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Chapter 50-What Is A Girl To Do?

Embry's POV

I really didn't expect Bella to turn to me, but as I held her, stroking her hair, I looked into Jacob's eyes. They are filled with nothing but guilt, shame, and most of all hurt. The tears streaked violently down his face, his hand is outstretched towards Bella. I instinctively pulled her to the side, out of his reach, and just shook my head. This is what Bella wants, if she wanted to be in his arms, she wouldn't be in mine. Jacob pulled his hand back, and wrapped his arms around his knees pulling them to his chest. He continued to sob as he rocked himself back and forth, occassionally sneaking a look at Bella. It made me hurt to think that he is in so much pain, but it is no body's fault but his. If you have ever heard of that phrase, "karma is a bitch" then you know what I mean. This is really something that Jacob and Bella need to work out, but I am not going to push her away in her time of desperate need. I intently watched Jacob, his face is a mask of pain. Bella fisted her hand in my shirt, "make it go away please, it hurts Embry, it hurts." I put my hand on her face, to make her look me in the eye, "I don't know how Bella, tell me what I can do?" Jacob's eyes shot up over his knees. He is curious I am sure. While Bella spoke, I could only see Jacob's eyes, I needed to see his reaction to all of this.

"Embry, I want you to make love to me, I need to know that there is someone else in this world for me," Her eyes were now on Jacob as she said the last part. "Someone that will be good to me, someone that has better morals, that will not cheat and lie." She put her head back down onto my chest. Jacob is waiting, waiting for my reaction now. "Bella, I can't do that. Anything but that, it is wrong, and it will not make things right." Bella took in a deep breath, "I feel like it will make things even. Then maybe we can all work through this, but until then I am content with not talking to him at all, having him out of my life will be the best thing. I just feel like things are so off balance, why should he be able to do this to me, and me just sit here and take it. Do you expect me to just accept him back with open arms?" Now I am at a loss for words, here I am in an awkward situation. On one hand there is nothing I wouldn't do to make her pain go away, but on the other hand my best friend is here being a witness to all of this. It is too much, what should I do? I looked at Jacob, searching his eyes for some kind of help. Jacob opened his mind to me, letting me invade his mind for some kind of answer.

I had to catch my breath as the visions of Jacob and Ashley sped through his mind. He mindlessly buried himself in her, almost like an animal. But what truly shocked me most is that it was all out of anger, the whole time he thought about how much Bella deserved it. And then he showed me after he took her home. He sat out in his garage, drinking beer and wallowing in his own guilt, trying to figure out ways to get her back, to make things right. Which brought him here tonight, he wants to make up for all that he has done, which includes trying to make me a part of the pack again. But mostly his thoughts are of Bella, he started talking to me with his mind. "She is my life and I have destroyed any chance with her. I will do anything to have another chance. Please Embry, you have to give her what she thinks she needs. I will not be mad at you, if she has it in her mind that this is the only way, then there will be no convincing her otherwise. Maybe she will at talk to me afterwards, like she said she would. Can you do this for me Embry? I would rather it be my best friend more than anyone else." I cannot believe he is asking me to do it with his girlfriend. Well I guess technically they are broken up right now, but still it doesn't make it any less weird. "Jacob, you know this is weird right? How can I do this with a clear mind? It is beyond wrong!" Jacob just nodded his head, and pushed himself to his feet. He opened the front door and stepped outside closing it behind him. "Please Embry, please!"

Before I could even try and argue my point, I heard him phase and he was gone. Now here I am with his angel in my arms, him wanting me to make love to her. I don't see how this is going to help matters. All I see it doing is making it worse by putting someone else's feelings into the mix. Where does it leave me when she goes back to Jacob? "Embry, I need you, please." I held Bella's face between both of my hands, she sounds so desperate. "Are you sure Bella?" She just looked at me, and mouthed "please" without a sound escaping her lips. I nodded, and picked her up wedding style, and carried her to my room. On the way, she had her face buried in my neck. I can feel her lips, and warm breath there, tickling the sensitive skin causing goose bumps to rise. I gently put her down on my bed, I stood, towering above her not knowing what to do next. This is so damn awkward. She took my hand in hers, holding it close to her face, then placing it on her cheek. I rubbed my thumb gently across her soft skin. She put her hand on top of my hand, turning her mouth against my palm, and kissed it deliberately. Her eyes never left mine as her lips found my wrist, I felt her tongue dart out and trace the vein in my arm. Can I really go through with this? "Bella, I.............." she tugged on my hands, pulling me down. I got down on my knees in front of her. I am not sure if I am ready to be in the bed with her just yet. I don't know if I will ever be ready. I sat for a moment and tried to reason with myself, trying to make this right.

