I love losing myself in my inner world with Saimitsu. It is wonderful to watch the stars drift across the sky with the moon. Our sakura tree has grown quite large now and the roots can be seen growing into the bookshelves as well. They're much fuller than when I first found my way here. I enjoy seeing all the books here, it's almost as if I have my own private library with me at all times.
We sat by the river for hours. The moonlight caught the ripples as the water ran over the rocks. I read some of the newer books where my soul had written my deepest emotions while we rested there. I'm getting fairly used to confronting my emotions. Considering how conscious I am of keeping my emotions to myself, none of these new books surprised me. I am quite aware of every one of my emotions, since I find it easier to know what it is in order to keep it from being written all over my face.
After a while, Saimitsu brought out the steel fan. He wanted me to look at the engravings. The fan consisted of 32 separate panels, organized as eight groups of four. The first group focused on the delicate sun hanging in the sky while the last group balanced it with the moon. The center eight panels focused on the sakura tree, but it was fairly clear that one side was blossoming while fading into the fully leaved tree of the summertime in the middle and leaves drifting off in the second half. In between the sun and the spring side of the tree, there was the first flower of the season on hills that rolled over into the next group with a quiet stream and then transitioned into the tree. The fall side of the sakura tree faded into the windy plains in the next group The panels before the moon depicted a thunderstorm with a streak of lighting. Truly, Saimitsu's shikai is a work of art.
I think Kyouraku taicho would enjoy my soul scape. He would say poetic things about the moon and the sakura tree and the books and how they are "very befitting of kawaii Nanao-chan." This would be someplace that he would lay out his silly pink haori on the ground and watch the stars go by too, I noted that book that Kyouraku taicho gave me is there now. I would say that it is out of place due to its significantly aged appearance but there is a new book that sits next to it. Well, new in its presence there, but as old as the gift from Taicho, if not older. I tried opening it but it felt as if there was a large weight keeping it shut. I consulted Saimitsu on the issue and he repaid mysteriously "Nanao, you will only be able to read that book when you already know what is in it." In all honestly, I believe that is foolish. Why have a book where you know everything in it before you read it? Why would you read it then? I guess I will have to be patient and search for an opportunity to learn what is in that ancient book.
A/N: Ever have a day when you saw a ridiculous number of blue cars? that was yesterday for me...But on topic, let me know if there is anything that you'd like to see Nanao exploring, or day to day things she might address in her journal, or reactions to various things. While I do have plenty of ideas, some of them may change depending on the results of the Winter War. Plus you guys have been wonderful already in providing feedback. Sorry if I don't always respond to them, but I promise I read them all. Some of them have actually been very inspiring.
