A new girl in town

Chapter 51

Kayla/Kane/J.J.

Before they could blink there were several officers outside the ladies room.

"Kane what the hell are you doing in here?" one of them asked.

"I was fixing my makeup." Kane said deadpan.

J.J. roared with laughter.

"Wow. This probably wins for weirdest day of my life so far," Kayla said smiling.

"Get out of there Kane. You just scared the living hell out of this woman." The officer said laughing.

"Don't worry Kane your lipstick is perfect." J.J. said unable to resist.

Kane just laughed and walked out of the ladies room.

"Oh my god," Kayla said shaking her head.

She followed Kane out of the bathroom.

Once they were back in the main room Kane threw his arm around Kayla's shoulders.

"I'll take her to the SUV you go talk to Mario. Let him know you're ok." Kane said.

Kayla shrugged and let Kane steer her away.

"Did you know J.J. was in foster care too?" Kane asked once they were outside.

"No, it never came up," Kayla said.

"She was." Kane said. "She didn't have anyone. She was actually arrested for starting the fire that killed her abusive foster father."

"That's fucking awful," Kayla said.

"Yeah it was a terrible time in her life." Kane said. "She didn't do it of course. But she still spent a few weeks in juvie as Sam called it while it was investigated."

Kayla nodded.

"I can relate. Not to the arrest and what that must have been like but to feeling like you don't have anyone. Tye and I weren't always close. I spent a long time making sure that no one could get close to me. If a trans person hadn't come to one of my bio classes on the day I happened to attend, I don't know if that would have changed. He was the first person I told," Kayla said.

"J.J. never told anyone. It almost cost our relationship because I freaked out." Kane said. "I couldn't believe she would kill with fire. But I only had the newspaper articles. I didn't have the ones where she was cleared."

"I can understand why you had that reaction. Seeing something like that, whether it's true or not, when you've lost so much in the same way... Yeah, that shit is triggery," Kayla said.

"Right but my being triggered as you call it cost us a year of time together. A year I can never get back and if it wasn't for her friends Ron and Mike finally reaching me and showing me the other articles we still wouldn't be together." Kane said. "Sometimes you just have to let things go because hanging on to them hurts too much. If you know what I mean."

Kayla shrugged.

"I get it, but I have a feeling it's supposed to apply to me. That part I don't get," she said.

"Fire that made me this way has a place in my heart and my head. But the harder I try not to think about it the more it hurts when I do. I had to let a lot of that go. Especially when it turned out the person I hated for it hadn't done it at all." Kane said.

Kayla nodded.

"Sorry but it's been time to smoke for a while. Keep going though; I'm listening. Fuck, can I even smoke here?" Kayla said.

"Go ahead." Kane said knowing she probably really needed it after tonight.

Kayla retrieved her lighter and cigarettes, and then she lit up and took the first drag on auto pilot.

"Thank fucking god," she said after several drags.

"I'm sorry, that was rude of me," She said.

I feel like all I've been doing since I got this job is saying sorry. She thought. When did that start happening? I never used to be one for apologies.

"What was rude?" Kane asked.

"Interrupting you mid-conversation so I could smoke," Kayla said.

"I get that this stuff isn't easy to talk about and I appreciate that you feel like you can share it with me. I didn't really show it just now though," she added.

"That wasn't rude. We forgot to give you time for one. You couldn't smoke on the plane then we were a while in the terminal and then in the SUV and then the restaurant. It's been a while since you had one." Kane said. "I forget that it's what a craving. Something you need."

"Neither J.J. or I have ever smoked you need to remind us to give you time to." Kane said.

Kayla smiled.

"Thanks for being cool about it. I should probably try vaping like... uh... Wade and Cassie do but I like smoking real cigarettes too much," she said.

"I don't see the difference in the two honestly." Kane said.

Just then J.J. walked out.

"All set. Mario knows you didn't gobble me up for an appetizer." J.J. teased as she came out.

"Glad to know he no longer thinks I'm a cannibal." Kane laughed.

Then he hugged J.J.

Kane reluctantly released J.J.

"That was rude." J.J. said. "Kayla was in the middle of telling you something."

"Oh shit." Kane said turning to Kayla. "What were you saying I missed it?"

Kayla smiled.

"What I was saying is that Vaping has its benefits. The juice is just nicotine, flavoring and the shit they put in puffers for people who have lung issues," Kayla said with a shrug.

"Oh so it's smoking only healthier if that's possible." Kane said.

"Eh. I have yet to try it," Kayla said.

