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Oh, lay that pistol down, babe
Lay that pistol down
Pistol packing mama
Lay that thing down
Before it goes off
And hurts somebody

~Pistol Packing Mama by Bing Crosby


*~*~* November 3, 2017- Wakanda*~*~*

Bucky woke up early in the morning and reached over to find the bed empty. Stretching, he pulled himself out of bed and put his feel down onto the plush carpet. Looking down as the carpet fibers surrounded his feet and toes; he remembered the conversation Ellie had with him as she brought in the said carpet.

Bucky looked up as Ellie carried a long rolled up object into their apartment. He jumped up off the couch and grabbed it from her, "What is this?"

"Wanda and I went shopping and this store had this carpet… it was so soft. It was like touching a cloud. So I thought it could go in the bedroom and we could put it under the bed so when we get out of bed, that it will be like stepping onto a cloud" Ellie told him as she led him into the room then started to take the plastic off, "The measurement should cover a foot in each direction of the bed"

Bucky watched as Ellie lifted the bed up as if it were nothing, "You shouldn't be lifting that" He said as he tried to quickly put the carpet out.

"I'm fine. This isn't that heavy" Ellie said as she sat it down after Bucky had finished then kicked off her shoes.

She sat on the bed and sunk her feet in the carpet, "Oh it's like heaven"

Bucky kicked his own shoes off, and then sat on his side of the bed, "Okay… you are right"

Ellie laid back on one side of the bed and Bucky laid back on the other side so their heads met each other in the middle, "Can we do this?"

"What?" Bucky asked.

"Raise a kid… in this environment" Ellie asked looking at the ceiling.

"Angel, our parents raised us in way shittier conditions than this" Bucky told her as he kissed her temple, "Sickness won't be a problem; if it comes… there is medicine. Money… not a problem. Your father died and left your mother alone… I will never do that"

Ellie sighed as she rolled over and looked at him, "I know… I just… I worry"

"Understandable" Bucky said as he kissed her.

"Kissing upside down isn't comfortable" Ellie said as she swung her body to straddle him.

Bucky stared up at her and ran his hand through her hair, "You are so beautiful you know that?"

"Yeah but I can always use some reminding" She told him with a grin.

Bucky stood up and walked out of the bedroom, "Angel?"

Frowning when she did not reply, he looked into Grant's room to see she was not there. He walked out of their apartment and down the hall to the communal area and found her on the recliner, sound asleep with the windows wide open.

Grabbing a blanket that was on the back of the couch he put it over top of her.

"No don't" Ellie mumbled pushing him away, "I came out here because I got too hot. I didn't want to freeze you out"

"Was I on top of you too much?" Bucky asked.

"Between the sheets, our shared body heat and the fact our room felt like an oven… it was too hot. No one was out here so I just opened the windows and got comfortable" Ellie told him as she looked around, "What time is it?"

"A little after 6" Bucky told her sitting on the couch.

"Do you think the bakery is open?" Ellie asked shifting in her seat.

"Why?" Bucky asked as he turned the TV on.

"I'm craving a doughnut" Ellie told him.

Bucky looked over at her, "Is this your way of asking me to go out and get you a doughnut?"

"Pleasseee" Ellie begged, "With lots of chocolate icing if possible"

Bucky shook his head, "Fine"

Ellie watched him get up and put his shoes on, "Bucky?"

"Yeah" Bucky said as he walked over to her.

"Thank you, I love you" Ellie told him as she smiled at him.

"I love you too" Bucky said as he kissed her, "I'll be right back"

Ellie watched as he slid his feet into his shoes without tying them and shook his head as he left with his shoelaces dragging the floor behind him, "Your Daddy is special little one"

She smiled as Grant's little hand imprinted against her stomach as if reaching for her hand, "I know baby boy… I don't want him to leave either but momma is craving some sugar. Your daddy didn't give me enough last night"

Out of the corner of her vision, the wall caught her eye as it started to glow then a circle appeared. When a head started to appear next, Ellie reached into the table next to her and quickly grabbed the Glock pistol that Natasha kept stored around the common areas.

