ok so no power loss today. So as promised here are the next two chapters.
By the time Santana was done making breakfast Quinn had to change her shirt and Lexi's cloths twice. As Santana comes out of the kitchen she looks at Quinn funny "thats not what you had on when I went in there." Quinn looks at her funny "ya think? She got sick twice. I had to change us both." Santana nods "and her temp?" Quinn sighs "it was the same last time I changed us." Santana nods "the foods done, do you think she will lay in the swing long enough for us to eat?" Quinn shrugs "we can try it." Santana nods and takes the swing to the kitchen so they can eat. As they are sitting there the baby gets sick again "aleast I don't have to change me, just her." Santana nods "I'll do it you eat. I may have to call mamá back if she keeps this up." Quinn nods as she watches her walk out with the baby, once they are gone Maddie looks at her "is she going to be ok?" Quinn nods "yeah we just need to get her into the doctor to see whats going on with her." Maddie nods and goes back to eatting, when Santana comes back down Quinn is done and she hands her to her and Quinn notice's Santana has a different shirt on "she get you too?"
Santana sighs and sits down "yeah I think i need to call mamá. She's puking way to much." Quinn nods "I agree, I'll go call her while you finish your breakfast." Santana nods and watches her leave, as Quinn gets to the livingroom she picks up Santana's phone and calls Maribel. As it rings Quinn moves Lexi around in her arms "hey mija is everything ok?" Quinn sighs "no ma. She is puking like crazy now, we've had to change her 4 times, I've changed twice and Santana had to change as well. I don't think she will be able to wait till 10." Maribel sighs "I was afraid of that. Alright I'm going to go ahead and leave now. I'll call the doctor on my way home and see what she wants me to do." Quinn nods "alright see you in a bit." With that the girl hangs up the phone as Santana walks in "call her?" Quinn nods "she's on her way home now." Santana nods and sits back down on the couch by Bailey "I really hate storms Q." Quinn laughs "I know baby. It'll be ok, I'm actually shocked Carmen isn't up yet." Santana nods "I now. Hows the new therapist?" Quinn shrugs "alot better than the last one. Atleast she listens to me and doesn't look at me funny when I say something. She was shocked when I told her everything thats happened."
Santana looks at Quinn "is she helping you though?" Quinn looks up from the baby to Santana "honestly? Yeah she is. Its almost like talking to you about things but she is able to give me advise." Santana smiles "good. I'm glad your able to talk to her." Just then they hear Carmen's bedroom door open and the girl walks down the stairs "where's the girls?" Santana turns to her "Carla's, we kept Lexi because she is sick and its better for us to keep her than to send her to Karens." Carmen nods and sits down in the other chair "is she ok?" Quinn sighs "I'm not sure. Ma is on her way home to get her now, she had an appointment at 11 but I don't think she can wait that long." Carmen looks at the baby "she's pretty pale." Quinn nods "yeah." They sit there a few minutes and Santana looks at Carmen "are you talking to the new therapist or are you just sitting there like you was with the other one?" Carmen sighs "no. I'm actually talking to her. Its almost like talking to you but she's more helpful and doesn't threaten to kick my ass every two minutes." Santana glares at her "I do not." Carmen laughs "oh but you do. Anyways I started opening up to her and she said to her right now it sounds like I have a case of PTSD."
Quinn looks at her funny "like what war vets get?" Carmen nods "yeah. Anyone can get it, not just war vets. It has to do with being traumatized from a young age. With the being raped by my father and dealing with that forever. Then watching her have it done to her, then the car wreck and almost killing Santana. Then to you getting stabbed and almost dieing, she said she was shocked I was functioning as well as I was." Santana sits there a moment the speaks up "and she's sure thats what you have?" Carmen nods "yeah. When I got home I googled it and I have like 99% of the syptoms. So yeah." Santana looks at her "so how do they treat it?" Carmen curls up in a ball in the chair and lays her head against the back "therapy. And if the depression and anxiety doesn't go away soon. I'll be put on meds for that. She also mentioned that there maybe time I'll have to get you to go with me San, since the car wreck shit still fucks with me. She called it family therapy." Santana nods "if thats what it takes to get you threw this I'll do it." Quinn watches them and see's Carmen is not saying something "what else Carmen?"
