AN: Okay so just a little update for those who were so kind to congratulate me for my basketball team, we won sectionals, which for those of you who don't follow sports means we get a banner that hanges up in the gym :) sick right? well anyway, we're still playing and the latest we'll be playing is until roughly next week? yeah so hopefully i'll have more time to write, ecetera... we play tomorrow (saturday) which essentially determines our fate in the next tournament. (and btw we're 22-0, number 4 in the state... just saying) so wish us luck! (:

Okay, so back to the story, just a little summery of what happened last chapter, nessie was in the middle of the journey that Jake is sending her on, more specifically, she just got a map.

Onward to the story my friends!

Now this one I had no clue. I stuffed the paper back in its envelope, then put the envelope in the pocket of my Pea coat.

I ran back to the Wrangler, carefully dodging the different patches of snow.

I got in to the car, carefully starting it and turned on the heat. This was the first time that I was truly, bone-chilling, cold.

Once the car was warmed up a little, I put it in reverse and headed towards Brooke and Embry's little house.

"What do you mean you don't know?" I asked incredulously.

"I mean just what I said. I don't know. I've looked at the map a dozen times, but I have no idea!" Embry ran his hand over his face. "I'm sorry." He looked at me with pained eyes.

"Hey, it's okay." I sat next to him on the small couch, pushing the map and Jake to the back of my mind for a minute. "What's wrong?"

"Well it's not 'wrong' per say."

"Well something's definitely not right." I scooted closer to him, laying a hand on his shoulder.

"I don't know. She just…"

"She what?"

"She asked me about Ryanne." He looked up at me with an 'I don't know what to do' face. Ryanne was one of his more serious flings. He knew that he couldn't get too involved, with the chance that he would imprint and it would be a love triangle like Emily and Sam all over again. Embry and Ryanne were always together, and no doubt having sex.

"How, if you don't mind me asking, did she find out about Ryanne?"

"She was cleaning out the hall closet…" He pulled a picture out of his pocket. "She found this."

It was a picture of them together, at a bonfire on First Beach.

"I remember this. Right after Jake took the picture, he threw me into the water." I looked up at him. "So not the point." I said quickly, and gave the picture back to him.

"Yeah well I explained that after a while we went our separate ways and I haven't talked to her since. I asked her if she was mad, she said no but I have feeling that she is." He leaned back on the sofa.

"Hey, let's not jump to conclusions. She is pregnant…" I laughed, removing my hand from his shoulder, realizing how much of a hypocrite I sound like. "Her hormones are driving her crazy. Just don't let her make you feel like you're not worth it okay?"

"Thanks Ness, hey do what some help finding this place?" he nodded to the map.

"You know what? That actually sounds like a pretty good idea." I smiled as he started to cheer up. "Wanna drive?" I jingled the keys in my hand.

"Hell yeah!" he leapt up, I mimicked his gesture. He brought me into his arms and gave me a bone crushing hug. "Thank you." He whispered.

"No problem."


"Are you sure this is the place?"

"Yes, Embry, for the six hundredth time, this is where the map lead us." He put the Wrangler in park as I jumped out. Putting the map in my back pocket, I started walking around looking for the sixth pale colored envelope.

"Ness, over here." Embry called from the other side of the Wrangler. I ran over there, skidding to a stop reaching for the envelope.

"Calm down, woman." He says smiling, handing me the undamaged envelope.

"You know the last time that I had a wolf with me, this envelope was pretty much crumpled to pieces."

"Um, sorry?"

"It's not your fault." I laughed.

So you found the spot. Good job.

Now on to why this is a spot of interest for you. You know your bracelet I gave you for Christmas/New Years? Well that has a very interesting story behind it.

I asked Billy what I could get you for Christmas. I wanted something from the heart. So naturally, the old man went back to all of his legends. It's based off of the legend Pititchu Wisatsu'upat, which is basically just a story about the moon spirit, originally a woman that fell in love with a man who disappeared. Legend has it that when she died of a broken heart, her spirit went to the moon to allow the man to always be able to find his way home. According to the legend, for the protection, I (being the protector) must place it in the running water, while saying the enchantment. Don't worry I did that.

Billy always joked that that's what happened to mom, that she went up to the sky so that she could help him find his way home from where ever his feet took him.

