"Yeah.." he said trying to hide his pained expression.

Miyase looked at Izaya's back and then at his face, but her gaze swiftly turned to Izaya's back. Small red dots were forming on the t-shirt. She kneeled down and tugged at the shirt, taking a good look at it. "What.. is this?" she frowned.

" What?"

She snuck her hand under the shirt to nuzzle the soft material in between her fingers. She frowned again. "Is it a part of the design of your t-shirt? These red dots.."

"Red dots?" [He dug through my skin? Well... It hurt like hell... No wonder he cut through...]

"Yes, red dots" she frowned and pulled the shirt a bit up to take a look at Izaya's back but quickly pulled it down again. "What happened to you?" she exclaimed, letting go of the shirt.

"Shizu-chan was mad. I'm not sure what he did. Is it... bad?"

"My.. God" she whispered into her hand, which she held over her mouth. "I-Izaya.. you shouldn't be so calm about this! I'll go get some disinfectant!" she said as she quickly left the room to get what she needed for Izaya.

"It can't be that bad.." he told himself. "But it really hurts" he hissed.

Miyase returned short after with a cloth and a bottle of disinfectant. She kneeled down behind Izaya and placed both the bottle and the cloth on the floor. "Please, lift up in your shirt" she asked.

Izaya pulled his shirt all the way off, hissing quietly under his breath. "Is it bad?"

Miyase blinked a couple of times before she answered. "He has... oh my.. I'm so sorry Izaya!" she exclaimed and opened the bottle to the liquid. She held the cloth over the top and tilted the bottle, soaking the cloth a bit.

"Wha-? What?"

"I'm sorry he did this to you" she gulped. "Now.. this is going to sting a bit" she gently placed the cloth on Izaya's back; on one of the open wounds.

"Ah!" he exclaimed and quickly stood up from the floor, gritting his teeth.

"S-Sorry! Please sit down again.." she looked up at the younger male.

"What was that? Nn"

"Disinfectant.. I don't want your wounds to be infected"

Izaya forced himself to sit back down and waited for it. "I understand" he managed.

"Okay.." Miyase placed the cloth on Izaya's skin again, gently dabbing the cloth on the wounds.

Izaya hissed in pain, closing his eyes tightly. He moved a bit forward and folded his arms on the edge of the bed to lean forward and lay his head on his arms.

"Sorry.." she apologized and continued dabbing the skin with the cloth.

"Arh.. Shit.. You didn't answer my question.. Does it look bad?"

"Honey.. it looks like you've been attacked by a tiger"

"What?" he said surprised. "Hnn.."

"I told you that you shouldn't have gone up to him" she mumbled, concentrating on what she was doing.

"I had to. If we're going to stay together, I need to know how t-nnn.. How to calm him down"

"I think it's best to leave him alone.."

"He doesn't have to deal with it alone"

"I must admit that you're very brave.."

"I'm not"

"Hm?" she paused. "I couldn't do it.. and I'm his mother. Yes you are.." she smiled.

"I don't think I am. Hah!" he sat up straight and arched his back away from the touch. She had hit a deeper wound and it stung like hell.

"I'm sorry! So sorry!" she apologized as she pulled her hand back.

"No, no! It's not your fault" he assured her as he lay back down on his arms. He took in a deep breath and exhaled.

She folded the cloth and poured some more of the liquid out on it. She gently placed it on Izaya's back, dabbing the wounds.

When the deeper wound was touched he grabbed the sheets and released them as she moved on. "How long are the wounds?" he asked as she kept dabbing the wounds. She was now at his mid-back, just below his shoulder blades and was moving down ever so slowly.

"Uhh.. from your lower back to your upper back.. they're quite long..."

"Okay... Will it take long?"

"Just a few more minutes.." she mumbled.

"Okay.." It stung like crazy and Izaya just wanted to get it over with. But she still had to reach all the way down to his lower back where Shizuo had dug his fingernails in deep. [It's gonna hurt like hell] Izaya thought.

"I'm sorry for putting you through this" she sighed as she dabbed the skin.

