An- Thanks again to everyone reading and reviewing. I have to admit I was a little nervous about the last chapter and Bella's decision to leave. It was always planned this way and I had always intended to do it. But please don't give up just yet, just give Bella a chance to process everything that has happened to her!

I've also decided to split this chapter in half it kind of took on a life of its own! The second part wil be posted on thursday fingers crossed, enjoy xx

Chapter 48

(Rosalie POV) Realisation

I watched in horror as Edward collapsed on the floor by the door, I knew that he liked Bella a lot but to react in this way was a bit over the top for a friend. I was beginning to think there was more to this. I stood leaning into Emmett as Esme and Carlisle managed to persuade Edward to get up off the floor and took him up stairs.

Sighing I turned around looking quickly at Jaspers reaction before leading the way back into the living room, sinking down onto the couch with Emmett close by he grabbed a hold of my hand before saying

"You ok Babe?"

Smiling up at him I replied "yeah I guess so, I just can't believe Edwards reaction to her going, I mean it was a pretty big possibility that she would want to leave, she has nothing but bad memories here."

"But that doesn't make sense we haven't hurt her at all, and only tried to help her." He said his voice full of confusion.

Before I had a chance to reply Jasper and Alice came into the room, it looked as if Alice had been crying.

"You guys ok?" Jasper asked, what was with that question today.

"Yeah, not bad, I was just trying to explain to Emmett Bella's decision to want to leave." I replied looking at Jasper. Being my twin he would know exactly what I meant.

He stared at me for a long time, at first I thought I'd offended him, our past was not a secret to anyone yet we never openly talked about it much either. Finally Jasper let out a breath before speaking

"It's hard to understand but I kind of get why she did it as well, do you remember the first foster family we were placed with?" He asked looking only at me silently asking my permission if this was ok.

I nodded my head and motioned for him to continue.

"Well we were placed with this couple, they had to be in their forties we were both so terrified of everybody that we didn't know what to do or how to handle their kindness. They were lovely, and incredibly patient with us, but we honestly thought that they were going to hurt us as well, we had no reason not to believe that was true." Jasper told the others.

"But that doesn't explain Bella leaving we have proven to her that were not going to hurt her we…" Alice began to rant but I stopped her midway.

"No Alice wait please don't be hard on Bella, it does explain Bella's reaction, you see our foster parents never once did anything to harm us, but we still couldn't trust them, we had only ever know fear and pain. It's the same for Bella, for the last few years she has only had her father beating her and probably worse, where I had Jasper to lean back on when things were tough, Bella had no one. Even people at school were horrible, she was totally alone. We came along and were slightly nice to her and she couldn't hide from us what was so obviously wrong." I paused taking a deep breath looking over at Alice before continuing "we all helped her escape her father, but in the back of her mind she has been thinking why? Why would we want to help someone as worthless as she sees herself? That to her the only possible explanation was that we wanted to hurt her as well and that eventually we would, so she left before we had the chance." I finally finished, sinking back against the couch leaning my head on Emmett's shoulder.

Everyone was quiet for a while taking in everything I had said, it sounded so complicated but there was nothing easy or simple about the way Bella was feeling. It was a feeling so terrifying and has total hold on you that even now years later I sometimes have that overwhelming urge to run and hide from everyone around me, it was something that I don't think will ever go away. Alice finally spoke

"I think I understand but I don't know what to do next to help Bella, we can't just let her leave and not bother to try and bring her back." Alice stated looking at each of us in turn for ideas.

"Darling, there is little we can do to make Bella come back, she has got to want to come back, when and if she does we just have to be there for her and let her come to us rather than try and force ourselves on her." Jasper replied, kissing the side of Alice's head.

We all lapsed into silence then each lost in their own thoughts, there was no sign of Edward anywhere and as both Carlisle and Esme hadn't come back I assumed they were trying to calm him down. I began thinking about what Alice said perhaps there was more we could be doing, or specifically what I could be doing.

Over the next few hours I began forming a plan but I was going to need help, I had sent Jayne a message a few hours ago but had yet to hear back from her, she must still be with Bella. I wanted to go and talk with Bella tell her about my past and how it felt when me and Jasper entered Foster care, how it was normal to feel this way, but it does get easier and I needed to get her to see that as well. I had to give it a shot, I couldn't just let her go and not try and convince her, because if Esme and Carlisle hadn't done that with me then who knows where I would be right now.

Jumping off the sofa I headed into the kitchen, none of us had eaten again all day and so decided to cook a meal, something simple like homemade Pizza with garlic bread and salad would go down easily and any left overs could be put in the fridge for later or tomorrow. I decided to send Jayne a quick text telling her of my plans and asking if she would help me.

"Emmett get your butt in here" I called, I knew how much he enjoyed making pizza and he could be the one to get his hands dirty.

"What's up?" He asked sprinting into the kitchen looking round for signs of trouble.

Laughing I replied "Chill Em I'm making pizza and I thought you might like to help."