The legend is up for interpretation I guess, because Sue said that it was a way for the soul to be connected, not only to its other half but, to the world around it. So whenever you're alone, no matter where, remember I'm with you.

Love Jake

I flipped it over,

First Beach

"So what does it say?" Embry was peering over my shoulder.

"Oh, um," stammering because I had forgotten that anyone was with me. "Just the story behind this bracelet. I guess it's an old legend." I held the letter out for him to read while I played with the bracelet.

"You sure?" he said reaching out for it.

"Yeah, I mean, while you read I can drive." He smiled as he read the paper. "You think I'm joking." I called back to him as I walked towards the Wrangler.

"Nessie wait!" he started running after me, to which I sped up. "I still have the keys!" I got to the driver's side door and stopped.

"Well, you're still not driving." I laughed.

"Fine, here." He went over to the passenger side climbing into the Wrangler. "And haven't I already taking to you to First Beach?"

"Yeah, but this is Jake, have you really ever questioned his ways?"

"Well…" I whipped my head so I was now looking his direction. "I'm kidding!" he laughed. "Mostly." I heard him say under his breath.

"Embry Robert Call, you tell me what you mean right now."

"Oh come on, what happens before you were born, stays out of your head."

"Embry come on!" I whined. "Can't you give me this one, as an exception?"

"No, no, absolutely not." He looked out of the side window.

"Fine. I'll let you deal with Brooke's hormones by yourself." I put the Jeep in reverse, and cranked it in the open meadow we were in.

"Nessie, come on. You'll just make fun of him, and my ass will get kicked for your fun. Not fair." He looked at me seriously.

"Well, then you shouldn't have brought it up." I smirked, flipping it into drive and, quite possibly, leaving the deepest skid marks I have ever made in my life.

"Nope, I'm not telling you."

"Tell me." I looked at him as I edged the car faster.

"Fine, fine!" he took a deep breath, then pointed out the front window, signaling for me to watch were I was going.

"Well?" I said after turning to look out the front window.

"Fine, we were thirteen." He stopped. "Why the hell am I telling you this?" he rubbed his hands over his face. "Okay, we-"

"Well spit it out."

"." He blushed a little, while staring straight out the window.

"Well, that's not what I was expecting," I laughed. "That's not even embarrassing; don't all boys do that at some point in their life?"

"That's not even the embarrassing part." He looked down. "What the hell is wrong with me? I cannot shut up." He groaned when I cocked my eyebrow when I looked at him.

"After my mom came in on us like, you know, Jake had, this…fantasy. With my mom."

This made me burst out laughing. "NO WAY!"

"Please DON'T tell him. Like ever!" he turned towards the radio. "And I mean ever. As long as you both are alive, that never leaves this car." He turned up the radio. I reached for the volume to turn it down.

"So your mom, was like 'Stacey's mom'? God that's hilarious." I cracked up. "So every time Jake came over, he like hit on your mom."

"Nessie…" he groaned. "That was not one of his finer moments. He was going through puberty, or whatever. Much like you're going through puberty now."

"I am not."

"Okay, Miss Attitude." He smirked.

"I really am not. I'm-"

"Oh, and now you're making excuses." He laughed. "Sure, not hormonal at all."

I felt tears stinging at my eyes. "Stop it."

"Nessie?" he turned in his seat. "No, don't cry, I was just teasing!"

"I know. I'm sorry. I don't know why I'm crying."

"Wait…" he took a hard long look at me before he spoke again. "You're crying, and hormonal. Brooke is like that when she's PMSing, or now, 'cause she's pregnant." His eyes got wide. "Nessie…" his voice was full of question and astonishment, and a sort of protective tone that I only ever heard when my dad or uncles talked to Jake behind closed doors.

"Look at that, we're at First Beach!" I pulled into a parking spot, and in one swift movement, I turned the Jeep off and got out of the car, avoiding all other questions from him.

"Nessie wait!" Embry yelled from the Wrangler as I got halfway down the beach. There was only one place that I came to mind when I thought about First Beach. That was the bon fire that we always went to, to hear the legends about his heritage. I quickly ran towards the fire pit that was surrounded by logs.

