A/N: I apologize for the delay in all of my stories. I have been writing less frequently but I'm trying to finish this story up so that I can focus on completing the rest. Hopefully "Control" was enough to satisfy some of you in the meantime. This chapter is short but enjoy it because very soon things will be heating up...
Alex wandered into the bedroom, her eyes immediately landing on her detective sitting on top of the covers in a NYPD t-shirt and a pair of sweatpants with a book in hand. She smiled as she wandered over to the dresser and pulled it open. Her hand lingered over her night clothes but she paused as she looked back at Olivia who seemed rather content reading her book.
It had been a week since they spotted Whiteman at the restaurant and video footage had proved that it was in fact him. It seemed as if things were starting to get better but Olivia was always on high alert, especially when she went out anywhere with Alex which was almost all the time. For the most part, she refused to let the blonde out of her sight but neither seemed to mind being around each other twenty-four seven.
Alex bit her lip as she trailed her eyes up Olivia's navy sweats, over her tan hands which were clinging to the book, and to her disheveled brown locks which were hanging in her face since she was looking down. Hesitantly, she slid the drawer shut and took a few steps closer, stopping at the foot of the bed. She stood there for a few seconds before the detective finally peered up from her book, a smile instantly appearing on her face when she caught sight of the ADA.
Taking another step closer, Alex forced her nerves to calm down as she reached for the hem of her shirt and slowly began to pull it up. She watched curiously as Olivia's brown eyes widened, both eyebrows arching up while her gaze stayed steady on the blonde's torso. Once the shirt was off, Alex carelessly tossed it to the side before reaching for the waistline of her jeans. It took her a few tries due to the shakiness of her hands, but she finally managed to unhook the button and unzip them.
"Come here," Olivia whispered as she set her book down on her side table and returned her full attention to the blonde. The ADA bit her lip as she crawled onto the bed as gracefully as she could before settling her knees on either side of the detective's thighs. "You're so beautiful," The brunette whispered as she placed her hands on Alex's hips, sliding them up her bare sides when Alex didn't pull away.
The blonde leaned down, connecting their lips as her eyes fluttered shut. She melted into the kiss, lowering her waist so that she was sitting on the detective's lap. Olivia's hands migrated further north, her fingertips skimming along Alex's bra strap. Without much thought, she unhooked the strap, allowing it to fall off of the blonde's torso.
Alex pulled off her bra, tossing it aside, much like her shirt, all while maintaining their kiss. Once her arms were free of her bra, she threaded her fingers through her favorite brown locks, instinctively pulling Olivia closer to her as she pressed herself up against the detective.
Without any warning, Olivia flipped them over, pinning Alex against the mattress as she towered over her. The blonde gasped in response to the new position, a noticeable warmth spreading between her thighs as the detective kissed her neck, trailing her lips to just underneath her ear and back down to her collarbone.
"Are you okay?" Olivia murmured against warm, pale skin, pausing just long enough to see Alex's head nod furiously in response. "Guide me," Olivia suggested as she kissed across the blonde's collarbone and to the dip in her throat. She sucked there briefly before kissing down Alex's chest as the hands in her hair guided her there.
"That feels good," Alex whispered, her words catching in her throat as she tightened her grip in Olivia's hair, keeping her steady between her breasts.
The brunette glanced up at the blonde as she continued peppering her chest with kisses. She kissed a bit closer to the ADA's left breast, testing the waters before moving closer when Alex made no attempt to stop her. Hesitantly, she pressed a soft kiss against the side of Alex's breast, then another further up. She could feel the blonde's heart pounding underneath her breast, the beats becoming more frequent as she got closer.
"You can tell me to stop," She whispered, her lips just barely brushing up against warm skin.
Alex shivered as she felt Olivia's warm breath flow over her sensitive breast. "I don't want you to." Olivia closed her eyes for a brief second before pressing her lips against Alex's nipple, the bud hardening immediately under her touch. She opened her mouth, welcoming the bud into her warm mouth, gently closing around it as she pressed her tongue up against it. The hands in her hair tightened, twisting her locks as the body beneath her squirmed in response but she didn't care about the slight pull in her roots.
She continued her ministrations, moving her tongue across the hard nipple, teasing it just enough to register. She shifted her body to the side, her right hand sliding across Alex's taut abdomen and down to her jeans. Gently, she stroked the blonde's firm abdomen, her fingertips sliding lower and lower with every swipe until she could feel Alex's underwear from where she had unbuttoned her jeans.
Another pull to her hair led her further down Alex's body, until her lips were just above the blonde's naval. Her left hand settled around the ADA's hip while her right slipped over Alex's underwear and to her thigh, pulling the jeans down as she went. When she had enough room to maneuver, she placed her hand on top of Alex's thigh, her thumb slipping down until it was pressed up against her inner thigh as her left hand pulled her jeans down even further.
In the blink of an eye, strong legs clamped down onto her hand as fingers tugged firmly on her hair, pulling her up. Olivia gasped in pain as she lifted up her head, watching as the blonde shot straight up onto the bed, her entire body tensing up. "Stop," Alex whispered as her torso shook slightly, her hands finally releasing brown locks. She pulled Olivia's hand out from her pants before sliding further up on the bed, her arms wrapping around herself.
"It's okay," Olivia tried to soothe her as she ignored the pain from where Alex had pulled too tightly on her hair. She leaned up as well on the bed, removing herself from on top of the ADA's legs and sitting to the side of her.
"I'm sorry. I can't do this," Alex muttered as she shook her head, a single tear sliding down her cheek.
"Hey, don't worry about it," Olivia whispered as she sat up completely on the bed and leaned up against the headboard next to her. "You don't need to apologize. We don't have to be intimate, sweetie. That was more than enough for me."
"No, I should be able to do this by now," Alex whispered as she finally opened up her eyes and leaned her side against Olivia's. "I'm so sorry."
"It's fine." The detective wrapped her arm around the blonde's shoulder, pulling her body closer. Alex rested her head on Olivia's shoulder and the brunette rested her head on top of the blonde's.
After a few minutes of silence and enough time for Alex to calm down, Olivia spoke up again. "Can you tell me what I did wrong so that I know not to do it again?"
"I—your hand," Alex whispered as she nuzzled her head further against Olivia's shoulder. "When you put your hand between my legs and tried to pull down my pants. That's how he undressed me."
"I'm so sorry," Olivia mumbled as she tightened her grip around the blonde's shoulder, internally cursing herself for triggering a flashback in her lover. "I should've known better. How about next time you're completely in charge of undressing yourself?"
"But I like it when you undress me," Alex whispered just loud enough to hear. "It makes me feel wanted. He never made me feel wanted."
"Oh sweetie," Olivia whispered as she lifted up her head off of Alex's. "You're always wanted. I'll want you as long as I shall live and maybe even after." She pressed a soft kiss on the top of Alex's head, holding her close. "I love you so much which is why I want to make sure that you're okay with everything I do. I'll wait for you, as long as you need."
"Promise?" Alex questioned as she lifted up her head so that she could look at the brunette.
"Always and forever."
