This Chapter contains multiple references to sex... Reader Discretion is Advised
I don't own Persona. I only hope to contain it.
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Seriously, not Dan Patrick fans?
Chapter 52
May 27, 2011
Dojima Residence
Charles was in deep trouble.
There was no denying it.
He was in a situation that he could not get out of gracefully.
There was no alternative.
No means of escape.
Oh, he could try to fight it. Many men have tried. Through agonizing pain. Through great despair. Through blood, sweat, and tears, did these men battle a foe so debilitating and implacable, that they were both called foolhardy and brave.
But in the end…it was a losing battle.
Charles had to face the grim truth and take things like a man…
…
"AH-CHOO!"
Charles had a cold.
He again cursed whomever thought it was funny to have it rain on him and thus allowed him to get this cold.
"AH-CHOO!"
Worse, he had a strain of cold virus that seemed to be resistant to Nickeltapp, it seemed. He couldn't believe how he was feeling OK the previous day and then BAM! He catches a cold.
He had come home completely soaked. Nanako gave him a towel and his dry clothes and he dried himself off in the bathroom.
While he had been there. He still was kicking himself for how he had left Kanji in Mayonaka for 9 days.
Charles felt it was a cruel thing to do to one's mother. IT was a miracle she didn't die from the stress.
Maybe after Kanji's father died…she had learned to be strong and resilient. For Kanji's sake.
Kanji wasn't mad… but maybe he was too exhausted from his experience in Mayonaka.
Charles had this vision of Kanji chasing him through town. If only to show the town how much he cared about his mom.
But now, Charles was left with no option…
He had to call in sick.
Charles called the school and said he wouldn't be in. He also had to call his homeroom teacher.
King Moron.
Which is why he was so afraid… because he had to tell Moron he wouldn't be there.
He'd rather drink hemlock.
Sweet… nourishing… hemlock.
"This is Kinshiro Morooka," The voice replied.
"Yes, Sensei this is Waldo Charles…"
"What is it, ya shithead?!"
Charles had to remain polite and patient. Morooka-sensei held all the cards.
"My apologies, Sensei, but I have a bad cold and will not be in at school today. Again, My apologies."
"You're letting something as small as a COLD keep you from class? Tell me the truth you little perv, who was she?"
"She?"
"The girl that gave you the CLAP?!"
Charles was stunned, but he rallied with, "Sensei, I do not have the Clap, I have a cold."
"Look, ya screwed up, but you're making it worse by lying about it!"
Charles really had to rein himself in, and he didn't have the strength to fight his cold AND Moron.
"Sir, There is no girl. I have a cold."
"So it's a guy, then! Maybe it was Tatsumi…who's apparently out with an 'illness' when we know that's bullshit!"
"Sensei, please, you're only embarrassing yourself."
"Who do you think you are you little pervert to go around and sleep with whomever and then lie ab…"
"SIR, I HAVE A COLD AND I'M A VIRGIN!"
Silence on the other end.
Nothing for a minute…
Just silence.
Then all Morooka said… with restraint was… "Just have a doctor's note when you return, Charles."
And then the phone call clicked off.
"SHIT! SHITSHITSHIT! Did I say that…? Did I just fucking say that?! OUT LOUD!"
Then in rage, Charles threw his phone against the wall.
"SHIT!"
Fortunately it didn't break… Screen wouldn't even crack.
HE knew he wouldn't get in trouble for the yelling, because Morooka would himself have his head in a noose. No…it was rather the fact that he was afraid that Morooka would just find some way to torment him in class about that little tidbit.
Charles had embarrassed himself completely.
He never thought it was wrong to have never… 'done it'. But he felt significant peer pressure.
All of his friends in America, the few he had had lost their virginity. He smirked, A Catholic School, and everybody's done it…except for me.
And then here in Inaba… Yosuke, Chie, Yu, Minako…hell, at this point, Yukiko could have done it once, but he doubted it.
But, he felt ashamed…because he didn't want anybody to know that he never had sex.
He was pathetic enough as it was. He didn't want to add fuel to the fire.
He exhaled. He decided he would call Dr. Yamata, because he would need that doctor's note.
She came by about an hour later. She wasn't happy about making house calls.
"Bloody Principal. Requiring a doctor's note when students are sick."
"Apparently from when I asked Sofue-Sensei about it, she said it's because there had been an incident of young couples calling in sick, when all they were really doing was…shagging."
"Leave the British Slang to me, Charles. I'm better at it."
"I'm a quarter British, cut me some bloody slack."
She just smiled at him.
