A.N. It's been forever sorry! Enjoy
Randy, Dave, and I burst out laughing at the almost identical glares on John's and Jamie's faces.
"Do you really want to get me started because I'm pretty sure the guys would just love to hear some of the things you've said about them." Jamie said.
"Should I tell Davey where his nickname came from?" I asked.
We both shut up not wanting the other to say a damn thing in front of the three curious guys.
"You know you can't just say something like that and then not tell us." John pointed out.
"We just did." Jamie said smugly.
"Woman…" John threatened.
"Little boy." Jamie said.
"Stop calling me that." John said.
"Stop calling me woman." Jamie said.
"Fine, damn whatever I won't call you woman anymore if you top calling me little boy." John said.
Dave just rolled his eyes at all of us.
"You all need to grow up." He said.
"Dude you're just old." Randy said.
"I'm not old!" Dave whined.
"You know it's not nice to keep secrets." John said still wanting to know what Jamie and I had been talking about earlier. "We don't keep secrets we just aren't sharing them with you." Jamie said matter of factly.
"But that's keeping secrets." John said.
"No it's not if you think about it." I said.
"Seriously, yes it is." John argued.
Randy and Dave who had been pondering our conversation agreed with John.
"Yes it is." Dave said.
"What is with you two and bringing things up and not elaborating?" Randy asked.
Jamie and I looked at each other and smiled then turned to the three curious men and shrugged.
"Because we can." Jamie said.
Dave shook his head in disagreement.
"No you can't." He said.
"I want to know how I got stuck with that damn nick name." he said.
"Come on your name is Dave. People calling you Davie isn't that hard to figure out." Randy pointed out.
"Oh my god the man said something logical… I'm proud." John said wiping away an imaginary tear.
Jamie and I burst out laughing, Randy punched John in his arm, and Dave glared at Randy.
"So Jamie what was said about us?" Dave asked wrapping his arm around Jamie's shoulders.
I glared at my friend and she sighed.
"I'm not that pissed at her … yet." She said.
"Aw come on now I won't tell." He said.
"We want to know what was said about us too, come on we'll make a day of it. We can tell you all kinds of embarrassing things about Alex and you can just tell us a few things. What do you want dinner, tickets to any wrestling event, how about GQ over here?" John asked.
Dave deliberately lowered and deepened his voice.
"Anything you want you get and we get what we want." He said wiggling his eyebrows.
Jamie turned bright red.
"Believe me Dave she might even exhaust you… I mean you are getting up there in the years. For her to betray her best friend it really has to be worth her while and you just might not live up to your promises." I said.
"Oh I can live to all my promises all night long." Dave said.
"Remember the whole big brother little sister relationship we have? Well as my big brother I don't want to hear about and of your all night promises." I said.
"Don't bring them up then." Dave said.
Jamie laughed as Dave and I argued.
"I don't understand why you can talk about sexual stuff but god forbid; I kiss my boyfriend in front of you." I said.
"You just can't and it doesn't help that I know Randy like I do." Dave said.
"Aw he's so cute when he gets all big brotherly." Jamie said.
"Don't encourage him, if it was up to him I'd be in a convent and would have never had sex." I said.
"What?!?" Dave yelled.
"Uh oh." I said.
"That mother fucker touched you and then he did what he fucking did?" Dave growled.
"It's not like he forced me to do anything I mean he stopped so many times." I said.
"Want a shovel?" Jamie asked.
The three men were extremely over protective of me and Adam was more than just a sore subject he was the worst subject ever. A lot of the guys weren't very fond of him right now because of what happened between us.
"It was a mutual decision Dave; I wanted it to happen so it happened." I said.
"Forget the shovel how about a backhoe? You better hope none of these three see Adam for a while." Jamie said.
"Well god damn I'm a legal adult, I can do whatever I want." I said.
"No, you can't!" Dave said.
I may have been more than a foot shorter than Dave but I still stood toe to toe with him.
"Yes I can I already have one dad I don't need another. I understand that I am like your little sister but you need to let me live a little Dave." I said jabbing him in the chest with my finger.
