Chapter forty nine. Tend to forget.

Harry pov

I ran into the hospital. ''Giovanna Falcone?'' I asked the girl behind the bar. She looked on her computer. ''yes, we can't tell you her room.'' I sighed. ''okay thanks.'' So far for the surprise. I called tom. He's not answering. Let's try danny. ''yo harry what's up.'' He said with his morning voice. ''I'm in the hospital, in what room is he?'' he was quiet for a moment. ''room 536, you better say sorry.'' I looked at my feet. '' I know, I should have been there for tom.'' ''no, I didn't mean tom, harry think. Who did you hurt the most.'' It felt like my stomach dropped. ''I know.'' I said and hung up the phone before he could say anything else. I ran upstairs since the elevator was taking too long. Up to the fifth floor. Running has always helped me to forget things. Danny was right, I had to make it up with Dougie, but it was his own fault. You don't tell me what to do, if I want to drink, I drink. That is that. I don't need to do anything for him. He made his mistakes, let me make mine.

When I finally came on the fifth floor and found the room I took a deep breath before entering the room. I could only hope for the best. ''harry?'' gi whispered. I smiled, she didn't sound mad at all. ''tom, wake up.'' She said pushing tom a bit. He opened his eyes. ''glad you came to reason.'' Was the first thing he said to me. ''I'm sorry.'' He smiled and got up. ''don't worry I'm not mad.'' He said hugging me. ''thanks, where is she?'' I asked smiling. ''over there.'' Gi pointed to the corner of the room. I walked over there with tom following me. ''I'm not the one you wanted to say sorry to am I.'' I smiled and shook my head. ''I've been a dick, but so has he.'' tom held his hand on my back. ''he wasn't trying to be, he just wanted to protect you, thats all.'' I pulled up my shoulders and looked into the crib. ''wow she is amazing.'' I said carefully picking her up. ''don't worry she won't break, not even with you. Muscle man.'' I laughed. ''her name is Sharon right?'' I asked. ''you know me too well mate.'' He said and turned around again to go to Gi.

Dougie pov.

I opened my eyes. ''good morning.'' A cheerful deli said. ''good morning, did we really sleep on the couch?'' I asked rubbing the sleep out of my eyes. ''yes we have.'' She said smiling. ''dady!'' danny said wiggling to me. I smiled and cached him before he could fall. ''good morning mate.'' I hugged him in mid air and let him sit on my arm while I was walking to deli. Hugging her I could see that she made the table. ''looks good.'' I said smiling. ''is that the only thing you can think about?'' she asked. I laughed and said. ''you should know me by now.'' ''yes I do and that's why I made it.'' I kissed her again and set danny in his chair just by the time I wanted to put some foot in my mouth harry called.

''pick up Dougie, just listen.'' Deli said when she saw that I wasn't planning on picking up. I sighed and picked up the phone. ''can we talk.'' He asked. ''well we both got voices so I guess so.'' I said sarcastically. ''I'm sorry okay?'' I sighed. ''sorry? Is that all you've got for me? you promised me that you wouldn't be drinking again.'' He was quiet for a moment. ''whatever, there is no talking to you.'' I made my hands in a fist. ''no talking to me? mate listen up-'' he hung up on me. ''that what you get when you listen to him.'' I said angry to deli. She ignored it knowing that I didn't mean it.

I sighed and didn't feel like eating anymore. ''I'm going to cool down.'' I said getting up and putting on my jacket. ''don't do anything stupid.'' She said when I came back to give her a kiss on her jaw. ''don't worry.'' I said leaving. The cold has always done me good. It helped me think. Something I could use. I found a seat in the park, everything was still covert in frog like any beautiful morning. I remember coming up here after Frankie broke up with me. I could still remember all the pains I felt back then. Its weird how we tend to forget all the good things while all the bad things stay as clear as they can be. I sat down on a bank and just closed my eyes and listed to all the things around me. the cars, birds, people talking, dogs barking. Somehow all those annoying sounds calm me down. My mind rushed from Frankie to harry. What has gotten into him? I know how bad it is to know that your girlfriend cheated on you, but that was no reason to treat me like that. I didn't do anything. I sighed and lit up a cigarette, I promised myself I wouldn't do that anymore. I hate you Judd.

''smoking again are we?'' Jazzie said. I turned surprised around. ''I thought you were in new York?'' I said hugging her. ''not anymore, deli said you were cooling off so I figured you'd be here.'' I smiled at her. ''you know me too well sis, too well.'' She pulled up her shoulders. ''I am your sister, but tell me what's wrong?'' I looked at my shoes and told her the whole story. I can't believe Judd has gotten me smoking and crying at the same time.