'Goodbye'...most times we say it casually... other times it's one of the hardest and most painful words to force out of your mouth. i may have looked calm but i was breaking down on the inside. i closed the door to twilight's house and walked away. i kept my head down the entire time to my house.
i walked down the path and opened the door to my house. i walked in and dash was in the kitchen. i could smell that she was cooking something good. i think it was... it was my favorite, apple cabbage soup. i walked over and gave her a kiss on the cheek while she was stirring the soup.
"how was it baby... i know you didn't just go there to drop off her bags... did you two talk." dash asked.
"yeah... it didn't go well." i said with a few tears in my eyes.
"oh... oh gosh are you alright." she asked. i was on the verge of crying.
"not really... she said that she had to... leave for canterlot for a while, i'm not sure how long but it's under the princess's orders." i said.
"what... the princess can't possibly..." i cut her off.
"she said that i could have grown unstable and laid waste to all of equestria... and when i ran away the princes reprimanded her... she said that she almost lost her home in ponyville and would be forced to leave her friends." i said.
"oh my gosh... i never knew." said dash. "i swear i didn't"
"she never said she hated you guys... you're her true best friends." i said.
"what i don't get it why they didn't just tell you straight up..." said dash. i was about to reply but that hadn't come up... she made a good point. i pulled my head off of dashes shoulder and wiped the tears from my face. "you alright."
"yeah i just... i need to do something." i said.
"what." she asked.
"it's uhm... personal... i'm just going out back... i'll be gone for a few minutes." i said.
"uhm... alright." said dash. i walked into the living room and grabbed my cross. i walked out the back door and across the yard to the woods. i walked through the woods for a while until i was far enough from the house. this part of the woods was dark and the brush above was thick. i knelt down and decided to turn to god for guidance.
"dear god... if you can hear my prayers... please, answer them... i pray for your guidance." i said. i felt a warm glow. i opened my eyes to see that the roof of the forest had started to part, giving light to any remaining sunlight in the sky. i smiled.
"i have heard your prayers alex... and you have done well." he said.
"i couldn't do it all lord, i fear my friend twilight sparkle has been damaged beyond repair." i said.
"there are no wounds being either of body or mind that my light cannot heal." he said. i smiled.
"crimson..." i heard. my eyes shot open and i looked over. it was dash, she was standing there with an strange look on her face. "what are you doing."
"praying." i said. "would you... like to join me." i asked.
"where is the other pony you were talking to." she said.
"there is no other pony." i said.
"don't hide him." she said, she walked over but missed the ray of light around me. "where are you." she said.
"i am everywhere my daughter." said god. dash wiped her head around looking frantically.
"dash please just sit down." i asked. but she kept looking.
"who are you." she said.
"i am that i am... i invite you to join your husband in my holy light." said god.
"crimson im..." she said but i stopped her.
"please dash just come over here." i said. the hole in the canopy opened wider to let in space for dash. she slowly walked into the light and i took her hoof. she knelt down and stared up at the light. she was completely still.
"see my daughter, i am everything that was, that is, and everything that will be... i am the light of the spirit." said god.
"oh my gosh... crimson is this."
"god" i said cutting her off. "yes... you are speaking to the christian lord."
"you weren't kidding... you have spoken with him... you really have." she said still staring up at the light. "i feel so...so...happy, and warm." she said.
"embrace the light of the lord... let me lift your spirit." said god. dash closed her eyes and she started glowing. it wasn't a solid glow but a warm sort of shine. i think it was pretty awesome that she could get to know the lord like this.
"lord i still pray for your wisdom and guidance." i said.
"there are often paths we take, the righteous path runs by the side of challenge and hardship... often many walk in one direction, but on both paths. i fear you may be walking on those paths." he said.
"lord guide me back on the path of righteousness." i prayed.
"the one of the name, twilight sparkle plays to the role of a trickster... her heart i warm... but that warmth has been frozen by her cold shell... shine the light of your soul on her and melt the ice over her heart." he said.
"thank you my lord." i said.
"know that should you need to speak to me again." said god. as the ground rumbled and a large rock rose from the ground, it was just a big normal rock. "that this would be the church... and you it's rock." he said. i bolt of lightning crashed from the sky and struck the rock. it gave the rock and indent of a cross, it was beautiful.
"i will carry on your faith lord." i said "amen." the canopy started to close but stopped right over the rock so that it was always under the grace of god. i looked over to dash who still had her head up and her eyes closed.
"that was... amazing." she said. i smiled and grabbed her. i pulled her into me and kissed her.
"i'm glad you like him." i said.
"are you joking that was the god you talk about all the time... he sounds just as important as you make him out to be... and he just talks to you... does he do that to everypony." said dash.
