Another new beginning
I held her and put her down. I knew she hadn't believed me very much. But okay, I took a little longer than I imagined.
"Didn't I promise I would?"
"Yes..."
"I'm sorry for taking so long, I took the subway and the power went out, I was stuck in there and couldn't call you…"
"It doesn't matter, you're here now..."
I kissed mer. She looked at my stuff.
"You're moving?"
"Yeah... IF you don't mind, I was thinking about staying here for a few days... you know, I'm kinda short of money for a hotel... can I stay over?"
"You can stay as long as you want, you know that."
I knew that, but I had to make sure... but I couldn't postpone it anymore, we had to have that talk...
"Good, since we decided that, I think it's time we talk a little, right?"
I could see her shivering. I took her to the couch, took a deep breath and started talking, I said I had got really mad, I thought I'd never be able to forgive her, that I couldn't believe she had done that to me… she started saying something, but I interrupted her, I still had a lot to say…
I said I had done everything to forget her, of course I didn't tell her the dirty part, but I admitted that after a while I just couldn't stop thinking about her and was mad at myself for that... I also admitted I was afraid she would prefer Andrew over me, that I was very confused and would be an idiot if I forgave her...
When I finished, tears were rolling down her face.
"And what changed your mind?"
I got my backpack and looked for the coaster and the tape. When I showed it to her, she was petrified. Then, started laughing and crying at the same time.
"You were there!"
"Yes."
"But... you took so long, I saw your car in the garage, that's why I texted you… I waited for almost 2 hours, I thought you weren't going…"
I explained I had gone out with Andy with his car, forgot my cell at home and when I went back, I saw smoke coming out of the house and her text…
"You thought I was in there?"
"Of course! I thought you had done something stupid… so I ran there, and saw there was not much fire left in the fireplace, a lot of burned things and the tape and the coaster on the table… I went home, watched it and realized who you really liked, I saw you had learned a lot from that, I recognized the old Anne there and a new and better person. But still, I wasn't ready to forgive you yet… I thought about coming to NY so we could talk, but then Adam got sick…
I stopped talking, Adam's death was still very recent, I didn't like talking about it very much. She held my hands and I relaxed a little with her touch.
"And then I had to postpone everything else... Kelly reapeared... there were your birthday text and present... I almost replied, but I didn't know what to say, so I changed my mind... and then, you went to the funeral, and I was totally confused... I considered having something with Kelly again, but at the same time I couldn't stop thinking about you, I didn't know what to do... and then..."
"Then what?"
I told her Kelly had talked to me, and told me about the conversation she and Anne had had. She turned pale.
"David... I had asked her not to..."
"She said she wasn't supposed to be telling me all of that, but she felt she should, don't be mad at her... she saw the video by accident, my mom wanted to show us an old video on Christmas, but she switched the tapes, so everybody saw it... and then, she figured everything out, why you had told her that... and she decided to tell me everything... I needed some days to think, I talked to Andrew too and realized I had forgiven you, you had changed a lot, and I missed you a lot too... and I admit it, I know I was being week and an idiot for forgiving what you had done, but I couldn't help it... I guess we both already suffered enough, it's time to get things right between us... again."
She started laughing and crying again. Then, she turned serious.
"So, you forgive me?"
Yeah, I really didn't keep my promises... I had said one thing and now I was changing my mind...
"Yes."
But she wasn't satisfied yet.
"And you're not gonna throw in my face what I did in our first discussion?
I'd be a son of a bitch if I did that.
"I promise I won't. This is all in the past."
I thought she'd be relieved, but instead, she started crying. I didn't know what to do. What had I said now?
"What's wrong, Anne?"
She was talking while crying, it was kinda hard to understand.
"I don't deserve you, David!"
Oh my God... I decided to wait, she took a deep breath.
"Dave... I made so many mistakes... so many... I made you suffer so much, I was so selfish, Dave... you deserve someone who only makes you happy, I'm all wrong, I only did you harm, really David, I'm awful... it's better if you find someone else, Kelly maybe..."
I didn't let her finish. I held her shoulders.
"ANNE! STOP IT!"
she looked at me and started crying again.
"Anne... don't be silly... I think I'm mature enough to decide what's good for me or not... ok, what you did was wrong, but I told you, it's in the past now! I'm no saint either, none of us are... and I don't have to find anyone else, forget about Kelly! I love you and it's you I must be with. Now quit it."
She took a few more deep breaths until she calmed down, and then smiled.
"Do you think we can make it this time?"
"We're in New York now... if we can make it here… we'll make it anywhere."
That's what I was betting on...
"I told you, I Love you Sis... what can I do?"
