Chapter 52

3x08 Think Lovely Thoughts

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I trudged along next to my mother Regina while my father walked on the other side of her. I was groggy from being woken up, I had barely slept in days, but after Ariel returned it was important that we moved quickly to find Henry and capture Pan. "You know, despite our differences, I can always count on you to get things done…" My mother said breaking the silence, "Unlike the rest of them." She sighed, "You were right. They're just a liability."

"Where are they?" Gold asked.

Mom shook her head, "Oh, well, Pan told them Neal was alive, and, of course, Emma took the bait. Such a waste of time." I looked down at my hands so they couldn't see my face. "Oh" Mom paused, "I'm so sorry."

To my surprise my father shook his head, "No, no, don't be. He is alive."

My head snapped up in disbelief, "What?" I said.

"Pan wasn't lying." My father said as he continued walking, "Neal is here on the island. I've seen him." I didn't understand Emma and Jim saw him get shot and fall through the portal. Was is possible the portal had dumped him in neverland?

Regina's eyebrows narrowed, "You saw him and you... you just parted ways?" She questioned. "You realize that he might have a way off the island."

"Let's worry about the travel plans after we get Henry." My father replied. Neal must have not wanted to see him, it was one of the last things Neal said to him.

"There's something you're not telling me." Regina pressed, "What happened when you saw him?"

"Look," My father snapped, "all you have to know is, the next time I see him will be when I'm putting Henry in his arms. When father and son are reunited." Mom said nothing and continued walking. I guess that was good enough for her. I was still stunned my brother was alive. Although it felt like he was still gone, I guess I'd have to see him to believe it.

"Well, if this is your version of a rescue party, we got here just in time." I heard my mother say.

As I emerged through the thick underbrush after my father I could see Snow, David, Emma, Jim, Tink and Hook and in the middle...my brother Neal. Alive and well. "NEAL" I practically yelled as I pushed passed my father and mother and ran smack into him. "Lucy!" He said as he wrapped his arms around me. Almost everyone smiled in the group as they watched Neal and Lucy be reunited.

"I thought you were dead!" I said as I pulled back to look at him.

Neal smiled, "Nah come on, I had to come save you and Henry." He winked at me.

"What are you guys doing here?" Snow asked. I let go of Neal but stood closely next to him, I couldn't believe he was back.

Regina smiled, "Well, same as you, except we actually have a chance." She gestured to my father who was holding the box, "Pandora's box. It could trap Pan for eternity simply by opening the lid."

"You didn't tell me my father was with her." Neal whispered angrily to Emma.

"I didn't know." She replied.

"Wait" Tink said, looking between me and Neal. Before looking at Rumplestiltskin and back to Neal, "You're father is the dark one?"

Neal nodded, "Yeah, and he's not getting anywhere near Henry."

"Bae…" Our father pleaded.

"Why? What are you talking about?" Emma asked confused as she looked towards Rumplestiltskin.

"There's a prophecy that says that Henry will be his undoing." Neal said angrily. "He didn't come here to protect him. He came here to kill him." Everyone took a step away from Gold. Wait but this couldn't possibly be true. He wouldn't hurt Henry...would he?

"That's why you didn't want to find Neal before you got Henry back?" Regina said in his face, "Because you knew he'd spill your secret." She said.

"Everything I did was to protect Henry," My father justified, "to rescue him from Pan."

"It all makes sense." Emma said as she held up her sword, "You left before we even made shore."

"You wanted to get to Henry first…" Snow said as she held up her bow, steadily at my fathers heart.

"To be on his own…" David said as he pulled out his sword.

"So no one could stop you…" Hook said as he pulled out his sword.

"So you can kill him." My mother finished.

"It's not gonna happen," Emma said, "not unless you go through all of us first." No my father wouldn't do this he wouldn't hurt Henry. But they were about to kill him.

I quickly jumped in front of my father and all the impending weapons, "No stop you can't kill him, it can't be true!" Everyone looked at me like I was crazy and I admit it didn't sound good, but it couldn't be true.

"Lucy is right. I don't care if the boy is destined to be my undoing. I won't hurt him." My father said.

