JJ's leg was twitching as she waited nervously outside the cafe. Thankfully for her nerves, she didn't have to wait long. If Emily was surprised to see her, she didn't show it as she took the seat opposite her. Their eyes met and the blonde passed her a large envelope across the table. Their fingers brushed briefly but deliberately against each other.
"Passports from three countries and a bank account in each one to keep you comfortable"
"Thank you"
"Good luck"
Emily slid the envelope into her bag and stood up, leaving a solemn JJ sat in her seat. It took a few minutes for the blonde to look back at the place where Emily had been sat. And it was only then that she noticed the serviette that had been left behind. On it was scribbled a number and what she believed to be the name of a hotel in a very familiar handwriting. For the first time that day, the heavy feeling in her stomach finally began to ease and was replaced by a fluttering sensation.
She pocketed the serviette and pulled out her cell - another disposable, of course - and googled the words that Emily had written. As expected, it was a hotel three streets away. She quickly deleted the search history before gathering her things and heading in the direction that the map had indicated as quickly as was possible without drawing attention to herself.
Upon reaching the hotel, she mentally commended Emily for her choice. It was beautiful, but understated. Certainly not the first place anyone would be looking for her. She could feel her heart starting to race as she climbed the stairs and reached the door marked with the number that had been scribbled on the serviette. Lifting a shaky hand, she knocked on the door and was unsurprised when it was opened almost immediately.
"Hey" Emily greeted her softly, stepping back to let her into the room and closing the door behind them.
"Hi"
"I wasn't sure..." The brunette took a deep breath "I wasn't sure you'd come"
"You knew it'd be me making the drop though?"
Emily nodded "I knew you wouldn't walk away from being my handler, regardless of how much you were hurting"
"And yet you questioned whether I'd come here?"
"I guess...I just wanted the choice to be yours"
"Believe me, I'm here of my own free will"
JJ stepped forwards, a clear invasion of Emily's personal space but the brunette made no attempt to back away. She reached out, slowly letting her fingertips brush over Emily's cheek and down to her lips.
"I had to bury you, you know" the blonde said quietly, her fingers remaining in contact with Emily's face "I had to lay a flower on your coffin"
"Jen, I'm so..."
"Ssh" JJ covered the brunette's lips with her fingers "I didn't come here for an apology. You had no choice in the matter. I came here to remind myself that you're alive"
Emily grabbed the blonde's wrist, pulling her hand away from her mouth while simultaneously stepping into her and crashing their lips together. She exhaled deeply through her nose as she swallowed the moan that JJ emitted.
Everything else disappeared - the months apart, the anguish, the fear - as they clung to each other desperately, every kiss a frantic attempt to connect on an unprecedented level. The kisses were imperfect, untidy and at times rough, but they said more than words ever could. Nails dug in and scratched at any bare skin that either woman could find as each of them sought to lose themselves in the other.
JJ could feel herself being manoeuvred backwards and made no attempt to resist. She grunted as the back of her leg clipped an unknown piece of furniture, but didn't break the kiss until she she found herself being guided down onto what she realised was the bed. She looked up at Emily, her eyes darkened and breathing heightened. Pulling the brunette's body close, she lifted her shirt and began to place languid kisses across her toned abdomen.
Emily groaned and tangled her hands in the blonde's hair to encourage her further. JJ took the hint and popped the button on her pants before letting her tongue dip beneath her waistband. The brunette removed her own shirt and cast it aside, whimpering at the combination of cold air hitting her torso and the feeling of JJ's warm mouth on her skin.
The sense of urgency that the blonde felt was almost overwhelming. She raked her nails over the exposed skin as her mouth moved desperately, seeking almost to devour the woman that she'd missed so much. She tugged further at Emily's pants, causing her to groan.
"Off" JJ instructed huskily "I want these off"
Emily swallowed and backed off slightly to remove her pants and underwear. As she stepped back into the blonde's reach, she found herself being pulled onto the bed by the back of her thighs.
As Emily followed the physical instruction, JJ lay herself down on her back, encouraging the brunette to climb up her body. By the time Emily's knees were either side of her head, the blonde was whimpering at the familiar scent.
"God I've missed this" she breathed, gripping the brunette's thighs to bring her centre down to meet her mouth.
"Fuck!" Emily cried out at the moment that she felt the heat from JJ's mouth against her.
JJ's tongue went into overdrive and she had no hesitation in refamiliarising herself with the brunette's body. With every swirl of her tongue she could feel Emily's hips grinding down against her. She sucked gently on her clit before straightening her tongue and pressing it up and inside the brunette.
"Jen..." Emily panted, falling forwards onto her elbows as she failed to hold up her own weight.
The blonde moaned into Emily's centre at the sensation of the brunette effectively riding her face. She dug her fingers into the perfect thighs as her tongue sought to cover every inch that it could reach. The air was filled with the sounds of Emily's desperate cries as she thrust herself against JJ's mouth - desperate for the release that she'd been seeking, but at the same time, desperate for this moment to never end.
"Fuck...I'm...I don't...fuck..."
Any protest from the brunette turned into a moan as she felt JJ suck her clit into her mouth and flick her tongue over it. She clutched wildly at the bed as her whole body was engulfed in heat.
JJ was relentless, her tongue continuing it's ministrations until she was satisfied that she had drawn every last shiver of pleasure out of the brunette. Even as Emily whimpered vaguely that she couldn't take any more, JJ softened her movements to place the softest of kisses over the brunette's clit, tears building in her eyes as she did.
Emily for her part was also fighting back tears. Only when she was confident that she had them under control did she manoeuvre herself off of JJ and slide down the bed so that they were face to face.
"Hi" she said softly, reaching out to stroke a finger down the curve of JJ's cheek.
JJ swallowed, unable to stop the tears that were trickling down her face.
"I...I feel it too, Jen"
"I love you"
JJ's words hung in the air. They were raw, leaving no layer of protection for her heart that was already clearly hurting. Emily cupped her face softly and leant down, kissing her tenderly by way of reply. As she tried to lift her head away, she was held in place by a hand pressing on her back, and thus the kiss continued. Their tongues brushed against each other, and Emily moaned softly at the taste of herself on JJ's mouth. She let her hand glide over the blonde's stomach, but as it reached her waistband JJ covered the brunette's hand with her own.
"Just kiss me" JJ begged softly "kiss me, and hold me"
Emily nodded "I can do that"
She kissed the blonde again before shifting to lie on her back. Wordlessly, JJ rolled onto her side, tucking herself into the brunette by resting her head on her shoulder and draping an arm and a leg over her.
"I wish...I wish we could stay like this forever" JJ said quietly.
"You are my solace, my safety and my comfort. You're my home Jennifer. And I will do everything in my power to make sure I get to come home"
"You know the team aren't gonna let this go either"
Emily took a deep intake of breath as the heavy feeling in her stomach returned "How are they?"
"They're...ok, I guess. But it doesn't matter what instructions they're given, you know they're gonna go after Doyle"
"They wouldn't be them if they didn't. Hotch knows that"
"I'm sure he does. And I'm sure he'll turn a blind eye to whatever they're doing as much as possible"
Emily kissed the top of the blonde's head and pulled her closer "Ti amo, Jennifer"
"Em...promise me...promise me you'll still be here when I wake up"
"I promise. However hard it is, I would never leave without a goodbye. That's a promise for now and for always"
