing.

'Dr Shepherd, Meredith's been brought into Trauma. She was in a car accident,' the scalpel in Derek's hand hit the floor.

'Page some one, any one. I have to go,'

'Dr Greer is on his way. I'll take over,' the resident took over, allowing Derek to leave the OR and head down to trauma. Looking around, he spotted Bailey standing at the door of the end room, her face white.

'Is she in there?'

'Yeah, Derek…she's in a bad way, just…be prepared,' Derek nodded and pushed the door open. Meredith's body lay shaking on the bed, the tears streaming down her face.

'Mere?' She looked up, her eyes still blood shot. Walking over he lifted her up and sat her down on his knee.

'I'm so sorry…I didn't mean for this to happen…I tried to stop…he just kept going…I sorry'

'Mere, it's not your fault,'

'I should have stayed at home, waited till you got back,'

'Why were coming here?'

'I found out this morning…you left just before I found out…I was coming to tell you…I'm so sorry,'

'Mere?'

'I was pregnant,' Derek smiled but then realised what she had said. Was pregnant.

'Was?'

'I'm so sorry,' Derek gently rocked her back and forward, trying to sooth her with fighting the tears back himself. Slowly she fell asleep in his arms, her tiny arms and hands cut and bruised from the accident. Her hair was covering a large cut above her forehead. Placing her back down on the bed, he gently lifted the scrub top she was wearing to see a large bruise across her stomach. The door creaked open, Addison and Mark coming in, Mark behind her.

'How is she?' Derek didn't respond but stood up and walked out, past Bailey and ignored the shouting of his name. He started running up the stairs to the roof before throwing the door open and going out onto the roof. His head was spinning. It wasn't happening to him. This sort of thing happened to other people but not him.

'Derek?' Mark was standing at the door, watching as Derek spun round, unable to calm down.

'Derek, look at me,' Mark grabbed Derek's arms and stopped him moving.

'What happened?'

'She was pregnant…she was coming to tell me…'

'What happened?'

'The car hit her…the belt…lost the baby,' Derek was spitting out the words, his mind not functioning. Derek's body crumbled into a heap on the floor, Mark coming down to his level.

'Derek…'

Derek sat up sharply, the nightmare finally ending. Meredith wiped the side of his face, before easing him back down.

'Derek, you need to tell me what your dreaming about or I can't help you. Ever since I told you I was pregnant, at least once a week for the past five months, you've woken up, after saying the belt three times,'

'It doesn't matter,'

'Derek,'

'The day of the accident,' Meredith nodded her head, knowing full well that was what he was dreaming about. Lifting his hand, she placed it on her ever growing bump.

'I'm still here and I'm still pregnant. Nothing is going to happen this time. Derek, you need to talk to me. Don't close up on me,'

'I don't want you upset about it,'

'What will upset me more is if you don't talk to me about it,'

'I keep imagining from when I got told you had been in an accident to when I was on the roof with Mark,'

'Derek, this is going to sound so wrong but we have to move on. Natalie's nearly two and we've got the most beautiful baby boy on the way. That happened over a year ago. I want to leave the past to rest. I don't want to forget but I don't want to dwell,' Meredith leaned on and kissed Derek gently.

'I'm sorry,'

'Don't be. Just…remember one thing. No matter what, we have a healthy baby boy and the most beautiful daughter and we're together. As long as we have that, everything else is a bonus,' Derek nodded and pulled Meredith in against him, both falling asleep in each other arms. Meredith woke up again, checking Derek was still sleeping peacefully but he wasn't in bed. Creeping along the corridor she spotted Derek sitting out on the patio.

'What are you doing up? It's just hitting five,'

'Couldn't sleep. Anyway, sun rise is beautiful like you,'

'Are you hitting on me?'

'Is it working?'

'Might be,'

'Then yes I am,' Meredith took hold of his hand and sat down next to him.

'Why couldn't you sleep?'

'Either you or him couldn't stop moving. It was like a big water balloon,'

'That would be him. What's the real reason?'

'I keep dreaming that I wake up and you're not beside me and everything has fallen to crap,'

'Never going to happen. You will always wake up and have me next to you,'

'Promise?'

'I promise,' Meredith leaned her head on Derek's shoulder as they watched the mist rise up off the lake and also the sun rising. It was the sounds of Natalie crying that caused them to break apart.

'I'll get her,' Derek stood up leaving Meredith sitting on the steps.

'You had better be ok when you get out of there,' Meredith rubbed her stomach gently.

'Now where is your mommy?' Derek put Natalie down and walked behind her, holding her hands.

'Good morning Miss Shepherd,' Meredith outstretched her arms and Natalie fell into them.

'A baby,' Natalie pointed to Meredith's stomach.

'Yeah, good girl. A baby is inside mommy,' Derek handed Natalie a baby cup filled with apple juice and watched as Meredith brushed the hair out of her eyes. She seemed happy, contented but she was glowing. When Meredith was pregnant with Natalie, Derek had always thought she glowed. It was the same with their son. Meredith turned and smiled at Derek, causing his heart to melt. Coming over beside Meredith, she slid forward, allowing for him to come in behind her. She leaned back against his chest, and the continued watching the sun rise, while Miss Shepherd went looking for fairies.