A/N: This chapter really shows the pain that Lacey is in, she actually lets it known and opens up a little bit more in it. Bit of a WARNING it is another emotional chapter.
"Hey" Justin said moving with his player on the screen
"Heath will you take over for me?" he asked not looking away from the screen
"Sure" Heath said standing up and they quickly changed players and Justin got up
"I'm going to go wake her up and see if she's hungry" he said leaving to the room and going inside finding her still asleep
He smiled and he walked closer to the bed and turned on the light hoping it would stir her awake but it didn't. He put his hand on her upper back and rubbed but that didn't even wake her up. This made Justin nervous that she wouldn't wake up very easy like she usually does.
"Lacey?" He said shaking her awake
"mmm" she slowly opened her eyes and looking at him
"You okay baby?" he asked
"Yeah why?" she asked
"You wouldn't wake up easy like you usually do" he said
"I was sleeping good" she said
"Oh, ahh man and I had to go and wake you up too" he frowned
"Its okay" she said
"I want to check and see if you are still bleeding or not"
"Okay" she said moving the blankets off her
Justin guided them the rest of the way off her and looked at her stomach and smiled then leaned down and kissed the tiny bump.
"Hey sweetheart, daddy loves you. I do! And you know what, when you get here I am going to spoil you rotten" he smiled then kissed once again "I'm just going to check mommy I'm not going to hurt her" he said leaning back up and pushing her shorts up a little
She smiled watching him as he slowly began to remove the ace bandage from her leg
"Does it hurt?" he asked
"No" she smiled
"Okay" he said slowly pulling the large band aide off and checking it
"I think its done but I am going to put a new bandage on it" he said going to his bag and getting another bandage with some antibiotic cream and placed it over the cut again then threw the old stuff in the trash beside the ace bandage he just tossed that into his bag.
"Are you hungry?" he asked
"Baby" she laughed "I'm always hungry" she smiled looking at him
He smirked "So what do you feel like eating?" he asked
"I am totally craving Subway" she said
"Yeah? Subway it is then" he said
She giggled lightly
"God you're so cute"
She smiled at him.
"Come on" he said putting his hand out to her
She took his hand and raised up slowly and cringed
"hurt?" he asked
"a little" she whispered
"Want me to just order you something and bring it in to you?" he asked
"No I need to get up I slept too long" she said
Justin nodded but wasn't sure if he really wanted her to get up out of bed but he couldn't make her stay if she didn't want to. She slowly moved her legs to the side of the bed and stood up slowly and whined lightly.
"What hurts?" he asked
"My back, I must have slept wrong or something" she said
"You didn't look like you moved at all since when I left you" he pointed out
She looked at him searching for what he was trying to say to her.
"Want me to give you a back rub?" he asked
"That would be amazing" she smiled forgetting about what he said
"Okay" he said sitting against the headboard of the bed and moved his legs spreading them out
"Come here" he smiled
She smiled and slowly sat back on the bed and scooted herself backward toward him till he was in reach of her and he began to massage her back and even reached up to massage her shoulders as well. He smiled to himself and reached forward to her stomach and rubbed in circles and she smiled then giggled and moved herself back more into him and laid against his chest which gave him a more comfortable position to rub her stomach.
"I love you" he said
"I love you too" she smiled
He smiled and continued rubbing her stomach and began to kiss on her neck then stopped himself from making it lead any further, he knew she wasn't feeling well and sex would just probably aggravate it all.
"I should go order the food" he smiled
"Yeah" she whispered then began to move from him again and sat on the edge of the bed as he stood up and looked at her
"You going to stay in here?" he asked
"I'm going to the bathroom and change, at least put some pants on instead of shorts" she said
"Okay" he said kissing her ontop of her head then leaving the room
"Guys want Subway?" Justin asked
"Sounds good to me" Wade said as they continued their game and ended up winning
"Ahhh!" Heath said looking at Wade "You cheated!" he said laughing
"I do no cheat, I simply strategize and use the smart tool to get what I want" he smirked
"Yeah in other words you CHEAT" he laughed
"Okay you're right I cheat" Wade said laughing as he stood up and setting his controller on the table as did Heath
Wade walked to Justin as began a list of things needing to order as Heath put up the game and joined them. Lacey joined them a few moments later and they finalized the list of things they were going to get.
"I'll go get it" Heath said
"I'll go with you" Wade said
"Okay" Heath said grabbing the keys and the list and they both left
She sat down on a chair at the table and Justin looked at her and smiled and ran his hands through her hair then stopped and sat down next to her and laid his elbow on the table and laid his head on his hand and just stared at her smiling with loving eyes. She looked at him and smiled.