"Ah-ha!" I whispered to myself as I say the letter below a rock on the far log, which just so happened to be where we always sat. I smiled to myself as I jumped over the log to sit down. Before Embry had a chance to interrupt, I ripped the envelope open. Jake's chicken scratch was all over the paper.

Nessie,

So this is where we have our bonfires, right? Well it's also where we danced, well you danced I just made an idiot of myself. Anyway, that night I had something spectacular planned for us. I remember you telling me once that you're favorite band was All Time Low, yes I got it right this time. Well I got you the tickets, and we were going to sleep at my house then get up really early to go to the concert; but little old Nuhaul decided to make an appearance. But that's not what I wanted to tell you.

I want to tell you that no matter what happened in the past, and I mean anything, all I care about is that you're here with me now. Well, not here. Never mind, you know what I mean. I'm in love with you and your crazy little self, Renesmee Carlie Cullen, and there's nothing that you can do or say that will ever make me stop loving you.

Jake

I flipped the paper over, looking for the next address. 'You're dad's room.' Was what it said. I blushed deeply.

"Oh, did Mister Alpha embarrass little Nessie?"

"No, he could never embarrass me. What we do is amazing." I smirked, hoping he wouldn't ask any more questions.

"Oh, man. Your dad's room? Really?" he laughed, and then made this disgusted look on his face. I felt the blush flow all over my body.

"Well are you coming?" I said as I turned around before he could see my beat red face. "I can do this alone if you want me too."

"No, no, no. This just got interesting." He teased as he raced me back to the Wrangler.


"I can't believe that you guys did that in here." Embry whispered. Unconvincingly might I add, I mean we are in a house filled with vampires. My father included.

"Will you just shut up?" I grabbed the envelope that was tapped to the head board. My parents were definitely in on this, because this pale envelope was not here the last time I was in this room. I gave Embry a dirty look as I ripped the envelope open.

Ness, before you get to far into this, make sure you remind Bella to shield you.

I ran over to the door and called for my mother. She responded quickly with the go ahead to finish reading.

Now that Eddie-boy can't hear you, on to why this spot is so special to me. Not only had we made love on this very bed for the first time, but we also use to wrestle when you were younger. You would always start it and I, being the big ol' softy that I am, let you win, naturally.

"Liar." I laughed.

"I didn't say anything." Embry smirked, succeeding in annoying me to no end.

"Shut up." His remark earned him another glare.

So when I saw you in your little Santa outfit I went crazy. The fact that you chose me, and you decided to love me was an unbelievable occurrence that before that night, I had only dreamed about.

When you let me love you so completely that night, I felt like my job on earth was almost complete. My life, from the moment you were born, was all about making you happy. I never imagined that your happiness would make me, not to make me sound gay or anything, but make me feel like I was floating on cloud nine.

I hope you're ready for this because here's where the dirty part comes in. I love making love to you, and I love the way your face looks when I'm giving you an orgasm. I love that no matter what you do when you're around me; you make me harder than fuck. I love that you tease me with your ass when you're walking around my house naked like you own the place. If we could, I would take you away and we would never wear clothes again. Just saying. When I feel you pulse around my dick, I want to record that moment, how I feel at that moment when you're screaming my name and your body is showing me just how much you love me, and replay it for you ten thousand times in a row. I don't think I've ever been jealous of anyone as much as I'm jealous of you and your gift. You can show me anything you want or need or feel and I feel helpless when I can't tell or make you feel the way I feel every single day you're with me. But I hope that this one little note will show you just an eighth of what I feel for you, because there are no words in any language (that I know anyway) that can describe the way I feel about you.

Love Jake

I wish I had a word that would some up my feelings right now. But my mind was just blank. I didn't realize he felt that way about me. Or my gift. Or anything of the sort. His love amazed me to no end.

"So where are we going now?" Embry asked fiddling with something on my father's desk.

"Oh, um" I flipped the paper over and read the little instructions he had written out. "Well it says the rocks where we go cliff diving, but I don't know what that means. The last one I didn't know was the legend. Is there a legend about the rocks?"

"Um, not that I know of?" Embry said, sounding like he was mentally going through every story he had ever been told.

"Okay, well let's go find out what this guy has up his sleeves." We both laughed at the irony.

When we got down stairs we found my parents sitting in the TV room on the couch. My mom was reading with her feet on my father's lap.

