Wear earplugs at concerts, trust me. Helps block out the echo and excess noise around you and protects your ears.

Yo that new PANIC! Album is sick as shit and Imma take some songs from it, maybe, don't care how poppy they are because they are my sweet new summer tunes! Can't wait to see them soon!

Urg I have so many different things I wanna do with this but I think I'm goin keep it simple ya know break a few hearts end up somewhere happy take forever to update because I am organizing it all far too last minute

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"I don't like him." Stella mumbled as they got ready for their meet and greet before the show. She combed half of her hair into a short pigtail, making sure it was tight enough, before she began the same process on the other side.

"He's not what I thought Hikaru would go for." Isaac said as he waited by the door of the bus, ready to get started.

"Let's give him a chance." Xavier told them but he didn't like Garrett either. He wasn't right for Hikaru. It wasn't as if he was boring or the complete opposite of Hikaru, but he didn't fit well with him. Garrett was one of those guys who tiered himself above others in some cocky manner and overall he was a hipster, a serious hipster. Hikaru had a cocky manner as well and was sort of a hipster, but it didn't mesh well with Garrett. Xavier was biased though.

"You fit with Hikaru better." Stella muttered as she checked her hair and left the bathroom. Xavier let out a sigh and looked to the door, not meeting Vinny or Isaac's eyes. He didn't want to have this conversation before the show, it would cloud his mind and distract him.

"C'mon, we've got fans to meet." He motioned for her to hurry and headed down the stairs.


Hikaru had never been in the pit at a concert before, but it wasn't so bad. The earplugs that he, Garrett, and Maggie had on helped a lot more than he originally thought. He was glad that Vinny had given them to him last night.

Maggie was beside him, gripping at the barrier that they were pressed again. She looked so excited and hyped up while Garrett, who was on Hikaru's other side, looked somewhat bored. He hadn't enjoyed the previous two bands that they were touring with and Hikaru wished Garrett had opted to sit in the stands with the rest of the gang. He felt like Garrett shouldn't be here, which was wrong of him because he was his boyfriend, he loved being around him, but something just felt off. Maybe it was the guilt Hikaru had for not being complete honest with Garrett about his relationship with Xavier?

The lights dimmed and Hikaru's mind dropped the issue as the crowd's screams clouded his whole self. He felt adrenaline pump through his veins with Maggie's screams hitting his protected ears and the sounds of drums cutting through the noise. Hikaru knew the song they were about to play, he knew every one of their songs by heart and he gripped the bars, letting Maggie put her hand over one of his with a tight grip.

"You got two black eyes from loving too hard and a black car that matches your blackest soul. I wouldn't change ya, oh oh. Wouldn't ever try to make you leave, no! The neon coast was your sign and the Midwest wind with Pisces rising. Wouldn't change ya, oh oh. Wouldn't ever try to make you leave, no!"

Hikaru looked up at the stage and saw Xavier there, guitar hanging off of him and the mic in one hand, looking out into the crowd as he sang.

"The black magic of Mulholland Drive, swimming pools under desert skies. Drinking white wine in the blushing light. Just another LA Devotee!"

Everything felt far more intense than it had in the stands months ago and Hikaru didn't care if Garrett wasn't having the time of his life because Hikaru sure as hell was. He screamed along with Maggie as the song ended and the next one begin, ignoring the shoves behind him and focusing on who was in front of him.

"How's everyone doing tonight!?" Xavier shouted into the mic after the second song finished, his eyes sweeping the crowd again. Hikaru felt them stop on him and he wasn't sure if Xavier could see him, but he still smiled and waved at him. His smile grew when he got a wink in return, his heart beating against his ribcage. "First off, we're Lost in Translation! I'm your incredibly talented front man for this concert tonight."

"Okay, you should only open your mouth to sing." Vinny cut in and Hikaru laughed louder than he should have; he caught Xavier's glare in his direction. How did Xavier pick up his laugh so easily? He had to have been glaring at the whole crowd for laughing. "Roll call real quick in case you guys don't know us, which would be awkward but we'll look past it. I'm Vinny, that's Isaac, and cutie on drums is Stella!" Stella slammed the drums and the crowd screamed.

She was obviously the favorite.

"And I'm Xavier, nice to meet you all." Xavier smiled and the crowd screamed louder.

Okay, maybe he was the favorite.

Not that Hikaru was jealous.

"Oh my god, I'm in love with him!" A girl behind him cried. He gripped the bar and ignored Maggie's look she was giving him. How did that girl know she was in love with him? She probably hadn't even met him before!

"We really appreciate you guys coming out and seeing us, truly, it's quite the honor to play for you all." Xavier continued and took a gulp of water from his bottle. "But instead of more chatting, how about we play some songs, yeah?" More screams from the crowd echoed around the stadium and Xavier smiled, look of content clear on his face.

"Let's rock!" Stella cheered and all of Hikaru's worries washed around with the beat of the next song.