Before the being could emerge past their shoulders, she had the Glock aimed and was struggling to stand.

The being fully emerged from the wall with their hands up as they floated multiple inches above the floor, "I mean no harm"

"Who the hell are you?!" She yelled.

The being, set foot on the floor and their appearance changed to that of a human man, "I am Vision…and I do not know who you are"

"Vision? Wanda's Vision?" Ellie asked confused as Wanda ran into the room to see Ellie still pointing the Glock at Vision.

"Ellie, this is Vision… Vis this is Ellie Rogers-Barnes" Wanda said as she got between them.

Vision looked at her curious, "I don't recall any information on you"

"Because she was hidden in the records. Only thing you'd find is her being Damed" Wanda told him as Ellie lowered the Glock.

The front door opened and Steve walked in, "Vision, when I said to go ahead and head up while I finished talking to T'Challa I meant through the door"

"I'm sorry Captain" Vision told him as he looked at Ellie, "I have met your sister"

"Scared the shit out of me, more like it. God now I have to pee" Ellie said as she moved around the recliner.

"Where is Buck?" Steve asked.

"Getting me a doughnut. The baby is hungry" Ellie told him as she walked off to the bathroom and saw Natasha coming out of their apartment then handed her the Glock, "Steve is back"

Natasha walked past her into the common area and walked over to Steve. He held out his arms and she let him pull her into a hug and gave him a kiss, "You okay?" He asked.

"Yeah just tired but glad to have you home" Natasha said as she kissed him again.

Steve placed his hand on her belly and smiled as the baby kicked his hand, "Hey baby girl, Daddy is home"

"Congratulations Captain Rogers, Miss Romanoff" Vision said as Ellie came back into the seating area and he looked over at her as she walked over to the recliner.

Ellie watched Vision as he used his two feet and walked closer to her. He looked at her and Ellie glanced at Steve as Vision stared at her.

"Vis, what is it?" Wanda asked looking at him and Ellie.

Vision stared at Ellie closely as he moved to stand right in front of her, "I sense… something… unusual in you… within you…. And your presence. It is something… strong"

Wanda glanced at Ellie, then at Steve, "Vis… what exactly do you sense?"

"Strength and… power…. Power similar to this" Vision said as he pointed to his forehead and the jewel appeared on his forehead, "But different at the same time"

Ellie held out her hand and sparks danced across the finger tips, "On a good day… it's a little more powerful"

Vision cocked his head, "You have powers" He stated looking at Steve.

"Thanks to the Tesseract" Ellie told him.

"I sense its power. This is the first time that I have sensed another Infinity Stone" Vision told them, "It calls to me"

"The stone isn't here" Ellie told him, "I just… was powered by it"

"But…energy flows through your veins" Vision told her, "It's a curious thing but… something is dampening it"

"My son… he… has shielding powers" Ellie told him, "Somehow… and because of him my powers aren't working the way they should" She told him with a shrug, "I have no clue how this all started so I don't understand my powers"

The front door opened, "Angel, they didn't have… whoa everyone is up…" Bucky said as he looked at Vision, "Who is that?"

"Sergeant Barnes" Vision said as he walked over to him.

"Who are you?" Bucky asked.

"Buck, this is Vision" Steve told him.

Bucky looked at Steve, "Wait… the computer guy that Stark made?"

"Artificial intelligence" Steve told him.

"The technical name for me is an Android" Vision told him, "I was created by Mr. Stark and Doctor Banner with the Mind Stone and their processes as well as by Ultron"

Ellie marched over to him, "Give me the doughnuts… I need it"

Bucky handed the box to her and just stared at Vision, "He's a machine? He looks different than he did in Berlin"

"We're not in the 40s anymore babe" Ellie said as she opened the box, "Oh god… cream sticks" She said as she bit into one, "Mmmmm"

Sam's nose scrunched up as he walked in the room, "Eww… I've heard that noise way too much"

Ellie and Bucky turned and glared at him.