"I don't think a need like that is healthy. I've heard of terrible things happening to people who smoke. But it's your choice and I won't lecture you on something I have no experience in." Kane said.

"There's no flame though which is kinda nice I guess. Wade keeps talking about getting one for pot," she added.

"I don't understand pot." Kane said. "Why do you talk about it like it's a good thing? It's illegal and possibly harmful. Not to others I don't think. Taker said all a pot smoker was dangerous to was a cake. But still…" Kane said his voice trailing off.

Kayla shrugged.

"There are way more harmful drugs out there. It's just a thing I do. I've been smoking up forever and that isn't gonna change... probably ever. It helps me relax and calms down my crazy panic levels so they're manageable. It also helps Cassie a lot with her eyes when she has her days. As for it being illegal, that's beginning no to change. Canada is planning to legalize it country-wide in it the next few years," she said.

"I still don't think I understand it." Kane said. "But you are the only person I've ever known that did that. All I saw of it was you trying to rip your arms apart thinking there was something there when there wasn't. That doesn't sound good to me."

"Dude, that definitely wasn't because of the pot. It was probably because of the magic mushrooms or the ecstasy pills. Maybe the Vicodin, too," Kayla said.

"Ok then don't do those again. You scared me." Kane said half joking half not.

"I smoked the pot with RVD hours before I ended up with you. It would have worn off by then," she added.

"RVD smokes pot?" Kane asked sounding shocked. "But he's a wrestler he needs to be in great shape mentally and physically to do what he does?"

"Dude, he's the biggest stoner I think I've ever known. He texted me earlier and I asked if he'd gotten back from stoner land yet. Can you guess what he said?" Kayla said.

"Do I even want to know?" Kane asked.

"He said something like 'stoner land is a 24-7 experience'," Kayla said with a laugh. "It seems to be a thing amongst some of your co-workers. Al Snow said that he'd hook me up cause 'Head has good shit' or something. Cena wouldn't smoke up with us though. He said some shit about his body and a temple. I don't even know," she added.

"So they do it why?" Kane asked.

"To decompress and relieve stress would be what I'd figure," Kayla said.

"Pot is very relaxing. I prefer it to drinking cause you don't get hit with the stupid downer effect that liquor gives you," she added.

"What's your relaxation method of choice?" She asked.

"Reading watching movies…" Kane began to list.

"Have mind blowing sex." J.J. added making Kane blush purple.

"Seriously that's why we never get a room next to Taker. Kane's afraid he'll hear us." J.J. laughed.

If possible Kane blushed even redder. Then he covered J.J.'s mouth before she could say anything else.

Kayla grinned.

"Stoned sex would blow your fucking mind. It's very... intense and everything feels magnified," she said.

J.J. pushed Kane's hand away and before he could put it back she said. "I don't think I could take more intense."

By now Kane was crimson and was shaking his head trying to get J.J.'s mouth covered again.

Kayla laughed.

You have much to learn, young grasshopper. She said silently.

"Maybe I'm in the minority, but I've always thought that talking about sex is healthy. Hell, we all do it. How are you supposed to learn if everyone is living like nuns?" She said.

At this point Kane threw up his hands in defeat and walked around the SUV getting in and turning the music up.

"I think we've managed to really embarrass him." J.J. said laughing

We're well in to the 21st fucking century. This shit shouldn't still be taboo. She thought.

"I shouldn't have done that." J.J. laughed. "He probably won't have sex with me for a week he'll be too embarrassed."

Kayla laughed.

"Nah, you'll be good once you're alone and my corrupting influence sets is somewhere else," she said grinning.

J.J. laughed.

"I can't believe I just did that to him. You know I don't think Paul ever had the talk with him. He gets embarrassed easily when it comes to sex." J.J. said shaking her head.

"Oh hell. I forgot again. Sorry, girl," Kayla said.

"NO it's my fault completely." J.J. said "I started it. Why don't you have another smoke so he has some time to calm down before we get in the SUV."

Kane sat in the car and watched J.J. and Kayla. He could feel that his face was burning red. I can't believe she said those things. Kane thought. Did she mean it? Am I making her happy? Is intense good?

There was definitely no talk. She thought. Our conversation over coffee the other day filled me in on all of that.

Kayla lit up again and tried not to feel guilty.

I keep forgetting how much he's missed out on. She thought. Sometimes it's really evident while at others it isn't. Maybe I should just shut the fuck up and stay that way around him. As if the mask comments weren't invasive as fuck enough for one day.

"Don't worry about it." J.J. said seeing the look on Kayla's face. "He'll get over it and maybe be a little less sensitive about it next time." J.J. added.