"not everypony... i'm a special case." i said.
"you always are." said dash also smiling.
"you weren't as surprised as i was." i said.
"well i thought you're kind always talked to him." she said. "just like every day he answer hundreds of you're kind at once... or something." she said. i laughed.
"i wish... the bible actually tells us that god doesn't speak to us to protect us from knowing too much and destroying ourselves..." i said "you probably shouldn't have heard that but god must have wanted you to, because he would have known if you are coming."
"i'm glad i met your god... but i'll leave the praying up to you." she said.
"alright." i said nuzzling my head against hers. i let out a deep sigh.
"so what are you going to do about twilight." said dash.
"i know she has feelings for me somewhere, she said herself that she even counted me as her best friend once... that is an unforgettable bond. she's in there somewhere and i need to find her." i said.
"does that mean you're leaving again for canterlot..." said dash.
"yeah baby... i'm sorry." i said giving her a kiss on the head.
"that's alright... i understand, twilight is my friend too and i want you to do this... but i can't help but feel like we're missing something." said dash
"it was a plan between celestia and twilight. it's probably very complicated and well thought out... i'm going to have to think hard on this one." i said.
"when are you going to canterlot." asked dash. i thought for a second.
"i'll go tomorrow." i said. "c'mon it's getting late." i said standing up and walking back home. dash followed and we both walked back into the house. she went into the kitchen and finished making the soup when there was a knock on the door. "i'll get it." i said. i walked over to the door "who is it." i said and i opened the door.
randomly a beer bottle flew at my face and broke over my head. i got glass stuck in my face and i grit my teeth. son of a bitch.
"that's for leaving asshole." said a familiar voice. it was derek i kept my eyes closed because i think a few shards flew into my eyes. i could feel him hug me and pick me up. "and that's for being the craziest fucking bastard i know... you're fuckin' nuts man." he said.
"oh god my eye's..." i said, there was definitely glass in my eyes "derek you incredible asshole you got glass in my eyes." i said. he started laughing.
"oh shut up... you'll live, it takes more than that to kill you." he said.
"oh god it burns... are my eyes bleeding."
"just a bit out of the right... you'll be fine." he said. he let me go. "hey dash what's for dinner." he said walking into the kitchen. i stumbled around a bit keeping my eyes closed.
"is there REALLY no one helping me right now." i said.
"sorry bro... here." he said helping me stand. he guided me over to the downstairs bathroom and stood me up. "alright you're in front of the bathroom mirror." he said. i was afraid to open my eyes. but i did anyway.
"oh god." i said. one of my eyes was blind, the right one. it had a shard of glass stuck deep in it. the other one looked fine though and it didn't really hurt, just irritated. but my right eye... fuck. "oh derek you better hope this heals right." i said.
he handed me the tweezers. i had him hold my eye open for me. i brought the tweezers over and pinched down on the piece of glass. i pulled and it slowly slid out of my cornea. it burned like hell. i grunted and moaned in pain.
"sorry about that bro." he said.
"i hate you so much right now its not even real." i said. i grit my teeth and swallowed my nerves. i yanked hard and the shard of glass popped out of my eye. i let out a short yell of pain and closed my eye.
"c'mon let's see the damage." said derek. "and don't worry i won't throw up." he said. i looked back in the mirror and pulled my hooves from my eye. i opened my eye and it was fine... no scars or cuts and i could see out of it. "what... boring you healed it." he said.
"yeah i guess i did." i said. i turned and left the bathroom. "hey how come you don't have you're own house yet." i asked derek. "it's not like you can't afford one." i said.
"actually i do, but it's being built, i actually got plans to build my own house in ponyville... it's not far from here actually. just go down your path and follow the main road left and there's a path into the woods." he said.
"nice... when's it going to be done." i asked.
"well it's a house just as big as yours... they told me like a month." he said. "so i'll be crashing between you and roseluck." he said.
"great." i said sarcastically rolling my eyes. "well i don't have time for any... whatever kind of trouble you would suggest tonight... i have to go to canterlot tomorrow."
"great you're already leaving." he said. "why do you have to go to canterlot." he asked.
"don't worry about it." i said walking into the kitchen just as dash finished the meal. we all sat down and ate. she was a good cook. i wolfed my bowl down and two more since i had not eaten or had something to drink in three days.
after that derek crashed on the couch and me and dash headed upstairs. we laid together in bed and she cuddled up to me. she was nice and warm. i hugged her and held her tight.
"this bed is so big and lonely without you." she said.
"at least you got a bed... i slept in the bushes and dirt." i said. she giggled. "i'm sorry about this whole thing dash." i said holding her.