His throat hurt a little from all the screaming and he was sweaty from the jumping and dancing, but Hikaru never felt better. Maggie kept bumping hips with him, nowhere close to running out of energy, and Garrett looked to at least be trying to enjoy himself, not that any of Hikaru's attention was on his boyfriend while Xavier was in front of him.

"I'd like to take this time to say thank you to the parents who are here tonight." Xavier said after finishing a few songs.

"We're also like to apologize for our language and content of some of our songs." Stella spoke quickly, sounding as adorable as ever.

"Oh yes, good call on that one, mate. I know most of you don't particular want to be here but we want to thank you for letting your kids come and coming along with them. I know some of you not might not get what your kids see in us, but thank you, again, for letting them come. They all mean the world to us and I'm glad they have such great parents as you guys." He clapped and so did everyone else, throwing in screams and hollers and 'I LOVE YOU MOM'. "Heh, yeah, mate, I feel ya, I love my mum too. I'm sure you all didn't come just to hear me talk about my mum, yeah?"

Hikaru smiled up at him and watched Xavier's eyes sweep over the crowd before they landed on him. "Anyway, how about another song?" He dragged his eyes away and turned to the band, nodding his head.


Hikaru stretched out and yawned, settling onto Garrett's bed. His head was pounding and he really needed to sleep right now. Garrett was beside him, reading some book for class, Hikaru didn't pay attention. He turned around from Garrett and closed his eyes, ready for another fun fill day tomorrow.

"Hikaru, did you used to date Xavier?" Hikaru's eyes shot open and he stared at Garrett's closet door, wondering what to say.

"Hm? Why would you think that?" Seemed like a safe bet. He didn't make a move to turn around, he didn't want to continue this conversation.

"The way he looks at you, it's different than how he looks at everyone else." Garrett muttered and oh no, Hikaru's heart shouldn't be fluttering after hearing this. Why was he getting excited? Why was he smiling?

"I think you're seeing things. Xavier is my best friend; we've been through a lot together you know." He reasoned, trying to calm himself and settle Garrett's worries. "You've had a long day, it's making you crazy. Turn off the light and let's sleep."

"Yeah, I know you two have been through a lot together, can't help wondering how much exactly…" Garrett mumbled the last part, yet Hikaru heard it loud and clear. He couldn't decide if he felt guilty or angry. Guilty because he was lying to Garrett and with how his heart was pounding, he might still have feelings for Xavier. Angry because Garrett wasn't letting this go, wasn't trusting Hikaru. He was constantly reassuring Garrett, not just about Xavier, and he was starting to get tired of the male's jealousy.

They weren't a perfect couple, far from it Hikaru was realizing, but he had been invested in it from the start. Now, however, it was starting to feel like a sinking ship he might have to jump overboard from.

"I'm sorry, you're right." Garrett sighed, surprising Hikaru with the apology. "I don't wanna fight, let's just get to bed."


Xavier leaned back, sighing through his nose. He kept his eyes closed, listening to the city around him. He could hear Stella's chatter in the back of his mind—something about milk—but he wasn't as active in the conversation as Isaac was.

"Uhm, excuse me?" He heard a female beside him question and he opened his eyes, catching sight of the blue sky through his sunglasses, before he sat up straight in his chair and turned to face the stranger.

She didn't look very old, actually, she looked maybe fourteen. An adult stood off the side, smiling encouragingly at the teenager when she glanced back at them before turning again to face Xavier. She was gripping tightly at the bottom of her shirt and her face was red; she looked terrified.

"Hello!" Stella jumped in before Xavier could fully process what was happening. He hadn't slept at all the night before and he probably should've stayed in bed, but he wanted to go out for breakfast with the others.

"H-Hello, I'm sorry for bothering you all….just wondering….picture…" She was mumbling under her breath and he didn't know why, but it always made Xavier chuckle a bit; in a good way. She took a deep breath and nodded her head, encouraging herself. "May I please take a picture with you all? I'm sorry I'm very nervous."

"Much better, dear, could barely hear you before." Xavier spoke up, grinning at her as he turned on the charm. "Of course you can, like we could turn you away." They all got up from their table as the mother hurried over, taking the girl's phone so she could take a picture of them.

"So great to meet you!" Stella hugged the girl, always the one to reach for hugs and help calm them down. "Alrighty now, boys, you better smile!" She pouted at them before turning to the mother, holding the girl's hand tightly. The mom took one picture before motioning for another, which they were used to. You always needed a back up picture. Xavier put his arm around her shoulder the best he could, she was pretty short, and smiled as the mom took the picture.

"Thank you so much." The mother started as she walked over and Vinny reached out to shake her hand, always the most polite with the parents. "She was so scared and I really appreciate you all being so kind, I'm sorry about interrupting your breakfast."

"No worries! Fans should always come talk to us, they're the reason we're here in the first place." Vinny replied as the fan shook her head 'no' to whatever question Isaac had asked.

"I wasn't able to get tickets, but I'm so lucky to have met you guys. You're my favorite band!" She exclaimed, face still red.