Sighing, Ellie sat down in her new favorite spot in the world. Outside on the balcony of their bedroom, the breeze was pleasant and took away the harshness from the heat of the day. The canopy over the balcony provided the right amount of cover from the sun as well. She scooted her chair up and tried to put her feet up on the rail of the balcony and fell short.

Groaning in frustration, she moved the chair closer and attempted to put her feet up again only to have the tips of her toes slide down the cool metal.

"Fuck this" Ellie said as she pushed stuff off the small table next to her chair then moved it in front of her seat so she could put her feet up.

"I could have brought out the ottoman" Bucky said.

Ellie glanced back at him to see him leaning against the sliding door, "Asshole did you really stand there watching me struggle with that?"

"What can I say I am a bit of a jerk and I thought it was cute" Bucky told her as he sat down in the other chair.

"Jackass" Ellie said as she laid her head back and closed her eyes, "Listen to those birds"

Bucky smiled as he looked over at her, "Reminds me of our first date"

"Shit… I forgot about that. When we went to the Statue of Liberty" Ellie said as she looked over at him, "When you get cleared, we need to go back"

Bucky reached over and took her hand, "We need to sit down and make a list of all the places we want to go"

"Paris" Ellie told him.

Bucky smiled at her sadly, "We never did get there"

Ellie squeezed his hand, "Valentine's Day… let's go"

"I don't remember much about Valentine's Day but... I would think Valentine's Day would be crazy for Paris" Bucky told her.

"Plus… Nat's due date is around then" Ellie told him, "End of January then"

"Sounds good, plus Grant will be a couple months old by then" Bucky told her, "Go ahead and start planning it"

"God Buck… its really hitting… we are going to be parents literally any day now" Ellie told him.

"Do you think he'll come any day now or longer?" Bucky asked.

"Well between the hot flashes, the back and hip pain and the fact that I can't put shoes on anymore… I'd hope so" Ellie told him as she closed her eyes.

She must have drifted off when she heard familiar harp chords from the past. Ellie smiled as Frank Sinatra's first song with the Tommy Dorsey Orchestra started playing.

Bucky walked back over to her, "May I have this dance?"

Ellie took his hand and let him pull her up as he pulled her close to him and they started swaying back and forth to the music, "You always know how to put me in a good mood you know that?"

Bucky smiled, "It's not hard. A little Frank Sinatra and you are good"

Ellie laid her head on his chest and swayed with him to the music, "I wish we could have seen him back in the day"

"It wouldn't have meant the same. Now it's the three of us dancing to his music" Bucky told her as he kissed the top of her head, "But I do miss being able to dip you"

"Yeah… don't" Ellie told him as she grinned up at him, "We'd both be on the floor or I'd pull a muscle"

Bucky pulled her under his chin and held her closer as the song changed. Ellie sighed as she felt truly relaxed for the first time in weeks. The tension was gone from her body as she inhaled the scent of Bucky as she was enveloped in his presence.

She stumbled as the song changed to a faster paced Frank Sinatra song called All or Nothing at All and Bucky stared moving faster.

"Either I fell asleep or Shuri's playlist has issues. Didn't expect that switch" Ellie said.

"Who is Shuri?"

Ellie opened her eyes and looked at him as he tried to spin her and she tripped.

"Holy cow, I'm sorry babe" Bucky said as he offered his hand to her, his flesh left hand.

"Shit I did it again… how…I'm so confused" Ellie said as she let him pull her up.

"Did what again?" Bucky asked as he pushed a stray piece of hair out of her eye.

"Nothing" Ellie said as she took him in and put her hand to his perfect unshaven face that had no worry lines, no sign of trauma, "I love you so much Buck"

"Not as much as I love you doll" Bucky said as he kissed her.

Ellie sucked in air as she opened her eyes and looked up at Bucky's concerned face, "Shit…"

"Okay did you pass out or time… jump?" Bucky asked.

"Time jump… shit how do I keep doing that?" Ellie asked as she looked around, "Did I fall to the ground?"

"It was like your legs gave out and you just went ragdoll on me" Bucky told her as he helped her up, "If you didn't wake up in the next couple minutes I was going to get Shuri"

"I just wish I could figure out how to control it" Ellie said frustrated.