"I do let you live a little, I stand back and watch you make stupid ass decisions all the time and then I bail you out of all kinds of shit that you wouldn't have gotten into if you'd listened to me in the beginning." He said.
"I am not one of your daughters, David! So don't you dare treat me like one." I said.
"No you are not, sometimes it seems like they have more sense than you do." He said.
I glared at him and he glared right back at me.
"You know I don't think I even have the balls to stand toe to toe with him." I heard John say.
"What's with all the yelling?" Vince asked bursting in the door.
"Alex is just taking Dave down a notch or two." John said grinning.
I took a few deep breaths to try and rein in my temper, yeah thanks dad.
"I know you did not just say that, and you know what I'm not going to even go there with you. I understand you are an over protective wall of muscle that thinks it his job to protect me but news flash David… I don't want to be protected anymore and I haven't for a while. You say you know Randy and you know he'd rather cut his dick off then intentionally hurt me and believe me if he does I'll cut it off for him and then happily hand him over to you and the other guys. I'm not stupid and believe me I won't take any shit from anyone and this includes you, remember I am my father's daughter." I said.
"From what I heard she took him down more than a notch or two." Vince said laughing.
"I'd say so." Jamie agreed.
"She's the only one who can and I've seen many try." Randy said.
"Were you one of them?" John asked.
"Elaine Orton didn't raise any fools." Randy said.
"If that's the case then why were you suspended?" Jamie asked sweetly.
John coughed to try and cover up his burst of laughter. Dave and I turned in time to see Vince raise an eyebrow up questioningly, while Randy fidgeted.
"I'm beginning to agree with John, this one is a major pain in the ass." He said.
"Thank you." John said.
"I am not a pain in the ass; I just call it like I see it." Jamie said.
"I like this one." Vince said.
Jamie smiled up at him.
"So does Davey he just doesn't have the balls to say anything." I said.
"Alex, shut up." Dave groaned.
"So let me see if I have this all straight, Jamie and Dave have a thing, Alex and John have a thing and Randy … wait do I even want to know what Randy is doing?" Vince asked.
"Nope Uncle Vince, Randy and I are dating and Dave and Jamie might pinch each others asses in a few decades and John well he's just John." I said.
"You kids confuse the hell out of me, I swear you guys just go from one to the other, back in my day you had a bad reputation if you dated more than two or three people. One age joke and you're suspended." He said.
Not even I was stupid enough to challenge that.
"Well I have work to do… you know the thing I'm pay you all to do." Vince said and left.
"Was that supposed to be some kind of hint?" John asked smirking.
I shrugged.
"I don't know but while you guys get to laze around I have to do some homework." I said pouting slightly as I pulled my laptop out of my bag.
"I better go make my appearance or millions will be disappointed." John said laughing.
A chorus of byes followed him out of the door.
"I'm hungry." Dave complained a few minutes later.
"So am I." Jamie mumbled next to me.
"Well here's an idea you and Dave are both hungry go get something to eat and you know talk to each other while enjoying your meals." I said.
Jamie glared at me and Randy started laughing. Dave shrugged and glanced at Jamie and grinned.
"So wanna go get something to eat?" He asked.
Jamie blushed but managed to stutter out a yes. Randy did his best to try to swallow a laugh but couldn't quite manage. Jamie glared at him.
"Maybe I made a mistake by pushing you two together. Who knows you and Johnny couldn't had the so called American dream, big house in the 'burbs, picket fence, 2.5 kids, and a big old mutt to top it all off." Jamie said.
Randy's laughter cut off abruptly and his eyes narrowed and glared at Jamie.
"No." Randy said forcefully.
"What is with the whole 2.5 kids thing?" I asked nobody in particular while typing furiously.
"How is that possible?" I mumbled.
I leaned back against the couch Randy was sitting on and looked up at him.
"Why do you let her bother you? She just likes to get a rise out of you." I said.
Randy looked down at me and his gaze immediately softened.
