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Will she ever understand how much I need her?

"Usagi Tsukino!" Haruka exclaimed.

Usagi couldn't bare facing Haruka again. She had to keep walking away. If she turns, there's no assurance that she'd go back.

"Usagi!"

Walk. Keep walking, Usagi commanded herself.

"Usagi! Usagi Tsukino! Do you dare walk out on me again? Is that what you do? Walk away? When you can't take it?"

Usagi halted from her steps, breathing heavily, "Stop this, Haruka!" Usagi knew how Haruka could torment her, just by reminding her the past. "There's no use. I'm with Mamoru. I love," she cleared her throat, "I love him."

"Is this how it ends?"

"It has to end. Why do you do this? To yourself?" Usagi asked, her head turned slightly sideways. "Do you honestly think it's that easy to get what you want? Without hurting other people?"

"Is that what you're worried about?" Haruka insisted, "Hurting other people's feelings? Wow Usa-chan, I guess you forgot about mine. You practically deserted me."

Usagi spun around, her cheeks flushed, "I did no such thing!" she burst. "You left. I waited for you back at the academy. Instead you go catching after your races. Well here it is Ruka-chan," she opened her arms, "Your dream in a silver platter, with the entire world at your disposal."

Haruka shook her head, the pit in her stomach twisting as she stared back into those wet pools of azure-tinted eyes.

"It's not complete." She shook her head again, walking briskly to Usagi and closing that arm's length of a distance by grabbing her from the nape and cupping her face with another hand, descending her lips as fast as she could.

It was hungry. It was possessive. It was angry and seeking revenge. It was a kiss Haruka longed for so long, and she intended its character to be that way.

She was frustrated after all, and this was her moment to retrieve her lost opportunity.

It was the moment to show how much she wanted Usagi for so long. The same moment to prove to the woman she truly loved, how much she missed her.

It was tormenting to feel Haruka this way, Usagi thought as she cried herself throughout their kiss. She could barely breathe through her mouth with the onslaught of Haruka's advances. She was being claimed again and again, as if all the slanting and touching of their mouths wouldn't halt. Usagi couldn't move away either; Haruka's grip was so tight, it left marks at the back of her neck.

It was demanding for what felt like a long while, so alike Haruka to be assertive and rough. Usagi was inwardly contemplating in her distress when to run away at the second Haruka releases her.

But she didn't. Instead, Haruka gradually dropped her hand slowly from Usagi's face to her shoulders, to the curve of her back and stayed there, pressing her tenderly against her chest. Her other hand never left the back of Usagi's head; her fingers raking inside the blonde mane, shifting now and then as their angry kiss turned into something soft and forgiving.

All this time, Usagi's hands were balled into fists, still pushing against Haruka's shoulders. When Haruka's temper had subsided into something more tolerable, Usagi forgot to run away.

Her thoughts were a scramble. It was mind-blowing to not to think of anything, but the movement of a kiss.

Just this kiss. This one, tormenting, abusive kiss.

Usagi shook her head slowly, her breath still a little bit ragged, her heart trying to keep up with the new, steady breathing. As she shook her flushed face, Haruka kept on with the kisses, dismissing Usagi's refusal while she planted softer descents on Usagi's mouth.

When her senses started to come back, Usagi tried to blink away the tears and cleared her throat, realizing that closing her lips tightly could finish this off.

Haruka took a deep breath, pulled Usagi close to her chest where her muse buried her face just below her chin. She began to sob, and Haruka ran her palm across the golden mane.

When the sobbing couldn't stop, Haruka softly began to cry herself, tears welling beneath her eyes, streaming down on her face.

"I'm sorry." Haruka whispered. "I'm sorry…I'm sorry…"