"Cool, sounds good" he said

With that the two of us spent the next hour singing along to the radio and making three large pizza's, just as they were going into the oven, Carlisle came into the room.

"Hey guys what have you been up to, it looks like a small tornado has swept through here." He laughed looking at the piles of flour everywhere.

"Emmett was making pizza I knew it was a mistake asking for his help." I said sticking my tongue out at Emmett.

"Hey you can't blame me for all this you know, you started throwing the flour in the first place." He replied ratting me out just as Esme walked into the kitchen fake gasping at all the mess.

"What have you done with my beautiful kitchen?" she pretended to sob into her hand.

"But mum we made dinner and everything," Emmett tried to beg full of fake remorse before dissolving into laughter Esme and Carlisle following soon after.

I stood their smiling and shaking my head at them all, as Esme and Emmett began clearing up all the mess we had created, I went to help when Carlisle touched my shoulder raising his eyebrows silently asking what I was thinking. I turned and left the kitchen heading into the dining room I didn't want the others overhearing my thoughts until he agreed with my plan.

"Rosalie, what's a matter?" He asked taking a hold of my hand turning me to face him.

It took me a while to look up at him and meet his eyes taking a deep breath I told him what was on my mind. "I want to go and see Bella as soon as possible I want to tell her about my past, about how hard it was to adjust to a new life. I want to tell her about not trusting you and Edward in the beginning and how no matter what I did you never stopped caring and that if she can find one more ounce of strength then it would be worth it as she would have a family for life."

"I think Rosalie that would be a brilliant idea it would show Bella that she is not alone and that we will be there for her, but how would you feel sharing your past?" Carlisle asked showing his concern.

"I think… urm I don't know it would be hard it always is to go back to that time, but I'm doing it to help Bella not myself and I think that's what's important if I remember that then I will be ok." I said hoping I sounded confident in my answer.

"If this is what you want to do then I'm not going to stop you in anyway. You have no idea of how proud I and your mum are of you, you are growing into a mature, thoughtful and most importantly confident young lady." He told me smiling and pulling me into a tight hug.

His words caused tears to fall onto my cheeks and we stayed that way for a couple of minutes, I couldn't believe how scary I thought he used to be, now along with Jasper, Emmett and Edward, they would always protect me and no matter what I knew I would always feel safe. I wanted Bella to feel the same way.

I pulled away when I felt my phone buzz in my pocket, reading the message quickly I smiled realising it was from Jayne.

"It's Jayne, she said that she will pick me up in the morning and take me to see Bella and thought my idea was a good one." I told Carlisle smiling that my plan was forming nicely, and hopefully by this time tomorrow Bella would be back at home where she belonged.

(Edward POV)

Esme and Carlisle had sat with me in my room while I cried like a baby over Bella leaving I couldn't work out why I was acting this way it made no sense to me. Finally after I had managed to get control of my emotions I wiped the last of the wetness off my cheeks and looked up to meet their eyes.

"Edward, you ok?" Esme asked cautiously as she reached out to swipe hair out of my eyes.

"I, I don't know I just…" I tried to form my thoughts but really struggled to turn them into words.

"Edward you really care for Bella don't you." Esme stated kindly trying to help me out.

I nodded my head in response before finally being able to speak "I don't know why I reacted that way I just hate seeing her so broken and afraid of everybody and it feels like it's my fault that she doesn't trust us anymore."

"Why do you think it's your fault?" Carlisle asked.

"Because I made a promise not to leave her at the hospital at all, and then a couple of hours later I left her just like that without even thinking, and look what happened." I finally admitted to what had really been eating at me.

"Oh Edward what happened at the hospital was not your fault, even if you had been there it didn't necessarily mean that you could have prevented Charlie from taking Bella like he did. If you had been there he might have hurt you, just like he did Esme and Bella." Carlisle tried to reason.

"Rather me than either of them." I replied honestly.

"Oh Edward, the need to protect the ones you love can be overwhelming especially at the beginning and you haven't even told Bella how you feel yet. No matter what happens in life you can't protect people all the time, Edward if you try you will drive yourself mad." Carlisle told me.

"So what do I do, I don't know what to do?" I asked honestly wanting nothing more than to go after Bella and make all her pain go away.

"Edward you need to take a step back and have a bit of time for yourself you will see Bella again, whether it is tomorrow or in a week or a month, but Bella is not gone from your life" Esme said standing up to give me a kiss on the cheek.

With that Carlisle and Esme left me in my room. I finally calmed down enough to lie down and relax I was exhausted and my emotional breakdown from earlier was due to every emotion hitting me at once. But I now need to think what next and until I see and talk to Bella again everything is on hold.

AN- I know Edward is being a little over the top in this part but I wanted to get across just how passionate he feels for Bella. After all he's a teenager and doesn't know how to handle his emotions.
The next chapter is the second half to this and we will see Rosalie talking to Bella, Will she decide to come back?

Let me know what you think xx