"Come on, let's go lie down in bed and relax" Bucky told her.

Ellie grinned, "And soften my cervix a little"

"You make it sound so romantic" Bucky said rolling his eyes.


*~*~* November 6, 2017- Wakanda*~*~*

Bucky looked around Nalia's office as Ellie settled onto the chair, "I prefer the hospital… is that weird?"

Ellie looked at him, "Why?"

"This place just seems so… sterile. The hospital… it has a homey touch" Bucky told her as he looked at the machines.

"Do the machines bring back bad memories?" Ellie asked.

Bucky sighed as he sat down in the chair next to the window, "No… it's that chair you are in. I know it's not THE chair but it's too close for me and for you to be in it" He said as he put his head in his hands, "I know it sounds crazy"

"No babe, it doesn't. I can't even think or understand what they did to you. I mean… the sheer fact that my powers were engineered to do just that" Ellie said sadly, "It hurts just to think about it"

Bucky looked up at her, "It wasn't your fault El"

"I know… but it wasn't your fault either" Ellie told him, "We were victims of circumstance"

Bucky looked at her with a smile, "Even when people try to break us down, we are too strong to let them. We are strong together"

"We lead a charmed life" Ellie said.

Bucky looked at her, "Charmed? More like Semi-Charmed"

"Everyone thinks we are perfect but we are just a little messed up by nature" Ellie told him.

"No one is perfect Angel" Bucky told her, "If they tell you that they are, they are just lying"

"Knock knock" Nalia said as she walked in the room.

"Hey Nalia" Ellie said with a smile.

"How are you feeling?" Nalia asked as she started to wash her hands.

"Tired, cranky. Ready for him to come" Ellie told her.

"Well let's see if you are dilated then" Nalia said as she moved the chair back and put the foot rests up so Ellie could put her feet in them.

Bucky walked over to her head and kissed her forehead as Nalia put her gloves on.

"Well… no dilation so I don't think he will come this week" Nalia told her.

"Are you serious?!" Ellie said looking down at her.

"Yes, sorry but nothing. We will check again next week but I want to do a quick ultrasound" Nalia told her as she went to wash her hands.

Ellie ran her hand over her face, "So you really think that he won't be coming this week?"

"My professional opinion, no" Nalia said drying her hands, "Typically you'd be dilating a little by now. Typically you dilate an inch or so a week up until 3cm then that is when the real labor starts but… everyone is different. We still don't know how your muscles will act"

Ellie looked at her concerned, "What if I don't dilate?"

"We will cross that bridge when we come to it but you will dilate" Nalia told her, "It's a natural body process. Now let's see how Grant is doing"

Ellie looked at the monitor as Nalia turned it on and ran the wand over her belly.

"Well he hasn't grown much this week, so this is good. He hasn't dropped yet, another sign that he won't be coming this week. See this area here?" Nalia asked pointing to the screen.

Ellie squinted, "What is it?"

"His hair" Nalia told them, "He's going to be born with a full head of hair"

"Guess he will get his hair from me" Bucky said running his hand through his hair that was already chin length.

"He is big enough now that look, we can see him breathing" Nalia pointed out to them as a loud noise was heard, "Well that is a first"

"What was that noise?" Ellie asked.

"He punched the transducer" Nalia told them shaking her head, "He's going to be strong"


*~*~* November 10, 2017- Wakanda*~*~*

Steve walked into his apartment and kicked off his shoes after his morning run. He went to jump onto the couch to watch some news and nearly sat on Bucky, "Buck…Buck wake up. Why the hell are you on my couch?"

"Because your sister won't leave me alone" Bucky whined covering his eyes with his arm, "All I want to do is sleep"

"Why is she keeping you up?" Steve asked confused.

Bucky uncovered his eyes, "Sex is supposed to bring on labor"

"God Buck… I didn't want to know that" Steve said as he groaned.

"What the fuck! Put the gun down!"

