A/N- Ooh an update, I'm so ready for Thanksgiving break lol. Or at the very least Christmas break, good times, before I get ahead of myself heres a couple chapters.
Chapter 54
Harry smiled as they flooed to the Leaky Cauldron, holding onto Snape as they landed and making sure his scar was hidden. He giggled, knowing that gesture was pointless as they were under glamour charms and potions. Snape had said that if Harry had gone as himself, then he would have had to mean to him in public and Harry didn't want that. So they compromised, though because of that he wasn't meeting the Weasleys. Harry shrugged as they made their way to Gringotts, fingering the money pouch around his neck.
"Are we getting money from my vault?" Harry asked curiously as they walked inside.
"No, we're getting it from mine. Yours is off limits until you become of age," Severus explained quietly.
"What do you mean? How will I pay for my clothes and books? What if I need spending money? Dad, what am I supposed to do then?" Harry asked eyes welling in angry and confused tears.
"Relax child, I have taken over the role of your parent. Everything you could ever need, or want for that matter I will pay for it." Severus answered calmly.
"But kids are expensive, and I have my own money."Harry said ignoring the fact that Snape had been paying for his things all summer.
He understood that because they were in the muggle world and Harry didn't have muggle money, but now that they were back in the wizarding world he didn't want to seem like he was spending up all the man's money.
"Harry, it's all taken care of. Did your cousin ever pay for anything of his things?" Severus asked quietly, wanting more than anything to have a few moments with the Durselys.
"No. but that's only because he has parents and they loved him, I don't have that." Harry said without thinking.
Severus frowned, willing his self not to take offence; waiting for the apology that he knew would come once Harry realized what he had said.
Harry was staring at the ground wondering why Snape hadn't replied, when he realized what he had just said. He didn't mean it like that; he knew that Snape loved him. He shook his head angrily, feeling like a spoiled brat. If the man didn't love him he wouldn't have bought him everything he wanted, he wouldn't have spent all that time with him and he wouldn't have told him that he loved him. Harry shook his head before looking cautiously up at the man.
"I didn't mean that daddy," he whispered tearfully.
"Enough Harry lets go get some galleons," Severus said quietly as they followed the goblin to his vault.
As the exited the bank Harry was fairly quiet feeling like he had already ruined the day. He was looking at the ground not saying a word, willing his stupid tears to stay where they were. He sniffled softly before wiping his hand across his face at the ones that had fallen. He always messed up and he hated himself for it.
"It's alright Harry," Severus said as he handed him a handkerchief as they entered Madam Malkin's robe shop.
Harry mopped up his face as they entered holding tightly to the handkerchief as he was measured for new robes and clothes for the school year. He couldn't keep his gaze from glancing every so often at the man in the chair. The irrational part of his brain was coming up with scenarios in which Snape up and left him in the shop. He sighed in relief when she was done before walking back to him.
After, they headed to the Apothecary where Snape took a long time looking at things to the point where Harry was actually bored to sleep. He sighed softly before sitting on the floor out of the way and resting his head on his knees. He realized he had dozed off when he felt himself get picked up.
"Are we done now?" He asked sleepily.
"We still need your books, but we can get that after lunch." Severus replied.
"When is lunch?" Harry asked, his stomach already growling in protest.
"Right now, if anything it will wake you up," Severus replied chuckling as he headed to the Leaky Cauldron.
Harry nodded in Snape's shoulder the back of his mind vaguely noting that his bladder was nudging him. It wasn't bad, just a bit uncomfortable but he was too comfortable where he was to speak up at the moment.
Severus led the way to a booth in the back where they wouldn't be disturbed before sitting down with Harry on his lap.
"Are you awake enough to sit on your own or are you good here?" Severus asked quietly.
"I wanna sit across from you," Harry said tiredly, as he tried to wake up.
Severus nodded before gently nudging Harry up so he could sit down.
"What do you feel like eating?"Severus asked as they looked at the menu.
"Can I have hamburger?" Harry asked his head jerking back as he tried to stay awake.
"Yes, did you want chips too?" Severus asked.
"And pumpkin juice," Harry said nodding.
"Of course," Severus replied before ordering their food.
Harry laid his head on the table, as he bounced his legs. When their drinks came he took a long gulp from the refreshing beverage and was reminded when the coldness settled into his stomach that he needed the toilet. He turned around they weren't that far from the loo but the place was kinda packed and he didn't want to lose their table. He nodded, thinking he could go alone.
"Dad, I gotta wee," Harry said quietly.
"Uh alright, it's right over there. Let's go," Severus said as he made his way to get up.
"No its ok, I can go by myself," Harry said quickly, ignoring the scared feeling in his stomach.
"Are you sure Harry?" Severus asked carefully.
"Yes," Harry answered before making his way into the loo.
Harry was aware of his father's eyes on him as he made his way to the door. He took a deep breath before walking in and groaned. It was a long line and they only had urinals, all of the stalls were out of order. As he stood in line, someone pushed him from behind and his frame shook. He couldn't do this, what the hell was he thinking? He needed Snape; Harry quickly got out of line and made his way to the exit.
Severus was watching the door carefully, making note of everyone who entered in after Harry. He wasn't at ease in the slightest and he breathed a sigh of relief when he saw him emerge from the toilet, until he realized that it was to short of time for him to have gone.
"Did you go Harry?" Severus asked quietly.
"I thought I had to go, but I couldn't," Harry said partly true as he took his seat.
"What do you mean?" Severus asked confused.
"I tried to go, but nothing came out," Harry said softly.
"Oh I understand Harry, it was a false alarm then," Severus said knowingly as their food came.