Carmen sighs "when I go to work threw the times I had to watch you get well you know. I'm suppose to see if you can go in with me then too." Santana sighs and leans back on the couch "I'm not comfortable talking about that with people Carmen." Quinn looks at her "thats one of the reason's I said you needed to see a therapist. You haven't learned to deal with it." Santana goes to open her mouth but Carmen stops her "she's right and that could be where some of your anger comes from as well. Think about everything San. What has happened to you in your life, I'm gonna say there are times you have PTSD." Santana rolls her eyes and goes to argue as the front door opens "oh you two are so luck she walked in." Carmen and Quinn look at each other and know that they are right. Maribel walks in the room and can tell she interrupted something "ok whats going on?" Santana sighs "nothing. Those two seem to think I need to see a therapist like they are." Maribel nods "I agree with them." As she walks over to Quinn she picks the baby up "when was the last time you checked her temp?" Quinn looks at the clock "right before we called you. The highes it got for us was 103.1" Maribel sighs "Dr. Spencer said that I needed to go ahead and take her into the ER and have her checked. They can call her from there since she can't get her in any earlier."
Santana nods "ok. Can you take her alone?" Maribel sighs "I was wanting one of you to ride with me. To help keep an eye on her." Santana nods "I smell less like puke. I can ride with you and Carmen can come pick me up. Do we need to stop and get the girls?" Quinn shakes her head "no Carla said she would watch them till the rain died down later. I don't want to get them soaked and make them sick." Santana nods "alright. Carmen get dressed and fallow us." The girl nods and heads up the stairs, Quinn looks at Maddie on the couch "its just you and me till they get back chick." Maddie smiles "thats fine. We can keep Bailey company so she doesn't get scared." Maribel looks at the dog laying on the girls lap "big old chicken. Fight someone breaking it but thunder scares you." Quinn laughs "she's just like San." Maribel nods as she puts the baby in the carseat "true." Santana rolls her eyes as she puts her flip flops on "whatever." When Carmen comes back down they head out the door. Once they are gone Quinn looks at Maddie "so what are we doing while they are all gone?" Maddie shrugs "watch tv." Quinn smiles "good choice."
They sit there and watch tv and both fall asleep, Quinn had moved over to the couch and Maddie was laying on her chest and Bailey was laying on her feet. When Santana and Carmen get home thats how they find them "look at those lazy bums." Santana smiles "Quinn didn't sleep good lastnight. Her allergies are kicking her ass lately." Carmen walks over and sits in the chair from earlier while Santana walks by and kisses Quinn on the head and moves to the other chair. As she sits down Carmen looks at her "you really do need to see someone San." Santana sighs and turns the tv "well its not gonna happen. I can deal with shit better than most people." Carmen looks at her funny "really? Because I see the way you look at Q sometimes like you want to memorize her because its like she will disappear into thin air at any minute." Santana glares at her "well thats because she almost died on me Carmen. I almost lost her." Carmen nods "thats my point. I can admit I need help. Q can admit it but you can't admit you need help." Santana sighs and glaces at the sleeping pair on the couch "there are times I look at her still and have to close my eyes because I can still see her bleeding. I know I probably should see someone but I can't open up as easy as you do or she does."
Carmen nods "then just go once and if you can open up to her then don't go back. But honestly I think she would help you as much as she does me." Santana looks at her "if I promise to think about it will you drop it?" Carmen nods "as long as you really do think about it. You can't keep going the way your going. If you want to get married to her then you need to learn to deal with shit." Santana rolls her eyes and turns back to the tv "fuck. The weather is going to get worse, not stop." Carmen turns and looks at the tv "how long till thats here?" Santana listen "about 45 minutes. I'm going to get my babies so take me to get them." Carmen nods and stands up "lets go get them." With that the pair walk out of the house, as soon as the door shuts Quinn opens her eyes "thats why she has a hard time looking at me at times still." She lays there looking at the ceiling for a long time, so long that she hadn't realized that Carmen and Santana had come back "Q? You ok?" Quinn looks over and see's Santana standing there holding Jazalyn "ummm yeah sorry. I'm fine." Santana shakes her head "no your not. I said your name four times before you answered me."
