The Way I Loved You

He can't see the smile I'm faking
And my heart's not breaking
Cause I'm not feeling anything at all
And you were wild and crazy
Just so frustrating intoxicating
Complicated, got away by some mistake and now…

Her relationship with Lincoln is based more on convenience and legacy than real feelings – he's Gordon's protégé, who used to be her mother's protégé, so it's almost like they were destined to be together. And he really is a nice guy – kind, funny, handsome. Not to mention that they are the same – two Inhumans.

On paper, they should work.

And they do.

On the surface.

She can fake being happy with him. It's rather easy, really. She is, after all, comfortable with him. But nothing more. Just comfortable.

Because whenever Lincoln touches her, she remembers Ward's hands on her during training, or when he held her, protecting her from harm. When Lincoln kisses her, she remembers how Ward's lips felt against hers, how hungry he seemed for her love. When she has sex with Lincoln, she can't help but wonder how would it feel to make love to Ward.

Because, despite her best efforts, she just can't love Lincoln. She can be with him; she can pretend to be happy with him; but she can't love him.

Because he doesn't make her heart beat like crazy. Because he doesn't make her whole body tingle. Because he doesn't occupy her thoughts non-stop. Because she doesn't daydream about him, imagining their future together.

Because she is still in love with Grant, and she is afraid this fact will never change.