Bella's POV
How can one conversation ruin so much, when it was supposed to slowly fix everything?
"Earth to Bella" Alice said with a frown.
Her fingers snap in front of my face.
I look up; we're still sitting in the food court.
"Where did everyone go?" I asked emotionless.
"They are waiting for us in Staples, you zoned out again"
"Sorry" I frowned, getting up from the seat.
"When are you two going to fix this?" Alice asks quietly as we walk towards Staples.
"When we're ready" I whispered.
"He's ready" Alice said. "Bella, it's been two weeks. You two don't even look at each other anymore"
Tears filled my eyes.
"Can't you just talk to him?" Alice whispered sadly.
"I have nothing to say"
We walked through the doors to Staples where everyone was waiting for us.
"I'm going to Barnes and Nobles" I announced to no one in particular.
I turned without looking at anyone. I spent an hour in the bookstore before I was happy with the books I had chosen. I had picked out a 7 part series, Harry Potter. It was supposed to be good, good enough that they made it into movies. I just couldn't get them when they came out.
I looked at my phone, surprised that Alice hadn't texted me that they were done. Then again, knowing Alice they were at another store. I walked through the mall without looking up, until I bumped into someone.
"Sorry" I said quickly, looking up.
There was a huge smile plastered on his face.
"Hey Bella"
"Hey Jordan" I said in surprise. "What are you doing here?"
"I'm supposed to be shopping for school stuff. I waited till the last minute like always." He laughed as we walked towards the parking lot.
"My family did too" I laughed. "They were in Staples a little while ago"
"So where's your boyfriend?" Jordan asked when we got to my car.
I tossed the bag into the passenger seat because there was no space in my trunk.
I looked up at him in confusion.
"Edward" He trailed off in a confused tone.
"Oh" I said. "He's umm; we urm" I was at a loss for words.
We didn't officially break up, but we obviously aren't together. Not that Jordan needs to know that.
"He is your boyfriend, right?" Jordan asked, hopefully.
"Kind of" I said.
"Kind of, like how we were?" Jordan asked, waving his eye brows suggestively.
"No" I said with a blush and a small smile.
"We didn't break up, but we aren't talking" I said honestly, with a fake 'don't care' shrug.
"So you aren't together" Jordan concluded happily.
"I don't want what we used to have anymore. If that's what you want then, well, you have the wrong one" I said, straight to the point.
"Someone's changed" Jordan teased.
I shrugged. "Can't we just be friends?" I asked.
"Sure"
"No benefits" I added.
"I know" Jordan pouted.
I laughed. "Well I'm going home"
"Is that an invitation?"
"Esme is home"
"Your mother, for all intents and purposes?" Jordan asked.
I nodded.
"Well as friends we should be able to go to each other's houses" Jordan said.
I had a feeling he was thinking like friends with benefits, but ignored the thoughts. I knew how to say no; I think.
"You're right" I said. "Come on"
Jordan got in the passenger's seat and put of rap music as I drove. I laughed as he rapped along to the song.
"You're such a dweeb" I said I parked in the garage.
"Say the one with a huge bag full of books" He retorted.
I laughed. "Touché"
I grabbed the bag, but left the other bags in the trunk. I didn't notice until I unlocked the front door that Esme's car was missing.
"Are we going to your room?" Jordan asked suggestively.
"Yeah" I said. "But if you can't handle it we can stay in the living room"
"I've handled it before" He flirted.
"That is not what I meant" I said with a blush.
"I know, I know" Jordan said as we got to the third floor.
"Whose rooms are on this floor?" Jordan asked, hiding his awe for the house's size.
"That one is Edward's" I said pointing. "And this one is mine" I said opening the door.
"And what about a bathroom?"
"We have our own" I said. "Make yourself at home."
"Well at home I like to chill in my boxers"
"Not that at home than" I said, rolling my eyes.
He just laughed and sat on my bed. We goofed around for a while. Then we wrestled and it was fun. We were breathing heavily by the time we were done.
"Let me take you back to the mall" I said. "You are a good friend"
"You are too" Jordan laughed loudly.
I blushed and stuck my tongue out as we made our way downstairs. I ran my hand through my hair to tame it as we hit the first floor and the front door opened. Jordan froze, goofy grin still on his face, I froze too in surprise.
Rosalie and Emmett looked at us with wide eyes, Alice's expression quickly turned into a glare, and Jasper just backed out slowly. But Edward, the color drained from his face and all emotion went with it.
"We'll talk when I get back" Edward didn't look like he heard me. "Jordan, let's go"
I reached back and grabbed Jordan's shirt. We practically had to push our way out of the house. Jordan laughed as soon as we were out of the house.
"I'm screwed" I mumbled with a frown.
"Why?" He asked as we got in the car and I pulled off.
"They probably think we had sex because we were home alone and we were breathing heavy and, it just looked bad."
"I thought you said umm Esme was home" Jordan said.
"I thought she was, but when we got there her car wasn't there"
"She we had all that time to-"
I looked over at Jordan. "Do you know how to be just friends with a girl?" I asked looking back in front of me.