"Well, you caught a cold, all right. This is not a wee case of sniffles either. You must have caught something while visiting Minako and then the rain didn't help. Are you taking anything?"
"Nickeltapp."
"That bloody tar?! No it only works once and then human bodies build a tolerance to it quickly so then the cold viruses can withstand them. Take something else. And get plenty of fluids. You have some soup, don't you? Or at least know how to make it?"
"Yes I have some Lipton and I've learned how to make miso soup."
"Good, because you're going to need some soup. And I mean soon."
"What about school?" Charles asked.
"If you take something other than… that sludge… and have some soup and plenty of other fluids to drink, AND go to bed early…then you should be able to go tomorrow."
She was about to write out the doctor's note, "Anything I need to put on here in particular…?"
"Just that I have a cold…and not the Clap."
She paused.
"You've got a bloody cheek, Charles."
"Long story."
"Ahhh, Morooka's your Homeroom teacher, isn't he? His manners are bloody dreadful, but he DOES know how to teach Philosophy…remember that. You are learning from a good teacher… when he wants to be."
"Sounds like you know him."
"Damn straight I know him. I'm his sodding ex-wife."
Charles was stunned.
"He wasn't always a pain in the ass. He was a decent gentleman. But then one day, he became bitter. That's why I divorced him. But I always regretted it. The frustrating part was…I wanted to help him, but he wouldn't let me… So I had to cut my losses."
"Still, it's insane to go into divorce proceedings and say, 'I love you and I'm sorry to have to do this, but if you won't let me help you, then our commitment means nothing and I have to move on.'"
"Still, don't mention any of what I told you to him. Whatever your lot is with him…don't make things worse."
"I have no recollection of anything after I made my statement that you're familiar with him…It's easier for…everybody that way."
Dr. Yamata smiled, then bid him goodbye, and then left.
Charles decided that he would make some soup.
He thought about things.
Maybe I shouldn't feel bad that I still am a virgin. I mean, that's something I should be proud of.
Maybe it was the peer pressure getting to me earlier…that and the humiliation of accidentally saying it out loud.
I mean it could be worse.
I could have lost it to Daitaka.
…
No offense to Chie.
Chie. I hope she talked to Yosuke about his usage of Saki-senpai's name during sex. I feel bad that it's humiliating her. But at least, I think she understood where I'm coming from that he wasn't trying to hurt Chie. I just hope that Yosuke understands it too.
'Cause I don't want him to be angry at me.
And then there's Kanji. Did he have some sort of…crush on me?
I guess it would stand to reason…but I think Kanji's so…bi-confused that he could have felt anything from what I was doing, just trying to be his friend.
The Metal Gear Solid Codec sounded. He wondered who was texting him.
? : Are you there, Charles?
Chuck: I am. Who's this?
?: Mina
Chuck: Yu give you my number?
Minako: Yukiko did
"First Chie, now Minako. I swear, Yukiko's using my number all over the place."
Chuck: How are YOU doing?
Minako: Isn't that MY line? I'm feeling better.
Minako: I'm back in class
Minako: I'm with my new friends…except you, 'cause you're sick.
Minako: I'm fine.
Chuck: I'm so jealous.
Minako: Look, Chuck. It's okay to be sick.
Chuck: Not if Morooka's your Sensei.
Chuck: He thinks you have the CLAP…
Chuck: And then you freak out and say you're a virgin.
Minako: …
Minako: I never have to worry about that.
Minako: Because I'm "loose."
Chuck: :(
Minako: I'm sorry. I didn't mean it to rub it in.
Minako: I think…it's good you haven't had sex yet.
Minako: Don't rush into things with Yukiko.
Chuck: Easy for you to say.
Chuck: I feel pressure all the time.
Chuck: But that would make me a run-of-the-mill "Amagi Challenger."
Chuck: I want to treat her well…
Chuck: But my hormones don't seem to understand that.
Minako: It'll be okay…
Chuck: You sure…?
Minako: Yeah…just think about how much you love her…
Minako: Then things will be OK
Chuck: …
Minako: Class is starting in a couple minutes… Gotta go!
Then Minako signed off.
His soup was done. He tasted it and it came out alright.
He decided to surf the net on his phone while he ate. He looked at American Sports scores and video game news. Standard stuff.
He texted Yu, asking if he was going to Junes to please get him Nyquil or something.
Yu should have Charles's homework anyway.
After eating and cleaning up, he went back to his and Yu's room.
Charles felt jealous. Yu's stuff always looked more immaculate than Charles's…
…
Except for some reason, his futon.
Yu had a couch futon with the floor futon on top, but it seemed they were out of place.
He lifted up the top layer…
And saw two Hentai manga and a dirty magazine.