"Because that sounds just like you." Mom said sarcastically.

"Without me, you will fail." My father told them, "I'm the most powerful amongst us."

"That's why we can't trust you." Neal said.

My father sighed, "If I could give you my dagger, I would. But I can't." I couldn't believe he'd leave his dagger all the way in Storybrooke.

Neal nodded, "But you can give me Pandora's box. I don't have to trust you if I could stop you."

My father opened his mouth to say something then promptly shut it and handed the box to my brother. "Look at me," Neal said, "you so much as lift a finger to perform magic, you're gonna spend an eternity in this box. Let's go." We started to walk and I looked back and saw my father had stopped and was talking to Neal. Whatever they were saying, I hope it was good.

We had paused for a moment as Tink checked out the next bend she thought was his camp. She came back with David and announced, "We're here. Pan's perimeter."

Emma nodded, "It's time. Tink will sneak us in the back like we planned. We grab Henry. In and out, simple.: She looked over to Neal, "You good with Pan patrol?"

Neal tapped his bag, "Locked and loaded."

Emma nodded and looked over to me, before turning to the rest of the group. "I don't know if it's such a good idea for Lucy to come with us."

My jaw nearly dropped, "Wait what?"

"Why?" Snow asked.

Emma looked very uncomfortable, "Well Pan already took her once what if we're not paying attention and he takes her again, or tries to use her as leverage or whatever" Emma finished. "Maybe she should stay here and we'll come get her after we have Henry, we could leave someone with her."

Jim stepped forward, "I'll do it." He said solemnly.

"Emma I'm not a child." I said quietly.

Mom shook her head, "No. Out of the question I already lost her once, and we searched this entire godforsaken island looking for her. Lucy is staying right by my side."

"For once," Gold started, "I agree with Regina. She's safer with us in tow."

Emma looked like she didn't agree but nodded and said, "Alright."

"Now you mind if I, uh…" My father stepped forward and drew the sword from Killian's waistline, "borrow this? You said no magic, I agreed. But I'm not walking in there with nothing but my good looks." Everyone looked like they didn't want him to have a weapon but realized that he had a point.

Hook smiled, "Now I, on the other hand…"

David thrust a sword at him, "Here, in case your good looks fail you."

Killian raised the sword, "Thanks, mate."

"Let's get Henry." Emma said.


As we surrounded the perimeter my dad bitterly asked. "Can I at least use magic on these boys?"

Neal considered it for half a second. "No." Neal said firmly. He wouldn't budge on the no magic rule.

"I'll do it," My mother said as she lifted her hand to perform the spell.

"You remember the spell." My father asked.

The look on her face was a mixture of disgust and pure loathing at the same time. She said nothing but simply performed the spell knocking out all the lost boys at once. God my mom was awesome. I wanted to be able to use magic like her.


Well after unsuccessfully finding Henry at the camp and tying up the lost boys, we did manage to find Wendy. That's right. Disney got it pretty much down. Wendy was here on the island, but was Pan's captive. Not his friend. My brother Neal apparently knew Wendy from before he had come to Neverland for the first time. Neal crouched down in front of her "Hey, Wendy, since you've been here, have you seen my son? His name's Henry."

"You have a son?" Wendy asked she sounded nostalgic. I briefly wondered if her and my brother had, had a thing for each other back when they were the same age.

Neal nodded, "Yeah. Pan needs his heart."

"Has he said anything about the heart of the truest believer?" Emma asked.

Wendy shook her head vehemently, "No. I'm sorry. He never mentioned anything about a heart."

My father angled his sword towards her, "She's lying. Where is he?"

"Whoa, whoa, whoa." David said as he put his hands up to stop my father from walking any further, "What the hell are you doing?"

"I've carried enough lies in my life to recognize their burden." He said. I looked over to Wendy and she did indeed look guilty. "She knows where Henry is." My father stated.

"Is that true?" Neal asked.

"You don't understand." Wendy begged.

"You're helping Pan?" Snow said incredulously.

Wendy nodded, "He's keeping John and Michael alive, only if I do as he says."

"Trust me, whatever he's promised," My father informed her, "he will go back on his word."

