Spencer's Pov
So today's the day of Aiden's and Kyla's wedding. So it's been a couple of days since the breakup of me and Ash. This is all hard. I had to put a lot of cover up on so people couldn't tell how puffy I was. Andy stayed at Ashley's new apartment last night so I was pretty lonely. Well not really I had Aiden I cuddled up to him. I needed someone. I'm glad I have him thru this. Were staying here and I see Kyla come down in isle she is so beautiful. The dress isn't that big. But really pretty. Strapless and with beads over it and had a little train but not that big. It's Kyla. It's pretty simple but that's Kyla, she pulls it off. And I see the look Aiden is giving Kyla, the same look Ash gave me when we got married. I just look at my beautiful girl who doesn't want anything to me. The same dress as me but she's beautiful. Her hair is half up and is curly. Love that look on her. The other day she came over and I didn't know she was coming over so when she came to toe door I pushed her and hit her again and she fell and hit her eye and I felt so bad. I'm never going to do that again. That day we told Andy we are taking a break, she didn't take it that well at all. She started yelling and crying and she ran into her room. She's only 2 ½ sometimes I feel like she is older. She acts older. She started talking really early. I just hope me and Ash can work things out so we can be a family again. It's going to be awhile because I don't even know if she wants me still and I don't know if I just want to walk back with open arms. I think if she wants me and wants our family to be whole I think she needs to work and make me feel she wants it. I can't handle anymore hurt from her. so now Kyla Davies is Kyla Dennison. They love each other. They are going to have a good live together. So here we are at the party after the wedding. I'm sitting alone at a table. I keep rubbing my belly because they keep kicking. It is beautiful here. At Hawaii. Ash and I got different rooms. Its so weird we always stay in the same room when we come here and neither of us are staying in the room. But everytime I pass it I always go up to the door and touch the number. This room has so many memories in it.
Ashley-how are you?
Spencer-I'm good I guess. You?
Ashley-I been better. How's our babies doing?
Spencer-good why?
Ashley-you been rubbing your belly most of the day
Spencer-oh. They been kicking a lot
Ashley-maybe they just miss me. Can I rub your belly?
Spencer-I guess (having her touch my belly makes me feel weird now after our big fight. It makes me just want to kiss her) oh god I have to pee so bad
Ashley-why?
Spencer-one of the babies are laying right on my blatter
Ashley-oh ok. I guess I'll see you later
Spencer-yea
I peed and I came back and I see Ashley and Andy are dancing. Its so cute. I grabbed my camera and I took a couple of pictures of them. She's the best mother ever. I just wish she would be a good wife like she use to be. I'm broken with out her. I know I'm being emo right now but when you loved someone so much and then things like this happens, it's like a part of you is missing.
Spencer-having fun Andy?
Andy-yea mommy I am. I mwssed you last night
Spencer-I missed you too (I kissed her on her forehead)
Andy-were you ok?
Spencer-I'm fine Andy. You don't need to worry about me
Andy-otay (she jumped out of Ashley's arms) you guys should dance. I'm going to see grmpa Rlf
Yea Ashley's dad is done with music so he moved back and now he's around a lot.
Ashley-want to dance?
Spencer-Ashley I don't think that's a good idea
Ashley-please Spence. It's only a dance
Spencer-ok
We are dancing and it was a fast song but it had to change into a slow song. Uhh so here we are dacing so close to each other. I look into her eyes and all I can see is sad. She looks broken like I do.
Ashley-what did Andy mean when she was asking if your ok?
Spencer-nothing
Ashley-didn't sound like nothing
Spencer-fine I'll tell you. Ever since we broke up all I been doing is crying and Andy sleeps with me to see if I'm ok
Ashley-oh. I been crying too but I didn't last night. I was just happy to hold my little girl again
Spencer-Ash I'm broken with out you (she did one thing I never thought she would ever do again. She kissed me) why did you do that?
Ashley-because I wanted to (I turned around and ran, I ran to my room. I just can't handle this)
Kyla-what did you do Ashley?
Ashley-I kissed her
Kyla-why did you do that?
Ashley-because I miss her ok? I know I fucked up. I need to make this right
Aiden-then go after her. show her you still loved her
Ashley'sPov
After what Aiden told me , I ran to Spencer's room. I need to fix this. I need to make everything ok. I just need Spencer. I got to her room. I know she's in here, and I know she is crying. God I'm a bitch sometimes.
Spencer-what are you doing here Ashley?
I didn't even answer her I just kissed her and she was kissing me back. We shut the door. I know she wants this, she is grabbing my ass so I know she misses this.
Spencer-we need to stop
Ashley-why? I know you liked it
Spencer-yea I do. But you know why (she sat down on the bed and I'm standing between her lags and I'm just looking into her sad eyes)
Ashley-I know I fucked up. But I want you. I want us
Spencer-now you do. But that day you didn't want me or us. You said mean things to me and I never thought you could ever say anything about me
Ashley-I cant. I was just so caught up in the fact that we were going to be step-sisters. I wasn't thinking about anything else. I will do anything to be with you again. The past couple of days have been so bad. I know all I need is you and our kids
Spencer-the past couple of days have been crappy for me too. I'm not going to let you back in. I love you Ashley and I always will. But you have to earn my love and trust again
Ashley-I will do anything Spence
Spencer-ok good. Can you please cuddle with me before we go down there?
Ashley-yes. I missed this
Spencer-me too
So were spooning and I'm behind her and I wrapped my arms around her belly and I keep rubbing it and I keep kissing her neck. God I missed this. I'm glad she is giving me a chance to make everything up to her. were just talking a little bit and she told me she went to our parents house well her dad's house. I guess our parents broke up. They got into a big fight and then they found out we broke up so they really couldn't be together. I guess they really didn't love each other like they thought they did. I really hope they find someone and be happy. Even tho my mom walked out on me when I was a kid I still want the best for her. having Spencer in my arms again is the best thing. I been really lonely.
Ashley-I will make everything right again Spence. I promise. I love you
Spencer-I know you will. I love you too