Charles quickly put the layer down.
He didn't know Yu had stuff like that… Yu didn't seem like the type. He was so quiet and respectful to women…he thought Yu didn't need this stuff.
But should Charles look at this stuff…? It WAS Yu's property.
But then…Charles knew Yu had looked at Charles's…advice books.
He decided to leave it be…
Which annoyed him when his curiosity and hormones got the better of him and he started looking at the manga.
I'm not a pervert. I'm not a pervert. I'm not a pervert. I'm not a pervert. I'm not a pervert. I'm not a pervert. I'm not a pervert.
To Charles's surprise, while the manga were Hentai… They were actually sweet and heartwarming stories that just happened to have nudity and sex in them.
One was about a young couple who met in the business world. They loved each other very much. However, her father wanted her to fulfill an arranged marriage. The man she loved wanted to marry her himself. The intended husband showed up and nearly ruined things for their relationship. He wasn't a cruel intended, rather he was a buffoon.
The two lovers had continued their very intimate relationship however. Then the intended found out…However, after a duel of honor, in which the buffoon had a very surprising adeptness at fencing and therefore won, he conceded defeat… because while he had won the duel…he had lost the girl's heart… and that had been the greater duel. The two lovers ended up marrying each other…with the buffoon being a very happy best man… and ended up in an okame bedding the Maid of Honor…
The other one was about a high school couple who had been in a very loving relationship. However, one day the boy had done something right…but still ended up with his girlfriend losing face. He had tried so hard to convince her he had done the right thing. She wouldn't forgive him. He decided he would leave the town they lived in, then, because he concluded his being there would just keep making her miserable.
When she found out he was doing this secondhand, she realized she still loved him very much. She felt if he was willing to leave to spare her pain…he wasn't running away…he was doing what she felt was an honorable thing.
And she didn't want him to go.
She caught up with his train…as it was leaving the station.
She cried and wished she had a chance to tell him she loved him.
However, he missed the train to her surprise.
He had had a problem purchasing his ticket.
They kissed.
The story ended with explicit nudity…but very tender sex between the two.
Charles was stunned.
His nose hadn't bled.
The stories were quite good. Usually they're very dirty or even obscene plots or they didn't have plots… or so he heard.
But still…
You never forget your first Hen-time.
Charles then put them back underneath and then pulled out the dirty magazine.
While the manga was probably something within Yu's wheelhouse, this appeared to be more Yosuke's speed.
Inside were mostly Japanese girls with a few Chinese and Western girls mixed in for variety in provocative poses. However the poses weren't extremely dirty. More like one would see in a Playboy in the States.
Charles then looked at the Centerfold… and turned pale.
The girl was lying on her back with her Kimono open, her nudity for all to see.
But what Charles thought was striking about this girl…
She looked like Yukiko.
My blood runs cold
My memory has just been sold
My angel is the centerfold
Angel is the Centerfold
Why the hell was he thinking that? It wasn't her.
The eyes were a little lighter and the hair was not quite as long and the nose was a couple of inches higher…
But the hair was black and she had uneven bangs.
The model was named, "Hitomaru Sakura,"
Yukiko has a cousin named Sakura, doesn't she? And… Hitomaru was her dad's last name before he married into the Amagi family, which can happen I've heard. Could Yuki's cousin have gone into…adult modeling?
Charles started to feel dirty.
"Why so disgusted, Charles-chan?"
The model's features had turned into Yukiko's!
And she was speaking to him!
"After all, this IS how you want me, isn't it…? Naked in an open Kimono…waiting for your touch… Seeing me WANT your touch."
This has to be a feverish hallucination.
"Oh please, we both know you want me like this… You're so horny for me you want to just do me…"
"No. I love her too much…respect her too much to just have a hook-up with her."
"Conversation down here, Chuck! Why are you fighting it? You WANT to have sex with me. You don't want to be a virgin anymore and you're so willing to take me, you'd probably do me in class in front of everybody."
Rei, help m….
"Your Persona can't do anything! You KNOW you just want to fuck…me… rotten.
"NO!"
Charles was shaking and sweating and tears were streaming down his cheeks.
"I don't think of you that way, Yukiko. I don't. I love you so much…that to just sleep with you…just for the sake of sleeping with you… would be wrong. I am NOT an 'Amagi Challenger' I want to be your boyfriend badly, yes. But being a couple is more than sex…it's about love, respect, commitment…"
"Trust."
"So I don't know if you're a figment of my fever, my hormones, or my guilty conscience…but I will NOT let my hormones get the best of me. And I'm not gonna be ashamed that I'm a virgin."