"And why should I trust a man who abandoned his own son?" Wendy said genuinely. Ouch.

"Because your brothers did." My mom finally said speaking up, "They trusted a woman named Belle. They helped her get this box so we can defeat Pan."

"They're okay?" Wendy realized.

My father nodded, "For now, and only if we succeed."

Neal knelt down in front of her, "Wendy... we will save John and Michael, I swear to God. But right now, I really need your help. Please."

Wendy nodded, "Pan told Henry that... he needs his heart to save magic. But it's a lie." She looked around at everyone, "He needs it to save himself."

This didn't sound good. "What do you mean?" I asked.

Wendy took a deep breath, "Pan's dying. He needs the heart of the truest believer to absorb all the magic in Neverland. And once he does... he will be immortal, all powerful."

"And what happens to Henry?" Snow asked.

"Well, it's a trade. When Pan lives, Henry will die." No. This could not be happening. Emma abruptly stood up.

"That's why he fought so hard for Henry." I said. But i felt incredibly dumb. Pan was never planning on killing Henry at camp. He enjoyed the game too much.

"How do we stop Pan?" David asked urgently. I realized this was getting real. This fight was on the horizon and coming sooner than anticipated.

"Pan took Henry to Skull Rock." Wendy said as she stood up, "But you haven't got much time."

"Then we stay behind." David said, "Someone needs to be here to guard the lost boys when they wake up."

"You don't need to stay behind." Emma argued.

"David's right." Snow said, "You get him home, tell him we love him."

"Tell him yourself, when you get back from Deadman's Peak." Snow cocked her head as Emma continued, "Gold can cure you back in Storybrooke. We just need to bring some of the water with us."

Snow smiled and hugged Emma, "And you... you didn't give up." She looked up at Gold, "Thank you." She whispered.

"Well, apparently, that's the only thanks I need these days." Gold retorted bitterly.

"Jim, Tink and I will take care of things here." Hook said. "Meet you back at the "Jolly Roger" when you find Henry."

I guess I was going on the rescue mission. I mean mom had said I wasn't leaving her sight. I took a step towards her and grabbed her hand. She didn't look at me but squeezed my hand. God she was so strong. After hearing her story I understood why she had become the way she did. But I also respected that she wanted to change, for the better, for Henry and me.

David put a hand on my shoulder, "I'll see you in a little bit kid." I smiled and gave him a side hug. Me and David really had become very close while Henry and I had stayed with him.

"Promise me if your father and I don't make it back, you get him home." Snow said to Emma.

"We're all going back home." Emma said determinedly, "Together."


As we rowed towards Skull Rock, I was frightened by its presence. It certainly lived up to its name. I was sitting in between my mom and Emma as my brother rowed us towards the shore. I was very nervous about facing Pan. He was powerful and dark, and the fact that my father was afraid of him scared the hell out of me. I shuddered slightly and Emma put her hand on my knee and looked at me. "It's gonna be okay. We're gonna get him back." I believed her.

As we docked Emma inspected the sand, "These are Henry's shoes. Wendy was right. They're here." She started running up the stairs only to be violently thrust backwards, landing facedown on the ground.

"Are you okay?" I said as Neal and I helped her up.

"I think so." She replied.

"What was that?" Neal asked.

"Pan cast a protection spell." Gold answered.

"There has to be a way to break it." My mother said as she formed one of her signature fire balls in her hand. She promptly threw it at the invisible wall only to have it rebound in flames above us. All of us dropped to the ground.

"Careful with that!" Neal said spastically.

Gold shook his head, "Try all you want, but Pan's magic is too powerful. At least for you." He carefully took two steps forward and was on the other side of the wall.

"Wha.." My mother started. She was not accustomed to her magic not being strong enough. "How did you do that?" Emma asked.

"The spell is designed to keep anyone who casts a shadow from entering." My father replied.

"And you don't have one." Neal finished. What? I looked down and sure enough my father didn't have a shadow. What the hell. How did he not have a shadow? "You were telling the truth about ripping your shadow off." Neal said.

My father nodded, "And Pan knows it. That's why he cast the spell he did. This isn't about keeping you out. It's about drawing me in. He knows I won't give up the chance to finish what I came here to do."