Shizuo was on his way back up the stairs and was headed for his room. He sighed as he grabbed the door handle and pushed the door open. As he saw Miyase attending to Izaya's wounds, he felt awfully sad.

"It's alright, don't worry about i-hnn.. it" Izaya hadn't heard the door open. He was too focused on Miyase and the pain he felt, while he tried to just focus on what Miyase said instead of how much his open wounds stung.

Shizuo stared at Izaya and Miyase. He caught a glimpse of the wounds on Izaya's back and gulped. Miyase turned to look at her son and stopped her motions. She was speechless over what had happened. Shizuo shoved his hands in his pockets and watched Izaya.

"What's wrong?" Izaya asked as Miyase's hand stilled.

Miyase looked back at Izaya's back. "Oh, nothing, dear" she smiled and continued dabbing the skin.

"Okay" he paused. "Do you think Shizu-chan is alright? He was pretty upset about all that has happened"

Miyase looked back at Shizuo. "I think he'll be fine" she said with a rather disappointed look. "Are you.. alright, Izaya?" Shizuo mumbled, not looking back at his mother.

"Eh? Shizu-chan?" he kept his face hiding in his folded arms.

"Are you alright?" Shizuo asked again.

"I'm fine. Are yo-nnn… Are you?"

Shizuo didn't answer but went over to Izaya and sat down on the bed beside the raven. He stared at his mother. "Izaya, dear. I'll be done soon and then I'll wash some of the blood away, okay?" Miyase asked as she focused on what she was doing.

"Yeah…" He moved one of his hands a bit, waving it slightly for Shizuo to hold.

Shizuo noticed Izaya's moving hand but ignored it. "Is it really bad?" he asked Miyase.

Disappointed, Izaya let his hand fall back down on the bed and grabbed the sheets instead.

"Yes, it is, Shizuo" she said irritated. "You need to control your temper". Shizuo looked away and twiddled his thumbs.

"Sorry.." he mumbled.

"We'll work on it"

Miyase placed the cloth over the wounds, where they had started; at Izaya's lower back.

"Ah, fuck!" he exclaimed as he sat up properly, arching his back away from the touch; eyes closed tightly, he hissed.

"Sorry" she didn't move the cloth though. "I'll just get it over with, okay?" she gently rubbed the sore skin, knowing it might hurt Izaya way too much.

"Hnnn!" he hissed through gritted teeth. He gripped the covers tighter and waited impatiently for Miyase to finish. He threw himself back on the bed, with his arms folded and face hidden. He didn't let go of the sheets though.

Miyase quickly cleaned the wounds and removed the cloth. She smiled a bit. "Alright.. I'm done" she said and put the cloth down on the floor while she closed the bottle. "I'll go find another cloth to clean the wounds, okay?" she said as she rose from the floor and left the room. Shizuo looked down at Izaya.

"I'm sorry" Shizuo mumbled quietly.

"Fuck that hurt" Izaya hissed, obviously still in pain.

"Are you alright?" he asked.

"It just hurts" he moved his head and looked at Shizuo. Izaya wasn't crying, but he was pretty sure he had some tears in his eyes from how bad it hurt.

"I told you to stop.."

"You should know by now I won't listen to everything you say. I want to help you, Shizu-chan. You don't have to deal with it on your own"

"If you would've stopped you wouldn't have those wounds on your back.."

"That's not what matters right now. The point is… Geez" he hissed and buried his face back in the sheets. Taking a few deep breaths before he continued: "The point is that I want to help you with your anger issues. And other problems as well, ne?"

"So, you don't worry about yourself?" he raised a brow. "Izaya.. when I washed my hands I had blood on them.." he paused. "Not what I wanted to see…"

"I let my guard down. Shouldn't have done that. But the only thing I had in mind was to make you feel better"

"I don't want to hurt you like that again" Shizuo sighed.

"Good. Then we'll work on your temper, ne?"

"Firstly. When I tell you to leave me alone, you do so. Alright?" Shizuo growled.

"Calm down. I'll do that next time. Stupid brute" he said slightly annoyed. "I just wanna help you. You must understand that"

"And I'm just trying to keep you from getting hurt!"