"I'm a virgin…so what? I'd like someone to tell me that they didn't regret losing it when they just said '…hell with it.' Chie loved Daitaka, and he was using her. Yu was used by Ai, though not in a way that would be considered shameful by society. I don't know what Yosuke's story is, but he probably regrets his first because it wasn't Chie.
"So, you can make me feel miserable… BUT you will NOT make me take advantage of Yukiko's trust. If we get to that point in our relationship, THEN we'll have sex…You hear me?! DO YOU HEAR ME?!"
The magazine didn't respond.
"Bullshit from my fever, anyway."
He picked it up…
And noticed that there was red on the model's stomach.
He touched his nose and groaned.
Now Yu was going to be mad.
Charles had a bloody nose when it was Yukiko apparently.
"Betrayed by my nosebleed… AGAIN!"
…
"SHIT!"
Charles had tried to clean up as best he could the blood.
He might as well have dipped it in water, because now "Sakura" had an inky blob for a stomach.
He wondered if, despite his bold stand…the image of Yukiko was right…
NO! I won't let it be true! I love her, dammit! I. LOVE. HER!
He lay down on the couch and took a nap. Yu's futon was aligned…the magazine and manga underneath, but it was aligned…
Charles fell asleep…
And he dreamed…
January 11, 2017
Amagi Inn
"So… what should we name them…?" Yukiko asked Charles.
"What…?"
"The twins…silly… what should we name them?"
They were in bed. Just cuddling. His hand was on her swollen belly.
"I was thinking for our son… Charles Ryotaro… and for our daughter… Sakura Anne…"
"You're not naming our son after your father… or our daughter after your mother…?"
"It's not that I don't still love them…but…Inaba is my home… and I wanted their names to reflect that."
"Where does 'Anne' come from then?"
"You try to find a middle name that fits with 'Sakura.'"
She chuckled and elbowed him in his ribcage.
"I'm so glad after so many tries…we finally got pregnant."
"Yes… I remember how awesome some of those tries were…"
"CHARLES-CHAN!" She slapped his arm in mock indignation.
"Kidding! " He smiled. And then the look in his eyes changed…
"Yuki…even though it won't change anything…do you think we could…'try'?"
She gave him the same look, "…I thought you would never ask."
He then wrapped his arms around her waist and said… "I love you…Yukiko Amagi-Waldo"
"…I will always love you more…"
"…Charles Waldo-Amagi…"
They were spending a long time together when…
…There was a doorbell ringing.
May 27, 2011
Dojima Residence
The doorbell rang again. Charles woke up. It was the afternoon. He had slept for three hours…and apparently was hungry…
But no nosebleed again.
Charles went downstairs. He opened the door and there was…
"Yuki?"
"Hello, Charles-chan…I brought home your homework."
"W-would you like to come in?"
"Oh Yes, Domo." She then removed her shoes and placed them to the side.
"Do you want anything?" He asked. He had decided to re-heat some of his leftover soup.
"Water would be fine for now. I don't plan on staying long…I have to get back to the Inn."
"I see. I expected Yu to bring my homework home… not that I'm ungrateful….it's just…"
"A surprise?" She said with a smirk.
Oh god, even her smirk is BEAUTIFUL!
"You eat soup out of a mug?" She asked.
"Yes, it was big when I was a kid in the U.S."
"Ahhh. Still, I bet you hated not being at school, Domo," She said as she took the glass of water he gave her.
"Yes…What did I miss?"
"Just History and English Composition…" She said, looking down.
"What?"
"Well…I don't know if I should tell you…but Yosuke and Chie had a discussion about his uttering Senpai's name…"
"They didn't break up, did they?" He said with concern.
"No…we were on the roof for lunch… no one else was there… But when Yosuke was confronted about it…"
"He got angry?"
"No, he was horrified… he didn't even know he had said it…he looked so ashamed and asked Chie to forgive him…"
"Looking positive so far…" He said with a smile.
"…but she hasn't replied to him yet."
His smile fell… "You don't think they'll break up, do you?"
"…"
"Yukiko?"
"I don't know… He said he was sorry even for the fact that they even had sex again after the hospital… because they had agreed to stop there for a while as far as physical activity."
"Maybe that's also why Chie acted a little ashamed when she told me they had been intimate every day…"
"Charles-chan… Yosuke and I may not be best friends… but I don't want him OR Chie to be miserable…after all that time apart."
"No… I refuse to believe that they'll break up. I think the fact that Yosuke was saying Senpai's name unconsciously… It's just thrown Chie for a loop and she can't deal right now…"
"…but I think when she calms down, she'll realize it was like I said…Yosuke was never trying to hurt her."