"We're heading out. And thanks mom. That would have been bad." I laughed as my father looked up from a magazine. "Dad, since when do you read magazines?"

"Since I had a daughter." He smirked, going back to the magazine.

"Great, this is what I have to look forward to." Embry winced as he surveyed my parents. I pulled him out the front door before he could ask any more questions about my mother and father's parenting skills.

"If you're worrying about your sex life, Em, you don't have to worry. My parents may have a kid, but they still go at it like bunnies." I cringed at the picture I had given myself.

"Yeah, well they have eternal life. They always will be like that." Embry said sadly. "Like you and Jake." He ran his hand threw his hair. "Not that I don't want to grow old with Brooke, I mean that's fantastic. But we have amazing mind blowing sex all of the time. I just don't want it to end." He paused, thinking about it. "I'm being selfish, aren't I?" he looked at me while we started to walk towards the Jeep.

"No, not really. I mean, I would tell you that it's amazing when you realize that you're never going to get wrinkles, or you're never going to have like arthritis, but what I wouldn't give to sit on the porch with Jake in our rocking chairs watching our grandchildren play in the yard. But that will never happen." I sighed as I got to the Wrangler. "I guess you just have to be happy with what you have, and make the best of it while you have it, none of that 'grass could be greener' stuff, you know?"

"When did Nessie Cullen grow up and become so philosophical?" Embry laughed as he opened the passenger side door.

"Around the time Embry Call knocked up his girl friend." I retorted. "Really, though, it was around the time that I doubted that I could have kids. But, Jake and I talked through it all. He told me that he would love me know matter what. He even told me that we could adopt." I smiled at the memory. "Like we could ever adopt."

"You never know." Embry smirked. "There are a lot of guys out there riding bare back." He started gesturing down toward his area.

"Ugh, Embry!" he laughed. "Let's just go to the cliffs. And please, keep your nasty mind to yourself."

"Okay." He pouted sarcastically.


"I forgot how steep this hill was." I panted as I tried to keep up with Embry.

"Come on half vampire!" I wish my power was to shoot laser beams out of my eyes, so I could burn holes in the back of his head. "I thought you were fast."

"On flat land, yes. Steep hill, no." I panted. Embry stopped abruptly and leaned over.

"What are you doing?"

"Helping. Get on."

"What are you talking about!" My eyes widened in surprise and complete and utter shock.

"I'm giving you a piggy back ride, so I don't have to listen to you complaining the rest of the way." He looked over his shoulder. "Or do you want to walk? I'd say we have about another half a mile."

"Fine." I looked at him before I jumped on his back. "Okay."

"Finally." He started running up the hill.

"Jeez!" I said as he let me off his back. "That was like, nothing for you!"

"Comes with being a werewolf, remember?" He waved then pointed to himself.

"Right. Okay, well let's find this letter, it's getting dark."

After walking around the small plateau for a little bit, we finally found it on the west side of the cliffs.

"Oh wow, look at the sunset." I sighed. "It's so beautiful!"

"Sure. Let's just read this letter down in the car; we don't have a lot of sun light left."

"Okay." He bent down to give me another lift. "Do you really think I'm doing that again?" He stared at me in disbelief.

"Actually yeah I did." He looked confused.

"I'm not riding you." I laughed.

"Well when you put it that way, I take back the offer." He laughed. I took off running down the hill.

"Race ya!" I yelled behind me. I carefully tucked the letter to the inside of my coat. I watched where I put it, because I have my mother's klutziness about me. I got to the Wrangler and I saw Embry leaning up against the driver's side door. I skidded to a stop.

"God damn werewolves." I laughed. I pushed past him to get to my door. "Embry, move so we can go."

"I don't think so ma'am. It would be very irresponsible for me to let you drive while you read. Friends don't let friends drive while they read."

"You're such an ass." I gave him the keys and walked over to the passenger side of the car. When we were both in side, I swear, Embry would have made love to the car if I wasn't there. "What is it with men and cars?" I tore open the envelope. "We don't even know where we're going. So I don't know why you insisted on driving."

"Just flip this little paper over and we'll be off."

"No, that ruins the surprise!" he reached for it when I refused to tell him.

"Come on, if you're not going to tell me, I'll just look! Then you don't ruin the surprise and I can go home sooner."