"I know but she does it so well." He said.
"Ignore her, you big baby." I said.
"Why don't you distract me then?" he asked and hauled me up on his lap.
"She is supposed to be doing homework." Dave said.
"Dude, you are such a dad." Randy said. Dave shrugged.
"Three daughters… it's a habit and believe me if she was my daughter she wouldn't be allowed any where near you. I've seen you with girls take 'em out, buy a few drinks, and bring 'em home long enough for a good time then send 'em packing after you've had your fun. You aren't even allowed to look at my daughters." Dave said.
"Fine with me I got all I want to look at right here." Randy said and kissed my forehead.
"I think I just threw up a little bit from all this corniness. What the hell happened to the self proclaimed lady killer?" Dave said. Randy just grinned and shrugged.
"You are going to get me in trouble I have to do this assignment now. Go play with your friends." I said and tried to climb off of his lap.
"I want to play with you though." He said pouting.
"I have to do this though… it's not as easy as I thought it would be." I said.
Randy shrugged.
"I can help you with that if you want." He said.
"Really… what do you know about Shakespeare, chemistry, and math?" I asked.
"Honey you got yourself the perfect guy… I'm hot as hell, have the perfect body, a great personality, I'm smart, and I love you." He said.
Jamie burst out laughing and Dave rolled his eyes.
"Okay so before I lose my appetite we are leaving… try to get some studying done okay?" Dave asked.
"Yeah I will I have to have these assignments in by midnight anyways. And then I need to study for a test." I said.
"Bye." Jamie and Dave said as they left.
I wiggled away from Randy and sprawled out on the couch using his thigh as a pillow. He smiled down at me and grabbed a magazine to keep him self occupied and then began running his fingers through my hair gently. Randy doesn't seem like a very emotional person or I guess a better term for it would be affectionate but he really was… well at least towards me he was. He could care less if we were alone or in a crowded locker room filled with his coworkers he would tell me he loved me or kiss me or play with my hair. He knew my moods and no matter what he can always make me laugh. I finished my assignments about an hour later and went on to the evils of studying for a math test I had a few days later. I began to get frustrated quickly because math had never been my strong suit and this shit was just confusing as all hell.
"What's wrong?" he asked.
"I hate math." I whined.
He chuckled lightly and tossed the magazine he had been reading on the floor.
"Let me help you." He said.
I shrugged and sat up and handed him the laptop. Randy helped me work through the first few problems and patiently answered all my questions.
"Wait how does that work?" I asked when he got a totally different answer than I had.
He shrugged. "It just does and if you would have checked your work like I told you to then you'd have gotten this." He said.
I stuck my tongue out at him and pouted.
"How do they know that you aren't cheating if the test is online?" Randy asked a few minutes later.
"They don't and that's why there is a time limit and you have to like show your work, every little step of it." I said.
Randy nodded. "Hey what do we have to do today besides make our appearance?" He asked idly playing with my hair. "We have a house show tonight." I said.
I leaned back into him and sighed. He tipped my head back and softly kissed me.
"I love you." He said.
I know he wanted to hear me say it back but I just couldn't. It's not that I didn't I just wasn't sure I could open myself to that kind of pain again and I wasn't totally over Adam yet. I opened my mouth to say something but he shook his head sadly. "No I don't want you to say it just to say it, Alex; I want you to say it because you mean it. I know you aren't ready to yet and that's okay I can wait until you are." He said.
I knew I should be honest with him and tell him that yes I was over Adam enough to start moving on but I still had feelings for him and for as long as I had those feelings I probably wouldn't be able to say I love you back to Randy without meaning it but I just couldn't. So instead I just smiled at him and nodded. I finished my test in daze thinking about what I had to do and that I really needed to talk to Jamie about this. I sighed and shut my laptop.
"Did you do well?" Randy asked.
"I didn't do that bad, I got a B." I said.
"That's my girl." Randy said proudly.
Jamie and Dave came back and they were holding hands. Well more like Dave had Jamie's hand and she was blushing and trying to pull it away.