"But do you think they'll stay together?" Yukiko asked.
"I think despite this being a valid reason to call it quits in any other circumstance… this would be a mistake that would emotionally kill the both of them. It's just Chie's 'death' will be slower than Yosuke's."
"I hope you're right."
"My only problem is if one of them seeks advice from me, should I be involved?"
"I can't answer that… Nor could I tell you to NOT get involved…as I know your heart is so caring, you would hurt too much if you didn't get involved."
"I care about ALL my friends."
They sat on the couch, not saying anything…
He was trying to NOT look at her legs in her stockings.
"Charles-chan?"
"Yes, Yuki?"
"When we were in the bathhouse… did I scare you?"
"What?"
"I talked to Chie, and had mentioned how you had been uneasy again when we rescued Kanji, just like you had the first day… I thought it had been because I told you to grow a thick skin. But Chie seems to think when I got angry about how my Shadow was…you became scared."
Charles looked down.
"Charles-chan?!" Yukiko said…afraid of the answer.
"Yes…" He said in a small voice.
She looked dismayed. "I'm that scary to you…? When I'm angry…?"
Charles nodded.
She took a breath. "Charles…listen to me. When I get angry…I concede that I may lose my sense of reason…but that's not scary."
"You don't understand, Yuki…the first time…Chie had said that Kanji's experience was the same as yours….I tried to comfort you…but you were oblivious to my actions while in denial and then anger. You even shook my hand off your shoulder…as if part of you knew it was there…but not all of you. Then yesterday…when Teddie made reference to your Shadow… you got mad again… I tried to tell a joke…and I might as well have talked to the wall."
"I become afraid…because I'm worried that one day…"
"You'll turn that anger on me…"
Yukiko was stunned. She didn't know she had been that scary to him. Then she realized, I was a little scary when I grabbed him by his tie and teased him…and maybe Yukiko-hime played a part in that…now that I think about it.
But I don't want him to EVER be afraid of ME.
"Charles…I will NEVER bring my full wrath to bear on you. You have always been a sweet and kind boy here in Inaba. You would have to insult me or my family or severely dishonor me or my family to be a target. You are not the type of person to do that…"
"…Well, that or bitch-slap me," she said in sheepish reference to her experience with Ai.
"But…" He started to say.
"Look, my Shadow is a sore spot because she wanted to 'score with a hot stud'. And since she was a part of me… it means I just wanted to get on my back with some guy on top of me giving me his body…and that sickens me…the thought I'm just some slut who will sleep with any guy. I…won't deny I have…desires…but I don't want to have sex just for the sake of having sex… I want to be intimate with a guy like you…someone who cares about me and my feelings…not someone who's just attracted to my body…and I do believe that despite the number of times you tried NOT looking at my legs."
Charles looked sheepish. "Sorry, didn't think I was obvious…so how do you deal with it?"
"With what?"
"The crushing desire and internal pressure to have sex…"
"Who says I have that problem?"
"EVERY teenager has that problem."
"…I have no idea what you're talking about."
"Figures."
"Chuck…it's not wrong to have those desires as long as they are normal desires. You know, not kinky…you just don't act on them. My self-control happens to be better than yours…and why the sudden obsession that you HAVE to 'do it'?"
"You'll laugh."
"I won't…it'll be okay…you can tell me."
"I had to call King Moron as part of calling in sick…AH-CHOO!" He said, turning away to sneeze.
"Your cold must have been worse when you got up."
"It was…anyway…he accused me of having the Clap…I told him I had a cold and…that I was a virgin. Now I know what you're going to say….but that guy really bothers mmmph!"
That last was because Yukiko kissed him…
On his lips…
And he was responding…
And then she broke it… "Why?" he asked.
"Because…I felt you deserved it…not every boy can confess that they've never lost it BEFORE they've lost it. You should feel NO shame in telling anybody that."
"Even if it's King Moron?"
"Well…that might be different…but he'd do himself more harm than good by giving you a hard time."
Then Yukiko checked the time on her phone.
"I have to go."
"I'm sorry…" He said. "Thanks for bringing my homework."
"What are you sorry for?"
"If you catch my cold from kissing me."
"…"
"I don't care."
Yukiko put on her shoes and walked out the door after Charles opened it for her.
"My, what a gentleman you are Waldo-san…"
"Thank you for the kiss…I feel better."
"You're welcome. Mata ne."
"Mata ne."
Charles felt happier and less…intense about wanting to have sex…
Maybe another kiss was all he needed.
He felt he had nothing to worry about…
Song- Centerfold –J Geils Band.