"i'm sorry too." she said. "you're not a bad pony... you made the right choice but with the wrong consequences." she said. "i love you crimson." she said.
"i love you too dash." i said. i closed my eyes and fell into a deep sleep. i drifted off into the land of dreams. i woke up the next morning to a knock on the door. i got up and stood up. i walked downstairs. i noticed derek had already left, the clock said 11:46. i guess i overslept.
i walked to the door and pushed it open. there was a large royal guard standing at my doorstep. he seemed to act normally around me. he didn't look mad, and there wasn't backup... so i don't think i was in trouble.
"are you crimson blast." he said.
"uh... yes." i said.
"letter from the princess..." he said. he handed me the note and i grabbed it from him. before i could say anything his horn glowed and he teleported away. i walked to the living room and sat down on the couch. i opened the envelope and read the letter.
"Dear Crimson Blast. i am writing this letter to you because you made the right choice. while i am happy to know this it still does not excuse your previous actions... twilight has told me about your return. her story makes me believe you are going to come and find her. i'm afraid i cannot let that happen. i have ordered that you are no longer allowed on the castle grounds or even into the city of canterlot. i'm sorry it has to be this way but i must do what is best. if you come to the palace or the city i will take it as a threat to the kingdom and you will have to deal with me personally. if you can demonstrate that you have gained control over the demon within you then i will release the ban... but if you ever do anything such as that again, i will have no choice but to eradicate you... regards, princess celestia."
that complicates things. i don't know why but she must be really mad at me for this. but she knows me, she knows what i'm like and how i am. there has to be something else behind this. but she can't be serious of attacking me if i go to the castle.
"what's that." asked dash descending the stairs.
"it's a note from the princess." i said.
"let me see that." she said. i handed it to her and she started reading. i watched her facial expressions change as she read further into the letter. "what the fuck is this." she said crushing up the letter "she can't do that.. she..she just can't." said dash. i walked over and hugged her.
"it's fine... i don't know what's wrong but obviously there's still a lot of mistrust and fear to my name, but that has changed and i tend to show everypony that." i said. dash pulled away and looked at me.
"please tell me you're not going to the castle." she said. i just looked at her. "no... don't i know you're a very powerful pony but the princess is just something else entirely." she said.
"do you really think that her sunlight can compare to the light of god" i said.
"your going to get yourself killed." she said. "i'm sorry crimson but i won't let you go." she said.
"dash please." i said. but she jumped on me and held me tight.
"no... don't go please...just...please don't go."
"dash i'm done with this... i'm fed up with the secrets and the lies." i said pushing her off. "i'm going to canterlot and i will fight celestia to the death if i have to... but i'm going to fix this and i've never been so sure of what i was doing ever before..." i said. "dash i have to do this... but you need to know i'm doing this to make you happy... to make everyponies lives happy... to make everything the way it used to be."
"crimson i hope you're right... but please... if you can't fight her, run away... promise me you will run away..."
"dash.." she cut me off.
"please promise me that... promise me you will run away so that i can run after you... and maybe... have a new life someplace else." she said. i just looked at her, she was serious.
"alright dash... i swear to the lord, i will run away if the situation gets out of control. i'll run and i'll bring you and the kids with me... and we can live out of equestria." i said. she just smiled.
"i'm going now." i said.
"what if they see you flying there."
"i'm not flying there." i said. i closed my eyes and concentrated. i thought of the castle and i felt a warmth across my whole body. the warmth vanished and there was a cool breeze. i opened my eyes. i was on the top of the castle, not what i wanted but it works. i bent the light around me and turned invisible. i spread my wings and took off towards the ground. there were guards everywhere. unfortunately for them my tactics have changed. they were using lights to check any shadows for me...fools. i walked over and right to the main door.
i walked over and simply walked through it. easy enough. i kept walking through the main hall and past the large doors into the throne room. it was empty in here except for the princess and twilight sparkle.
"twilight what did you want to talk to me about." said celestia. i was sure she would be able to tell if i was here but she couldn't
"it's about crimson princess." said twi.
"yes what about him."
"well when i saw him he said he had changed and met his... hid God he said."
"oh has he now." said the princess in a sarcastic sort of tone as if she didn't believe a word, she probably didn't
"he felt the same... just like before, and he still had the demon in him... but then he demonstrated his power and..." twilight paused.
"what happened..."asked the princess.
"well i just don't know... the energy i could feel on him was incomparable even..." she paused again.
"even what." said the princess growing slightly annoyed.
"even compared to you... the power he held was unreal and it was gone the second the demonstration ended..."
"are you saying he may have consumed more souls while he was gone." said the princess.
