May 24th:

I woke up as early as I could and jumped in a shower before putting on some clothes to go for a quick run.

I wore some yoga shorts and simple running shoes along with a tank (Outfit link on my profile!) before I snuck downstairs and stole a banana and bottle of ice fresh for while I was running.

I ran across the lawn and straight in to the woods that sat opposite the house. I like this. I like the feeling of freedom that the forest gives out, pure nature.

"I thought you'd be here." I jumped as I saw, what reminded me of a mirror, right in front of me. My heart was beating a mile a second as I tried to calm myself down.

"What do you want Eliza." I sighed.

"You look tired. Let me guess, dreaming much." Damn it how does she know? "And theres your guilty look." She smirked before moving over to a log and taking a seat in her fine heals and perfect shorts that showed her long legs. "So, come on, spill, what was your dreams about?" She asked as she crossed her hands on her knees and cocked her head to the side smugly. "I don't bite. Come sit." I looked at her with a deadpan look and she exhaled. "Yeah, ok, so I do bite but I wont." she promised.

"What makes you think that I believe you?" I asked, crossing my arms.

"Because you do. And you trust me. Wanna know why? It's because every gypsies doppleganger has a link that goes beyond the mind. It's all about blood Jessika." she informed and I frowned.

"I don't understand." I shook my head. She exhaled deeply.

"Every generation of doppegangers share something, the same evil streak runs cold and the same blood runs in our veins. You are my childe and I know your instinctual thoughts because yours are mine. You want to trust me, you do trust, me but refuse. Something tells you that I'm evil and you have a reason not to like me, yet you don't know what that reason is." She explained further before she stood and stalked closer.

"Damon loves you, you know." she said looking at her perfectly manicured hands with a bored expression.

"He what?" I frowned deeper. Why is she telling me this!? She has no right!

"Oh, yeah. Wait, he hasn't told you? We'll thats very… un-damon." she drawled out. "Considering he refused to let you be human."

"You're right. I do have the instinct not to trust you. And I think I just found out why." I snarled. "You're sous so you're trying to ruin what ever idea that you have in your twisted head."

"Well if you don't believe me then why do you feel something beyond friendship for him? Why has your dreams of sexual encounters actually been your past memories? I'm trying to help you. And FYI, don't let him feed off you so much, it brings something that damon isn't capable of being. Blood runs thicker than water Jessika and when the time comes, who will you choose?" Before I could say or think any further, she was gone.

I need to know what the hell is real or not.


"Where've you been all morning? I made pancakes."

"First, Damon, I'm sorry but your pancakes suck and secondly, we need to talk." I said breathlessly.

"First, I'm learning ,ok? And second, this sounds bad. Really bed." He said worriedly.

"I've been having… dreams. And I know they're from my past." He nodded casual as he watched me closely. "I saw Eliza today while I was running." He immediately stood alert. "She said you refused to let me stay human and that you love me. And I want some answers." He sighed before rubbing his forehead.

"Come on." He said as he sat on the wooden table bench in the kitchen in front of the huge fireplace. "That ring," I looked at my lapis lazuli ring as he pointed to it. "That was what kept you alive in the daylight when you were vampire. It's also your promise ring. From me." He stated sadly and i swallowed.

"Do I love you?" I asked quietly as I kept the tears from falling.

"I don't know, do you?" He asked mostly hesitant and afraid.

"I mean, did… did I love you?"

"Yes." he answered in a heart beat.

"I remember the times wed spent together, I thought it was just a dream but… It's real. I my have my memories back but I don't have the same feelings back." I said as I twisted the lapis lazuli ring on my finger slowly and eventually as I looked up at him.

"I. Love. You. And I cant help it and I cant stop Loving you Jess. All this time that yule lost your memory, I haven't been caring for you as a friend, I've been caring for my girlfriend that I love unconditionally. Jess, I don't care if you don't know that It's not love but it is and I'll help you feel it again. Know this, I wont ever let you go. I will always find a way to make you remember." He said sternly and convincingly but I felt overwhelmed with feeling.

"Then make me remember." I demanded lightly and in a flash he was in front of me, his hands on my cheeks as he looked into my eyes.

"Please tell me you're sure about this."

"Yes." I breathed and our mouths collided in a heat of passion.


Dr. Seuss once said,

"I like nonsense, it wakes up the brain cells. Fantasy is a necessary ingredient in living."

And today, like many other days, I can agree with him. Damon is my fantasy, Damon is my living because all the passion and heat I feel being with him.


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~Lostgirllove