Bucky jumped up as Steve did and they ran out the door to the common area to find Sam in the kitchen, with what looked like a reheated hamburger from the night before.

"Get your crazy sister to put her gun down" Sam told Steve.

"What the hell are you doing?" Steve asked Ellie as he saw Ellie pointing a gun at Sam.

"Telling him to put the burger down or I'll shoot him in the knee. I'm hungry" Ellie told him.

Bucky walked over and took the gun from her, "We need to have a talk to Natasha about her hiding her toys better. You have been gun happy too much lately. First Vision, then threatening to shoot the TV if we changed it, now this… yeah no more guns for you until he comes"

Ellie started crying, "But I'm so hungry!"

"Then how about we go take a nice walk and go to your favorite restaurant?" Bucky asked.

Ellie looked at him suddenly giddy, "Waffles?"

"Yes honey, let's go get you some waffles" Bucky said as he took her hand.

Ellie went to slip her shoes on and started crying.

"What's wrong?" Bucky asked.

"They are too tight" Ellie cried, "My feet are swollen"

"Here, wear these" Bucky said as he took Wanda's sandals and handed them to her.

Ellie slid them on her feet, "We'll have to get some sandals if he isn't going to come soon"

"And when is that?" Sam asked.

Ellie glared at him as Bucky pulled her out of the door.


Ellie groaned as she pushed herself up out of the recliner.

"What do you need?" Wanda asked as she looked up from her book.

"I'm hungry and I found some Reece cups at the store so I bought out their whole stock and froze them. I…" Ellie said as she opened the freezer, "Wait…" She said as she moved some food around, "Where are my Reece cups!?"

"Were Reece cups even around back in the 40s?" Sam asked Wanda.

Ellie threw a bag of peas at him, "Yes asshole, they weren't as available as they are now especially during the war. Which one of you jackasses took my chocolate?"

"What are you screaming about now?" Steve asked.

"Cap I wouldn't go there" Sam told him as Steve grabbed a bottle of water from the fridge.

"Did you eat my Reece Cups?" Ellie asked.

Steve looked at her if she had two heads, "I ate one of them, and I think Bucky ate one last night too"

Ellie slammed the freezer door so hard that Steve had to catch the cookie jar that was on top of the refrigerator as it fell.

"Fuck him, and where the hell is he?" Ellie asked Steve.

"I don't know, am I supposed to know?" Steve asked putting the cookie jar back.

"He was supposed to be back from wherever the hell he went 20 minutes ago" Ellie told him as he saw her bottom lip quiver.

"Maybe the train was running behind" Steve said.

Ellie angrily wiped her tears, "I guess I'll just have to go to this appointment alone"

"I can take you" Steve told her as he glanced at Natasha.

The front door opened up and Bucky walked in, "Is Ellie still here?"

Ellie looked at him as he walked into the kitchen, shaking her head.

Bucky looked at her, "Look at you looking all cute, ready? Our appointment is in 30 minutes"

Ellie looked at him, "So you think I'm cute when I'm angry? Prepare then because I'm about to be fucking gorgeous. Where the hell were you?"

"T'Challa needed help with something… I got back as soon as I could" Bucky said as he noticed her hair was standing on end.

She sighed and shook her head as she wiped away her tears, "I can't depend on you"

Bucky frowned, "El-"

"No… I can't. This isn't the first appointment that you have been late to. What if I can't find you when I go into labor? You weren't there…. I had to do this alone before… I can do it alone now. Steve is going to take me to this appointment and he is going to be there for me for the birth because… he has never let me down" Ellie cried as she left the kitchen.

Bucky stared sadly at her retreating back.

Steve looked at Bucky torn.

"Go" Bucky told him shaking his head, "Go"

"Buck-"

Bucky shook his head as he turned before Steve could see the tear roll down his cheek, "No… go"

Steve glanced at Natasha.

"Go I got this" Natasha told him.

Steve hurried after Ellie.

Natasha watched Bucky walked off to their apartment.

"That was a bit harsh" Sam said shaking his head.

