Cathy-
Julian. What a perfect name for such a perfect form. I couldn't beleive I just did that! That was insane! What came over me? It was the music, the dance. He seduced me with the mutual love of the art.
I made my way home slowly. Not only was I exhausted, but I wanted to savor this moment before I had to deal with Christopher. He would know. He is going to take one look at my face and just know the truth.
Why should I feel ashamed? I was young, and free to do whatever I wanted. It wasn't like we professed our love to each other or anything. It was just sex. Great, amazing sex.
Christopher was in my bedroom per usual, reading a medical book. I set myself down and immiedietly went to the bathroom to shower. He got up quickly and stood at the door as I undressed.
"Chris, get out! Let me shower." I scolded, now suddenly ashamed. He was- no. I couldn't think like that. He looked confused and hurt.
"Okay, uh, I'll be out here I guess." He shut the door softly and returned to my bedroom. I felt so guilty throwing him out, but I shouldn't. I argued.
What if I saw Julian again and wanted to pursue something? What if he asked me out on a date? I would like to go yes. He was so - mmm perfect. I thought to myself.
His dark eyes matched his dark curly hair. He was pale like myself, making his features stick out. He had classic roman features that just made him look so gorgeous.
Chris's hard knock on the door brought me out of my day dreams and made me shut the water off.
I wrapped myself up and went to him. He was sitting on the bed with his book closed.
"How was practice?" He asked carefully. I smiled softly. "It was nice. Danced Sleeping Beauty and Swan Lake." I told him, which wasn't a lie.
He held my to measure why I was different I knew. I felt so bad. I loved this man only 5 hours ago. Why should that change just because I danced with someone? I didn't carry Julian's child once, I carried Chris's. Why am I running from him again. Would this always be the case? Would I always be running from the only person who truly loved me?
I climbed into bed with him and snuggled close to quickly fall asleep.
Soon I was moving swiftly through dream land. I was a prima ballerina. Dressed in a beautiful costume I did not recognize. The stage, although dark was easy to dance around. Suddenly the lights were turned on and Julian bound onto the stage in a costume that resembled someone of royalty. I gasped as he took me and seduced me on stage with his dance.
With my arms wrapped tightly around him more lights flipped on and revealed Christopher on the other side watching us. He was also dressed similar. He looked so handsome with his hair parted to the side and combed. He took me away and made me fall in love with him as well.
Julian seeing what Christopher had done rips me out of his arms and tosses me to the side. The unfamiliar music grows louder, more dramatic as the two men pull out long swords and begin a genius dancing swordfight. It was scary seeing the two men fight each other.
Suddenly Julian gets Christopher right in the gut. I gasp when I see blood. Real blood. His wound isn't staged! I stand back up and run to the beautiful man clutching his stomach. I look in horror at Julian who stood over us triumphantly.
Christopher collapsed and I fell to the ground with him. Julian laughed and danced away, continuing the show. Suddenly Chris leaped up with new found energy and, although clutching his side, he picked up his sword and leaped through the air back towards Julian. He caught Julian off guard as he managed to slit him on his upper arm. Julian stumbled but turned around and pulled his own back out to face his opposer.
Once again they were fighting. Both wounds growing larger and redder. I was afraid to stop them. Then, Christopher stabbed Julian right through the chest. Julian fell to the floor unmoving. I began to sob uncontrollably as Christopher stumbled towards me but collapsed himself. I hurried over but he was sweating and paling quickly. He mumbled something but no matter how hard I tried I couldn't hear his last words to me.
I woke up quickly with a fright! Feeling over to see if he was still next to me I cuddled closer to Chris. I don't know what I'd do without him. I closed my eyes again and let his rhythmic breathing lull me to sleep.