"You really did come here to save Henry." Neal realized. I knew he wasn't going to kill Henry.

"I gave you my trust with that box." My father replied, "Now I need you to give it back."

Neal started handing our father the box but Regina ripped it out of his hand, "Hey!" He said startled.

Regina ignored him, "You better come through, Gold. Or I'll make whatever Pan has planned for you look like child's play." I believed her. She narrowed her eyes at him, "You understand me?"

"Well, a simple "good luck" would've sufficed." My father smiled and looked over to me. Neal, Lucy I love you both. Take care of each other. Lucy take care of your mother. I nodded. But I didn't think he was going to die. He couldn't.


20 minutes had gone by and everyone was starting to get antsy. "So what are we supposed to do now?" Regina asked.

"What about the spell my father used to rip off his shadow?" Neal asked. Inevitably he had used dark magic which wouldn't be a good idea to use.

"You think if I knew how to do that, I wouldn't have done it already?" Regina replied exasperated.

Emma was staring at the moon, "The moon."

"The moon?" Regina replied confused.

Emma nodded, "The moon is what causes our shadows, right? What if there was a way to block it out using magic?"

"What, you mean like an eclipse?" Neal asked. "Is that even possible?"

"Maybe." My mother asked unsure.

"So?" Emma replied.

"I need help." Regina answered.

"With magic?" Emma confirmed.

My mother looked at her annoyed. "It requires a lot. I guess we're about to find out how much those lessons I gave you paid off." Regina looked over at me, "Lucy you to. Up. Follow my lead."

As we ran up the stone steps at the top of skull rock we found Henry and Pan. Henry's hand was in his chest and we saw him pull out his own heart. "Henry wait!" Neal yelled. "Whatever Pan's telling you to do, don't do it." Neal pleaded. My father was nowhere to be seen.

"Dad? You're alive?" Henry said in disbelief.

Neal nodded, "I am, buddy. And I need you to listen to me. Pan is lying to you."

Pan grimaced, "Oh, pleasure to see you, too, Baelfire, not to mention the Savior, the Evil Queen, Lucy." He said as he eyed all of us.

"Henry, you need to get away from him now. He's trying to hurt you." Emma said, very oddly calm.

Henry shook his head, "No. The heart of the truest believer. It's what's gonna save magic. It's gonna save all of you." We all vehemently shook our heads.

"No, it's not." My mom pleaded, "This was never about magic, Henry. You have to believe us. The only person Pan's interested in saving is himself."

"That's not true!" Henry yelled back.

Pan narrowed his eyes, "Of course it isn't."

"Yes, it is!" I said, "Pan can't live without you dying. If you give him your heart, it's gonna kill you."

"They're trying to stem your belief, Henry. But don't let them. Remember, every hero gets tested." Pan said. He had completely brainwashed Henry.

"Henry... I know what being a hero looks like," Emma said, "and this isn't it."

Henry leaned into Pan. "Why would they lie?"

"Because that's what adults do, Henry. You know that better than anyone." Pan answered.

"Henry, I'm not an adult. I've never lied to you." I smiled, "We've never lied to each other. You've been my partner in crime from the beginning." I could sense Henry wavering.

"Henry... you have to believe us." Regina pleaded.

"Your parents don't care about Neverland, Henry. They know if you give your heart to save it, then you'll have to stay. They're being selfish because they don't wanna lose you." Pan said

"Henry, you have to trust us." Emma said very rationally.

"Trust?" Pan answered, "I'm the only one who's ever been honest with you, Henry. The only one who ever believed in you. This is your choice. Not theirs. You have to choose now. We're running out of time." Henry looked at the enormous golden sand hourglass which was now almost empty.

"We believe in you, Henry." Neal said.

"Because we love you." Emma added.

"And we want you." I threw in.

"More than anything." Mom finished.

I love you, too. But I have to save magic. I'm sorry." Henry yelled as he thrust his heart into Pan's body.

"No, no, no, no!" We all screamed. We all fell to the ground as the powerful spell was unleashed. We raced to Henry as he had fallen over almost immediately. I prayed to God he wasn't dead.