"And that's why we'll work on your temper. I don't mind, Shizu-chan. I won't let my guard down the next time. We'll figure this out. But not right now, ne?"

Shizuo kept silent and soon after Miyase entered the room. "I brought some bandages" she said as she kneeled down behind Izaya. "I'll just wash the blood off" she said as she soaked a cloth in the bowl and twisted the cloth to get some of the water off. The cloth was placed on Izaya's back and she gently rubbed at the skin, washing the old blood away; although new blood trickled out from the open, deep wounds.

"Ah…" he moaned quietly in pain. "Are they deep?"

"Very deep" she removed the cloth and quickly started wrapping the bandages around Izaya's upper body.

"Oh… Isn't bandages a little too much?" he asked and sat up properly.

"We can't have you bleeding through your clothes, can we?"

"That deep, huh?"

"Yes" she nodded and attached a little clip to the end of the bandage and then attached it to the rest of the white elastic material. "You'll have to wear this for a week or so" she gently patted Izaya's shoulder.

"A whole week? Well, guess it can't be helped. Anyway, about all this whole moving thing…"

"Izaya, you really shouldn't be worrying about that" she lightly chuckled.

"Yes I should" he said and looked up at Shizuo who looked sad. He placed a hand on Shizuo's thigh and leaned up to kiss his cheek, completely ignoring the fact that Miyase was there watching them.

Shizuo looked at Izaya but then away again.

"It's my own fault, Shizu-chan" he whispered in his ear. "I should have known better, ne?" he said and kissed his ear.

"I can't believe you can be this calm about it" Miyase interrupted.

"Well… I am. But let's just talk about the moving, ne? I really wanna get it over with" He had to move out in about one and a half week. He had to figure out something soon.

"But I-" she was interrupted by Izaya.

"Let's get started, shall we?"

Miyase kept quiet for awhile. "Alright" she surrendered. Izaya turned around to look at Miyase, sitting with his back to the bed, though he didn't lean back.

"Uhm.. Why did you two want to move together?"

"Oh… Well…" he said and looked at the floor.

"I'd like to have you here, no doubt about that, but I don't think we have room for you" she sighed as she looked up at Shizuo.

"We'll share this room" Shizuo joined the conversation.

"Yeah.. And I have a bigger bed; we can get that in here instead of Shizu-chan's"

"That's nice of you.." she paused. "Umm, but I can't let you move in before I've had a word with your mother" Miyase smiled carefully. "Even though I really want you to move in, I have to speak with your mother".

"Um, is that really necessary?" Shizuo asked quietly. "I'm sure she won't mind anyway" he shrugged.

"Shizuo, I can't just let Izaya move in, if his mother doesn't approve of it" Miyase sighed.

Shizuo looked nervously down at Izaya. [I wonder if we should tell her] he asked himself. Shizuo was still a bit sad over the whole hurting Izaya thing, and about his grandmother, so he definitely didn't need another thing tossed onto the list of things he would be either mad or sad about.

"Is there a reason why I shouldn't be speaking with your mother, Izaya?" Miyase asked as she looked at Izaya.

"Well.." he said sadly and looked up at Shizuo.

"Do you want to..?" he asked.

"I'm not sure if I can, Shizu-chan… Could you… help me?"

Shizuo slowly nodded.

Izaya looked back at Miyase. "You see… My mother is… Well.." he said turning his gaze to the floor.

"She's… not a nice person" Shizuo tried to keep himself calm, once again. Talking about Izaya's mother didn't calm him down at all though.

"I guess that's a good way of putting it" he put a hand on Shizuo's knee and nuzzled it with his thumb.

"Hm? You're having problems with your mother?" Miyase frowned.

"You could say that…"

"Major problems" Shizuo added.

"Like what?" she chuckled a bit.

"Like she hit me last time she saw me" He said it fast as to get it out before regretting it or get it stuck in his throat.

Miyase's half-smile faded away "Excuse me?" she blinked.

"She hit him.." Shizuo repeated, feeling a bit annoyed.

"It can't be true.." she frowned.