"Not one as hot as you"
I rolled my eyes, but couldn't stop the blush.
Jordan tried to kiss me when I parked next to his car, but I turned so he kissed my cheek.
"Cullen really has changed you. I don't like it" Jordan said with a frown.
I smirked and waved before pulling off. I hoped the hour drive to the mall and then the hour drive back home gave everyone time to cool off. I parked in front of the house but once again left the bags in the car. Esme and Carlisle's cars were still missing (thank goodness).
I walked in quietly.
"What the fuck Bella" I heard before I even closed the house door.
I looked at the stairs and at a very angry pixie.
"Uh, hi Alice" I said slowly, with a small smile.
"Don't you dare smile at me! What were you thinking?"
"Oh god," I said, rolling my eyes. "Maybe the short temper thing runs through the Mason blood"
Alice looked at me with a very red face.
"Where is Esme?" I asked.
It was almost dinner time and I would cook if she was going to be home late.
"Were you asking that when you were cheating on my brother?" Alice half yelled.
I looked at her for a second before brushing past her and going to my room. I made a show of slamming my door loudly. I lie on my bed and shake my head at everyone. Did Edward really believe I cheated on him? I mean he couldn't, I told him I loved him. I should go talk to them, tell them nothing happened, but I shouldn't have to explain myself to anyone. Jordan and I didn't sleep together so I don't care. Everyone can think what they want!
I closed my eyes and let myself drift off. I was woken up by knocking on my door.
"Come in" I said tiredly.
"We ordered Chinese and got you shrimp fried rice with boneless rib tips, I hope you don't mind" Rosalie said.
"It's fine."
"Well it's here" She said with a smile.
"You seem to be to the only person that wasn't affected by earlier"
Rosalie looked at me for a second without speaking. "Why was he here?" She said finally.
"He wanted to come over, as friends." I said honestly. "I didn't know Esme wasn't home"
"So you guys didn't-"
"No" I said seriously. "Definitely not. Went there once and don't plan on going back."
Rosalie sighed in relief. "I didn't know what to think. I mean I didn't think you did but I wasn't sure. It looked pretty bad. Your hair was messy, and he was smiling, and you were both breathing heavily."
"We were wrestling actually" I laughed. "I know that me and Edward aren't talking right now. But I think I'm doing the right thing about it. And I really do love him." I said with a frown.
"I know you do. No one else would put up with his BS if they didn't."
"It doesn't look like I'm doing too well about putting up with it either"
"Well, as long as you're doing what you think is right" Rosalie trailed off as we walked down stairs.
"I don't know what to think anymore"
We made it to the first floor and towards the living room. Who would've thought I could talk to talk to anyone about this, especially Rose? Everyone sat in the living room except Esme and Carlisle; and of course Rosalie whom was next to me. Emmett and Jasper didn't look at me. Edward was looking in the opposite direction from me. Alice was glaring daggers at me. Suddenly I wasn't very hungry any more.
"Can you stop looking at me like I killed your puppy?" I said rudely to Alice, folding my arms and glaring back at her.
If possible, her glare got angrier.
"Really Bella" She started.
I put my hand up, cutting her off. "I don't need to explain myself to you. Edward" I paused nervously. "Can we talk?"
After a few long moments I thought he wasn't going to answer. Until finally "I don't want to talk"
I looked at the back of his head with wide eyes. His tone was empty, uncaring.
"Well we need to talk"
"No we don't" He said angrily. "I have nothing to say to you"
"I have something to say to you" I said. "Can we do this privately?"
He got up and walked towards me. I was shocked. His glare was darker than Alice's, and definitely scarier.
"I don't want to hear it" He said angrily.
His arm bumped into mine as he walked by me. I stumbled back from the force and tears swam in my eyes.
"You deserve it" Alice said when Edward went upstairs.
Her voice was softer, but it just made me angrier.
"I didn't have sex with him" I said angrily. "It's fucked up that you are supposed to be my best friend but you think I'm really that big of a slut. I love Edward and wouldn't have done that to him"
Tears fell from my eyes. Alice looked up with wide eyes as Jasper nodded, probably confirming that I was telling the truth. I turned and walked straight out the front door and went to my car. I grabbed my keys from my pocket and drove away as Alice ran out the front door.
The sun was almost fully set, so the little bit of sunlight left was making my vision worse than the tears were. I had been driving around for a while when I heard my phone ring. I jumped in surprise because I thought it was home. I slowed down and looked in the passenger's seat, barely seeing the phone on the floor. I reached over but the car swerved. I jumped up and pulled over.
Alice
I hit ignore and started driving again. I drove until it was pitch black outside. My phone kept ringing, and it was really starting to annoy me. I reached over and put it on silent. I drove until my eyes started to droop, and even then I didn't stop. After a while I pulled over and out of the street. My radio clock said that it was 12:55AM. I should go home; I should have been home hours ago. I don't want to go home though.