"Hey Jamie I have some things I need to do want to come with?" I asked.
"Eh not really." She said.
"Yes you do." I said.
"No I don't." she said.
"I'll go with you baby." Randy said.
"No its fine, Jamie's coming with… aren't you Jamie." I said.
"Yeah… I guess." She said getting up and following me out of the door.
"You my friend are so dense sometimes." I said once we were out of earshot.
"I still don't know why I'm coming with you." Jamie complained.
"I need to talk to you about something…" I said.
"What?" she asked.
"It's about… well… Randy." I said.
"What about him?" she asked.
"You didn't let me finish." I said scowling.
"Okay, okay… finish." She said rolling her eyes.
"I… I think that I may… well I kind of still have feelings for Adam." I said.
"What?" She asked.
"Does Randy know?" She asked.
"No… he doesn't and they aren't strong but they are still there and well they're there." I said.
"How not strong are these feelings?" She asked calmly.
"I want to move on, I will move on, I am ready to move on but I still care for him. I still worry about him and well I still think about him." I admitted.
"How often?" She asked.
I sighed and took a deep breath and then closed my eyes.
"Often…" I said.
"You need to talk to not only Randy about this but Adam too." Jamie said.
"Yes because Randy is going to be so open to these conversations. I can see it now, Hey Randy I love but yeah I still have feelings for Adam but hey don't worry about it." I said sarcastically.
"Maybe you should approach this in a calm and rational adult." Jamie suggested mildly.
"And Adam will have a fucking field day when I talk to him. Hey you know how I'm the reason everyone in the locker room hates you and that I told you that I wanted nothing to do with you but hey I still have feelings for you, but I love Randy, so just start yelling at me and hating me even more." I said rolling my eyes at my friend.
"Ever stopped freaking out about having feelings for Adam and figured out what kind of feelings they were?" Jamie asked. "No, but he was special to me and I always just figured they were kind of left over from before." I mumbled.
"So you just assumed that because he was the first guy you had sex with you would always have those kinds of feelings for him?" Jamie asked.
"Shut up, I know it sounds stupid." I said.
"No it's not that stupid I mean I remember my first time and the guy fondly." She said.
"You love Randy right?" She asked.
"I don't know. I really like him, he's really hot, and I've never really felt this way before I mean I always have had a thing for him. I know how much he's given up to prove how he feels to me and I mean come on it's Randy, that couldn't have been easy for him, ya know." I said.
"Do you still want Adam?" she asked bluntly.
"What? No, not at all, I just miss him, and talking to him." I said.
"Well that makes sense honey, Adam and you were friends long before you guys started looking at each other like that and you just miss that." She said.
"I hate you and your logic and the fact that you always rub it in that you were right." I said.
"Yeah, yeah but you love me. Now go talk to Adam, then right after talk to Randy. I'll kick the boys out of there for you." She said.
"More like you will keep Davie occupied and I so don't want to know how." I said laughing.
"Like anyone wants to see you and Randy act like love sick teenagers." She said and stuck her tongue out.
"At least we won't only be starting to pinch each other's asses when we are in our 60's." I said.
"Oh shut up and go find Adam." She said.
I laughed and jogged off to the men's locker room. I knocked and took a deep breath.
"You guys decent, because I'm coming in." I said.
"Like you haven't seen it before." Someone yelled.
"What?" Someone yelled.
"Joking, I swear." The first person said and Matt opened the door.
"Come on in we're all decent, enough." He said and threw a look over his shoulder. I walked in and saw a few of the guys pulling on shirts and rolled my eyes.
"Good thing y'all have shirts on or I might faint at the sight of a naked chest. My, what does the male body look like? Guess I'll just have to wait till I'm 30, married, and the stork brings me a baby boy to find out, huh?" I said.
"Damn right." Mark said lacing up his boots.
I rolled my eyes at him. "Anyways now that we've established that, what's up?" Matt asked.
"Oh nothing, can't I come here to hang out?" I asked.