"It is… She.. doesn't quite like me"

"I.. I'm sure she likes you in some way, Izaya. But I don't understand why she'd hit you"

"Because she hates me!" he exclaimed. It hurt to talk about.

Miyase was a bit surprised at the outburst. "I.. umm.." she gulped.

Izaya had forgotten all about the pain in his back and leaned back only to quickly sit back up and hiss at the pain.

"Relax.." she tried. "I'm sorry. Alright. I'll listen to what you want to say" she sat still and waited for Izaya to speak again.

"I don't want to say anything…" he choked, looking up at Shizuo for help.

"I'm sorry.. but I don't want to cause more trouble between you and your mother" Miyase apologized as she fiddled with her apron.

"You're not.. She's the one causing problems…" he paused. "Shizu-chan.." he tried again, asking for help. He could feel some tears coming.

"Izaya.. we had to talk about this at some point" Shizuo sighed. "Mom… I think it's best if wetalked about it"

"This is Izaya's mother.. I have to speak with him, Shizuo" Miyase tried.

"He.. can't"

Izaya turned his gaze back to the floor.

"What's the problem? I won't be mad or anything.. I'll only try to help you"

"I'm afraid you can't do anything" he tried.

"But you can still tell me"

"She hates me. That's all"

"Why would she hate you?"

Izaya looked up at Shizuo, hoping for some help.

Shizuo didn't really know what to say.

"I'm only asking.. why can't you answer me, Izaya?" she looked at Izaya, not in a harsh way but in caring way.

"It's not that easy, okay?" he said a bit loudly. "Sorry..." he apologized. "She.. My father died about a year ago." he started.

Shizuo was about to tell Izaya off, but stopped as he started telling his mother what happened. Miyase nodded, understanding.

"My father and I got into a car accident and he didn't survive the night at the hospital" tears started forming in his eyes though he managed to maintain a somewhat calm expression.

"I.. see" she said nervously.

"To make it short, my mother blamed his death on me and started hating me" he said as tears began running down his cheeks, though he tried to wipe them away.

A sad expression formed on Miyase's face. "I'm.. really sorry" her eyes flickered back and forth between Izaya's eyes, seeing how hurt he felt. Shizuo placed a calming hand on Izaya's head, as to comfort him a bit.

"It's.. Okay" he said wiping tears off his cheeks. It was easier to say than it had been the last time. Maybe it really had helped to talk to Shizuo about it.

"Do you still speak with her at home?" Miyase asked.

"Izaya lives by himself.. She wants him to move back home, although he doesn't want to" Shizuo added. "That's why I asked if he could move in" the blonde sighed.

"Oh. I see" Miyase frowned. "But I.. I would love to have Izaya here. But I think it'll make it worse between Izaya and his mother" Miyase gulped.

"I don't think it can get any worse. She already knows about Shizu-chan and me. She was furious"

"I see" she nodded. "If I were to let you move in.. we have to have a financial talk" Miyase said. "I'm not happy about this though. Not at all" she paused. "I don't want to cause more trouble between you and your mother" she said as she fiddled with her apron.

"I know. But I'm not gonna talk to her. I can't do that"

"No, but who knows if she might come here?"

"Then I'm done for. What do you want me to do?" he said, frustrated with the whole situation he was in.

"I don't know. I mean. I'd love to have you here.. but I don't want your mother to argue with me about it. This is your choice, okay?"

"I don't wanna cause trouble either. I should just tell her, I know that. I still have a week or so to figure out how to say it"

"Then I hope it'll go smoothly for you" she smiled. "You're welcome to stay here"

"It'll be fine" he said and rose from the floor. "I'll be back in a minute" he said and left the room.

Miyase watched as Izaya left the room but then looked back at Shizuo. "He just needs some time alone.." Shizuo tried to smile. "Anyway, thanks mom".

"You're welcome. But as you know.. he has to, well, pay a price for staying here" Miyase placed a hand on Shizuo's knee.

"Yeah, I know that. We'll figure it out" Shizuo nodded.

"I'll talk to him later about that" she paused. "How are you feeling?"

"I'm alright"

"Ah, okay. That's good. But you must know that I am very disappointed in you" she frowned.

Shizuo nodded and looked down on the floor.