I guess it is as right as it ever will be, with Jacob practically begging me to do this. I moved my hands back to Bella's face, inching closer with great caution. I touched my nose to hers, then leaned my forehead against hers, looking her in the eye. My eyes never left hers, I heard her breath quicken and hitch in her throat. My own heart is pounding in my chest. I slowly tilted my head to the side, closed my eyes and trailed soft kisses down her cheek to the corner of her mouth. I hesitated slightly before I put my full mouth on hers, wanting to make sure I am completely ready for this. I kissed her lips softly, tracing her bottom lip with the edge of my thumb. They parted slightly under the pressure of my thumb. Kissing her bottom lip, licking it slightly, pulling it into my mouth. Her hands knotted in my hair pulling me in tighter. I so desperately wanted entrance, I asked for it with my tongue sliding between her lips. She granted me and our tongues fought for dominance, neither of us winning. It isn't a matter of winning or losing. Her taste is so much better than I remember, it is like honey, smooth and sweet. As our mouths rhythmically danced, I realize that I can do this, I will do this, not matter what it may bring. I trailed my fingertips down her neck, to her shoulders. A felt a shudder ripple through her body. It feels good to know that I have this effect on her. I made my way down to her neck, scraping it slightly with my teeth, brushing her skin with my tongue. "So warm....oh Embry don't stop....don't stop...." There is so much desperation in her voice, I cannot deny her.

BPOV

This will make the pain go away, I need this. He feels so good, his mouth....his hands. "Don't stop!" I seen the resolve in Embry's eyes and knew without a doubt that he will give me what I want. His mouth on me feels so good, the wetness between my legs started making itself known. The heat inside me is slowly building, slowly becoming a raging inferno. I am not use to anyone making me feel this way except for Jacob. There is something about this situation that is adding fuel to the fire. Maybe it is the fact that it is wrong, that is making it feel so right. I didn't need Jacob's permission, but I will take advantage of this opportunity by loosing myself in Embry tonight. I let my hands move down torso, and tugged on the hem of his shirt. "I want to feel you." I whispered in his ear. As my fingers ventured under his shirt, I heard a deep moan. This made the wet heat grow between my legs. Sliding my hands to his chest, his nipples became hard under my touch. I scraped my nails across his nipples, causing him to tremble. "Mmmmm......" He took his hands and layed them over my own, taking in a deep breath through closed teeth making a hissing noise. I lifted his shirt over his head, I felt my breath stop and catch in my throat as my eyes took him in. His muscles are well defined, each of them had lines of their own. Jacob is complete brawn, and Emby's muscle is lean. The same dark russet skin, masculine jaw, and warm brown eyes. My mind is taking me back to the night of the bon fire on La Push beach. No matter how hard I try, I cannot remember him. All of him! I so desperately want to remember.

"No fair Bella, you still have your shirt on." I smiled up at him, even though he is on his knees and I am sitting on the edge of the bed, I still have to look up to meet his eyes. I raised my hands above my head, wanting him to take the hint and pull it off. He didn't, he just looked me up and down with a sideways smirk on his face. He put one finger in the middle of my chest and roughly pushed me back on the bed. I tried to pull him down with me, but he had other things on his mind. I feel like my head is going to explode when I seen him bite down seductively on his full bottom lip, running his large hands from my knees, down my calves, gripping my ankles with his hands. He hoisted my legs up resting my ankles on his shoulders. When I look into his eyes I see a raw animalistic glare, unlike anything I have ever seen with Jacob. This is exciting in so many different ways. I thought I would be getting some of the same with Embry, but it looks like things will be different, ALOT different. This became clear when Embry took my hips in his hand and pulled my ass to the edge of the bed. I immediately felt him press his hardness against my now aching core. Even though we are fully clothed, I can feel his outline as he pushed against me, over and over. The friction made me grind up towards him, and his hands clamped down on me tighter, holding my hips to the bed. "Hold still!" He continued grinding down between my folds, the friction bringing me dangerously close. "Ahhhhh.....Bella, cum for me baby. Do you like my dick? Huh? Tell me you like it Bella, I won't give it to you unless you tell me." I can't believe this....."Uhhh..Embry... please.......oh....fuck...yeah....."