With that thought I took the keys out of the ignition and stared forward. A few cars were passing, people living vampire lives. Maybe they couldn't sleep. Maybe they were running too, how many people were out right now, running from their problems? Was there anyone else out there that chose running over fixing it? Or was it just me?
I looked over at the radio, but it was off. Of course it was; the car isn't on.
Edward hates me… Tears blurred my vision again, making the little bit of light out here into blurry dots. No one should've assumed I was with Jordan! I grabbed my phone to check the time and saw 50 missed calls, 20 new messages. I looked at the time and saw that somehow time had slipped as I cried. It was 4:30AM. I don't know how far I am from home; I was driving for a few hours before I got here. I started the car and headed back in the direction I thought was home.
By the time I got home, the sun was high up in the sky, giving me a massive migraine. I realized that it was Wednesday, I had therapy today. I pulled in behind a cop car and automatically panicked. I fell out of the car in my rush to get out.
"What happened?" I asked as I ran through the front door.
"Bella" Esme cried.
She yanked me into a hug and cried on my shoulder.
"I was s-so worried ab-bout you! Why would you do this?"
I looked over her shoulder in confusion. A young cop was watching us. He reminded me of Charlie in the pictures of his first few days. Carlisle was a few feet away from him with red eyes. He said something to the cop and then the cop left.
I took Esme a few long minutes to calm down and let me go.
"Where were you?" She finally screamed.
I jumped and looked at her in surprise. Did she just yell at me?
"I was driving" I questioned.
"It is 1 o'clock! You have been gone for over 12 hours!"
Esme was pissed. I sighed and then frowned deeply.
"I'm sorry" I said finally.
Carlisle walked up to us. "I'm glad you're okay"
As he said this he held his hand out. I couldn't hide my confusion. Did he want to shake hands, maybe high-five?
"Keys" He said simply.
"What" I blanched.
"Car keys"
"Are you serious?"
Carlisle nodded. I was getting my car taken away.
"I should've just kept my truck" I seethed angrily.
"I can't allow you to think that disappearing whenever you want is okay. I'll give them back for school"
My earlier fatigue was quickly fading. I slammed my keys into his hand and rudely pushed my way past him and Esme. I paced angrily in my room. This is ridiculous!
Suddenly my phone rang out. I looked down and automatically recognized the number.
Monday Morning:
My alarm clock rang out loudly. My heart seemed to pound in my ears. I am running on an hour of sleep.
The last four days have been horrible! I've been in my room for the most part of them. Carlisle gave me my keys back just long enough for me to run my school stuff up into my room. Other than that I haven't gotten them back. Rosalie brought me my school supplies on Thursday. She asked me if I planned on talking to anyone soon. And I told her no. I didn't want to talk to anyone. I came out of my room for dinner and that's it. That seemed to anger Carlisle, but at least I was eating.
I was ready to go by 7:30. I grabbed my bag, my iPod, and my cell phone before leaving my room. I went straight to the kitchen and saw Carlisle drinking coffee and reading the paper.
"Can I get my keys?" I said with a glare.
"I want you to eat breakfast before you go, you have enough time" Carlisle said, giving me a pointed look from over is paper.
"Well I'm not hungry" I said angrily.
"Eat" Was all he said.
"No" I said back. I didn't care if I was being rude at this point. I just wanted to get my first day over with.
"Isabella I will not tolerate the level of disrespect you have shown for the past few days in my own home" Carlisle said seriously, finally putting his paper down and giving me his full attention.
"Then I'll leave" I said angrily.
I spun on my heel. I was dead serious! I stalked out the house without my keys. The ride to school was 20 minutes, so the walk would be like… I tried to figure it out in my head as started walking but I was sure it would take at least an hour.
"Get in" I looked up and saw Rosalie in her car next to me.
I had been walking for 10 minutes, at most. I frowned and got in the car without a word. I was surprised she was alone.
"Where's Emmett?" I said with barely any volume.
"He rode with Edward" She gave me a sideways glance. "Are you alright Bella?"
I didn't answer right away. "I'm fine"
We pulled into the parking lot. I could see Edward's Volvo and Alice's Porsche from here.
"Bella, I mean are you really okay?"
I looked at her. "Just normal Bella"
"No, you seem a little off, even for you."
"Thanks for coming to my rescue" I said with a sigh.
I got out the car without answering the question. To be honest, I didn't know the answer to that question. I am just so angry. I am angry at everything and everyone. I don't even know why anymore. I don't care about the car, I don't care about Jordan, I don't care about anything right now.
I had the door fully closed before I saw it. Tanya was at Edward's car and they were talking. He looked serious, but she smiled and touched his arm. Then she leaned up and kissed him. Edward didn't react. I think it was his lack of reaction that pushed me over the edge.
I hit the floor, hard, and the tears I didn't know I'd been fighting finally broke free.
I really have ruined everything.
A/N: This chapter didn't seem to have any purpose. I am very disappointed in it actually I most definitely feel like Bella SMH. It does set motions for the next chapter though. I hope the double chapter made up for the wait. The time may be confusing so just for the record they haven't really spoken in 3 weeks. I think I'll do Edward's POV next.
