Chapter 48
Remus' stomach was knotted as he sat on the floor in the abandoned classroom. He liked this room. Nobody ever used it and it felt like a safe place to him. He had missed it if he was honest with himself. He had been stupid to return home for the Christmas holiday.
Of course his parents had written to him and in the end he had relented and agreed. But the entire time he had thought about being here. It had been so much harder to get hold of alcohol at home. That would surprise most people but he knew the passages out of the school.
He had of course been sneaking sherry from his mother's cupboard, a bit of whisky from his father but for the most part it had been a sober Christmas. He couldn't remember going that long without alcohol since Ginny's death. It hadn't helped that his parents had wanted to talk about that with him. See how he was.
It was a good thing that he was use to hiding things from people. They could tell he was upset and still getting over it. But they had no idea what he was resorting too. He had counted down to New Year when they would allow him some of the nettle wine. It wasn't as good as Fire Whisky but it was something to help him.
Then the days had passed slowly. January 4th had marked his return to Hogwarts. He had felt so happy yesterday to crawl into this room with his drink and get trashed. He knew that his friends had hoped that he would have lost that urge over Christmas but it had increased.
And now today he was back in that room with his drinks. He knew that the boys had expected him to spend the evening with them but he couldn't bring himself too. Today he was a man, today he turned seventeen. And all he wanted to do was curl up in a corner and die. He hated it.
Nobody had had any celebrations for their birthdays this year. It was dark times now. Nobody wanted to celebrate without Ginny and he felt the twice as much as the others. This birthday was going to be something special. He would have enjoyed an evening with his friends and his girlfriend. They would have joked and laughed about his coming of age.
He had received presents from them all and had thanked them. But as was the case now he just wanted to be on his own. He couldn't help but wonder if there would ever be a birthday he would look forward to again. Maybe this would be his worse birthday. And yet somehow he doubted that. With everything that was coming this was likely to be the first of so many bad years to come.
I know this is really short but I forgot about Remus' birthday so I've added it in. I was going to put it was chapter 55 which would have made this very different. But I realised that by that point his birthday has already passed. So I know its short but that's because Remus doesn't want to celebrate it. But to make up for that you get two chapters. So enjoy.
Another important note!
As you all know I will be away ALL of July. That means no post. So I've decided that while I'm away I'm going to leave you with chapter 51. This chapter is 26 pages long in size 10 font. Thing is that's only 3 chapters away. So I'm not going to post another chapter of this this week. Next week is my best friends wedding, I'm hoping to post chapter 49 maybe next Wednesday in the middle of the hectic run about. The following week I shall post chapter 50. And then on June 29th I will post chapter 51. That is because that is the date that I leave.
I just wanted to say that now so that you know why there have been so many updates lately and then hardly anything before nothing. I think that chapter 51 is a good place to leave it because there is no cliffy and it rounds up a lot of the plots line that have gone before, and the new plot lines won't have started yet (there are some good ones coming up)
OH and to answer one question that kept coming up…
FRANK AND ALICE ARE OFFICIALLY BACK TOGETHER
So enjoy
Kris xx