"he would have to have swallowed all of equestria and then some for that power... this came from something else..." twilight paused for a second, the princess was silent too. "princess... can i please go back to ponyville, i miss my friends and i hate doing this to crimson." she said.
wait did she just say she hated doing this to me. was she completely lying before. was she really my friend before. i need to know. i listened closely.
"i hated lying to him about not forgiving him and telling him it's his fault... i couldn't stand it and now i'm sure he hates me." said twilight.
"i know twilight and i intend to fix this... but we have to be careful. removing you from ponyville was necessary to make sure that he doesn't stray too far." said the princess.
"how does that keep him close." twilight said.
"because he will want to follow you here and get answers... now go twilight... he could be here soon." said the princess. twilight bowed and walked over to a door with her head hanging down low. as soon as she was gone i put my eyes on the princess.
she looked over through one of the windows. she looked at the beautiful afternoon sky for a minute, she let out a big sigh and kept staring out.
"oh celestia," she said. "what kind of mess have you made this time." she said. i took that as my cue and stopped the light from bending around me. i was visible again.
"a very impressive mess if any princess." i said. she seemed startled. she looked at me.
"i see you have gotten better at hiding... i didn't even sense your presence... how long have you been here." she asked.
"i heard everything that you and twilight said." i said, her eyes widened. "and i must say princess i'm a little disappointed in you... if you don't mind me asking what the big deal is to cause such... oh what's the word i'm looking for."
"civil restraint." she said.
"i was thinking more of unnecessary meddling." i said. "so tell me princess was that letter true, or was it a 'fabrication'" i said with air quotes. "would you really fight me... despite everything twilight has told you." i said "because i know twilight, she is my best friend and she doesn't lie when she isn't being forced to." i said.
"was that i direct challenge to the princess."
"i thought of it more as an inviting question." i said. "so princess i'm in you're castle... attack me." i said. she stood up and i walked forward.
"you are brave... but you're shadows will not withstand the light of the sun." she said.
"we'll see about that." i said.
"i guess we will." she said. her horn glowed, but she was interrupted by a door bursting open. it was twilight.
"princess no wait." she said. celestia's horn stopped glowing and she looked over to twilight."you can't fight him." she said.
"twilight i understand your concern for your friend but." twilight cut her off.
"no princess it's you... you can't fight him he is right... dash sent this letter to me... she has seen him speaking to his god she has even heard and spoke to him... he's not bluffing princess"...i started to laugh.
"princess how can the light of your sun compare to the divine power of god. i'm sorry princess but i have been gifted, and you have no idea the wonders i can do with god's power." i said.
"then prove them." she said. her horn glowed bright and a large beam of light fired from her horn. it covered me and started shaking the room. i felt no pain but instead absorbed her light and changed into my more powerful from, i hardened it into armour and robes. then finally the light stopped.
the princes opened her eyes and she was more than shocked. i looked around and the rest of the throne room was burnt and charred black, the drapes were on fire and the ground was red hot, yet i was fine. i laughed at her hopelessness. i closed my eyes.
when i opened them they glowed bright and a column of light erupted from the ground below me and fired straight through the roof. it started twisting and pulling in any rubble on the ground. i eventually shook the room and tore the roof off of the castle. i watched as the rubble and debris swirled around the column of light.
the princess and twilight stared too. twilight eyes were wide open and full of tears. the princess's eyes were wide open but full of disbelief. the expressions on their faces was absolutely priceless.
soon enough the column started pulling in the clouds, and even the sky. the blue color of the sky started to fade from the center of the light to the outside. i faded and you could see the universe, the planets and stars... it was beautiful. i looked forward and walked from the light.
i spread my wings out and they released a flurry of embers that fluttered around me. the halo above my head became visible once i was out of the light. every step i took made the ground crack. light shone through the cracks that were behind me and the column of light remained where it was.
i eventually made only yards away from the throne. there i stopped and stared into the eyes of celestia. never before have i seen such uncertainty and the best part was that it was coming from the princess. there was nothing more i could ask but that everything be turned back to normal.
the pillar of swirling light behind me faded and swirled into the air. the clouds stopped spinning and the blue hue of the sky slowly returned and filled in the void. the debris fell to the ground and created a pile behind us. as i stood in one place the cracks of light on the ground spread through the throne room slowly.
i looked into celestia's eyes and saw an entire field of emotions, awe, sadness, regret, hate, anger, vile despite her stature. she was close to being in the heat of battle and i was already there. she took her eyes from the sky and looked down at me. to say that she was staring at me would be an understatement. she stared through me and around the world and then back at me. i knew not to take her lightly.
this could only end in one way. like the final clash to most stories it all begins with the stare down and then the battle. the battle could only end in one way. one person would win.
and the other would perish.