"Who needs tickets? Just roll up to 'Will-Call' and we'll get you in." Xavier said, pulling his phone out of his pocket. "Let me send Jackal a text, what's your name?"

"Are you sure?" Her mother asked, ready to decline because parents always did; they didn't want to hassle them.

"Of course, Jackal will be there waiting for you and your mother and whatever friends you want to bring along. Not fair that scalpers get the tickets before fans do, not everyone has the money when tickets go on sale." Xavier told them both and raised his eyebrows at the girl. "So what's the name, first and last, dear?"

Xavier wasn't expecting her to hug him tightly, muffling her name into his shirt. "Heh, lovely name, I'll let him know to escort you and your party to their seats tonight." He said and wrapped one arm around her as he sent off the text. "Hey now, don't go crying, you're much too cute to be crying."

"You're the best! Thank you so much!" She said as she wiped off her face, releasing him from the hug.

"Not a problem, it's the least we can do for you!" Stella told her, smiling at her. "I hope you have a great time at the show tonight, don't forget to tag us when you post that picture, I'll be looking for it."

With that, the two left and Xavier plopped back down, pleased his tea was still warm. He leaned forward and took a sip, feeling much better than when he woke up.

"So, you got any plans with Hikaru today?" Stella asked and he shrugged, not sure. "What do you mean? You two should be spending every second you can together!"

"Yeah, like his boyfriend would like that much." Xavier said and took another sip, not wanting to go down this road with Stella. "I'm getting lunch with Dove later, I'll probably have dinner with Hikaru again like we did last night."

"Who cares what his boyfriend likes? He's a jerk." Stella muttered, smothering her bagel with cream cheese.

"He isn't who I imagined Hikaru with." Isaac piped in, earning a look from Xavier. "I'm not meaning that I imaged you two together, I mean that he isn't exactly Hikaru's type. He's a bit demanding and seems like the type to get jealous easily, plus, he doesn't even like our music, or you."

"Don't think that last one is a deal breaker there, Isaac." Xavier said, watching Stella load up her bagel.

"Oh please, Xavier, it is. If Garrett continues to dislike you after our visit, there's no way Hikaru is going to stay with him. You're his best friend." Vinny told him and Xavier really didn't want to go down this road. Not first thing in the morning after a rough night. Not when he was going to have to see Hikaru tonight with Garrett in tow. "It's not like he's Tiffany. You didn't just break it off and cut off all contact."

"Don't mention her, urg." He hadn't spoken or seen her since he came back to America years ago and he wanted to keep it that way. She was done with, she was nothing. "I know, I know. Can we please not do this? I'm getting a headache."


"How's college treating you?" Xavier asked as Haruhi put down her menu, deciding what to order. They were in some diner of her choosing, sitting in the back booth. She launched into an explanation of one of her current assignments after the waitress took their order, telling Xavier all about it even though he barely understood a word of it. It sounded difficult, but Haruhi could do anything she put her mind to and he wasn't worried.

"I'm surprised you have time to eat lunch with me, I for sure thought Hikaru was going to monopolize you for your entire trip, but I guess he doesn't want Garrett jealous." She said and sipped her drink and Xavier kept his mouth shut, not even sure what to say. "That guy really doesn't like you. Hikaru was so worried about him meeting you. I think he just doesn't like you because his sister obsesses over you, and now he's found out that your Hikaru's best friend. He's jealous."

"Why does everyone say that…" He mumbled, not meaning to say it out loud. He had asked Monique for advice last night before he went to bed and she had texted him the same thing. "There's nothing to be jealous of. I'm not going to take Hikaru from him." No matter how much Xavier wanted to.

"It's how close you guys are. I swore you two were dating back at Ouran with how close you both had gotten." Xavier really needed to be honest with her. Kaoru already knew, and having another person besides Monique and the band—including William—to go to for advice about Hikaru, would be nice.

"Uh…about that, dove—" the waitress interrupted him, bringing them their food, and he was wondering if this was a sign that he should shut the hell up and not say a word.

He was never the greatest at reading signs.

"Hikaru and I weren't just friends." He had no clue how to explain this without sounding like an idiot because boy was he one for getting himself into that mess in the first place. She stopped poking at her French fries and stared at him, big doe eyes looking into his soul as he scrambled to explain everything from start to finish. He bit his lip after he told her everything, terrified of her reaction.

"I can't believe I didn't know. You two were so obvious about everything and I missed it. That explains so much now…especially now with Hikaru." She took a bite of her fry, going over everything in her head. "No wonder he was so worried about you meeting Garrett…and why he wasn't interested in anybody when we first got here."

"All my fault, sorry if he put you through the ringer."

"That explains why he's staying with Garrett." She added and he stopped eating to look at her. "He's trying so hard to make it work to try and convince himself…" She was talking to herself now and Xavier was having trouble hearing her.

"Yo, Dove, what are you rambling on about? What is he trying to convince himself of?"

"That he's not in love with you anymore, but I don't think its working."