"Trust me; you men have no idea what it feels like to have all these hormones coursing through your body. Until then shut up" Natasha said as she walked down the hallway to Ellie and Bucky's apartment and let herself in.

She saw Bucky at their kitchen pouring himself a glass of Whiskey, "You know a glass that big will probably kill you"

"I just want a buzz. Forewarning, alcohol doesn't work with super serum" Bucky said as he took a drink.

"You know she didn't mean any of that" Natasha told him.

"No, she made it quite clear she did and I know exactly what she meant. She didn't want me to go on that train and I did… and I left her…alone. Then it's my fault that she lost our baby" Bucky said as he took a big drink.

"Bucky… do you really think that?" Natasha asked.

Bucky turned his back as he took another gulp of his whiskey.

Natasha walked over and placed her hand on his arm, "Bucky"

Bucky took a shaky breath and looked at her, "It is my fault"

"No Bucky… it's not. It's Hydra's fault" Natasha told him, "And she knows that. When she calms down, she is going to feel so bad. I tried to stab Steve the other day over taking a drink out of my water bottle… we… there is so many hormones coursing through our bodies that our brains can't handle it. Even a super brain"

Bucky downed the rest of the glass, "I thought I worked through all this"

"It's not something you can just get over. They messed with our bodies and our brains. Used us as play things for their own gains" Natasha told him.

Bucky sighed, "This is supposed to be the happiest time of my life though"

"Then don't let the past affect it. Realize that she doesn't really mean it… she was upset and her rational brain went out the window. It all started over Reece cups. It wasn't really about you being late" Natasha told him.

"Fuck really? Goddamnit, I ate the last one last night but I went out and found somewhere else that had them this morning" Bucky said opening the freezer.

Natasha shook her head as she saw the dozens of Reece cups inside.


"Ellie! Damnit Ellie" Steve said as he jumped down the last remaining stairs and ran after her out the front door.

He slid to a stop next to her car as she got in.

Ellie wiped her tears, "I'm horrible"

Steve shut the door and the car started moving, "What was that up there El?"

"I don't know" Ellie sobbed, "These words were just coming out of my mouth and it was like I was out of my body. I just blew up. God…I blamed him for losing the baby… I'm horrible. Bucky… he blames himself"

"Buck blames himself for the baby?" Steve asked.

"No… for the circumstances leading up to it" Ellie told him sadly, "Pushing you to let him go on the train, then grabbing that shield when he knew that he didn't really know how to handle it. Then not being strong enough to hold on. And I threw it in his face" Ellie sobbed, "I'm horrible"


"Your blood pressure is higher than I would like" Nalia told her.

"It's my own fault" Ellie told her sadly, "Bucky and I had a really big fight"

"Big enough that your blood pressure is up to 120/90? Your pressure is usually 90/60" Nalia told her.

"30 points?" Steve asked concerned.

"Yes, and we need it to come down. Most people are 120/80 and so her blood pressure is basically 150/110… I don't like that one bit" Nalia told them, "Let's check if you are dilating"

Ellie wiped her tears as she laid back on the table.

"Well you are dilated" Nalia told her.

"What?!" Ellie said as she looked at Steve scared, "But Bucky isn't here I can't-"

"You are only two centimeters dilated now. Sit up and we are going to check him out by ultrasound, have you felt him moving more downward?" Nalia asked.

"I can breathe easier. I literally ran down the steps earlier" Ellie told her.

"Wait, you were running down the stairs? At the palace?" Nalia asked, "Ellie what if you would have fallen?"

"I know" Ellie sobbed.

Nalia looked at Steve as she got up to wash her hands, "Go get Bucky"

Steve nodded as he left the room.

"Ellie, look at me" Nalia said as Ellie put her head in her hands, "You have to calm down"

"I can't control my brain" Ellie sobbed, "I keep saying these things that I don't want to say but they just come out. Without Grant I'd probably be killing people with my powers"

"Ellie… look at me" Nalia said as she took her hands, "You have to calm down; you are going to make yourself pass out"

Ellie let out a shaky breath, "My brain is just…something feels wrong. It feels like it is on fire"

Nalia glanced over at the heart rate monitor as her pulse skyrocketed up to 115 and climbing, "Ellie you have to-" Nalia said as Ellie's eyes closed then her heart rate bottomed out, "Shit"

Nalia jumped up then looked at the monitor as it slowly climbed again and Ellie's eyes opened.