"You're so beautiful" he said causing her to blush
"What?" he laughed "I'm being serious" he smiled
"I love you" she said moving to him and putting her arms around him in a hug
"I love you too love" he said hugging her
He pulled from her and looked at her stomach then at her then leaned over and placed his ear against her stomach where the bump was and was just trying to hear anything. When he didn't he just moved his face to her stomach and kissed it then laid his forehead against her stomach and smiled
"My baby" he whispered
Her heart broke and she couldn't stand it any longer she just had to know the answer to what she was thinking,
"Do you think something is wrong with the baby?" she asked tearing up
He raised his head up from her stomach and looked up at her as she slowly sat down on the chair and he hesitated to answer.
"Uh we-...w-...what makes you ask that?" he asked finally able to speak or form his words
"Because something you said earlier... and I think there is" she said looking at her lap
"Why do you think that?" he asked feeling his heart drop again
"You feeling those stomach pains again?" he asked
"No, but because I feel them and sometimes feel them bad I'm scared, something just doesn't feel right" she said as she began to cry
"no baby, please don't say that" he begged moving from the chair to his knees putting his arms around her and laying his head against her stomach again
"Everytime I get around Heath it seems like I start having pains but its not Heaths fault, I dunno why it happens" she frowned
"Because he stresses you out" he said looking at her "we can end that and you wont have to see him again"
"But baby I don't want to not see him again" she said through her tears
"You don't understand I love him still. I don't know why but I do. I mean he was one of my best friends, he was my friend for 6 years. He meant so much to me...he still does. I dunno!" she said putting her hands through her hair and tightening her grip on her hair
"Baby, please you're stressing yourself its not good for the baby" he said rubbing her stomach
"I know! Nothing I do is good for the baby" she said taking her hands off her hair
"You're doing fine sweetheart" he said
"I dunno I get them when he isn't around too though" she said
"But you're thinking about what happened though" he said
"Maybe" she said "I just feel like I betrayed you, I just cant understand how you can still love me like you do" she added
"Because I do love you honey, you did nothing wrong. You didn't ask for that to happen. I loved you the second we met and I knew that moment I would marry you. Nothing was going to change that not even this" he said beginning to sense another breakdown from her
"But maybe if I had changed or something before I came into the locker room that first time he wouldn't have ever touched me. Maybe my clothes were too revealing and that was what caused him to do what he did" she said
"Stop blaming yourself baby, Heath had a moment where he wasn't himself you cant blame what you were wearing or what you did. You weren't the one in the wrong" he said
"I should have fought harder to get him off! I should have told you that night but I lied to you! I lied to you and I never wanted to ever lie to you, and now I did and I keep doing it by keeping things from you like an idiot" she said
"You can tell me anything" he said
"I know that, and I knew that but I was scared. He told me not to tell anyone. The tone of his voice scared me" she said
"I know babe, calm down please its over now" he said
"No because now I am left with hating myself" she whispered "I HATE MYSELF!" she shouted standing up and running her hands through her hair again
"baby please calm down" he said fearing her stress level was way too high right now as he stood up too
She turned around to the chair she stood up from and put her arms down and stared at the chair then after a few seconds she kicked the chair hard into the wall and shoved everything that was on the table onto the floor then began kicking at the chair again as she broke down into hard sobs
"Lacey!" Justin shouted as he tried to grab her but she moved from him walking to the wall and she laid her head against it and cried
"Oh God" he whispered
She slapped the wall hard once and kept her hand there and cried after a moment she clenched her fist and began beating on the wall.
"Lacey stop!" he said grabbing a hold of her but she pulled herself away from him and tried walking from him
"Baby please stop" he said calmly grabbing onto her again and she began to fall but he held onto her and turned her body around and laid her on the floor and she once again tried to fight him
"Lacey! Please calm down! Please baby? The baby needs you to calm down" he begged as his heart beat even harder as he grabbed her arms and put his body ontop of hers but no where near where it could hurt the baby or her and he looked down at her as he held her down. Of course he knew that was probably the worse thing he could possibly do but at the time he didn't know what to do to stop her from moving. He didn't want her to get hurt, she almost just fell right then he couldn't let her go off and slip and fall without him being able to catch her in time.
"Please baby" he whispered as gave up and the room filled with sobs
He began to tear up and he let go of her arms and slowly leaned down and moved one hand to her head and rubbed slowly
"Its okay, you shouldn't hate yourself baby. You did nothing wrong, you're beautiful and everything about you is perfect" he whispered into her ear
Wade and Heath walked in with the sandwiches and saw them on the floor hearing her sobbing and the chair knocked over and everything that was on the table was on the floor. Justin looked up at them with his eyes then raised up and pulled her weak body into his arms holding her into his chest kissing her on the head and began to cry with her then he moved his face into her neck. He couldn't help himself, he hated hearing her cry and this breakdown she had scared him so much he just couldn't hold it back. He was really feeling bad for her he knew she was hurting but she hadn't ever broke down this hard before. Not only was she scared for the baby but she was hurting from the rape still and she just wouldn't talk to him or anyone else about it. Justin knew though now that he had to make her open up more about it, she cant just keep all this locked away she had to talk to him.