Quinn moves around on the couch till Maddie is laying down and she can move out from under her "sorry was just thinking is all." As she stands up she kisses the baby on the top of the head and heads to the kitchen. Santana watches her go and turns to Carmen when she says "something's up with her." Santana nods and walks over and puts the baby in the swing "can you keep an eye on these two while I go see?" Carmen nods "sure." Santana turns and heads to the kitchen but finds it empty, she looks on the back porch and finds Quinn standing by the back door "Q whats going on with you?" Quinn shakes her head as she wraps her arms around herself "nothing." Santana walks up behind her and wraps her arms around her, as she lays her chin on the girls shoulder she ask again "baby whats on your mind? I can tell something is bothering you, just talk to me." Quinn sighs "its nothing." Santana sighs and moves back and turns Quinn to face her "I know when your lieing and right now thats what your doing." Quinn turns her head "I think we need to postpone the wedding." Santana pulls her head back and looks at her funny "why?"
Quinn closes her eyes and looks to the floor "I'm getting help and dealing with all my issues San. Your letting yours eat at you... I know that you can't open up to people that aren't me but I wish you would try." Santana shakes her head "where is this coming from?" Quinn sighs "I know you still have nightmares San. You wake me up sometimes when you have them. I blame my not sleeping good on my allergies but in all honesty you wake me up with your nightmares." Santana looks at her funny "what? Why didn't you tell me I waking you up?" Quinn finally looks up at her and shrugs "I thought you would realize you needed help on your own. But you keep avoid it San. If you can't go see someone about all this then I think we need to postpone the wedding for a little while." Santana shakes her head "no. I am NOT postponing the wedding Q. Its already to far away for me." Quinn sighs again "San if you can't get help for your problems then I won't be there the day of the wedding." Santana steps back from her "so what? Your blackmailing me?" Quinn shakes her head "no. I'm just saying till you can get help to deal with everything then I don't think we need to be married yet."
Santana looks at her a moment and then tosses her hands up angerly "what the fuck is it with you guys and thinking I need fucking help? You two are the ones that need help, Carmen is so damn traumatized its unreal, and honestly I think you are as fucking well Q. I'm fucking fine. I don't fucking need to see anyone damn it." Quinn looks at her "that right there is what we are talking about. You are becoming angery again, and it happens easily." Santana growls "if you don't want to fucking marry me just say so." Quinn shakes her head "its not that San. I'm just saying I think we need to put it off till you can deal with not being able to fucking look at me at times. I see the way you look at me, hell I see the way you don't look at me at times too. Or am I just imagining that?" Santana glares at her "fuck this shit." With that she turns and walks out of the room and Quinn sighs "fuck." She fallows her into the kitchen and then into the livingroom "San just listen to me." Santana turns and points at her "BACK OFF Q." Carmen looks up as Santana raises her voice and then says "you just scared the shit out of Maddie, San." She see's the little girl get up and walk over to her and climbs on her lap.
Santana turns and looks at them and then turns back to Quinn "back off. I am not going to see a nut doctor ok. I'M NOT FUCKING NUTS Q." Quinn narrows her eyes at her "so your saying Carmen and I are nuts because we see one? How fucking humble of you San." Santana opens her mouth but Quinn cuts her off "you know what forget it. Don't go see one but don't expect me to be there the day of the fucking wedding either." She pulls the ring off her finger and walks over to her and slaps her in the chest with it "you know what better yet don't expect me to marry you period since I seem to be nuts. Till you can get your head out of your ass and open YOUR fucking eyes don't expect me to put that back on either. I'm trying to help you and here you go insulting me so you know what fuck it. Figure it out on your own." With that Quinn walks over and picks up Eden and heads to her room. Santana stands there a minute looking at the place Quinn was standing and then looks down in her hand as she moves it away from her chest "did that really just happen?" Carmen sighs "afraid so San." Santana stands there looking at the ring in her hand "I yelled at her. Not once but twice."
Carmen nods "I heard that." Santana drops her chin to her chest "I fucking yelled at her Carmen." Carmen looks at Maddie "can you take Bailey and go up and check on Q for me?" The little girl nods "come one Bailey." The dog jumps off the couch and heads up the stairs with the little girl. When Carmen see's her go into Eden's room and close the door she turns to Santana "what the fuck San? Seriously? You just called your fiancé or shall I say ex fiancé now, nuts. What is wrong with you?" Santana leans against the back of the couch "I don't know." Carmen sighs "you need help just as bad as I do. You stayed on my ass because I needed help now I'm going to stay on your ass. GO GET HELP." Santana looks up at Carmen "I don't know if it will help me." Carmen nods "it will. Trust me." With that Carmen walks over and sits in the chair while Santana finally makes her way over to the othe chair and puts her head in her hands.