"Nope especially when you say it like that, so what do you want?" He asked suspiciously.
I looked around and didn't see Adam. I took a deep breath and walked towards the door.
"Nothing, I was just looking for Adam." I said and walked out.
The door muffled their responses but not for long because Matt threw it open and grabbed my arm.
"What?" Matt asked.
"You heard me right." I said.
"But why?" he asked.
"We were friends before everything happened and I miss that." I said.
"He hurt you Alex…" he said.
"Yes I know that but…" I said.
"You didn't let me finish, he hurt you and well you hurt him too." Matt said.
I couldn't quite look at Matt. "I know, and I want to make it right. I want things to go back to the way they were before." I said.
"Sweetie that's never going to happen and you know it." He said.
"Well we can try to at least be friends again." I said.
Matt nodded. "Yeah… you can try…" he said.
I walked away wondering where else he could be. I turned the corner and sighed. I knew that without some kind of clue or help I would have a really hard time finding Adam. I decided to go ask Shane if he'd seen him and I went by his office and couldn't find him. I saw a stage hand and asked him if he'd seen Adam.
"No, sorry Ms. Levesque." He said regretfully.
"Oh can you tell me where Shane McMahon is?" I asked.
He smiled. "Yeah he's in Mr. McMahon's office some big meeting." He said.
"Thanks." I said and hurried off.
I sighed and started towards Vince's office. Having grown up backstage I had certain liberties no one else did but that didn't mean I could just barge in to Vince's office so I sat on a crate right outside and waited. The door opened and I hopped down to talk to Vince but no one came out but the office's occupants voices did.
"Thanks Vince I don't know when I'm going to be able to come back." A deep voice said.
"So what did the doctor say exactly?" Shane asked.
"They don't know how bad it is and that I waited maybe almost to long." The voice said regretfully.
"Why didn't you talk to the medic or come to us sooner?" Vince asked.
"I was scared to." They said.
"I knew this was more serious than any injury I had ever had and my career is just starting to take off and I didn't want it to end." They said.
"You do realize that by ignoring this serious of an injury you might have well ended you career, don't you?" Shane asked. "Yeah I do." They said.
"If I may ask why did you decide to go to the doctor and now come to us with this information now? You technically still could have wrestled until well until something went wrong." Vince said.
"I… it hurt too much and it wasn't only about me anymore." They said.
"Well we'll work this in and maybe we can get you to do a blog or something for the fans later on." Shane said.
"Yeah that would be fine I'll keep you guys updated." He said.
"Your appointment will go fine tomorrow. Don't worry about anything Adam just do what you have to do to come back to what you love." Vince said.
"I never planned on leaving her… it." Adam said and walked out the door and right into me.
"Alex?" he said surprised.
"Adam…" I whispered.
"What are you doing here?" he asked.
"I was looking for you and what did you mean when you said that you might have waited too long?" I asked.
"Nothing… my neck it's probably not that bad you know doctors always pessimistic." He said and smiled but it didn't reach his eyes.
"I um I better go I have a flight to catch and an appointment tomorrow." He said.
"Wait, Adam I want to go with you." I said.
"What?" He asked.
"Well I was looking for you earlier and I wanted to talk to you about things and I want to go with you to your doctor's appointment tomorrow." I said.
"As much as I would love that Alex but you have your career and life and I really don't think anyone would like that idea." He said.
"I could care less what anyone thinks… I'm not a little girl Adam." I said.
"I know you aren't but that doesn't change things Alex. You know you can't just drop everything to come with me." He said gently.
I sighed defeated. I knew he was right it's not like I could take a few days off and be with him a few days would be the plane ride to Tampa Bay and back.
"Don't worry about me I'll be fine sweetie. So what did you want to talk to me about?" He asked.
"I miss you Adam… I still have feelings for you and I always will. You'll always have a special place in my heart because you were my relationship but we were friends before we … were together and I miss that." I said.
He smiled down at me. "I miss you too sweetie but it's not the same anymore. I don't think I can go back to the way things were before, I still love you Alex." He said sadly.