"I want nothing but the best for Izaya and you" she continued. "I hope you know that. But some things are harder than others. I'll try to figure this out with your.. boyfriend" Miyase choked on the last word. She found it extremely hard to say it, since it was her son, who was gay.

"Thanks.. You're the best" Shizuo lit a bit up at the remark.

"You're welcome, dear" Miyase rose and placed a soft kiss in Shizuo's hair. "Love you" she whispered and stroke the back of Shizuo's hair.


Izaya went to the bathroom and locked the door behind him. He leaned on the sink and looked at his reflection in the mirror. Damn, he was still crying. But it wasn't as bad as last time when he had told Shizuo. "Come on… Everything will be fine. You'll figure this out. Shizu-chan will help you and Miyase is too nice to you. It's not a problem, ne?" His little pep talk helped a bit and he wiped his tears away and just stared at his reflection while he tried to figure out what to do next.

A few minutes later Izaya came back into the room and saw the cute mother and son moment. He smiled at them as he thought it seemed nice and kinda cute that Miyase rubbed the back of her son's head.

"Oh, you're back, dear" Miyase smiled and stopped rubbing Shizuo's head.

"Yeah. The financial thing, ne?"

"We can talk later if you don't want to right now"

"Are you sure?"

"Yes. Tonight, alright?"

"Thank you"

Miyase nodded. "I'll leave you two then.." she said as she left the room.

"Shizu-chan?" Izaya asked as Miyase closed the door behind her.

"Yes?" Shizuo looked up at Izaya.

"Are you alright?" he said and approached the blonde.

"Yeah.. don't worry about me. How are you feeling?"

"A bit messed up" he smiled wryly. "But I'll survive, ne?"

"Want me to nuzzle you as an apology?"

Izaya chuckled a bit, finding what Shizuo said very cute. "That sounds nice"

"You can lie down on me.. okay?"

"Chest to chest?" he smiled and crawled on the bed.

Shizuo nodded and laid himself down on the bed, waiting for Izaya to lie down too. "Just be careful, okay?"

"I will. Relax" he said and lay himself down on top of Shizuo, nuzzling his face into Shizuo's chest.

Shizuo placed a hand on Izaya's head and started nuzzling. "I'm sorry about earlier.." Shizuo finally said after a couple of minutes.

"It's alright. I love you after all, ne?"

"You keep saying it so easy! I envy you.. but I.. love you more"

"Not possible" he chuckled. "Ah.."

Shizuo removed his hand from Izaya's head. "Was that me?"

"Yeah"

"Sorry" he mumbled and gently placed the hand back in the hair. "I'll be gentler"

"No, it's not because you're too harsh. It's something else. Can you feel something there?" he asked.

"You have a swelling here.." Shizuo gently rubbed at the spot.

"Damn.. Well, doesn't matter, ne?"

"Sorry.." Shizuo apologized once again.

"It's okay, Shizu-chan. You'll just have to help me out, ne? I probably need to change the bandages and wash them and wash the wounds again."

"Uh.. Yeah" Shizuo gulped.

"Ah, you don't know how to do it?" he mocked.

"Tch" he snorted. "I'm sure my mom will help with that…" Shizuo sighed.

"I'm sure you will help too. If I really want it you'll do it, right?"

"Yeah.. but I don't know how to do it…."

"You'll figure it out. Your mom can show you, ne? It's not like I can reach there myself" he chuckled.

"Fine.. I'll let my mother show me then.." he sighed.

"Shizu-chan… You're making it sound like it's the greatest pain in the ass to take care of me when you keep sighing like that"

"Uhh.."

"That's so mean!" he pouted.

"You know I'm kidding right?"

"No I don't"

"Aww.."

"You're lucky I still love you"


Signe: Awww, see? They're good friends again! Well… They didn't really fight or anything xD Wasn't it cute how Shizuo nuzzled Izaya? I think it was.. *kyaa-mode*
Izaya: Shizu-chan can be so caring and cute when he feels guilty *smirk*
Christine: Cute chapter somehow! :D *chuckles* leave a review~ thanks! Love you guys! *kisses*
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