Harry nodded before digging into his food, pushing his bladder to the back of his brain as he ate lunch. He enjoyed his juice and even the taste of Snape's butterbeer. As he finished his food he was reminded almost instantly when he stood up and crossed his legs. He glanced back at the toilet but shook his head and quickly followed Snape. As they paid for their food, Snape led the way to the bookstore.
"Did you bring your list Harry?" Severus ask, not needing but knowing Harry liked feeling like he could get his own things.
"It's here," Harry replied shifting his feet as he held up the paper.
"Alright let's go get them," Severus said leading the way.
"Can we visit the Quidditch shop after?" Harry asked quietly.
"Of course, you've been good today," Severus replied as they started down the aisles.
Harry smiled happily as they started looking for the books; his bladder was constantly on his mind at the moment and he found himself dancing to hold it all back. As he grabbed his Transfiguration book, he turned around to hand it to Snape only to find the man gone.
"Dad, where are you?" Harry called, turning into a whole circle in case the man was behind him.
He sighed, not knowing what to do, but he had read that if you get lost it was better to stay in one place then to move. Even though he was in the bookstore, he stayed where he was. Harry whimpered before grabbing his crotch tightly as a wave of desperation nearly overcame him. He looked around with frightened eyes not wanting to wet his trousers in the store, even though no one would recognize him due to the glamour.
"Harry child do you need the loo?" Severus asked, coming from around the corner with a potions book.
"Where did you go?" Harry asked his hand not moving from its position as he turned to look at the man.
"To get your potions book, and a few things I needed. Harry you didn't answer my question; did you need the loo?" Severus asked again.
"Yes." Harry replied honestly. "I thought you left me," Harry said softly.
"I would never do that child; let's go pay for this so I can take you to the loo." Severus said having already grabbed the other books as they headed to the front of the store.
"I gotta go badly," Harry whimpered.
"Just hold on for a moment Harry while I pay for this," Severus replied as they stacked the books on the counter.
Harry nodded and bounced up and down as he waited for Snape to finish. He moaned and stilled when he felt a leak escape his tight grip and tears sprung into his eyes.
"It's coming out Daddy," Harry said softly.
"Hold it," Severus said firmly as he waited for the shop clerk to ring up their items. He had noticed that the clerk was going fairly fast, so he could only assumed that he saw their dilemma.
Harry bent his legs together before bending over at the waist. He looked around for a moment trying to see if there was a toilet in here but couldn't see any from where he was.
"Daddy," Harry cried tearfully as he more or less marched in pace.
"One second," Severus said grabbing the bag of books as he waited for his change.
"Please hurry," Harry pleaded frantically.
Severus grabbed his change and shrunk the bag quickly before taking Harry's hand and walking out the store. Well he noticed that Harry had more of bent over shuffled walk going on.
"We're going back to the Leaky Cauldron. Did you want me to carry you?" Severus asked never slowing their pace down.
Harry nodded before sniffling as he looked up at his father's dark gaze.
Severus gently lifted Harry up and walked quicker towards the pub. He could feel Harry squirming a lot in his arms and he hoped that he would make it in time.
"Almost there Harry, just hold on 3 more minutes or so," Severus said as he neared the pub.
Harry mumbled into his dad's shoulder unable to keep still for a moment. He closed his eyes tight and stiffened as he lost a 2 second spurt but it felt like a lot more to him.
"Daddy, I'm leaking," Harry whispered fearfully. He was afraid Snape was gonna drop him because Harry was technically peeing on him.
"Just a few more minutes," Severus said sighing in relief as he opened the door to the restaurant which had gotten a bit fuller due to the lunch hour.
Severus maneuvered his way around the crowd as he made his way towards the loo. He stopped just outside the door when he realized that the line ended there. He frowned before looking at Harry.
"The line is too long; do you wanna just floo home?" Severus asked.
"But I thought we were gonna visit the Quidditch shop?" Harry asked, through his desperation you could hear disappointment in his tone.
Severus smirked; leave it to Harry to be worried about the Quidditch store in his desperation.
"We will floo back I promise," Severus replied quickly.
"Then let's go home," Harry whimpered as he lost a 3 second spurt. He froze in his father's arm unsure if the man had felt it. He could feel it dripping down his legs and he grimaced at the warm wetness.
Severus resisted the urge to give the warning like he did earlier this summer. He didn't want pee on him but he knew that Harry was obviously losing control and he didn't wanna make him feel worse than how he already felt. He grimaced slightly before school his face to blank, refusing to think on what the wetness on his arm was. Placing the galleons in the cup he grabbed the floo powder and disappeared in the flames. He landed effortlessly in the sitting room of the manor where he immediately started making his way to the closest toilet.
"Put me down Dad," Harry whimpered in his father's shoulder as his bladder contracted from the sudden shock of them landing in the house.
"We are almost there child," Severus said quickening his pace as he headed for the downstairs loo.
"It's no use Daddy, please let me down," Harry said choking on a sob as his bladder released itself.
Severus stopped suddenly when he felt Harry completely relax in his arms and a moment later the splattering sound of liquid hitting the floor was heard. He sighed softly as he held his wetting child as he waited for him to finish.
Harry bawled into the man's shoulder unable to stop the flow. That wasn't the most humiliating part; he had just wet himself while his father was holding him. What would Snape think of him now? Would he have regrets for keeping him? Harry shuddered twice as his bladder slowly emptied itself. Though he was afraid he was so very relieved.
Severus waiting until the only sound was little dripping noises and he assumed Harry was done.
"Harry child, did you want a bath?" Severus asked quietly.
Nodding into the shoulder that was hiding his shameful face Harry couldn't make himself verbally answer the man. He didn't even care about going back to Diagon Alley, what was the Effing point?
Severus nodded before taking out his wand and cleaning up themselves and the puddle on the floor before making his way upstairs to give his child a bath.