"Adam I, I'm with Randy." I said after a while.
He nodded. "I know Alex believe me I know." He said.
"This isn't my fault Adam why do you always have to make me feel guilty about what happened between us?" I asked.
"I don't mean to but why couldn't you have given us another chance?" he asked.
"I tried to Adam I tried so many times but every time I tried you would push me away until I couldn't do it anymore. You always had something else to do, other women, and when you decided it was time to talk to me you would always end up lashing out at me." I said with tears streaming down my face.
"Don't do that Alex, you know I hate when you cry baby." He said and pulled me into his arms.
He buried his face in my hair. "I'm so sorry I never meant to hurt you Alex. I was so stupid baby; I should have listened to you." He whispered into my ear.
I buried my face into his chest and he held me. "Shh… it's okay baby girl… Shh." He said.
He pulled back and used his thumbs to wipe my tears away and smiled. His was wiping away the last of the stray tears when his thumb accidentally brushed my bottom lip. He was trembling when he ran his thumb over my lips again. I looked up at him questioningly. Without thinking I licked my lips and he sucked in a breath through his teeth.
"Alex…" he growled.
He slowly lowered his face towards mine his eyes never leaving mine and kissed me.
Jamie's P.O.V
I watched as Alex went off in search of Adam. I shook my head and headed back to Randy and Dave's locker room. Maybe I should take everyone's advice and just tell Dave how I felt about him. I mean I have known the man forever and it's not like he's not interested in me. So why not just ask the man out for a drink or hint at it. Or maybe I could get Alex to get everyone together have a few drinks and actually be able to talk to the man. He did look really good last night at the club, but then again he always looked good. He was David freakin' Batista; the man had the body of a god, and a great personality. Without thinking I walked right in and much to my embarrassment Randy was just getting out of the shower and Dave was napping on the couch.
"Oh shit I'm so sorry." I said.
His head whipped up and he stared at me like a deer caught in the headlights. He snapped out of it and quickly secured his towel. I stumbled towards the couch and almost fell on to it before I remembered that Dave was laying on it.
"I should have knocked but I was thinking of how great Dave looked last night…" I said. Then I realized what I had said and blushed. Randy tried to cover up his laughter with a cough and I glared at him.
"Sorry I know this isn't funny, its just I thought you couldn't have been any more flustered after you came in here" He said gesturing to his towel. "But when you said that about Dave I swear you turned 10 more shades of red." He said smiling.
"Oh shut up I've already seen you in just a towel, really shouldn't post those kinds of photos on the internet." I said.
"What are you doing looking at them?" He asked cockily.
"Every wrestling sight has them dumbass and remember who my best friend is." I said.
If I wasn't mistaken Randy actually blushed.
"I was covered up in all those pictures." He said.
"Please it's nothing I haven't seen before I've changed babies' diapers." I said.
"There's a big difference between me and a baby." He said indignantly.
I shrugged. "Not all that much." I said.
"You need to get your eyes checked." He said huffily.
"No you need a reality check." I shot back.
"Maybe you need another look." He said.
"Randy you touch that towel and I'll kick your ass, you have your own woman." Dave growled.
My eyes shot to him and he was staring at me. I heard Randy grab his bag and then go back into the bathroom. Dave seemed to be studying me and I couldn't figure out why.
"What?" I asked. He shook his head, smirking slightly.
Before I knew what was happening I was straddling his lap and his hands were resting lazily on my hips.
"You drive me crazy." He mumbled.
"I do?" I asked. He nodded.
He was looking up at me slightly smirking as if he was amused.
"Why? I mean look at you and then look at me." I blurted out.
I mentally kicked myself for that. At this point in time I wished I could have disappeared.
"You're beautiful and smart and give shit right back to all of us." He said.
"No I'm not." I said.
"Yes you are, to me you are." He said.
"Thank you." I whispered.
"Go out with me tonight?" he asked.
"Yes." I said. For being such a big man Dave sure could move fast because as soon as the word passed my lips he was kissing me.