Up in Eden's room Maddie walked in to find Quinn sitting in the rocking chair after putting Eden in the crib "you ok auntie Q?" Quinn wipes her eyes "yeah baby. I'm fine." Maddie walks over slowly to her and climbs on her lap, she looks at Quinn then wraps her arms around her neck "I still love you." Quinn hugs her back "I love you to baby." Maddie lets go after a minute and then wipes Quinn's cheek "auntie San can be an ass at times. But she still loves you." Quinn nods "I know." Maddie purses her lips "well do I need to kick her ass for hurting you?" Quinn laughs "no baby, thats ok. I'll be fine promise." Maddie nods "well I would you know." Quinn nods "I know you would." Maddie lays her head on Quinn's shoulder and wraps her arms around her waist "you really not marrying her?" Quinn sighs "I can't. Its complicated baby." Maddie sighs "I understand more than what people think I do. Just like I know your seeing a doctor because of all the bad things that has happened to you. I know that your working on getting better, I also know that auntie San has alot wrong with her but is to afraid to tell anyone." She takes a deep breath but goes on "I also know that she is afraid of losing you. She loves you so much it hurts her and she is afraid that she will lose you."
Quinn looks down at the little girl "you really understand all that?" The little girl nods "I do. But I also know that she is bull headed. She thinks she can take on anything and be ok. But she can't. She can only be so strong, she's kinda like a dam. They are strong for so long then one day they just give out when they have had to much." Quinn lays her cheek on the top of the girls head "how do you know all this?" Maddie shrugs "books. I read alot for my age. I also know that if a person doesn't ask for help at times then they can push everyone away from them and end up lonely." Quinn sighs "maybe your comforting the wrong person." Maddie laughs "she wouldn't listen to me." Quinn sits there a minute "you more like her than you think you are. You know that right?" Maddie nods "yeah. Momma tells me all the time I could pass as her daughter because we are so much alike." Quinn thinks a minute "how did you do in school?" Maddie sighs "it bored me. I got all A's, I got so bored with our reading because I new it that they had to put me in 3rd grade books." Quinn wrinkles her face up " your going into first grade?" Maddie nods "yeah. But I know all that work too. I even help Dante with his homework." Quinn laughs "they may need to move you up in class." Maddie nods "they are gonna talk to momma and daddy before school starts again. They think I might end up skipping 2 grades if I pass the test they give me before school starts."
Quinn laughs "well that runs in the family then huh?" Maddie nods "yeah auntie San skipped a grade too." Quinn smiles "her and I both did. But it was only one grade." Maddie laughs "so I'm smarter than you two was?" Quinn nods "oh yeah way smarter. Everything you said to me I didn't understand till I was 13." Before Maddie can say anymore the door opens and in walk Carmen "hey Maddie can I talk to Q for a minute?" Maddie nods and hugs her "I love you." Quinn kisses her temple "I love you too baby. Go educate your aunt." Maddie smiles "ok I can do that." As the little girl walks out Carmen looks at her after shutting the door "what did you mean by that?" Quinn smiles "that girl is smarter than was people thinks she is." Carmen looks at her funny "how so?" Quinn laughs "she will probably be going from Kindergarten to 3rd grade with her brother." Carmen looks at her funny then shakes her head "ok anyways. Are you ok?" Quinn nods "I will be." Carmen looks at her "ok well ma called. They are admitting Lexi, she wanted to know if I could bring her some cloths and the baby some stuff. I was wondering if you wanted to ride with me?"
Quinn leans back in the rocking chair "I don't want to take Eden out in the rain and I can't leave her with Santana with Jazalyn and Maddie." Carmen nods "ok I just thought I would ask." Quinn nods "thanks. But I'll stay here." Carmen nods and heads out the door to get what Maribel told her to get. Quinn sits there rocking for a little bit and pulls out her phone and dials "hi this is Quinn Fabrey. I was wondering if there was any way I could get in sooner than the end of the week?" She listens a minute "well Maribel is at the hospital with one of the twins but you can call her cell if you need to ok it with her." She listens a minute and nods "ok I'll hold." She sits there rocking and closes her eyes while she waits, after a few minutes she hears them come back and listens "alright, yeah I can come in this afternoon at 3. Thank you." With that Quinn hangs up and looks at the clock to see its noon "well little lady. I need to go eat something. And get a shower. You'll have to go with us." With that she picks the baby up and heads down to the kitchen.
