Before I Knew


49. Alone

"We goin' to Honeydukes first?" Seamus asked as he pulled some of his money out of his trunk.

A look of guilt flashed across Dean's face. "Oh, um, actually I told Ginny I'd spend the day with her."

Seamus paused, surprised. He felt a little offended, but told himself that it was ridiculous to be offended. Ginny was Dean's girlfriend, of course he should go to Hogsmeade with her.

"…every Hogsmeade together, so I thought it'd be okay if this time – " Dean was saying as Seamus tuned back in.

"Yeah, it's fine," Seamus said, although his voice sounded funny to him. "I understand."

Dean smiled gratefully. "Thanks Shay," he said, then glanced at his watch. "Oh, I gotta go! See you later!"

Seamus was left in the dormitory, wondering what to do now.

He could find another friend to go with, but he really didn't have any friends aside from Dean. He got on with people well enough, but they weren't friends. He didn't know Fay and Ginger all too well, and Lavender and Parvati got on his nerves with their constant giggling if he was around them for very long. Harry, Ron, and Hermione were always off doing who knew what together. He'd just feel awkward if he tried to join them. Neville didn't like Hogsmeade very much, and he usually spent the time in the greenhouses as opposed to going down to the village. Seamus figured he could go down by himself, but he felt like that was pathetic, and then he decided that he really didn't want any Honeydukes candy after all.

So he sat on his bed and stared out the window, feeling – for the first time – very much alone.