Embry brought me over the edge with our clothes still on, shit, I wonder what he can do with his clothes off. When the sweet convulsions stopped I looked at him. There is nothing but lust pouring out of his eyes. "I want you Embry.!" He looked at me and gave me an evil laugh and smile. "No!" No, what does he mean no? I thought that was the whole point, I felt like crying, but I held it back. "Please." He shoved himself into me harder, teasing me. "You didn't tell me Bella, you need to tell me." I felt the blush rise in my cheeks, causing me to turn bright red. I know what he wants me to do, I cannot get my brain and my mouth to connect, I am so embarrassed. Without warning, Embry picked me up off of the bed, turned me over on my stomach, pinning my arms behind my back. Not so hard that it hurt, but enough to restrain me. I felt the weight of his hips grind against my backside. I feel his throbbing length through my jeans. "Is this what ou want Bella?" He said pushing down even harder. I just nodded my head, "mmmm..hmmmmm." The weight of his body came down on me, and his mouth is at my ear. I felt his teeth graze my earlobe, his voice came out low and rough. "Tell me what you want Bella." His dick pressing up against me so hard is making it hard to think. "I want you Embry." I felt his hips leave my backside, "that is not good enough, you will have to do better than that." He slammed himself against me, making me scream. His hand knotted in my hair, tugging my head to the side. "I want......" he slammed into me again, each time grunting. "I want......" He is not letting up one bit, slamming into me over and over.

"I want your dick inside of me Embry, I want it now. Will you give it to me? I like your dick, but I will love it when it is inside of me. There, is that good enough for you?" With those words said, he flipped me over onto my back with one swift movement, like I weigh no more than a bag of feathers. He positioned himself above me, glaring down at me. I lifted my hand to touch him and he pushed it away. He took his own hands and rubbed them down his broad chest, moving slowly down his tight abdomen. He teasingly took his first finger and traced the outline of his cock. I looked up and he was licking his lips at me. Oh how I want those lips on mine, or somewhere on me at least. And you would think as wet as I already am, I couldn't get any wetter. I felt my core literally drip with pleasure. Being bad is actually fun! I got distracted when I heard his zipper being pulled down. My eyes flew back down, I didn't want to miss anything. As he pulled it down, his hand went over his length, rubbing it palm down. Again, I reached to touch him, and he pushed me away for the second time. He grasped my wrists with both hands pulling them over my head. I felt him fall out and hit my stomach. "Leave them here!" He shot his eyes towards my hands. I nodded. He pushed himself back up on his knees, took my borrowed shirt in his hands and tore it off of my body, throwing it to the floor. His entire length is outside of his jeans, I gasped as he took his dick in his hands and began to stroke it's entirety. And before my eyes he grew even bigger. My eyes widened with shock and he smiled.

He continued his ministrations, smiling down at me. He pumped harder and faster, throwing his head back, groaning with each murderous stroke. He took one of my hands from above my head and placed it on his sensitive head. It is very large and swollen, and it throbbed under my touch. His soft, warm skin feels good in my hand. Not allowing me to touch no more than the head, he gripped his shaft, pumping up and down. I felt his moisture in my hand, so I rubbed it over his head making him shudder with excitement. His hips thrusted backwards, out of my grasp. Embry threw himself at me, pinning me to the bed with his weight, crashing his lips to mine. Nothing about Embry is soft, he is hard and rough around the edges. I don't know what I have gotten myself into, should I stop this before it goes to far? Can I turn back now? Do I want to? His whole body is screaming fuck me, he doesn't even have to say it. His face is centimeters away from my mine, his body is trembling above me, panting fiercely. "One more chance Bella, are you sure you want this?" This is my chance, do I stay and have the best fucking of my life? Or do I walk away with an unquenched thirst, a nagging hunger of never knowing?

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