Kayla sighed.

"I keep saying shit around him that inevitably gets taken the wrong way. I thought I'd learned but I obviously haven't. Maybe Still I should just shut the fuck up," she said.

"No." J.J. said. "Acting like he had everything normal is as normal as it gets for him. He questions himself constantly. At least he's comfortable enough to ask you questions when he doesn't understand something. He doesn't with most people you know."

"Yeah, I know," Kayla said.

"Good because whether he admits it or not he needs people who will talk to him normally. He's never had that." J.J. said. "People always assumed he was damaged inside and out. And that hurt him."

"I feel like we're in two separate universes... You know what I mean? There are times when I feel like we get each other... Then it all goes no to hell and I'm back at square one again," Kayla said. "Yeah, if that jackass commentator is anything to go by, I know exactly what you mean," Kayla added.

"That's exactly what I mean. He feels separated from everyone because he's different. Like he shouldn't not understand all the time. Like he's lost." J.J. said as Kayla finished her cigarette.

Kayla nodded.

"I want to help so fucking much... But I'm at a loss as to how," she said.

J.J. laughed. "You already are hun. You just don't know how much."

"Let's get going he's probably starving." J.J. added turning toward the SUV.

Kayla shrugged and followed J.J.

Ok If you say so. She said silently.

They decided to do the hotel restaurant and headed there. Dinner was uneventful even if Kane was a little quite. Before long they were headed up to their rooms.

Kayla got changed before she flopped on to the bed.

Mother fucking fucking hell. She thought. Can I am officially the stupidest person alive. What the fuck possessed me to challenge his right to wear it the mask like that? I know it feels like I've known them all forever, but in reality it hasn't been nearly that long... Not even close.

Hi, my name is Kayla Jacobs... but you can call me life's fucking torpedo. First Wade and the girls and now this. God, I need to get high.

Getting to their hotel room J.J. realized Kane was still being really quite.

"Hun I'm sorry. I didn't mean to make you mad. I was just joking." J.J. said.

"Is intense good or bad." Kane asked.

"Oh way good." J.J. said trying not to laugh.

"So why did you tell her I was intense like well like that." Kane asked.

"Because women talk about sex. Most people talk about sex. I didn't realize you would get upset like that. I mean I saw your face go red but that's way cute on you." J.J. said.

"You shouldn't have told her those things." Kane said looking embarrassed again.

"Why not?" J.J. asked. "They are true and good."

"She'll say something to someone and I'll be laughed at." He said.

"No she won't." J.J. said. "and there is nothing to laugh at you're a good lover an excellent one."

Kane turned a little more pink but didn't say anything more.

J.J. walked up and hugged him close. "If It makes you feel better I'll never say anything like that again."

Kane just hugged her back not sure what to say.

[12:31:11 AM] Ellie Hopper: Kayla got changed before she flopped on to the bed.

Mother fucking fucking hell. She thought. Can I am officially the stupidest person alive. What the fuck possessed me to challenge his right to wear it the mask like that? I know it feels like I've known them all forever, but in reality it hasn't been nearly that long... Not even close.

Ost Hi, my name is Kayla Jacobs... but you can call me life's fucking torpito. First Wade and the girls and now this. God, I need to get high.

[12:38:08 AM] jasseen nothing: Getting to their hotel room J.J. realized Kane was still being really quite.

"Hun I'm sorry. I didn't mean to make you mad. I was just joking." J.J. said.

"Is intense good or bad." Kane asked.

"Oh way good." J.J. said trying not to laugh.

"So why did you tell her I was intense like well like that." Kane asked.

"Because women talk about sex. Most people talk about sex. I didn't realize you would get upset like that. I mean I saw your face go red but that's way cute on you." J.J. said.

"You shouldn't have told her those things." Kane said looking embarrassed again.

"Why not?" J.J. asked. "They are true and good."

"She'll say something to someone and I'll be laughed at." He said.

"No she won't." J.J. said. "and there is nothing to laugh at you're a good lover an excellent one."

Kane turned a little more pink but didn't say anything more.

J.J. walked up and hugged him close. "If It makes you feel better I'll never say anything like that again."

Kane just hugged her back not sure what to say.

Ellie Hopper: Kayla flicked idly through oy her phone.

Get high or call people? She thought.

Well fuck. I guess I need to call or text people anyway. I don't think I have any shit left. Awesome.

She sighed indecisively.

What's more fucked up right now: my head or my relationship? She wondered.

Yeah, it's definitely time for a spliff. She decided.