"Fine, if you want to go, then go! I don't need you here Em." There was a hint of smile in my voice as I tried to keep my face stern. I was wondering why he hadn't left yet.

"No, I wanna see how this soap opera ends!" He said as he ripped the paper out of my hands.

"Embry!" I reached for it, but he held my face back away from him with his hand.

"I just need one more…there." He gave it back to me and turned the car on.

"I cannot believe that you just did that." I went back to reading the letter.

Nessie,

Since I couldn't bring you to New York, I thought I'd bring you to the place where I go to think. I went there right after you were born. That was an interesting day. Your dad chased me all the way to Alaska the night after he talked Rosalie out of killing me. I've never ran so fast in my life. But I deserved it. He almost lost everything and I gained everything.

When the Italian vamps came to check you out, your mom told me that if there was a fight, I had to keep you safe, which meant I couldn't call or write to my family or allow you to talk to yours until I got the go ahead from Alice, who was the only one that had the cell phone number.

When she told me that I had to leave if there was going to be a fight, I didn't think twice about it. I knew that my family was the only thing that mattered, and you were my family. My dad had the pack, Rachel had Paul and Rebecca was in Hawaii so I knew they'd all be safe. And if your parents came out on top, they wouldn't let anything happen to my family anyway. Ever since the moment you were born, you became my priority. I always do things so that your best interest is the only thing that matters.

Keep that in mind.

Love Jake.

"'Keep that in mind'?" I looked at Embry. "What the fuck does that mean?"

"Do I look like your father? I can't read minds ya know."

"Not mine no, but you can read Jake's when you're in wolf form! Do you know what the hell is going on?" I felt my chest start to get heavy. Panic started to set in.

"Calm down. You have nothing to worry about. Go get the next letter."

"I hate you." I said before I climbed out of the jeep and ran into the Car Garage that Embry and Jake ran together.

"If I were a letter, where would I be?" I whispered to myself, knowing just how crazy I must sound right now. I looked around the work space with all of the power tools and lifts, thinking to myself how stupid Jake would have to be to hide a letter in there. I ran up the back stairs to the office and went straight to the desk in the back. I've only been in here one time, and that was to move Jake's stuff in. I didn't know there was that much stuff that had to be brought in to run a garage. I looked at the desk where there was a neatly stacked pile of paper work. That's not like Jake at all. He was normally a mess. I mean you should have seen his room before I cleaned it the first time.

The envelope was leaning against the file organizer I got him as a present for his opening. And what a surprise. It was completely empty. I grabbed the envelope and sat down on the desk.

Nessie,

Yeah, I know you're going to yell at me for not using your organizer, but hey, I was a little busy planning out this whole elaborate scheme. Yes I said elaborate, yes I'm trying to sound cool.

But back to the reason why you're here. Basically I just wanted to share a little fantasy with you.

My eyebrow raised involuntarily.

So, ever since I got this office, I've been having this re-occurring dream that you bring me lunch. You walk in with this trench coat on and your hair up in this hat and when I give you a kiss and take the bag from you, you just like turn into stripper. Don't get me wrong I love it. But there's just something about you being innocent that is the best turn on for me. Like how I told you before, when you bite your lip when you think no one is watching, or how you always play with your hands when you're nervous. Or even when you kink your eyebrow when you're trying to be cute. And let me tell you, you do look cute as hell.

Basically the whole reason for letting you in on this whole secret is to tell you to never change who you are. You were meant to be this girl I fell in love with. The one that is probably sitting on my desk right now, biting her lip because she's trying not to laugh at my stupid note. That girl is the one that I live for, everyday. I'm not saying that if you change I won't love you anymore. I'm not saying that by any means. I'm just telling you that you are the best Nessie I could ask for.

Love Jake.

I looked down at where I was sitting on his desk. It's the exact place where I sat the last time I was here. Jake was looking over some paper work and I was just staring at him reading. He told me to stop, without even looking up. So me, being me, rolled my eyes and got up from the desk and walked to the door. Jake flew after me, grabbing me around my waist. I remember it now; he whispered in my ear that I might have to bring him lunch. I didn't know what he was talking about, because he never usually worked until about one in the afternoon. It all made sense now.

Call Embry and tell him you're ready

What the hell?

AN: well that was intense wasn't it? leave me a review to tell me what you guys thought?