"Nalia? Oh Nalia! Oh wait… where am I?" Ellie asked looking around as the door opened.

Bucky and Steve hurried in.

"Angel…what happened?" Bucky asked as he took in the confused look on her face.

"Her heart rate just skyrocketed then she passed out. I thought she was coding for a minute but she just woke up… she is confused" Nalia told him.

"Can you go get her some water?" Bucky asked Nalia staring at Ellie.

She nodded as she left the room.

Bucky looked at Ellie, "You can't keep doing this to yourself"

A tear rolled down her face, "I know"

"No, you don't. Your body… this body can't handle it. Wait until he is born. Don't come back until he is born okay?" Bucky asked, "Please, for your sake, for Grant's sake and mine. I know it's hard but… please"

"Okay" Ellie said as he walked over and kissed her. She sighed and saw Steve behind him, "Shit I messed up"

"Yeah you did. Tell Grant I love him" Bucky told her.

Ellie looked at him, "I love you"

"I love you so much" Bucky told her.

She laid her head back down and closed her eyes then blinked, "Ugh I passed out didn't I?"

"Yeah you did but… I think rest is what you needed" Bucky said as her monitors quit beeping and the levels went down.

Nalia walked in the room, "Here is a bottle of water… wait… your blood pressure is down, your pulse is slowing to your normal range. I guess all you needed was Bucky. Did you talk things out?"

"Not yet… I'm sorry Buck. I don't know where my head was" Ellie told him sadly.

"It's okay… I know you didn't mean any of it" Bucky told her.

"Let's do this ultrasound really quickly and then I am going to send you home, with strict orders to rest" Nalia told her.

"Will do" Ellie told her.


Bucky shut the door to their bedroom after Ellie had fell asleep and without seeing him, he knew Steve was there.

"I want answers"

Bucky sighed, "Let's go somewhere else. Like Nat's old apartment or something" He said as he held up a baby monitor, "I am putting to use the monitors, if she needs us we'll hear something but… she will be fine now"

Steve led the way to Natasha's old apartment and Bucky shut the door behind them, "Okay what happened back there?"

"That wasn't our Ellie" Bucky said with a sigh as he leaned against the back of the couch.

"Wait what?" Steve asked confused.

"Her mental time travel thing" Bucky told him, "She's been waking me up in her sleep lately…and like every night, sometimes multiple times a night. Finally I asked her about it during the day, not that I mind but… I thought it was a bit much even for us"

Bucky looked down at the ground, "She didn't remember any of it"

Steve frowned then it dawned on him, "Because it's not Ellie now is it?"

"Nope" Bucky told him as he looked at him, "I haven't gotten a straight answer out of her… in fact one time she literally… left in the middle of making love when I pressed her about it… I think something happens Steve. I get that she is coming back because she has figured out how to do it and control it but… I think something happens to me and that is why she keeps coming back to visit"

"How many times has she done this?" Steve asked.

"About 30" Bucky told him.

"And she hasn't said why?" Steve asked confused.

"No" Bucky said shaking his head, "She just said not to tell you"

"But now it's affecting her… current her" Steve said.

Bucky nodded, "Ellie has to be asleep for it to work. I think… future Ellie is trying to force Ellie to sleep so she can come"

"Fuck… what happens that she'd risk her own health… Grant's health to do that?" Steve asked worried.

"I don't know… but I don't like it" Bucky told him, "I hope she listens and waits until Grant is born"


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Sneak Peek of Chapter 54- Not My Time:

"I am three days late Nalia… please give me some good news" Ellie said as she looked down at Nalia, what she could see of her past her belly.

Nalia looked up at her and sighed, "Good news… you are nearly 4cm dilated"

"Really?!" Ellie asked as she sat up.

"Shit for real?" Bucky asked shocked.